Snoozing and losing?

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I meant to be to the hospital yesterday.  Barring that, today.  Both days even.  Not possible.

You may not know, but I have a bad feeling about hospitals.  For more reasons than I could easily pen.  Stress levels are teetering on the high end.

As well, fall fell hard.  It's in the mid to low seventies, as well as being overcast often enough.  Further, shorter days as well.  It's all hitting me hard.  Toss in the worry about mother, and some guilt at not reaching her in time.

Yes, I sensed a problem and was headed to her.  As was the trainer.  Neither of us were fast enough.  I still feel what I saw, I really do have serious empathy.  Tomorrow, if it kills me.

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My brother and mom called.  I was hoping they would.  Watching a few episodes of a show.  Thought my phone was down here.  Nope.  When I went to view it, to see if anyone had called, I realized my error.  Both had called, but I missed the calls with the phone upstairs.  It was nearly dead, had been charging it.  *sigh*  It really did need to charge.  Will have to figure out how to charge it down here.

Doing my best, which isn't good.  Working on it.  It's all I can do.  And I'll keep trying.  Was pleased to hear mom's voice.  Encouraging.  And it was good to hear from my brother.  Encouraging on a whole other front.

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Blood sugar has been pleasantly low.  The ninety day average is to 132?  The week average is around 104.  Very good.  Dailies have been between 88 and 90 this last week, mostly.  Crazy.  Crazy good.  

I finally ordered miso soup makings.  Fresh.  That arrived today.  I made it as it should be made.  And, actually, if a bit odd?  It really isn't too bad.  Or, to me, these days.  Give it a whirl.  You might just be surprised.  Will have to see what could be added to make it more... full?  Meat(s), veggies, fish (fish isn't... quite meat?).

Later.  Or more likely good night.