Out.

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Took two days to finally get in and get my order picked up.  A shower taken, before hand.  Brushed my teeth too.  They are rough.  A dental appointment would be good... whenever that might happen.  But, for now, I'll do what I can.

Steak.  I didn't order more.  A few roasts.  And some general items.  Nothing fancy, but it sure was expensive.  Yea.  But, so be it.  As mentioned, I'll eat these steaks, all of them, down, and burger, before buying again.  Though, if I see a good price on burger, or prime rib, I'll... go there.

A strange morning.

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Top to bottom.  Going to bed so very late, at 20:00... or so.  About killed me.  But, first, I had so many things to do.  Then?  Then I just couldn't, until I could.  A minor bout of insomnia.  Minor is far better than major.  Then waking at three thirty?  Or so?  But... comfortably.  It wasn't a push.  It wasn't uncomfortable.  I didn't wake tired, but have to wake.  It was... a good wake.  It has been a good morning.

Nothing fancy.  Still rather crushed.  Can't do much.  But I can breath, enjoy some coffee, say prayers for the travelers as they pass, their families, co-workers, and such.  It's become a pleasant hobby.  And... none of them ever know.  God does, and listens.  Probably angels too.  A prayer... opens doors.

It had been cool, but by five?  It had jumped to 70.  Here at eight thirty it is just 73.  I worried, with it that warm before daylight, that the sun would crisp the world.  Not so much.  If, too, it looks like there were clouds blocking it's attentions.  It could well end up an exceptionally hot day.  Or... not.  Odd how weather can be invisible, yet have a dramatic affect on the temperature.  A clear sunny day that doesn't get above eighty, or a cloudy frigid day which oddly drops to negative forty.  Clouds usually keeping things warmer, but something... shifted.  Not even wind, just a cold body of air, or warm one, moves in.  Unseasonably?  Invariably.  Odd, this world we live on.  Wouldn't bet on it, anything about it.  But wouldn't bet against it.  Until God says so.  Or... more... lets us say so, when most have gone that way.

Anyway, a very strange morning.  But a good one.  Have you ever breathed well, comfortably, happy in your skin, without pain, or oddities.  Just lived a little joy of a span of time?  I am doing that this morning.  I am grateful for my life, even when in pain.  When not in pain?  I live like a king.  The king of no one, or myself, in a fashion.  Learning from my Teacher how to be truly royalty.  And today is... a good day in that way.  Being king is... not always nice, gentle, friendly.  Ask God, Whose image you are made in.

Later.

Well...

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Still awake.  I made a personal call.  Then awaited a delivery.  Only got forty percent of the order though.  So... went hunting for the rest.  As it turns out, the rest is on the way.  Mostly make sense.  The boxes, for just the four of ten I received, are huge.  Two bags of sixteen pounds of 'cowboy' charcoal per.  And, yes, that's a lot of volume.

Anyway, I did get those in, off the porch.  Not as... heavy as I feared.  Then again, that is only forty percent of the order, and I was only able to carry twenty percent at a time.  These boxes were pushing my ability to grab and maneuver as is.  Two boxes at once was impossible.

Got them.

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I called the eye clinic in SLC.  No truly local options.  They did have the potential for a clinic in Pocatello?  Idaho.  Not all that much closer.  I called them, but they have... a prison outreach handling their calls?  No, just... no.  Still, I have an appointment in SLC, for both an eye checkup and glasses setup.  Actually, I'll probably cancel the eye exam.  I don't want it.

Then a call to dental.  They have already heard about me.  Good?  Bad?  Which is unusual.  Normally the vet calls, then they send information back and forth... at whatever pace (not fast, usually), then an appointment is set up.  Just because information has already been sent, doesn't mean that the rest will be speedy.  Can hope, but not great worry.  It has been four or five years.  Between covid and just having trouble getting up there...  So... much needed.  At least I don't think I have any dental issues.  Probably.  Save really... dingy teeth.  Coffee will do that, as does drinking vinegar.  Bleh.

A pretty good night.

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I didn't get to anything.  Other than making a meal, that was it.  Blood sugar is 152 just now.  Whatever.  Some kefir is going down.  I really should get back to having kefir just before any meal, then a vinegar tonic right after.  It both makes the meal more filling, and helps with blood sugar.  I swear.

I didn't believe it would.  Which... is half the reason I tried it.  To disprove it.  Well, and there is always some hope.  But it did work.  Should do it now, especially being as close to normalizing that as I have gotten.  Insulin didn't do as good as this.  Oh, it would get it low.  Then I would eat one damned thing and it would be off for a month or two.  Same with this, but I eat wrongly less often.

Good, chilly but good.

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Blood sugar, for no good reason, dropped thirty two points to 131.  Now, I am cutting kefir intake to no more than two cups at a time.  Was pushing closer to three.  And, having it less often.  Same with coffee, and trying to push to remember to only add three drops of sweetener, when I add it.  Trying not to add that all the time.  Keto sweetener, for what that seems to matter sometimes.  Even so, why it dropped tonight, and not yesterday, doing the same things?  Take what you can get.

Eggs and corned beef hash, for supper tonight.  And a handful of walnuts and pecans.  I recently purchased something like cookie cutters, but for frying eggs in.  To give the fried eggs that nice round formed shape.  As long as I know the eggs are good, I like the idea.  Plus, I have my griddle on a slant, so the extra oil will drain away.  Not the easiest thing to cook eggs on.  A spatula and a bit of quick work, if it's at the right temp, works.  But would rather just crack, drop, and forget.  I'm hoping they work.  Washed them, and ready to try them tonight.

It was already down to 49 when I went out.  It's been that temp for about an hour.  May easily drop further yet tonight.  I expect it will.  When I saw it was that cool, I closed things up, made sure the fans were off.  Save upstairs.  I think there is a fan going up there.  I'll turn it off shortly.

Took some time off.

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From everything.  Mostly.  Days and nights are completely messed.  Going to bed at six, waking at 18:30.  Sleeping very long too, which isn't helping.  If trying to push sleep along in order to reset.  Is it the heat?  Medicine?  Or have I bet keeping it too cool?  I just don't know.  All I know is waking, sleeping, doing, all in the drink.

Blood sugar is improving, but in odd give and takes.  Yesterday it was down to 130, fasting.  Today it's up to 163.  I mean, those are better, but not continuously better.  And I ate rightly.  A steak, coffee, and kefir.  Oh, cheese and salami, the last of the most recent batch.  Good, keto, food.  And not too much, not an excess.  So... why the higher read?  Stupid things!

Up, late and strange.

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To bed around seven? eight?  In there.  up at 19:00, give or take a handful, or two.  It was 77/78 up there.  I didn't turn the ac's on, had everything shut up.  It got down to 50 this morning, was 78 outside when I woke, 73/77 downstairs?  Or so.  I couldn't wake up.  Too hot?  Sort of.  Heat, and cold, beyond some point, can kill my ability to wake.  Or, until late.

Oddly, I don't feel terrible for it.  Didn't have my, what used to be regular, fever dreams when sleeping too hot.  Blood sugar, lower.  Thirty to forty pounds off.  Yea.  It changes things.  Well, and back on heart medicine.  One, two, all?  Don't know.  But, sleep was pretty good.  Hmm?  I thought it was an extra long sleep, by my watch/app suggest I was down less than seven hours?  How is that even possible?  My app/watch must... be wrong.  I know I wasn't awake beyond the hour of eight, and I think it was either just after eight or just before it.  And I know I woke at 19:00, give or take fifteen minutes.

Hmm?

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I have seen them... work my feed.  Cause things to show up there.  Seemingly in message form.  And I have seen them turn the feed to shit, groids, and foreign language only.  I have even seen them put vids into my history, vids I didn't, wouldn't, watch.  So, I have been carefully culling vids that don't belong.  Checking the history from time to time.

What I have never seen is having vids, essentially, thumbtacked to the top tier of my history.  Not the first row, but the second.  And, for three, four, maybe five days?  These three have been tagged and kept in place, in my viewing history.  I haven't watched some of these for months.  I ignored.  I kept ignoring.  But... fine.  I'll show them.

Late.

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Late to bed, late waking.  Down sometime after six.  How much later is anyone's guess.  After six could be nine, but is more likely not later than eight?  Something.  Up at 16:30, though, probably.  Mostly.  Give or take an half hour?  Or hour.  Ugh.  Well, Give to the earlier, it is just going on 17:00, and I know I have been up at least an half hour.

Sleep was very good.  I had the ac on.  It was 73, near me.  Didn't check the other thermometer up there this morning.  It only got down to 64, but it was a cooler 64 than the 58 degree night not long ago, at least when the wind was howling through.  Oh, that was quite pleasant.  I did have the windows and all open for a goodly part of the night, but knowing I would be trying to sleep through the furnace of the day I closed everything down before going to bed.