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Visitors. Helped with raking. Actually, they raked. Only two rakes. I trimmed shoots from around the trees, picked up larger sticks, and did odd jobs. We collected the fresh leaves, for the ducks. Branches have been put, mostly, into a main pile. After being so chill for the last many days, today couldn't have been nicer. The sun was generous and smiling like a fool with no ill devisement, there was a gentle friendly breeze, and it was still just cool enough that a bit of work was more a pleasantry than effort. A rare day to be savored in thought on through time as winter consumes all other vestiges of the day.
Then a call to AAA. I don't know where their call center is, if I'm thinking Gainsville women's prison? Eventually sorted it out, to get a tech sent. After a goodly lot of fussing, the battery was tested. Dead, but charging was still good. All good. I got the last battery they had in stock. At $150, almost, I was happy. Other than tires, and after seven years, no gripe. I will never kick a beast which goes down after good service.
I got a shower in before, am crocheting right along, though finishing gaming when my hands cramp. I am sure hand endurance will increase. I continue to find mistakes. And, yet, the project has a unique charm only it will ever posses, for no other blanket will exhibit those flaws in exactly those ways. As a baby blanket it will serve well. At this pace it coul well take three to five more days to complete... in sum, in case I don't work on it in consecutive days. I think I have the double stitch down though. It's more perfecting ends work, patterning, and tension.
The V.A. glasses are in. Damn fine job. It'll take a bit to adjust to them. All knew glasses are that way. Bifocals are that way, in spades. I can now, when I have the money, order several pair. Another bifocal and two plain, for now. The last set was off to, which actually hurt my vision. I am hoping right scripts willl... help.
Saturday, October 13, 2018
Friday, October 12, 2018
Eh?
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Not quite finished with the game. Even so, at a point were something else can go forward, namely crocheting. With the really big hooks and yarn, in the right colors, I can, have, begun. Baby blankets, to start. I had thought about hats, table placemats, dishcloths, and such. But for the yarn and hook sizes, after experimentation, I needed/wanted to learn using, those projects weren't good fits. I think practical. Who wants hats or place settings with huge gaps. The blanket works as it's mostly indoor, and can be wrapped.
I have no need for such, but I know a few folk with very small ones. Helping them is helping me and my country. I'll do a couple of those. Then a bigger blanket. Then, perhaps, try washcloths. The thread was difficult, cotton poly, and I heard full cotton. Plus, the yarn/thread is much smaller. With the washcloths, I'll practice different stitches and patterns, to get a feel for results and the simple experience. After those, then on to hats, maybe gloves or mittens.
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Not quite finished with the game. Even so, at a point were something else can go forward, namely crocheting. With the really big hooks and yarn, in the right colors, I can, have, begun. Baby blankets, to start. I had thought about hats, table placemats, dishcloths, and such. But for the yarn and hook sizes, after experimentation, I needed/wanted to learn using, those projects weren't good fits. I think practical. Who wants hats or place settings with huge gaps. The blanket works as it's mostly indoor, and can be wrapped.
I have no need for such, but I know a few folk with very small ones. Helping them is helping me and my country. I'll do a couple of those. Then a bigger blanket. Then, perhaps, try washcloths. The thread was difficult, cotton poly, and I heard full cotton. Plus, the yarn/thread is much smaller. With the washcloths, I'll practice different stitches and patterns, to get a feel for results and the simple experience. After those, then on to hats, maybe gloves or mittens.
Thursday, October 11, 2018
Blood sugar is weird.
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My averages are: total is 165; before meal is 162; and after meal is 159. The problem with the before meal average is I started including fasting tests. I don't think that should go there. It is too different, it's own category. Actually, let me remove those and see... yes, before meal changes to 150 average. Good enough averages while just starting back into things. Still, my fasting blood sugars are so very high, though drop into the 140 range, plus or minus 20, but only after eating or drinking a ketonic. As for keto, the strips indicate I am at 40, or moderate. I do need more fat and less protein. Proteins are my real sweet tooth craving (well, and donuts).
I'm working on things. I believe I am going to attempt a single meal a day, with an earlier and later ketonic, if keeping all consumption within eight hours, for now. Only tea before and after. Knowing my blood sugar won't drop without food/fats, I'll begin consumption early... well, according to me whacked schedule. If I have my first fatted ketonic tea now, a real meal in several hours, want or not, the last ketonic should be started by 6:00.
Since protein seems to be a necessary evil at this point, I really have to add fat. A butter and cream sauce, in which to warm the protein, might be the trick. Then, perhaps, slicing the meat, as a pasta replacement. Just thinking out loud. Less protein? Yeah. Sadly. Although more fat is always a happy thing. I am in keto, this should work. I fear potassium deficiency, and water gain. I seem to have enough water pill, and can probably afford at least the potassium. If I can figure a way to town. Ugh!
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My averages are: total is 165; before meal is 162; and after meal is 159. The problem with the before meal average is I started including fasting tests. I don't think that should go there. It is too different, it's own category. Actually, let me remove those and see... yes, before meal changes to 150 average. Good enough averages while just starting back into things. Still, my fasting blood sugars are so very high, though drop into the 140 range, plus or minus 20, but only after eating or drinking a ketonic. As for keto, the strips indicate I am at 40, or moderate. I do need more fat and less protein. Proteins are my real sweet tooth craving (well, and donuts).
I'm working on things. I believe I am going to attempt a single meal a day, with an earlier and later ketonic, if keeping all consumption within eight hours, for now. Only tea before and after. Knowing my blood sugar won't drop without food/fats, I'll begin consumption early... well, according to me whacked schedule. If I have my first fatted ketonic tea now, a real meal in several hours, want or not, the last ketonic should be started by 6:00.
Since protein seems to be a necessary evil at this point, I really have to add fat. A butter and cream sauce, in which to warm the protein, might be the trick. Then, perhaps, slicing the meat, as a pasta replacement. Just thinking out loud. Less protein? Yeah. Sadly. Although more fat is always a happy thing. I am in keto, this should work. I fear potassium deficiency, and water gain. I seem to have enough water pill, and can probably afford at least the potassium. If I can figure a way to town. Ugh!
Wednesday, October 10, 2018
Cool out there.
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Right for the season, mostly. A little cooler and a lot wetter than usual? Maybe a tadge. But, then, in truth, what really is usual, typical, normal? I am beginning to believe that typical, if it actually happened, would be extremely rare. And that for a season. For a whole year? Preposterous! So a bit to the cool and rainy sides is, well, quite... normal? Aye. To be expected. Enjoyed if possible.
Ducks have been closed and fed. Watered and fed earlier, but they cleaned their plates well enough for a dinner. They look and sound well.
I did make it to the post. Beside a few packages and letters, a rug. At least it wasn't huge, if still a bit to handle. More the length than weight, as to me it was rather light. Got it all home easily enough. Part of the problem is that I am out of meds, can't afford more, not this month, especially not knowing if the battery is gone or... if there is more to it. Though just the battery replacement would keep me shy.
I'm not feeling the best off medication. Nor doing the best. Ugh. Blood sugar went to 220's, fasting test. Being able to fast again, next time I'll fast for three days, and do that weekly. I did end having two more chicken legs, an half cup of corn, and a large glass of kefir, but no fatted tea. Ah well, will keep at it.
If I don't finish the game today, by Friday almost certainly. Then to crocheting. I will have everything I need by then. I should have enough bulky yarn for a blanket or two, then can start with less bulky, and then thinner stuff, upping complexity as I go. I am hoping to kick out at least three hats this year, perhaps matching gloves or mittens for two of those. It's... a goal. No idea, though, how long this stuff takes to make?
As to chain mail? Not until I can sort how to easily weld the pieces. Which also means I have to be able to afford the kit. I... don't quite have the resources available for that, currently. Time, perhaps.
Later.
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Right for the season, mostly. A little cooler and a lot wetter than usual? Maybe a tadge. But, then, in truth, what really is usual, typical, normal? I am beginning to believe that typical, if it actually happened, would be extremely rare. And that for a season. For a whole year? Preposterous! So a bit to the cool and rainy sides is, well, quite... normal? Aye. To be expected. Enjoyed if possible.
Ducks have been closed and fed. Watered and fed earlier, but they cleaned their plates well enough for a dinner. They look and sound well.
I did make it to the post. Beside a few packages and letters, a rug. At least it wasn't huge, if still a bit to handle. More the length than weight, as to me it was rather light. Got it all home easily enough. Part of the problem is that I am out of meds, can't afford more, not this month, especially not knowing if the battery is gone or... if there is more to it. Though just the battery replacement would keep me shy.
I'm not feeling the best off medication. Nor doing the best. Ugh. Blood sugar went to 220's, fasting test. Being able to fast again, next time I'll fast for three days, and do that weekly. I did end having two more chicken legs, an half cup of corn, and a large glass of kefir, but no fatted tea. Ah well, will keep at it.
If I don't finish the game today, by Friday almost certainly. Then to crocheting. I will have everything I need by then. I should have enough bulky yarn for a blanket or two, then can start with less bulky, and then thinner stuff, upping complexity as I go. I am hoping to kick out at least three hats this year, perhaps matching gloves or mittens for two of those. It's... a goal. No idea, though, how long this stuff takes to make?
As to chain mail? Not until I can sort how to easily weld the pieces. Which also means I have to be able to afford the kit. I... don't quite have the resources available for that, currently. Time, perhaps.
Later.
Finished fasting.
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Enough was enough. I hadn't hit a wall this time. It's more that my diabetes was managed more quickly. My blood sugar peaked two hour ago, at 169. It has since dropped to 147. It was a bit higher earlier though, into the 140's. So a twenty to thirty point jump on a meal isn't a problem as I measure things. And, to be honest, for the last few months, a read of 169 would have been superior.
I wonder if my body hates fasting so much that it kicks over to keto more swiftly in order to cease fasting? It, I was amazed how quickly and deeply it fell. That with consuming cream, between an half and a full cup of cream while fasting. Food, the right food, in the right amounts, really is the only medicine most need... for some things.
What did I break the fast with? Iowa sweet corn and chicken legs. Six legs, which really isn't much, and probably two and more cups of corn. Oh, and a now rare glass of milk. I turn most of it to kefir now. Cuts the carbs, adds probiotics. Plus carbonation. Love me some carbonated milk! I think I'll have a glass of that, then tea and cream to get fats in. Too stuffed for more chicken.
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Enough was enough. I hadn't hit a wall this time. It's more that my diabetes was managed more quickly. My blood sugar peaked two hour ago, at 169. It has since dropped to 147. It was a bit higher earlier though, into the 140's. So a twenty to thirty point jump on a meal isn't a problem as I measure things. And, to be honest, for the last few months, a read of 169 would have been superior.
I wonder if my body hates fasting so much that it kicks over to keto more swiftly in order to cease fasting? It, I was amazed how quickly and deeply it fell. That with consuming cream, between an half and a full cup of cream while fasting. Food, the right food, in the right amounts, really is the only medicine most need... for some things.
What did I break the fast with? Iowa sweet corn and chicken legs. Six legs, which really isn't much, and probably two and more cups of corn. Oh, and a now rare glass of milk. I turn most of it to kefir now. Cuts the carbs, adds probiotics. Plus carbonation. Love me some carbonated milk! I think I'll have a glass of that, then tea and cream to get fats in. Too stuffed for more chicken.
Tuesday, October 9, 2018
Raining, and bitterly dark.
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A smell woke me. Fire. Not close, too close, or intense, too intense. It must be a fireplace, or wood stove, heater... perhaps several. A comforting scent.
I woke without undo pain this day. But pushed into gear. Ducks. I am not worried about when, regarding food. Feed is based on need, but generally twice a day, once in a pinch, none once a month. I merely want them to have plenty of water, which isn't a time thing. But I do want them fully closed in when it grows dark. I know what lurks in the darkness. It is amazing how quickly it grows so dark.
Sleep was good. Dreams, but I don't think much remains of them. The taste of her lips, but not her name. We must have been in our teens, if from memory... which... I only knew a dozen women, three of them were adult, four? It narrows the choices but I really only recall her general slim shape and lips. I miss... yeah.
Fasting blood sugar surprised me, 141. It's a beautiful thing. I'll have my cream tea right after this first cold tea... earlier by far than usual. I am curious if that, even the idea of it, lowers blood sugar. I suspect some of this is psychosomatic. Not all of it, probably... not yet.
Raining, dark, but up to the high forties. Crazy. Yesterday it dipped to 32ish. I half expected snow, by logic though not my other senses. Rained yesterday too. I watered before rain, yesterday, if a bit overlong, then feared a harder freeze. Fall and spring can be so messy. Still, good seasons. Can potentially do more in the cool than the cold or hot, if navigating the waterworks becomes the trick. Later.
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A smell woke me. Fire. Not close, too close, or intense, too intense. It must be a fireplace, or wood stove, heater... perhaps several. A comforting scent.
I woke without undo pain this day. But pushed into gear. Ducks. I am not worried about when, regarding food. Feed is based on need, but generally twice a day, once in a pinch, none once a month. I merely want them to have plenty of water, which isn't a time thing. But I do want them fully closed in when it grows dark. I know what lurks in the darkness. It is amazing how quickly it grows so dark.
Sleep was good. Dreams, but I don't think much remains of them. The taste of her lips, but not her name. We must have been in our teens, if from memory... which... I only knew a dozen women, three of them were adult, four? It narrows the choices but I really only recall her general slim shape and lips. I miss... yeah.
Fasting blood sugar surprised me, 141. It's a beautiful thing. I'll have my cream tea right after this first cold tea... earlier by far than usual. I am curious if that, even the idea of it, lowers blood sugar. I suspect some of this is psychosomatic. Not all of it, probably... not yet.
Raining, dark, but up to the high forties. Crazy. Yesterday it dipped to 32ish. I half expected snow, by logic though not my other senses. Rained yesterday too. I watered before rain, yesterday, if a bit overlong, then feared a harder freeze. Fall and spring can be so messy. Still, good seasons. Can potentially do more in the cool than the cold or hot, if navigating the waterworks becomes the trick. Later.
No post office or town.
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The battery finally quit grumbling and keeled over. I have a charger... which, if I am not mistaken, is also dead. I called my usual shop, they are thinking later in the week. I'll see about a jump. Failing that a tow. Question is, do I want to seek a jump to see if it will even work before the day? So tired.
Meant to be asleep by now. Time just slipped away. Then I got stuck messing with this. I did check blood sugar one last time. Back down, to 124. After it went up, I... just had to see if it would continue to climb or drop. I dreaded to know, but had to check. If I could get, and keep, it between 80 and 120, I'd be golden. I'd take 100 to 140. Would? Will have it.
I guess I'll sleep now. Did get a shower in. The fowl are breathing fresh air, fed and watered... if water needs to be filled or changed later. I'll... do one or the other if I have to do it at midnight. Good night.
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The battery finally quit grumbling and keeled over. I have a charger... which, if I am not mistaken, is also dead. I called my usual shop, they are thinking later in the week. I'll see about a jump. Failing that a tow. Question is, do I want to seek a jump to see if it will even work before the day? So tired.
Meant to be asleep by now. Time just slipped away. Then I got stuck messing with this. I did check blood sugar one last time. Back down, to 124. After it went up, I... just had to see if it would continue to climb or drop. I dreaded to know, but had to check. If I could get, and keep, it between 80 and 120, I'd be golden. I'd take 100 to 140. Would? Will have it.
I guess I'll sleep now. Did get a shower in. The fowl are breathing fresh air, fed and watered... if water needs to be filled or changed later. I'll... do one or the other if I have to do it at midnight. Good night.
Blood readings can be so strange.
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The blood sugar did drop. It was more a matter of time. By the time I got around to tea and cream, but before consumption, it had dropped to 130. A few hours after consuming tea with cream, it dropped to 122. I just tested again, it is up to 130. One more day of fasting and I should be good for a while.
About to open up for the ducks, and get a shower. Then crash for a bit. I have some things this afternoon.
I am almost finished with the game. Then to crocheting. The game has sort of eaten my life, if there wasn't much functional life to me to start. And it has kept me awake, more aware. I am hoping crocheting can... offer me similar. I am coming at it from 180° opposite of why women do this. They need something to take their minds off... everything. I need something to... wake me, keep me in the present and local. I need reals, they need escape.
Oh, going to make it to the post office this morning too. I have items in. Hope nothing has been returned. Oh well. Later. Or, good night, actually, mostly.
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The blood sugar did drop. It was more a matter of time. By the time I got around to tea and cream, but before consumption, it had dropped to 130. A few hours after consuming tea with cream, it dropped to 122. I just tested again, it is up to 130. One more day of fasting and I should be good for a while.
About to open up for the ducks, and get a shower. Then crash for a bit. I have some things this afternoon.
I am almost finished with the game. Then to crocheting. The game has sort of eaten my life, if there wasn't much functional life to me to start. And it has kept me awake, more aware. I am hoping crocheting can... offer me similar. I am coming at it from 180° opposite of why women do this. They need something to take their minds off... everything. I need something to... wake me, keep me in the present and local. I need reals, they need escape.
Oh, going to make it to the post office this morning too. I have items in. Hope nothing has been returned. Oh well. Later. Or, good night, actually, mostly.
Sleep was good.
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Woke on a sour note. It felt like a solid punch, solid enough to jar the liver. Funky. It was dulled by sleep, was a one time thing, and is sliding off the radar. Aspirin may or may not be helping. Other than that, life is peachy. I am hoping to do a few things tonight.
Fasting blood sugar was 181, two hours later it was 177. Go figure. I do, sometimes, slightly cheat on my fast, heavy cream and tea or broth. I had it yesterday. Thought it might throw things off, but just the opposite. I'll see about tonight. A hundred point blood sugar drop, in eleven hours yesterday. Crazy.
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Woke on a sour note. It felt like a solid punch, solid enough to jar the liver. Funky. It was dulled by sleep, was a one time thing, and is sliding off the radar. Aspirin may or may not be helping. Other than that, life is peachy. I am hoping to do a few things tonight.
Fasting blood sugar was 181, two hours later it was 177. Go figure. I do, sometimes, slightly cheat on my fast, heavy cream and tea or broth. I had it yesterday. Thought it might throw things off, but just the opposite. I'll see about tonight. A hundred point blood sugar drop, in eleven hours yesterday. Crazy.
Monday, October 8, 2018
Never did sleep.
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Couldn't. Not really sleepy even now.
Crazy thing? Fasting since waking from my nap. Blood sugar was 200 at 10:00... right before my nap, then 222 at 19:40, a late fasting test. It dropped to 145 at 4:31. I didn't believe... trust... that number, so tested several hours later... 122. Okay. Still, will fast for another day or two.
Not much else. May crash shortly. Good day and night.
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Couldn't. Not really sleepy even now.
Crazy thing? Fasting since waking from my nap. Blood sugar was 200 at 10:00... right before my nap, then 222 at 19:40, a late fasting test. It dropped to 145 at 4:31. I didn't believe... trust... that number, so tested several hours later... 122. Okay. Still, will fast for another day or two.
Not much else. May crash shortly. Good day and night.
Sunday, October 7, 2018
Long naps.
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Being cold and dark I'll take what control over sleep I may garner. No easy way through. I may have thirty to forty years left, but it'll be a slippery slide down a water shoot rather than a dignified organized exit strategy. Then again, nothing different from the last thirty years.
The hutch were not opened up, but the fowl have been fed, and water refilled yesterday. A change of their water pan, and cleaning of the one currently in us, tomorrow, and some work in their pen... plus putting the rest of the cage shelving together. No more of that will go in the closet... time to rearrange the bedroom.
It's a good day. Pain is unusually light for recent times. I may actually take aspirin just to be, probably, fully pain free for a bit. So close, and it has been so long... yeah, that would be pleasant. Four to six hours, then back to the grind. I don't truly need, but while I am here... Fasting today, and for several days if possible. No sugar replacement. Just raw tea and air.
I watered the grass. Just a bit. I should do it earlier, but I was napping. It is cold out there, but shouldn't freeze. An half hour, every other day, unless it rains. Restart the count after that. More seed in the spring, as needed. But I really have to keep up on watering in the summer. Ugh. Oh, I may try a hot tea ketonic. I usually use coffee, trying something different. Oh, that is, hot beverage of choice (I let it cool to warm-hot), add MTC oil, ketone crystals, and electrolyte powder, plus another ketone-friendly powder. I really have to fix things... eating correctly is not working. Fasting and keto are the only non-bigpharma ways.
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Being cold and dark I'll take what control over sleep I may garner. No easy way through. I may have thirty to forty years left, but it'll be a slippery slide down a water shoot rather than a dignified organized exit strategy. Then again, nothing different from the last thirty years.
The hutch were not opened up, but the fowl have been fed, and water refilled yesterday. A change of their water pan, and cleaning of the one currently in us, tomorrow, and some work in their pen... plus putting the rest of the cage shelving together. No more of that will go in the closet... time to rearrange the bedroom.
It's a good day. Pain is unusually light for recent times. I may actually take aspirin just to be, probably, fully pain free for a bit. So close, and it has been so long... yeah, that would be pleasant. Four to six hours, then back to the grind. I don't truly need, but while I am here... Fasting today, and for several days if possible. No sugar replacement. Just raw tea and air.
I watered the grass. Just a bit. I should do it earlier, but I was napping. It is cold out there, but shouldn't freeze. An half hour, every other day, unless it rains. Restart the count after that. More seed in the spring, as needed. But I really have to keep up on watering in the summer. Ugh. Oh, I may try a hot tea ketonic. I usually use coffee, trying something different. Oh, that is, hot beverage of choice (I let it cool to warm-hot), add MTC oil, ketone crystals, and electrolyte powder, plus another ketone-friendly powder. I really have to fix things... eating correctly is not working. Fasting and keto are the only non-bigpharma ways.
Day days?
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Finally. Maybe. If the pain can be endured I can usually switch back to days. For how long is the question. I can handle the pain any time, if it is the only current suffering. Although I may not choose such even so. If I just made it through a dark hard period, I may choose to rest before attempting to change my schedule.
I am hurting, tired, weak, and beset externally at the moment. But I need days. I didn't brute force the effort though. I saw a potential back door, took it. It took longer, and isn't always possible. This time it worked. The cool allowed me to sleep earlier, so as to engineer my new schedule through extra sleep.
I have decided, this year, to put the furnace at 68 F. I'll just wear more clothes. And, if necessary, sleep more. It wasn't a money saving thing when formulated, though it seems to be working out as a feature due to Social Security spoofing again. I'm working out what to wear to be just right. The thing is, that changes for many reasons. And, sometimes, just sitting makes it impossible to warm. I'll get better at it, I'm sure.
I've been up since 3:45 or so. It's about time for a nap. It's dark out, which doesn't help. Blood sugar was 161, fasting, this morning. Not sure why it came down, but I'll take it. Consuming kefir rather than milk? Maybe. I'm hoping for better yet. Nothing but tea and it's up to 200. I need to eat. Difficult as I'm not digesting well, and don't have much on hand. Hmm, perhaps I'm up to fasting?
As with changing sleep cycle, I have to be ready for extra suffering in order to fast. The allowances are different though, more on what sorts of pain can be present. I'll give fasting a shot. Oh, some entertainment (?) for you.
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Finally. Maybe. If the pain can be endured I can usually switch back to days. For how long is the question. I can handle the pain any time, if it is the only current suffering. Although I may not choose such even so. If I just made it through a dark hard period, I may choose to rest before attempting to change my schedule.
I am hurting, tired, weak, and beset externally at the moment. But I need days. I didn't brute force the effort though. I saw a potential back door, took it. It took longer, and isn't always possible. This time it worked. The cool allowed me to sleep earlier, so as to engineer my new schedule through extra sleep.
I have decided, this year, to put the furnace at 68 F. I'll just wear more clothes. And, if necessary, sleep more. It wasn't a money saving thing when formulated, though it seems to be working out as a feature due to Social Security spoofing again. I'm working out what to wear to be just right. The thing is, that changes for many reasons. And, sometimes, just sitting makes it impossible to warm. I'll get better at it, I'm sure.
I've been up since 3:45 or so. It's about time for a nap. It's dark out, which doesn't help. Blood sugar was 161, fasting, this morning. Not sure why it came down, but I'll take it. Consuming kefir rather than milk? Maybe. I'm hoping for better yet. Nothing but tea and it's up to 200. I need to eat. Difficult as I'm not digesting well, and don't have much on hand. Hmm, perhaps I'm up to fasting?
As with changing sleep cycle, I have to be ready for extra suffering in order to fast. The allowances are different though, more on what sorts of pain can be present. I'll give fasting a shot. Oh, some entertainment (?) for you.
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