Never sure who asks.

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I do know the question.

Already 15:00?

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Cooler, today.  Just to 78 upstairs, 76 in this front room, and 74 in the main of the house.  Believe it or else, these temps have me feeling on the cool side?  Aye.  Wonderfully cool.  My food seems to be... sitting well with temperature tolerance.  Oh, there for a day or two, as it hit it's recent highs, my brass dongles were sweating.  No doubt.  I really thought about putting the ac in where needed, and on.  And, maybe that will yet happen before long.  But not today.

Why resist?  Well... because it is expensive.  And, I'd like to outlast heat as long as possible.  Oh, it'll get hot enough for it, soon.  The longer I can live without it, the better.  I resist the furnace, in the winter, too.  Though, with the winter, freezing pipes are enough of a threat to limit my resistance.

Sort of rough.

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Trying to figure out sleep, cooling, food, and else.  I have upped the amount of cream I use a day, adjusting the amount of cream I use in coffee.  As well, having a second coffee.  The idea was two cups, but that is... a bit much.  So aiming closer to 3/4 of a cup per coffee.  Though I may begin trying it with tea.  I love fatted coffee, but two a day gets old quickly.  I'll try it with both actual teas, herbal/florals, and mixes of those.

Next I need to begin adding more food.  Eggs will be the easiest.  I really like runny yolks, but without anything to sop it up, I'm going to begin cooking the yolk to mostly solid.  While that isn't my favorite, it really isn't too awful.  I also have two cartons aging.  To be boiled.  I have found that, with eggs, aging them a few weeks makes peeling vastly easier.  I pretty much destroyed the last batch, when I tried to rush them through, right fresh.  Not this time.

Wound care.

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Being Friday, if I had meant to do it yesterday, I took off the main, better, dressing.  For now I just have gauze, regular ointment, a larger bordered dressing, and that covered by a shower dressing cover.  Well, and short compression socks on.  The idea is to get a shower in before long, then replace this temporary gig with the better wound dressing, adding the collagen matting and solution.

I can see the improvement.  It's a combination of things.  The matting and solution is being completely absorbed by my body.  When I first put it in, it's like a really thick.... dense I should say... gauze type material.  Wetted with the solution to give it a headstart.  When I change the dressing, now, there is nothing left.  My body is using that to create new flesh?  There isn't even anything to wash out!  It's just all gone.

Up, if a bit late.

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Warm.  Not sure outside?  Ouch, 89, and it's just 13:09.  It's... going to be a warm one.  Though it will start drying out.

I didn't wake up until about noon.  My mother called.  The phone I sent her?  Is far inferior to the phone she had before she switched over.  She bought an, probably, apple 13?  Before she had to give up her money, and couldn't afford the plan she was on.  And the .gov plan couldn't use her phone.

Okay?

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Doc called.  Said everything is... looking better.  Well, other than the one thing.  They only do surgery for that if it gets (some measure) to a "5"?  I'm "4.8"!  :)  Besides, I wouldn't go for surgery.  They... have to know that about me by now?  They... will learn, if it comes to that.  I've... lived... too long?  I won't poke the bear the more, if I won't just quit, either.

Do people get it?  I... really shouldn't be here.  Not... even, or just, for my sins.  My body should have failed so very long ago.

There is a hole in me.

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Losing ninety pounds, more like 80 now, but even so...  Losing that much weight that fast?  My midsection looks... funky.  Compression, I have heard.  I am trying... things.  With varying levels of success.  Being 6'5" puts me out on the edges of things.  Even being down to ~235 puts me on another edge of things.  Combined?

I am trying wrestling onesies.  Just to... keep it all together, tight, compressed.  When I go up for a nap, I'll try it on.  As well, I bought a jock strap with cup.  Compression is good, but crushing some units is no fun.  Live and learn.  Lived I have.  Learned I have.  I just wish I didn't have to learn so slowly, painfully.

Up, going, at it.

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A shower first thing.  Not much sleep, but I am awake, in the morning.  The alarms were set for five and seven.  I really pushed for a five wakeup, or within the snooze zone of that first alarm.  Not a chance.  Even at the seven alarm, it took four snoozes before I was finally out of bed.  Though, given the givens, that really was pretty good.

Coffee going down.  Oh, almost forgot the cod liver oil.  It's... not as bad as it sounds.  I do have the lemon flavored one.  Which can help you get over that initial bump.  At this point I could probably do without.  And, if not the next order, sometime soon I plan to go plain, just to remove one more "thing" from my foods/supplements.  Medicine went in right away.  All good.

So very strange.

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As I sit, read, listen, and sort life... thinking this or that, about those and these things, I decided to check the thermometer.

I am wearing a thick plaid double flannel shirt jacket, with my winter weight pj bottoms, over compression socks and of course unders.  I stopped going commando, though... might begin doin that from time to time?  Who knows.  Anyway. and with summer weight sandals.

Protein.

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I keep thinking about how to get more protein in.  So... I went looking, again.  For general and alternate ideas.  Even if, possibly, adding some carbs?  But... is there a way without adding carbs?  That is the... holy grail of protein, for a carnivore, or even a keto dieter to some lessor degree.  So... a few vids for you.

These first two?  Possibilities.  If some just... no.  You'll... know which are a no.  Carnivore isn't just a diet, food plan, or what is suggested for food.  It is... a way of life.  It is the order God set for men.  Who is where in the pecking order, and why things work certain ways.  It's... a holy writ, as far as I understand things.  Perhaps not codified, but in those days, it wasn't necessary to suggest it.  I think even God had more faith in man's common and uncommon sense than... perhaps He should have.

Up a bit earlier.

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The weather, and temps, are leveling, increasing.  With the fans going, it was 75 upstairs and 72 down here first thing.  I had alarms set at both nine and eleven again.  I struggled through the nine alarm.  Turning it off at about 09:30?  Or so.  I thought I was awake.  I ended up not getting out of bed until... 09:56 or 58?  Something around that time.

Which is fine.  I didn't get to bed until 0:05 (or so).  And, with the heat, and having gotten out, plus some work the last few days, that's pretty good.  Even so, I'm going to attempt pushing the day back into earlier morning.  Maybe getting to bed by 22:30, and setting the alarms for 07:00 and 09:00 tomorrow... hoping to be up between seven and eight?  Or so.  It's possible.

Didn't get to bed.

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Looking over this, reading that, listening to these songs.  Then, decided more food would be good, so heated one of the burritos in the oven.

Oh, but it's time.  Even though I didn't sleep, I almost hurt for sleep.  Exhausted in a way I don't understand.  Still... okay.  I'm not sure I enjoyed the afternoon, evening now.  I've just sort of drifted through it.  But it is about time to sleep.

Oh, I don't know.

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Absolutely crashing.  So very tired.  It's about bedtime.

I did put on cooler clothes.  Which really is comfortable.  Getting the heavier socks and boots off, alone, made life a lot more comfortable.  It reads 78 up here, in the front room.  Strangely, I am comfortable as can be.  Considering it was in the low 70s days ago, as the highs for the year, I am handling the heating up of the world very well.

Almost late.

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Wound clinic appointment today.  Early afternoon.  Almost didn't make it.  I had the first alarm set for nine, the second for eleven.  I didn't get to bed until 05:30.  So... yea, waking was difficult.  I almost... no... I did out sleep the alarm, and the snoozes.  The last one is fifty after the given hour.  I just barely rolled out at three to noon.  Thankfully I didn't miss it.

I had to shower, shave, brush my teeth, and dress.  Couldn't feed Sassy, just no time by the time I realized the problem.  She survived.

Good!

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I couldn't eat it all.  Though I had more "bread", and milk as well.  I ended up drinking about seven cups, of whole raw milk.  Which... added 56 grams of both fat and protein, if too, 84 grams of carbs.  Bleh.  Well, and 1,050 calories.  So... yes.  I made it over some of the lines, if not all the good ones.  Actually?  I didn't make it over any of the good lines, save calories.  I got closer, with fats and proteins, but splurged so far over carbs it isn't funny.

I feel like... a bloated warthog.  Thankfully, not being a prince, it doesn't bother me all that much... other than the general discomfort that goes with it.  :p

Not bad?

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I wasn't moving fast enough to hold the laundry until after a shower.  So, before digging in to start on the dishes, I set a load drying.  Then did the dishes I had prepared last night.

After washing those, a first go anyway, I moved them out so a shower can be had, when possible.  Then I put the clothes which finished the wash cycle into the dryer.  Then set up another load to wash.  There might be enough for a load of whites to finish that production, for now.

More fat, more protein.

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Check.

Start from the start.  That is what I am certain about.  The goal?  Between 1,800 and 2,000 calories between those, at about half of each, though higher fats would be preferred.

What a storm.

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We must be having monsoon season, or a portion of it, early.  The thunder was right over my home.  The rattle of the things went right into me, as if near railroad tracks as a train goes by.  And the lightning was visible as the sound was happening.  There was no delay, not even from above.  Wow.

Went through that for a good several hours.  While offering torrential rains.  It was absolutely amazing to experience.  Though, I must admit, I kept expecting electricity to go off.  Or the internet.  Or both.  Though, if electricity is gone, how would one know if the internet was up?  And, it might need local electricity, even if it technically didn't go down?  Dunno, but possible.

Oh I tried.

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Invited to an event.  A famous young lady was set to give a presentation.  Asked to attend.  But... a bit later in the day, yesterday.  Sometimes that makes a difference, sometimes not.  I was... favoring going.

So, yesterday, I showered.  As well, trimmed whiskers, then shaved as well.  Two very different things.  Brushed my teeth.  Then set the alarms, one for five, one for seven.  As well, I tried to get to bed earlier.  Did... get to bed earlier.