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It is looking more like SS disability is going to be denied. Whether it is Utah, or even Trump, pushing for cuts or employment increases, bureaucrats attacking vets or marginal Trump supporters, or taking ss numbers and files to give to illegals... it is looking like a done deal.
No, "conservative" politicians aren't on our side. The big money comes from big biz, and they want slave labor... and get it. One of the things they do for their slaves is make sure bureaucrats offer them SS, and other government benefits, so they can pay slave labor wages, often with stolen id's. I know they were helping one get to work using my numbers, plus probably gave the last half year I didn't receive, to someone else. Had the balls to send me the paperwork stating so. They don't care if it is stolen from an American. I think they target vets, for many reasons. Rome did similarly, when real money became so scarce it couldn't be further stretched... or printed.
I will try to figure out how to live here. It may not be possible. Too many things need done and there simply isn't enough coin to be frugal enough to do what is needed. Just replacing a window is scary. A furnace replacement? A loan, but, that digs into what I don't have. I think that ate the previous owners. Loans and/or work needed?
No, I think it is best to clear out, then try to sell. Then be looking for a very modest place to live on little. "Owning" is dangerous... buying that is. But renting is very dangerous. Increased rates, ending the contract, lack of care. There are places I could buy a home for what I might get out of a sale. But they are places I couldn't or wouldn't, or both, live.
Iowa is an example. Too hot, too cold, and too left. They just sent a man to prison for sixteen years for burning a queer flag. They won't even talk to people who burn the US flag! No, Iowa wouldn't work. Nor Alaska. I'm not sure about Idaho, Montana, or Wyoming. Possible. But... to find a clean, Christian, small town.
Yeah. I have a lot of cleaning and clearing. I itched to start tonight. It... I just couldn't start quite yet. My muscles ached for it, my hands wanted to dig in. Just going through things will be a chore. I will keep things that are useful, can help a more frugal life. Much will go. Most of it. Even being winter, I will get an industrial bin as soon as I get half a room of boxes to go. I have moving boxes for what will be kept.
Ugh. A shower and cleaning the bathroom. Then a load of laundry? I... can't stand. Not tonight. Probably.
Why can't they just let me rest? So tired, confused.
Showing posts with label Social Security. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Social Security. Show all posts
Saturday, December 21, 2019
Sunday, October 20, 2019
Troubled.
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Have you ever worked too hard, to the point you feel oxygen deprived enough that perhaps you might pass out? Have you ever done that while sitting for hours? There you go. I thought, perhaps, being active, doing something, as a reverse psychology being applied to physiology, might help. NOPE! I came close to passing out.
I let the ducks out, just for an hour. While the water can be open in the pool, I want them to enjoy. However, I am keeping it short, as mentioned. I went out to let them back in. Usually they go right in... unless they just aren't interested. Around and around we went. The second, going on third time I thought to check. Ah. The inner, screen, door was shut. Perhaps when I pulled the food bin out? I have to close the door when filling their food tray. Usually I open it afterward. I do think someone goes through, from time to time. "Borrows" feed, just goofing, dunno?
Anyway... Still, once the gate is back open doesn't mean they will just go in. They have become accustomed to the chase. The trick, then, is to get them to stop near the outer door, think, and reconsider what to do. Only then will they then notice the inner gate is open and go in. That about clocked me. I was seeing stars so thick I wasn't sure I would make it to my chair. Actually, I don't remember from (I hope) just before closing the inner gate and sitting. I'll check that and the back door soon. I've also received a wonderful headache. Left, high center slightly above the middle of the center of the brow. Like a spike, but not terrible pain... throbbing, not constant. Well, and with a drawn gut, as if I ate cardboard.
I have been eating carefully. Watching keto and calories. A burger patty and lettuce bed, or cheese and salami with a fatted coffee. Keeping things to ounces, cream to a quarter cup, and only three meals. Oh, but blood sugar was up to 166. I had attempted to cut fast acting insulin. That just isn't working. But that wouldn't cause the near crash.
I actually crash like that fairly often. There just isn't a reason to whine about it. And I haven't actually ever passed out, that I can recall. They have to figure this out if they want me to work. And, no, it isn't psychiatric. That is the lazy stupid excuse for not diagnosing and treating what may simply be a failing body. They then just need to admit it is physical, debilitating, real, but unknown.
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Have you ever worked too hard, to the point you feel oxygen deprived enough that perhaps you might pass out? Have you ever done that while sitting for hours? There you go. I thought, perhaps, being active, doing something, as a reverse psychology being applied to physiology, might help. NOPE! I came close to passing out.
I let the ducks out, just for an hour. While the water can be open in the pool, I want them to enjoy. However, I am keeping it short, as mentioned. I went out to let them back in. Usually they go right in... unless they just aren't interested. Around and around we went. The second, going on third time I thought to check. Ah. The inner, screen, door was shut. Perhaps when I pulled the food bin out? I have to close the door when filling their food tray. Usually I open it afterward. I do think someone goes through, from time to time. "Borrows" feed, just goofing, dunno?
Anyway... Still, once the gate is back open doesn't mean they will just go in. They have become accustomed to the chase. The trick, then, is to get them to stop near the outer door, think, and reconsider what to do. Only then will they then notice the inner gate is open and go in. That about clocked me. I was seeing stars so thick I wasn't sure I would make it to my chair. Actually, I don't remember from (I hope) just before closing the inner gate and sitting. I'll check that and the back door soon. I've also received a wonderful headache. Left, high center slightly above the middle of the center of the brow. Like a spike, but not terrible pain... throbbing, not constant. Well, and with a drawn gut, as if I ate cardboard.
I have been eating carefully. Watching keto and calories. A burger patty and lettuce bed, or cheese and salami with a fatted coffee. Keeping things to ounces, cream to a quarter cup, and only three meals. Oh, but blood sugar was up to 166. I had attempted to cut fast acting insulin. That just isn't working. But that wouldn't cause the near crash.
I actually crash like that fairly often. There just isn't a reason to whine about it. And I haven't actually ever passed out, that I can recall. They have to figure this out if they want me to work. And, no, it isn't psychiatric. That is the lazy stupid excuse for not diagnosing and treating what may simply be a failing body. They then just need to admit it is physical, debilitating, real, but unknown.
Sunday, October 13, 2019
Cool, not cold.
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It is in the mid forties. It was 28ยบ when feeding the ducks this morning, very possibly the low for the day, at least so far. I was surprised one of the hens continues to lay. A big golden brown egg a day. Checking water is the real trick, if it doesn't look like they drink much. Or bath. Still, I will keep it open to them.
I thawed a few packs of older ground lamb and beef, the last of it. I added a few eggs, some almond flower, and spices. Separating the bulk into patties, which were then grilled. Bland, plain, but food. I'll slowly eat that with... whatever else I can find. I added cream cheese to one patty, didn't help. Truly bland. I will try to find a way to use it to more flavorful dining.
I also purchased potted meats to try early this summer. While technically keto, they are difficult to eat. I have lightly sought recipes in which to use those. But, really, they are made for slathering on white bread until death from diabetes or cardiac arrest. Some of the keto flat breads and pitas I put out to dry, with the weather change hitting so fast and hard, became crackers. I may try adding mayo, possibly mustard, and using the keto crackers as a base. Highly acidic too, like most instant coffees... I went with lower acid dehydrated coffee, but it doesn't have much caffeine bang. At least it doesn't feel like I ate glass. I'll work on potted meats that way.
I am down to... whatever I have and not much of it. Not a lot of choice. Can't turn up my nose unless I really can't eat it. Although I do have to stay away from candy. Cream is very good, but there is something about liquids that just don't quite make a meal. I need to work on sauces and gravies. I have homemade beef broth, and keto flour alternatives, now to find recipes that work for me. That would cut how much meat would be needed. Ugh.
Later.
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It is in the mid forties. It was 28ยบ when feeding the ducks this morning, very possibly the low for the day, at least so far. I was surprised one of the hens continues to lay. A big golden brown egg a day. Checking water is the real trick, if it doesn't look like they drink much. Or bath. Still, I will keep it open to them.
I thawed a few packs of older ground lamb and beef, the last of it. I added a few eggs, some almond flower, and spices. Separating the bulk into patties, which were then grilled. Bland, plain, but food. I'll slowly eat that with... whatever else I can find. I added cream cheese to one patty, didn't help. Truly bland. I will try to find a way to use it to more flavorful dining.
I also purchased potted meats to try early this summer. While technically keto, they are difficult to eat. I have lightly sought recipes in which to use those. But, really, they are made for slathering on white bread until death from diabetes or cardiac arrest. Some of the keto flat breads and pitas I put out to dry, with the weather change hitting so fast and hard, became crackers. I may try adding mayo, possibly mustard, and using the keto crackers as a base. Highly acidic too, like most instant coffees... I went with lower acid dehydrated coffee, but it doesn't have much caffeine bang. At least it doesn't feel like I ate glass. I'll work on potted meats that way.
I am down to... whatever I have and not much of it. Not a lot of choice. Can't turn up my nose unless I really can't eat it. Although I do have to stay away from candy. Cream is very good, but there is something about liquids that just don't quite make a meal. I need to work on sauces and gravies. I have homemade beef broth, and keto flour alternatives, now to find recipes that work for me. That would cut how much meat would be needed. Ugh.
Later.
Tuesday, August 13, 2019
Thursday, September 6, 2018
Alright, Skippy.
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The second load of laundry is in. That will be that, for this cycle, if I hope to fold that and put it up. It will be three loads, actually. I gave up on dishes. Or, more, the way I was trying to do them. Usually the kitchen sink is better, save when I can't stand for long. Then I go back to the tub in the tub. I can sit while doing them that way. And, yes, they are in soaking.
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The second load of laundry is in. That will be that, for this cycle, if I hope to fold that and put it up. It will be three loads, actually. I gave up on dishes. Or, more, the way I was trying to do them. Usually the kitchen sink is better, save when I can't stand for long. Then I go back to the tub in the tub. I can sit while doing them that way. And, yes, they are in soaking.
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