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Oh, well, no complaints. Just a note. There was a serious warming spell around these parts. A break from high summer or low winter is always grand. It makes almost anything else that happens more bearable. And so it is. It even looks wonderful. So long as no ice is involved, though that seems to be a problem. Several lethal accidents recently. I found a source for local "news", but it is worse than CNN for which side it obviously takes. Still, I can get snippets.
Snow showers and 25 F is what is being indicated. I had wanted, perhaps, to do a bit more grocery shopping. I think I'll skip it until the weather is more pleasant. I have been enjoying fruit and milk. I sort of had to end all fresh stuff until money started flowing. I can do that, but who likes to do it?
My snow shoes are in, 42" x 12". Should... do better than the 36" x 9". Those weren't terrible, just... a little shy. The snow was pure powder, if deep, when I tried them though. Perhaps only bearpaws will really work, and designed for my size. Or, maybe, only certain crosscountry skis? I still have horrible daydreams of dropping twent feet into powder and having to nap until spring! :p I might actually make it. I am literally bigger than most black bears. Hmm... weight loss: the black bear method. Wee! It's the claustrophobia that would get to me.
I am feeling better, if still not all that active. I may give work a whirl, if I can, yet today. Lunch first. Having hunger is good. Well, later.
Saturday, February 25, 2017
Such days and dreams.
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Resisting death is no mean feat. I've done in for a very long time. I have, sort of, grown into the position. You may not believe, my doctors don't simply believe, they know. What they don't do is understand. I won't claim to understand myself. I just know, at times, remaining alive is an act of vicious will. It isn't quite, just a physical, spiritual, intellectual, or soul-inspired effort. It is sometimes one among them, or several of them, and sometimes it is all of those and more.
I have gotten good enough at it that, at my peak, I don't notice. And, with medicine, I think I am beyond the peaks I could know for the first twenty five years. I think, now, there are times when I am not struggling, even below the radar. A new and pleasant thing, mind you. Still, sometimes, I... have to work, struggle. It isn't so much death that is the problem, now. I struggle, more, for function.
Last night, if only in the dream, I struggled with death. The risk, at first, wasn't so much simple failure. It was losing stamina over time. I wasn't sure at first. Then, finally, I found a balance point, as when carrying a heavy load for a long distance, and finally finding the most efficient manner of distributing and traveling with the weight. After that, I was able to spend the rest of the night/dream in easy enough testing. It was a test, but I passed with ease... after that initial imbalance and more difficult struggle. The dream was... real enough. Even so, I wake well and refreshed. Such is my nature, and why I yet am, and why I baffle doctors.
I will be continuing to attempt various efforts. Laundry? Dishes? A shower? Maybe some cooking? Dunno. I'll try to do something. I'll keep trying until that pops. I am simply soul-weary from dealing with the various bureaucratic attacks and troubles from those. The dream, perhaps, is my being attempting to reset and begin anew. Good morning, and day.
Later.
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Resisting death is no mean feat. I've done in for a very long time. I have, sort of, grown into the position. You may not believe, my doctors don't simply believe, they know. What they don't do is understand. I won't claim to understand myself. I just know, at times, remaining alive is an act of vicious will. It isn't quite, just a physical, spiritual, intellectual, or soul-inspired effort. It is sometimes one among them, or several of them, and sometimes it is all of those and more.
I have gotten good enough at it that, at my peak, I don't notice. And, with medicine, I think I am beyond the peaks I could know for the first twenty five years. I think, now, there are times when I am not struggling, even below the radar. A new and pleasant thing, mind you. Still, sometimes, I... have to work, struggle. It isn't so much death that is the problem, now. I struggle, more, for function.
Last night, if only in the dream, I struggled with death. The risk, at first, wasn't so much simple failure. It was losing stamina over time. I wasn't sure at first. Then, finally, I found a balance point, as when carrying a heavy load for a long distance, and finally finding the most efficient manner of distributing and traveling with the weight. After that, I was able to spend the rest of the night/dream in easy enough testing. It was a test, but I passed with ease... after that initial imbalance and more difficult struggle. The dream was... real enough. Even so, I wake well and refreshed. Such is my nature, and why I yet am, and why I baffle doctors.
I will be continuing to attempt various efforts. Laundry? Dishes? A shower? Maybe some cooking? Dunno. I'll try to do something. I'll keep trying until that pops. I am simply soul-weary from dealing with the various bureaucratic attacks and troubles from those. The dream, perhaps, is my being attempting to reset and begin anew. Good morning, and day.
Later.
Friday, February 24, 2017
Grumbles.
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I made it to bed rather early. Even so I could not wake well this morning. The girls worked me over. Using me as a race track or diving board, or sparring with their whiskers. For the last three hours of "sleep", I had one or the other letting me know I should wake. Unusual, actually. I wonder if someone is outside, or maybe a dog, they try to wake me? I'll look for tracks. Though cats can sometimes just be strange, and stranger than that on any give day for no reason. Plus, both are girls, and girls double down on that three times a week or more. :p
I just can't catch up or keep up. I think I am recovering from the stresses of recent events. Oh, I've been here before, and been shut down much more harshly. Just for pure health reasons. Engineering school itself, was five times as bad, and without any medication for the heart to bring me up even this little bit. Trust me, I've known far worse. I think I just need a little time to rest and recover. I'll get there.
As to the dream the other night, I... do have some wonder. Being that I can go into a woman's dream, and am more than a little way to beyond the veil... plus having been clean over to that side several times... was she in my dreams or did I escape the bonds of the mortal coil and visit her thoughts. Souls don't sleep, thus don't dream. But having been on that side, I know how powerful the thoughts of such beings, in that state, can be.
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I made it to bed rather early. Even so I could not wake well this morning. The girls worked me over. Using me as a race track or diving board, or sparring with their whiskers. For the last three hours of "sleep", I had one or the other letting me know I should wake. Unusual, actually. I wonder if someone is outside, or maybe a dog, they try to wake me? I'll look for tracks. Though cats can sometimes just be strange, and stranger than that on any give day for no reason. Plus, both are girls, and girls double down on that three times a week or more. :p
I just can't catch up or keep up. I think I am recovering from the stresses of recent events. Oh, I've been here before, and been shut down much more harshly. Just for pure health reasons. Engineering school itself, was five times as bad, and without any medication for the heart to bring me up even this little bit. Trust me, I've known far worse. I think I just need a little time to rest and recover. I'll get there.
As to the dream the other night, I... do have some wonder. Being that I can go into a woman's dream, and am more than a little way to beyond the veil... plus having been clean over to that side several times... was she in my dreams or did I escape the bonds of the mortal coil and visit her thoughts. Souls don't sleep, thus don't dream. But having been on that side, I know how powerful the thoughts of such beings, in that state, can be.
Thursday, February 23, 2017
A rough day.
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Nothing done, not much. I did wash the fruit, ate well finally, but could do little. It snowed, but that is mostly melting away on it's own. The house needs a lot of cleaning. I just can't seem to get to it. Medicine is going down well and regularly. I may be drinking too much fluid, I simply can't seem to stop. Thirst is just amazing, demanding, commanding. I would place it at two gallons and more each day... more like three gallons the last three or four days.
I believe I'll go to bed early tonight. I have been watching Spartacus. Truth is, while it is okay, movies and episodes are... slow. Watching them, even ones which interest me, is quite slow. Reading is quicker entertainment. The problem with reading is that it is draining. More so when I hit the parts that are less... engaging. I can only watch, often, an half hour or so of the hour episodes at a time. And movies, I can only watch those about a third to half the movie a sitting. I am hoping I hit a book that draws me in soon. Even those are rare, becoming rarer. And with authors going left like idiots, my patience grows thin.
Ugh... Good night. I think I'll hit it right now. See you in the morning.
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Nothing done, not much. I did wash the fruit, ate well finally, but could do little. It snowed, but that is mostly melting away on it's own. The house needs a lot of cleaning. I just can't seem to get to it. Medicine is going down well and regularly. I may be drinking too much fluid, I simply can't seem to stop. Thirst is just amazing, demanding, commanding. I would place it at two gallons and more each day... more like three gallons the last three or four days.
I believe I'll go to bed early tonight. I have been watching Spartacus. Truth is, while it is okay, movies and episodes are... slow. Watching them, even ones which interest me, is quite slow. Reading is quicker entertainment. The problem with reading is that it is draining. More so when I hit the parts that are less... engaging. I can only watch, often, an half hour or so of the hour episodes at a time. And movies, I can only watch those about a third to half the movie a sitting. I am hoping I hit a book that draws me in soon. Even those are rare, becoming rarer. And with authors going left like idiots, my patience grows thin.
Ugh... Good night. I think I'll hit it right now. See you in the morning.
How wonderful can the terrible be?
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A woman I knew haunted my dreams two nights ago. I knew her most of my life, through all of our stages in life, from very young to these days. Lost, recently. Love? Yes. In ways only... very close people can know. Only those of the opposite sex who love the beauty of that. Never known, in that way, but known the hunger, both ways, mutually. How dear a solid, true, platonic love? Only this sort of relationship could expose the full depth.
She had, in my eyes, fallen... while still alive. I had stopped answering her calls. I could not handle where she had gone. She had problems. I could not help. I kept her in my prayers, from time to time, but knew that, as close as we had been, she was more of a danger to bring me down with her than for me to help her out of her despair.
She had, at once, tested me. She wanted to know... some things about me. She wanted to know, for sure, if there was more than an civil interest, geniality. She also wanted to know about the nature of my hungers. Further, she wanted to know if I was a base man or could control, even steeped in my cup. I passed her tests, if... who knows what pleases a woman, even if it is right, laudable, powerful, in a man. Still... she knew all from her test.
In my dream, she came as a woman from heaven. How a woman can love there, in innocents, is a bit powerful for a man here. Even one such as I. Bound, hedged, avowed, and powerful through time and will, even so, real open innocent love is... can... unlock such things. Heaven always trumps earth.
Yes, she knew all my secrets. She probably surmised even more than most readers here, and fully. For she knew and explored some things directly. Still, she knew the botttom lines and borders. A song, one I have played here before, often at a time, popped to the surface. Very strange, as they do that rarely these days. Either youtube is dying, or it is killing some things for some viewers, or... Don't know. So, that this one popped the day after the dream, just... But... it... made sense to me. A song sung for her, to her.
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A woman I knew haunted my dreams two nights ago. I knew her most of my life, through all of our stages in life, from very young to these days. Lost, recently. Love? Yes. In ways only... very close people can know. Only those of the opposite sex who love the beauty of that. Never known, in that way, but known the hunger, both ways, mutually. How dear a solid, true, platonic love? Only this sort of relationship could expose the full depth.
She had, in my eyes, fallen... while still alive. I had stopped answering her calls. I could not handle where she had gone. She had problems. I could not help. I kept her in my prayers, from time to time, but knew that, as close as we had been, she was more of a danger to bring me down with her than for me to help her out of her despair.
She had, at once, tested me. She wanted to know... some things about me. She wanted to know, for sure, if there was more than an civil interest, geniality. She also wanted to know about the nature of my hungers. Further, she wanted to know if I was a base man or could control, even steeped in my cup. I passed her tests, if... who knows what pleases a woman, even if it is right, laudable, powerful, in a man. Still... she knew all from her test.
In my dream, she came as a woman from heaven. How a woman can love there, in innocents, is a bit powerful for a man here. Even one such as I. Bound, hedged, avowed, and powerful through time and will, even so, real open innocent love is... can... unlock such things. Heaven always trumps earth.
Yes, she knew all my secrets. She probably surmised even more than most readers here, and fully. For she knew and explored some things directly. Still, she knew the botttom lines and borders. A song, one I have played here before, often at a time, popped to the surface. Very strange, as they do that rarely these days. Either youtube is dying, or it is killing some things for some viewers, or... Don't know. So, that this one popped the day after the dream, just... But... it... made sense to me. A song sung for her, to her.
Out yesterday.
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It seems my local account was in trouble. So I needed to add some money. A bill that came later in the month. The only one. I may have to end their automatic payments since they can't seem to just take the payment out on the third, as I had requested. Why they do that I neither know nor care. They always promise they will, and one of them doesn't. Too stupid to do a simple thing. Anyway, I did get that arranged.
Afterward, shopping. It's not my favorite thing. Lettuce, milk, cream, just some basics to cover some ground. Pistachios and a few treats. Absolutely nothing fancy. I take a pound of pistachios and cut it out into quarters or fifths, then eat a portion or two a week. As well as sunflower seeds, to split into that same rotation. Though sometimes I get carried away and double the portion.
It snowed last night. It looks like an inch to three. It was blowing, and wetter when it arrived so it stuck to things and lays oddly. Difficult to know for sure how much. Well, and I wasn't terribly awake when I looked. I'll get too it before too long, probably. Still just a bit off from all things. I'll... try.
I finally found a source by which to check out a few television series I had been curious about. Some proved too faggoty to even bother, such as one about Da Vinci. They can keep that. Right out of the gates, nothing but fluff. Dumped it. I did find Spartacus, blood and sand or such. I have been curious about that for... a while. So far not fluffery, if they do have a penchant for nudity. I just skip those. I am celebite on the one hand, and have zero interest in naked men for that part. Still, the story seems interesting enough. Blood in war and history isn't... it's just a simple part of my understanding. Nothing to get hung about. I'm into the third episode.
Really, most of those series and moves that many of you know? I have never seen. I won't watch things with commercials. I won't pay much if any at all. And if it's too modern, queer, stupid, girly, fan-boy, nerdy, or... such... I'll dump it without a thought. I simply have no interest in being lied to or herded toward the stupid. And I have, mostly, been unplugged for as long as most highschoolers have been alive. So... Still, I have been checking out series which rose to my notice and at least piqued my curiosity.
Well? Later. Good morning, and good day.
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It seems my local account was in trouble. So I needed to add some money. A bill that came later in the month. The only one. I may have to end their automatic payments since they can't seem to just take the payment out on the third, as I had requested. Why they do that I neither know nor care. They always promise they will, and one of them doesn't. Too stupid to do a simple thing. Anyway, I did get that arranged.
Afterward, shopping. It's not my favorite thing. Lettuce, milk, cream, just some basics to cover some ground. Pistachios and a few treats. Absolutely nothing fancy. I take a pound of pistachios and cut it out into quarters or fifths, then eat a portion or two a week. As well as sunflower seeds, to split into that same rotation. Though sometimes I get carried away and double the portion.
It snowed last night. It looks like an inch to three. It was blowing, and wetter when it arrived so it stuck to things and lays oddly. Difficult to know for sure how much. Well, and I wasn't terribly awake when I looked. I'll get too it before too long, probably. Still just a bit off from all things. I'll... try.
I finally found a source by which to check out a few television series I had been curious about. Some proved too faggoty to even bother, such as one about Da Vinci. They can keep that. Right out of the gates, nothing but fluff. Dumped it. I did find Spartacus, blood and sand or such. I have been curious about that for... a while. So far not fluffery, if they do have a penchant for nudity. I just skip those. I am celebite on the one hand, and have zero interest in naked men for that part. Still, the story seems interesting enough. Blood in war and history isn't... it's just a simple part of my understanding. Nothing to get hung about. I'm into the third episode.
Really, most of those series and moves that many of you know? I have never seen. I won't watch things with commercials. I won't pay much if any at all. And if it's too modern, queer, stupid, girly, fan-boy, nerdy, or... such... I'll dump it without a thought. I simply have no interest in being lied to or herded toward the stupid. And I have, mostly, been unplugged for as long as most highschoolers have been alive. So... Still, I have been checking out series which rose to my notice and at least piqued my curiosity.
Well? Later. Good morning, and good day.
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Up late.
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I actually went to bed at a good hour. That wasn't the problem. It isn't like I did too much work yesterday. I adjusted the thermostat according to my needs well enough. I attempted to eat, if that has been a slight issue lately... I did get some food down. Medicine has been going in, if not all of it quite yet. As I discussed, I wanted to set somethings going, then add the water pill which has been done, and next, maybe today, to add the heart pill back in. That is a rough son of a gun, but I think I am ready to add it. So... no real problems on my part. I simply could not wake.
If I need a little extra sleep I have learned to just take it. Fighting it simply doesn't work. I could end up in real problems, fast. Better to take an extra hour or two than be tired for the next week, losing any and all traction as to function, and be miserable too. Get that extra sleep and see if bedtime can be trimmed a bit, and maybe if I can regain any lost ground. If I can do that in a day or two, keep focus for several days on that, then often, these days, I can retain a good schedule. Otherwise I begin losing the day schedule.
I am really going to push to do some dishes and laundry today. If the laundry all needs redone, so be it. If I can clear the stuff in baskets, I'll do that. The wrinkles won't be too bad. I at least line shirts up, length wise, in prep for handing them. Jeans might be messy though. If a damp towel and some time in the dryer might do both of those some good... if they smell fresh enough. Yeah.
A shower would be good, if I may hold that hostage to dishes. And I'll hit laundry, a bit, before even dishes. Perhaps boiling some eggs would be a good thing, as well, today. With dishes, I may also cook a small batch of rice or set beans to soaking. I am sure hoping to kick things off a bit today. Even if I can't eat, I am hungry. Maybe work will help that.
I had two intense dreams the other night. I won't work on them yet. Maybe later. One was how love with the opposite sex exists in heaven. The other was about seeing Him, and some things. That dream was a bit... confused. I'm working on it. If I can put the pieces togther. I got a message from it, not really something for others. But the dream itself can be explored. Real message? It fits with my learning, doesn't add, subtract, or otherwise modify other than intensity, so I will take it unqualified in any other way. Later, if at all. Still... wondering? piecing?
Later.
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I actually went to bed at a good hour. That wasn't the problem. It isn't like I did too much work yesterday. I adjusted the thermostat according to my needs well enough. I attempted to eat, if that has been a slight issue lately... I did get some food down. Medicine has been going in, if not all of it quite yet. As I discussed, I wanted to set somethings going, then add the water pill which has been done, and next, maybe today, to add the heart pill back in. That is a rough son of a gun, but I think I am ready to add it. So... no real problems on my part. I simply could not wake.
If I need a little extra sleep I have learned to just take it. Fighting it simply doesn't work. I could end up in real problems, fast. Better to take an extra hour or two than be tired for the next week, losing any and all traction as to function, and be miserable too. Get that extra sleep and see if bedtime can be trimmed a bit, and maybe if I can regain any lost ground. If I can do that in a day or two, keep focus for several days on that, then often, these days, I can retain a good schedule. Otherwise I begin losing the day schedule.
I am really going to push to do some dishes and laundry today. If the laundry all needs redone, so be it. If I can clear the stuff in baskets, I'll do that. The wrinkles won't be too bad. I at least line shirts up, length wise, in prep for handing them. Jeans might be messy though. If a damp towel and some time in the dryer might do both of those some good... if they smell fresh enough. Yeah.
A shower would be good, if I may hold that hostage to dishes. And I'll hit laundry, a bit, before even dishes. Perhaps boiling some eggs would be a good thing, as well, today. With dishes, I may also cook a small batch of rice or set beans to soaking. I am sure hoping to kick things off a bit today. Even if I can't eat, I am hungry. Maybe work will help that.
I had two intense dreams the other night. I won't work on them yet. Maybe later. One was how love with the opposite sex exists in heaven. The other was about seeing Him, and some things. That dream was a bit... confused. I'm working on it. If I can put the pieces togther. I got a message from it, not really something for others. But the dream itself can be explored. Real message? It fits with my learning, doesn't add, subtract, or otherwise modify other than intensity, so I will take it unqualified in any other way. Later, if at all. Still... wondering? piecing?
Later.
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Okay.
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Well... looks like my ssd check is in. They didn't tell me when it might arrive. It is listed as having cleared on the 14th. Good, good. I still have to sign the paperwork and get that in. Yeah, but... I had to look it over, and glad I did. So... Still, this paperwork then starts a complete review. While back in some money I am still not out of the woods. One thing at a time.
I haven't been able to get to work. I simply don't have it in me. However, having some money means I can get the house payment this month, and I think the utilities, which are late. And then do some minor shopping. If the pig arrives, I should be able to do that cash, too. Ugh. If I can remember, focus. I'm not in the best of shape. This might help unjangle some nerves though. Especially if I can get busy and pay some things. Yeah.
You know what I am hungry for? Apples were good, pears better, and all that, but... donuts. I'd love to try those cronuts, and may someday, but for now just some storebought. I would have to do a lot of cleaning and dishes to get the world in order to even begin working on the cronuts. But I sure... would like those. I am positive they would be better than storebought. But the last I had really weren't too bad. They were actually good. A treat, now and then.
Ugh. Later or good night.
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Well... looks like my ssd check is in. They didn't tell me when it might arrive. It is listed as having cleared on the 14th. Good, good. I still have to sign the paperwork and get that in. Yeah, but... I had to look it over, and glad I did. So... Still, this paperwork then starts a complete review. While back in some money I am still not out of the woods. One thing at a time.
I haven't been able to get to work. I simply don't have it in me. However, having some money means I can get the house payment this month, and I think the utilities, which are late. And then do some minor shopping. If the pig arrives, I should be able to do that cash, too. Ugh. If I can remember, focus. I'm not in the best of shape. This might help unjangle some nerves though. Especially if I can get busy and pay some things. Yeah.
You know what I am hungry for? Apples were good, pears better, and all that, but... donuts. I'd love to try those cronuts, and may someday, but for now just some storebought. I would have to do a lot of cleaning and dishes to get the world in order to even begin working on the cronuts. But I sure... would like those. I am positive they would be better than storebought. But the last I had really weren't too bad. They were actually good. A treat, now and then.
Ugh. Later or good night.
Much better?
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It seems that way. Then again it is in the 50's F outdoors. That doesn't hurt. I thought I had missed recycling yesterday. But, being a holiday, probably not. So first thing, mostly, I got the bin out to the curb. I don't think I have enough trash to bother taking out. Maybe a partial bag, sum total. I haven't been cooking, shopping, or such, so I haven't been having anything to toss. It is actually windy, and still in the 50's. It is a warm enough wind, I guess, that it doesn't cut. A very strange deep winter. It happens, though. More, I do suspect they are tinkering with the weather.
Yes, sleep was very good. I set the alarm for eight plus change hours. I woke a bit before the time, then added an hour for more sleep. Dreams. What women do in my brain on some nights... then again, I know I do it back. I don't know if you can smell, feel, taste, touch, and such, in your dreams. But I can. Anyway... Not sure I needed the extra hour, wanted it. I slept, and woke, well. Just tinkered a bit before realizing I could probably get the recycling out. It's nearly full. Not that I create a lot of recycling, I just don't take it out every time. Over time it just gets full. Bleh. The woes of middle class mid-America? :p
I didn't get much done yesterday. Other than finding the phone and attempting to get it working. I have been told that the phones may be dead. While my neighbor uses a different company, I'd bet dollars to donuts all the companies out here use the same wiring and just split it out, or even bill it out, independently. So... that might be the problem with the phone. I'll call later. Then again, finding the phone took quite a bit of digging. I'd spend an half hour to hour looking here or there, taking a break, and looking elsewhere. Yes... I have piles of loot. And am easily distracted. :p
A shower, shortly. Then setting up dishes. Maybe tinkering with laundry, if more to open up the baskets and either decide to rewash those clothes or put them up... in prep for beginning using the machines again. If I'm blocked up at the folding/storing end, it doesn't work well to just continue washing and drying. Blah.
Later.
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It seems that way. Then again it is in the 50's F outdoors. That doesn't hurt. I thought I had missed recycling yesterday. But, being a holiday, probably not. So first thing, mostly, I got the bin out to the curb. I don't think I have enough trash to bother taking out. Maybe a partial bag, sum total. I haven't been cooking, shopping, or such, so I haven't been having anything to toss. It is actually windy, and still in the 50's. It is a warm enough wind, I guess, that it doesn't cut. A very strange deep winter. It happens, though. More, I do suspect they are tinkering with the weather.
Yes, sleep was very good. I set the alarm for eight plus change hours. I woke a bit before the time, then added an hour for more sleep. Dreams. What women do in my brain on some nights... then again, I know I do it back. I don't know if you can smell, feel, taste, touch, and such, in your dreams. But I can. Anyway... Not sure I needed the extra hour, wanted it. I slept, and woke, well. Just tinkered a bit before realizing I could probably get the recycling out. It's nearly full. Not that I create a lot of recycling, I just don't take it out every time. Over time it just gets full. Bleh. The woes of middle class mid-America? :p
I didn't get much done yesterday. Other than finding the phone and attempting to get it working. I have been told that the phones may be dead. While my neighbor uses a different company, I'd bet dollars to donuts all the companies out here use the same wiring and just split it out, or even bill it out, independently. So... that might be the problem with the phone. I'll call later. Then again, finding the phone took quite a bit of digging. I'd spend an half hour to hour looking here or there, taking a break, and looking elsewhere. Yes... I have piles of loot. And am easily distracted. :p
A shower, shortly. Then setting up dishes. Maybe tinkering with laundry, if more to open up the baskets and either decide to rewash those clothes or put them up... in prep for beginning using the machines again. If I'm blocked up at the folding/storing end, it doesn't work well to just continue washing and drying. Blah.
Later.
Monday, February 20, 2017
Always a mixed bag.
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I haven't done much today. I did a bit, and found the phone. I plugged it in and... I can hear something, but can't get a dial tone or otherwise call out. Being a holiday I will have to wait until tomorrow. Oh, and I need to check about this being unlisted. She kept skipping the answer to that. She is made to sell, push, not be honest. I am supposed to have 30 days to end the service. If they can't or won't offer an unlisted phone, I'll find another service. If I can get this going, I will dump my cell. Of course, then I will have to get an ereader or tablet, maybe both. I just won't go with ms win, really don't care for android, but absolutely will not get apple. It's not a matter of good, better, best, it's a matter of which steals and sells your data the least, at this point.
A shower, shortly, maybe. It's a bit of a rough day. Still, I think it'll work out. I have hamburger thawing, though I'd like to find some chops too. Pork, lamb, all good. Perhaps a roast of some sort as well. I need to eat, even if it's a bear to get going on cooking. I seem to be cooking good meals, when I can, as lopsided as things are. I just wish I had a bit more energy and could really put out a near feast of a meal. I'm hungry.
Well, later, I suppose. A nap would be nice but I don't see it happening. Good day.
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I haven't done much today. I did a bit, and found the phone. I plugged it in and... I can hear something, but can't get a dial tone or otherwise call out. Being a holiday I will have to wait until tomorrow. Oh, and I need to check about this being unlisted. She kept skipping the answer to that. She is made to sell, push, not be honest. I am supposed to have 30 days to end the service. If they can't or won't offer an unlisted phone, I'll find another service. If I can get this going, I will dump my cell. Of course, then I will have to get an ereader or tablet, maybe both. I just won't go with ms win, really don't care for android, but absolutely will not get apple. It's not a matter of good, better, best, it's a matter of which steals and sells your data the least, at this point.
A shower, shortly, maybe. It's a bit of a rough day. Still, I think it'll work out. I have hamburger thawing, though I'd like to find some chops too. Pork, lamb, all good. Perhaps a roast of some sort as well. I need to eat, even if it's a bear to get going on cooking. I seem to be cooking good meals, when I can, as lopsided as things are. I just wish I had a bit more energy and could really put out a near feast of a meal. I'm hungry.
Well, later, I suppose. A nap would be nice but I don't see it happening. Good day.
Better, again, maybe.
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I stayed awake a little longer than planned last night. I'll work to remedy thay. The goal is to be asleep by 21:00. I suppose longer days and the warmer weather play a part. It is always precarious for me. Too little work, too much or too fast of change in the environment, too hungry, too much food, too much or little work, or just health acting up, or other things. My body is fussy and I cannot account for all the variables. No worries. I'll keep at it.
I set the alarm for 7:00, rounding up bedtime to 23:00. I woke more around 5:30, and easily, so simply turned off the alarm and got on with my day. I am working to brush my teeth more regularly. Actually moving from rarely, to twice a day, and now to, often, three times a day. That comes and goes, I often lose track. I suppose, if you can get to a certain age, and you haven't rotted your teeth out, they can be... taken for granted a bit more often. As I said, I haven't had a cavity in... since... 1993~4? I think so. Still, there are reasons to try to keep up.
When my checks begin coming in, while I do have some other things of interest, I would like to get my teeth cleaned. I am not interested in a checkup, just a cleaning. If the doc can't handle that, I'll find another. I could get it free, at the V.A. But the travel costs would be similar to the costs of a cleaning. I could apply for travel, but that has always been sketchy. Sometimes they send it, sometimes they just circular file the request. Bureaucratic problems, some of the first, started there. Oh, and I would also like to get in to an eye doctor, get set up for new glasses, and begin ordering. I'd like to order two functional pair and have two in reserve. Two would be bifocal standard daily drivers, two would not be... sunglasses/activeware glasses, but over time. I have found an, comparatively, inexpensive source, and would like to compare various sources. I have seen bifocals, without the lines, for as little as $150(ish). Regular glasses for much less. Just... wanting to keep up on some things.
I am hoping to get to work today. I won't say I will end up doing a lot of work. Two or three small loads of dishes, a shower, work on the laundry and get that all back on track, and some tidying up in the kitchen. Well, and putting meat out to thaw. Hmm, and a trip to the post office here in town. Both to get out and to get the ssa form in the mail. I am beginning to get some umph back, maybe.
Good morning and day.
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I stayed awake a little longer than planned last night. I'll work to remedy thay. The goal is to be asleep by 21:00. I suppose longer days and the warmer weather play a part. It is always precarious for me. Too little work, too much or too fast of change in the environment, too hungry, too much food, too much or little work, or just health acting up, or other things. My body is fussy and I cannot account for all the variables. No worries. I'll keep at it.
I set the alarm for 7:00, rounding up bedtime to 23:00. I woke more around 5:30, and easily, so simply turned off the alarm and got on with my day. I am working to brush my teeth more regularly. Actually moving from rarely, to twice a day, and now to, often, three times a day. That comes and goes, I often lose track. I suppose, if you can get to a certain age, and you haven't rotted your teeth out, they can be... taken for granted a bit more often. As I said, I haven't had a cavity in... since... 1993~4? I think so. Still, there are reasons to try to keep up.
When my checks begin coming in, while I do have some other things of interest, I would like to get my teeth cleaned. I am not interested in a checkup, just a cleaning. If the doc can't handle that, I'll find another. I could get it free, at the V.A. But the travel costs would be similar to the costs of a cleaning. I could apply for travel, but that has always been sketchy. Sometimes they send it, sometimes they just circular file the request. Bureaucratic problems, some of the first, started there. Oh, and I would also like to get in to an eye doctor, get set up for new glasses, and begin ordering. I'd like to order two functional pair and have two in reserve. Two would be bifocal standard daily drivers, two would not be... sunglasses/activeware glasses, but over time. I have found an, comparatively, inexpensive source, and would like to compare various sources. I have seen bifocals, without the lines, for as little as $150(ish). Regular glasses for much less. Just... wanting to keep up on some things.
I am hoping to get to work today. I won't say I will end up doing a lot of work. Two or three small loads of dishes, a shower, work on the laundry and get that all back on track, and some tidying up in the kitchen. Well, and putting meat out to thaw. Hmm, and a trip to the post office here in town. Both to get out and to get the ssa form in the mail. I am beginning to get some umph back, maybe.
Good morning and day.
Sunday, February 19, 2017
Raining?
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It is February. Crazy. It jangles the nerves. It could freeze at any moment, leaving sheets of ice that would be harsh to try to get through. It really could shut everything down for a good while, if it went bad at the wrong time. There is also still a goodly amount of snow out there, which will melt with the rain and because of the temps that allow for it to rain. Oh well. It is wonderful to sleep with the warmer temps and pitter-patter.
I slept well enough, I think. Not too deeply, not too shallow. I woke at 4:00(ish). I looked over the news. There really isn't much happening that I find interesting. Though, for you, generally, that is a good thing. I tell you, this last week, I had a sense that something big, and bad, was going to happen. About midweek to near the end, I felt as if that had broken. Either the plans were interrupted or pulled. Of course, with things like that, it might be delayed... assuming the players weren't caught, rounded up, and are sitting in a nearly cosmic circular file. I think .int, .mil, and .sec realized, from Zero, that they can't trust the president and certain other aparatus to secure enemies who need to be secured. They won't make that mistake again? Maybe. That is a slippery slope, and, yet, it is what it is. Given a choice of trusting them, with serious oversight, in the shorter term, and trusting Zero, I have to go with them. Actually, that is how it used to be done, until someone decided hot, multi-national, international, wars was a better idea, then just started zapping people with bomb tossing flying robots. Yeah... choices.
I'd love to rent a movie, or find something to watch. But have you seen what they offer lately? I am trying to finish off some books. The weather, which is causing me to be drousy already, doubles or triples the effect of reading... even when I can wake well enough to read in the first place. Gah! I have several books lined up for next, hopefully a bit more engaging then the ending of Dante's Comedies. One of the poets will be chosen, as well as either the Silmarillion or Children of Hurin, by JRR Tolkien. I am enjoying having two books, of different sorts, to read at a time. If one does not quite suit the mood or interest, the other might well do. Both were physical books this last time. Next will be one real and one ebook.
Oh, sudoku has been very good recently. In the last two weeks, on a virgin run, I have hit a 13, 11, 9, several 7, and a 5 second score. Now, while I can do these, I don't hit them, usually, this often. Even for me this is fast on fast. Often only hitting one of the superfast times once every week or two. That's a superfast score every other day, and, with how things have been, I haven't been playing every day. So... yeah... very good.
Later.
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It is February. Crazy. It jangles the nerves. It could freeze at any moment, leaving sheets of ice that would be harsh to try to get through. It really could shut everything down for a good while, if it went bad at the wrong time. There is also still a goodly amount of snow out there, which will melt with the rain and because of the temps that allow for it to rain. Oh well. It is wonderful to sleep with the warmer temps and pitter-patter.
I slept well enough, I think. Not too deeply, not too shallow. I woke at 4:00(ish). I looked over the news. There really isn't much happening that I find interesting. Though, for you, generally, that is a good thing. I tell you, this last week, I had a sense that something big, and bad, was going to happen. About midweek to near the end, I felt as if that had broken. Either the plans were interrupted or pulled. Of course, with things like that, it might be delayed... assuming the players weren't caught, rounded up, and are sitting in a nearly cosmic circular file. I think .int, .mil, and .sec realized, from Zero, that they can't trust the president and certain other aparatus to secure enemies who need to be secured. They won't make that mistake again? Maybe. That is a slippery slope, and, yet, it is what it is. Given a choice of trusting them, with serious oversight, in the shorter term, and trusting Zero, I have to go with them. Actually, that is how it used to be done, until someone decided hot, multi-national, international, wars was a better idea, then just started zapping people with bomb tossing flying robots. Yeah... choices.
I'd love to rent a movie, or find something to watch. But have you seen what they offer lately? I am trying to finish off some books. The weather, which is causing me to be drousy already, doubles or triples the effect of reading... even when I can wake well enough to read in the first place. Gah! I have several books lined up for next, hopefully a bit more engaging then the ending of Dante's Comedies. One of the poets will be chosen, as well as either the Silmarillion or Children of Hurin, by JRR Tolkien. I am enjoying having two books, of different sorts, to read at a time. If one does not quite suit the mood or interest, the other might well do. Both were physical books this last time. Next will be one real and one ebook.
Oh, sudoku has been very good recently. In the last two weeks, on a virgin run, I have hit a 13, 11, 9, several 7, and a 5 second score. Now, while I can do these, I don't hit them, usually, this often. Even for me this is fast on fast. Often only hitting one of the superfast times once every week or two. That's a superfast score every other day, and, with how things have been, I haven't been playing every day. So... yeah... very good.
Later.
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