I wonder and sometimes worry. Herein lie those ponderings with perhaps some editing but still in their truer forms. Whisper as well, though in truth, whispers are just that, rustlings in the wind and nothing more. It is kind to not be alone with one's own whispers.
Friday, May 28, 2021
Problems?
Sunday, May 16, 2021
We... well... That is strange.
Friday, May 7, 2021
Not bad.
Tuesday, April 20, 2021
A new cool tool?
Friday, February 12, 2021
Tools? Toys?
Wednesday, December 2, 2020
In, mostly.
Tuesday, December 1, 2020
So tired.
Tuesday, November 24, 2020
Not doing well.
Saturday, November 21, 2020
A very good sleep and wake.
Friday, November 20, 2020
A good start.
Thursday, November 19, 2020
Very odd.
Saturday, November 7, 2020
As much as was possible in an hour and change.
Up, and... going?
Friday, November 6, 2020
A start!
Saturday, October 31, 2020
So very late to bed.
Friday, October 30, 2020
Just because I am broken...
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Down. Hurt. Crippled up. Tired. Cramping. Exhausted and used up. It doesn't mean I quit.
I am limping. But got to the dishes. I reset what has been washed to a fresh rinse, and set up another load to be washed. I took laundry back, and... hopefully, tomorrow, will start another load. Maybe two, since they will be smaller. Ducks went in, or were closed up anyway. The girls were given snacks, and will be fed again.
I will try to stay awake until 22:00 to 23:00. Just... to keep some balance. I will set up clothes to be brought down for wash tomorrow. I will set the alarm for 08:00 and 10:00. Hopefully, setting laundry up tomorrow. Oh, I hope to finish the dishes that are rinsing tonight, give the dirty dishes a first wash and set them out... so I can shower again, first thing. Showers help. Then set those dishes back up.
Shopping, early, tomorrow. More wood, a few more hardware pieces, and a few more candy bars. I do enjoy the younglings, and their parents. I usually offer parents candy too. I don't get so many visitors that I can't gift the adults while at it. Trying to herd cats... children... they need the energy! All good. But, as mentioned, full sized bars. It's pricey, but such is life.
Yea, I am limping, moving like a vehicle with a twisted frame, sprung springs, and a nearly flat tire or two. It sounds a bit rough, too. Five of eight cylinders, at best, usually. Exhaust is even off. I've done what I can for now. Will, keep trying little things, and... hoping. Tomorrow, if not today, yesterday, or the day after. The work will always be there. And, in time, it is hoped, that I will be there for the work as well.
Good day, evening, and night.
Oh... just some notions. Peace. We get it, for a while, then live without it for a while. When peace is in season, learn more. When there are difficulties? Learn even more. Amen.
No, so much for that.
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I did what I could, for as long as I could. No more, for a while. I... Cramping, exhausted, sleepy, sore everywhere, bruised, and battered... I finished with what I did this morning, and that is that for a while.
If she must, she will have to just keep the rabbits, or give me more time. I can't get the cages done. Too many mistakes, problems, miscalculations, work, and else for me to do. I was still, really, recovering from bungling on the roof. Still, I thought it was possible. Old, ill, crippled, and wounded, really, was just too much for the work at hand.
In the future? Maybe. But because of what I have learned. But this time I am in the middle of it and there isn't a way to restore and go back at it. I am spent and so far down that I simply can't get up. I tried a nap. I am feeling worse, bodily, after it. Rested, a bit, but with nothing left over. Brutal. I am done for several days. I can get back to it next week, but after a few days down.
I had hoped, if I couldn't work, to at least be able to get to town to buy more wood. I need it for the little cages anyway. Plus need to get a few other things. I am not able to get to town. I did get a shower, but that was that. I am so sprung, everywhere... my elbows and knees feel like they have their 'funny bones' sprung, and solidly. Grip strength is minimal. Joints all hurt. Muscles are used up. Bones from the lower back through the ribs, up to my shoulders and skull are all hollering. Done, for a while. Oh, and a solid pounding headache to add to it.
Clean though. I may risk aspirin. I still have my pillows wrapped in towels which can cover for blood, in case I have a major bleed from it again. Still having bloody noses once or twice a day, but just little ones, and not at night. I haven't even had time or energy to play games for... a while now. Not a great loss, just... a strong indication of having gone over my limits.
All good. I'll do what I can. I will still get to her place tomorrow, and talk to her personally. I'll take my licks, as needed. I... understand. I'll get our accounts paid up, and offer more for food. And I'll explain I am way over my head on this project. I thought it would be easier. And I am still in recovery from some serious taxation and spills. If she... wants to call the deal off, fair enough. If she wishes to give me a couple more weeks, cool. If, sometimes, women just need to be heard. If she's right, just... hand over your ear. We will see. *wink*
Later.
Well? Problems.
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Too high, too long. I... measured well, I simply didn't figure correctly. Beside how out of trim the outbuilding is, I measured each piece as if it was the... outer section? Yes. Something like that. Which means I have to cut, trim, refit, and try it again. The base is in. For one of them. And, that is solid and good. Oh, and the height? Too much, for a top entry, and even close to the floor.
Which means, shortly, I have to get out and tear and rebuild. I was thinking more new wood would be needed, but not so. I don't think. I do have to find a metal blade for one of the reciprocating saws... sawsall... Cutting the nails, then using the angle grinder to cut the cage material. About four inches off the length, and height... of the shorter cage sides. More off the larger, of course.
Still, with the base in, life is... beginning. I still have another base to put in, but that shouldn't be as difficult. Mostly. So tired though.
I didn't end up finishing all of the dishes. I did get a bit more done, but... couldn't push through. I realized, at about 01:30, that if I stayed up to finish the dishes, I would not get to sleep until four or five. Moving too slow. So, I just... called it a night. I don't have much to do. I will reset them to a rinse as I go out to work next time.
Muscles hurt, tired, exhausted, but staying warmer. I'll have a bite shortly. I tried one of the sausage patties cold. Not... so much. I'll heat the last two and have them with tea. Then a bit more rest. I can't work too hard or too fast or too frequently, but I can... probably... get the two cages today? Maybe. If so, I have tomorrow, early, to put in the last parts... perhaps the upper platform, and separation plates. Ugh.
I really wanted to just get fresh wood. But... that would take even more time, a lot more energy, and more money. So... yeah. Things I am either low on, nearly out of, or pushing one way or another. Assuming I can find a metal cutting blade... have to cut the nails. On to breakfast. Later.
Thursday, October 29, 2020
Yep.
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Two more tops, and a bit more shoveling. That doesn't sound like much. Wrestling the 4' x 8', then the 36" x 39" cuts, with just two sawhorses, and two hands... And that is heavy. But, done. Shoveling is a very difficult task for me already, add on the mask and it it quite the challenge. I can only do bits at a time. But a bit more was done.
Lungs are a bit weary, body is worn, but I'm not sleepy... now. Too hot. Oh, dishes? Maybe. I won't swear to it, but I am thinking on it. I'd like a shower before going to bed. I am hungry too. I noticed a package of pork sausage, just plain, ground, in the reefer. I... don't know when I thawed that. I'd like to see if it is still good. If so, fire up the grill and make a few patties. Nothing fancy, but it's... food. Hot food. Meaty, hot, good, food.
Not a bad day. Not a great day, except that it's the second day running and I am still doing something.
Tomorrow? More wood, more work. Perhaps a few more hinges, and a few latches. No brackets needed, for the second floor in the hutches... using remnants. I have enough 2x4s. I'd like to get more, and several sheets of plywood, but not this month. I'll have to order a few loads through the winter. That stuff is handy. And I go through it like nothing, on even smaller projects.
The only things I still might look for are timothy hay feeders. Or, I might just use a few remnants, create a wooden device with some old rope, and... see how that works. Never can tell. It would be cheap, easy, probably. Oh, I do have a jigsaw... that would open holes well enough for a rabbit to get at the hay. Yea, maybe. I'm telling you, money, money, money. The hope is that it will pay. Mostly.
Later, or good night.
Well, I did get going.
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Late. Always my hour, one way or the other. I forgot, I had a bunch of stapling on the front piece crafted today. I put dishes in, first, then went out and realized that was left to do. I did that. This is not fast work, no matter how fast you try to go. Still, that is done. Then, to try to get the wood out from behind steel roofing and an half inch sheet of plywood.
No room to slide it past either end. And, as it turned out, with the plywood in the way, as my garage was crafted, no way to bring it out and over. So I had to move the plywood. First shot at bringing it out, I got a powerful nutshot. Usually, or once, those didn't bother me. Then again, I didn't drop and give up emesis. I didn't even drop. I almost let it all crash down on me, but regained my... if uncomfortable... composure just in time to catch it all... then shift it back to safe.
I took a very slight breather, then back at it. I then got two panels out and... had to figure out where... to put everything. Juggling three 4' x 8' panels, of some weight, was a bit of a trick. Still, got it done. Then, to get one up on the sawhorses? Yea, that was a trick too. That was a lot harder than I thought. I thought the cutting was going to be horrible, but it ended up being the easier of the work. Not easy, just easier than all those in-between steps I didn't... I knew getting them out would be difficult. But some other things were far trickier and difficult than anticipated.
I do have one set of lids cut and ready. I was... done for that for a bit. I decided to go out, see what could be done in the outbuilding. Actually, a lot. None of the construction, but I got triple the poo out from last time, and scraped some more of the floor. Much, much closer, if... the stuck hay is going to be a heck of a job. Bit by bit, I guess. Oh, and the mast was wonderful. I cleared one whole section, under where one of the cages will go. The other one will... take time.
Shot, though, for now. I put the ducks in a bit early tonight. I hope to do the last pair of tops yet tonight, and maybe a bit more work on the floor. I won't get to the shelving. Probably. Though... maybe? I am hoping to hit the dishes, rinse, then maybe get to them, or some of them, yet tonight. So tired. Now too hot. That will change.
The bloody nose continues, but just one... the same... nostril. Actually the usual one, the left. I need to brew tea while resting as well. One or two more work sessions and that will be it, if that is possible. I'm getting there. It is moving forward. I expect the first cage in tomorrow, early. Then picking up more supplies and putting in the other by evening. The two smaller cages can probably be completed in the garage, as I mentioned, and carried out. And installation should be much easier. Later.