Forgot to post.

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Was a bit chilly, when I woke.  A bit of a struggle waking, and staying asleep.  I started waking around 18:00, but had been up until at least noon.  So I wanted more sleep.  Not sure how much more sleep I got.  Perhaps a half hour, as much as two.  I just... don't know.  All good though.  I... woke when I couldn't sleep more, and laying down when I can't sleep is a misery.

Tea, to start.  And the last handful of walnuts remaining.  I forgot to check blood sugar until after I had eaten, and then tested right after.  Which... means the reading is definitely high, ten to twenty points?  More, or maybe a bit less.  Most likely more, if other than suggested.  It was 132... higher than wanted, but not a horrible number even if not.  A good number, most likely.  All the averages are dropping a few points every few days to week.  Back on track, mostly.

Gah!

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First try didn't work.  A lot of time wasted.  Attempted to use an external harddrive for storing the backup.  Nope.  Or, at least, the console couldn't find it.  Albeit, I had used it to store a lot of games, as well.  Okay.  Fine.

So, I fund some flash drives, thumb drives, whatever.  Checked several out.  The problem is, as it was set up, they didn't have enough space for the backup.  So... I removed the shells of the games... the main of them are kept on the ssd.  Then tried.  There was enough space, so I am having it backup to that.  If... it works.

I'll find out after it takes it's pokey time backing up the system.  Then, after I change in the ssd and to a reinstall.  Or... attempt to do one.  It might not work.  This is why people hate working with this crap, at times.  The instructions are clear as mud.  It's more like invocations, some luck, and just chance, whether doing it one way, or another, or the other, will work... or not.  It eats time.  If I want time eaten, it is in playing stupid games, not waiting for a timekiller to become functional.

Quite a task.

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As it turns out, getting the shower, dressed, and to town, really did me a job.  Still, glad I got in.  I am set for a goodly while, mostly.

Thirty pounds of ground pork butt, in two pound packages.  Two of those out, ready to be turned into sausage, and maybe right on into patties.  As well, one package of knuckle meat, which turns out was the secondary roast I had selected.  I didn' realize top sirloin was knuckle meat.  Only... I did?  Yes, but I never put the two together.  I knew where it was from, but didn't think of it terms of being on the knuckle of the knee.  Even though I knew it came from there?  :p

So, tonight, I will make about a half a pound of that into beef tartar.  The woman helping me also suggested that the round roast is good for that, perhaps better because it doesn't have seems, and sinue?  Some such.  Which, is good to know.

There was a bit of a mistake.  I had been sure to ask about the price, and been told $4.49 a pound.  I am sure of it.  But, when I got there, the knuckle... top sirloin... was $6.99 a pound?  I... just couldn't do that.  I felt ashamed, but my budget... couldn't do nearly double.

But, first, I had thought I was ordering roasts, but had been about to receive steaks.  Far too chewy for steaks, and already too thin to make thinner.  No good way to cut it, that I could see.

I... was really embarassed.  I was about to just put those three roasts back, after they had been replaced instead of the steaks.  I wasn't going to cry, but my face either went pale or red, or maybe both.  If my expression conveyed embarrassment, not anger.  It happens.

They made it all good.  Got me the roasts, priced them what I had been quoted.  I promise, that is what I was told.  Though... mistakes happen.  I was quite grateful.  And... now... can have both roasts for thin cut, and one for tartar tonight.  I have lemon, lime, jalapeno, capers, gherkins, and a few other things should I choose.  Probably just going with lemon, a bit of jalapeno, capers, and of course extra virgin olive oil.  Mouth is watering.

After that, I would like to get the sausage put together.  Just all, tonight, probably simple italian spice blend, salt, pepper, and fennel seed.  Nothing fancy.  Two pounds of that.  I may fry one small patty, after blending the rest, to do a taste check.  Getting just the right amound of salt and pepper is a trick.  Best to approach from too little than too much, of course.

I don't always like me.  But when I am working with food?  I... like me.  Curious, inquisitive, constructive, creative...  I used to only enjoy cooking, and else, because I liked eating and my options were thin.  Now?  Now I truly enjoy the processes, start to stop, when I am able.

Yes, I bought regular baquettes.  I didn't have time to get the keto flours together, let alone make keto bread yet.  And, I... knew I am pushing it.  So... yes...  I'll make fresh garlic butter, slather that on, and get those going.  Then begin in on the meat part.  It should be much quicker to dice the meat than to roast the bread.

Oh, I did get some ingredients for salsa and/or guacamole.  I won't make that today.  Perhaps tomorrow afternoon.  But I did run a couple of large doses of rock salt through to pulverization, in order to ready the molcajete seasoned, or such.  Either that or rice... I just think rock salt would be better for a flavor imparting standpoint.

So... it might not be rocket science, but engineering can be backbreaking work!  Still, I don't mind.  Now to get some food, then on to bed.  I won't set up dishes, can't get to them before morning.  And, if I am to have a chance to make it to church, and get a shower first, I will need to have that open.  I can only do just so much.

But the next week is coming.  I... can finish the dishes, sweep the bathroom and hall to it, then mop.  Hit the kitchen table.  Clear the kitchen floor and probably at least sweep that.  Then, perhaps, mop.  I am hoping to get caught up, and again ahead by a goodly shot, this coming week.  While learning how to grill on the flattop.  Well, and set up flours, for various keto breads.

Yes, I was able to find affordable xanthan gum, and picked up guar gum to try with things.  Though I think that is more of a cold recipe thickener?  Perhaps they are partially interchangeable?  I'll... figure it out.  Just seemed like not a bad thing else to purchase.  I know both are used in keto recipes.

Ugh...  So tired though.  Another dose of painkiller?  Maybe.  Later, or even goodnight.  If... only to myself?  Who knows.

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I got busy, then forgot to post.  I... guess I'll post and late post.

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Done?  Well, almost.  I got the guacamole finished.  The set about making the beef tartar.  The guacamole was the simple, straightforward version, in the molcajete.  Oh, I... did buy corn chips too.

For the beef tartar, I only did a few things different.  Different from the directions I had, and different from each other.  In both I added nearly invisibly finely sliced yellow onion.  I like the strength.  Just a quarter of an onion between both dishes.  In the other, I added diced jalapeno.  I think I like the jalapeno better.  But both would work on any given day.

I rolled that roast up, and put it in the freezer.  It will be much easier to cut next time.  Still, I did fairly well.  I was happy with the size, chew, and flavor.  As for the baquettes, those were only so so.  Crisp enough.  Perhaps too much garlic?  I minced it, in the butter, with the stick blender.  Maybe too much garlic?  Maybe.  Still, it wasn't horrible, just a bit... much maybe?

Down it went, smoothly and well.  Next time I will add artichoke hearts, but leave all else the same... definitely including about half a jalapeno.  Maybe without bread, or with keto bread by then.  Very pleasant.  Do you have any idea how much that stuff costs, out on the town... assuming you can find it?  It was a small fortune, last time I had it.  And I definitely didn't get as much.  Wonderful.  Now for some guacamole and chips.

Exhausted.  It's about time to try to get to sleep.  Well, after some of the guacamole.  Yeah.  It's been a good day.  Later.

Nearly noon.

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Bits and pieces, through the night and morning.  Not... a lot.  Short work periods.  No heavy work.  But a lot of little things, between resting.  Couldn't really game.  That, too, takes energy.  I would rather do mechanical labor than game, but that isn't always an available option.

I didn't get a shower, but the tradeoffs were good.  I didn't get recycling gathered and out, but will.  I got much else I wanted, and a few more things.  The coffee seemed ready, this morning.  So I pulled the grains, which are in a nut milk bag, then put the liquid in the refrigerator.  As well, I reset kefir.  It is smelling off.  I don't understand.  How could it be off already?  Maybe it is just my perception.

I checked the creme fraiche, but that seems... off... too?  I just don't understand.  It has worked perfectly the last few times.  Very strange.

It snowed again last night.  Perhaps two more inches down, though there isn't a foot of snow on the ground anymore.  And some areas are finally becoming bare... of snow.  And it seems to be soaking in, which is greatly needed.  A few weeks, or even months, of a healthy soaking, and the aquifers, general surface water tables, and such should improve.

Another three to four inches.

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Yes, more snow.  And it is still coming down hard.

I redid what I had done.  Only, this time, I am shoveling a path to the front, and clearing the forward... southern... however you want to call the sidewalk to my front stoop.  Just... because.  Didn't wear gloves or a scarf, so had to return before I could finish.  Then again, it's breaking my balls again.  So would have had to return anyway.

So far, we have had around eight inches?  Seven for sure.  It's beautiful.  But could be lethal without much effort, more so up into the mountains.  Still, life depends on death.  For balance?  Well, just because.  If no one, or thing, died, room would be tight, and no one nor anything would eat.  Just... a thought.

I'll warm up a bit, then get back out.  I'll try to keep up on those areas.  Just... to say I did something.  Gonna crash after this one or another one.  Though I'd crash last time, but made it through, strangely.  Surprises abound.

Oh... I keep trying to get to where I can remember morse code again.  I think I had it, once, so very long ago.  Whether I did or didn't is a whole other thing.  But, I'd like to get it back now.  Just... because.  Then, find a source, and keep the function in better shape.  Here is... a way that looks good to me.  Maybe?  Maybe.

Better.

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A trick?  Maybe.  Water wasn't quenching my thirst.  Electrolytes and vinegar in it helped, but still seemed too thick.  Milk, of course, is too much.  A natural "coca-cola", really.  With similar carbs, regardless of what you do with the fats.  The lactose in everything from skim to full-fat is what is the dietary problem, not the fat content.  And, I couldn't keep up, can't currently keep up, on kefir.  Just... can't stand, when needed, as often as needed, or keep track intellectually.  Just too... tired? confused? foggy?  Something in there.

Still, while not continuously, my mind does work.  My will is in place, if not always active.  I have ideas, plans, goals.  Not... able to work them the fastest, but, from time to time, they... come into play.

As for hydration?  I came up with a different plan.  Full strength is too much, no real options outside the formulas, too little fails as well.  So... reduce and alternate the formula.  Hmm?  Ah, by reducing electrolyte powder from one or two dosers* (*measure by the manufacturer, usually a scoop of some size for some... recommended volume for use by day or portion or such) down to half, or quarter, of that dose.  As well, adding vinegar in a very reduced portion.  Basically producing a concoction which just barely has any flavor, yet is plainly not plain water.

Does it work?  Yes!  Though, probably, as a variation of the other 'menu' items.  Plain water will still be on the tap, pun intended if not literally as I used reverse osmosis, and the heavier dosing will remain on the menu, as well, when I awake terribly thirsty, my throat dries out creating a severe situation, or for dehydration quick uptake otherwise.  But, milk will not be consumed anymore.  It... causes a lot of phlegm, dehydrates, and is full of sugar (lactose).

I started out with a heavy dose of the stuff this morning, then milk.  Was... not feeling well to start, didn't improve.  But, since, have had to lighter doses of the concoction and am improving.  As well, the next drink will be just a quarter dose of electrolytes, without vinegar.  Just to taste.  After that, I'll try just water and a light dose of vinegar.

So rough lately.  I need to figure out how to make life better.  I have some things I need to do.  People are calling me to see if I am dead.  That's... not a good thing.  I don't want people to worry, and I don't want them to have to have concern.  I... need to get up, and going.  Or... more than I have been.  Ugh.

While I can't listen to music, I can watch a few vids.  Here are a few of interest, lately.  I can't watch or listen for too long, my mind, concentration, won't allow it.  And I won't watch most modern vids which are too long.  Don't trust most modern videographers.  Everything on y.t. is considered... compromised.  They are pro-multicultural (in spite of that's obvious failure), pro-socialism/communism (excluding about all other actual truths and the cons of those), anti-American, Anti-Christian, etc.  Once in a while you can find a vid that... seems to sidestep the propaganda imposed, generally, required really, by y.t.  At least offering questions or answers of some merit.  At least... if you... are limited from reading, by lack of focus, it is... something.  Rare, but it happens.  Here are a few.

Breakfast and a project.

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There was something I have been meaning to do.  And, if the dremel actually worked, it should be able to do it.  Without further consultation, I put the correct pieces together, then connected them to the device, and?  Worked exactly as hoped.  BUT.  I cut too low.  Well, that is why I had several pieces.  So, no harm, no foul.  I just grabbed another one.  Cut it as well.  Then, I got the barrel sander out, attached it, and?  It... worked?  Yeah.  I may have to sand a bit more.  But... done.  

I could do a few more, but one is enough for now.  Proof of concept, currently.  If it ends up working, perhaps I will make a few more.  Okay.  My theory of the device being a major psyop is... not holding together, or aging, well.  I have used this before, many times, in various ways, to utter failure.  Why... is it working this time?

No more, yet.

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I had to shut the house down, turning the furnace up.  It had dropped to 64 and seemed to be doing down further.  Odd.  It was still 50 outside, but... something... rain, snow, on the wind.  Rain had been falling, from time to time.  Spatters, but it was hanging in the air.  That isn't a normal 50 out there.

I set the alarm in order to test blood sugar.  I have been eating carefully, if less than intended even so.  Not... hungry?  That isn't exactly true.  I AM hungry, I just can't eat?  Something like that.  As well, no sweetener, or very little.  I do have some in kefir, every third or fourth meal of that.

I am hoping, with blood sugar crashing on insulin, that with a little care and diligence, I might be able to coast blood sugar down... just with food and drink choices?  And?  Last I checked, it really is working.  It hit 162 about two and an half hours after the previous meal.  It's been a few hours since the test.  Urhm, an hour that is.

I may have a kefir, with nothing.  No sweeteners, no nuts, no cheese... just kefir.  About two cups, sometimes three.  Then, gaming to try to get going.  I am hoping to hit dishes, trash, and laundry before going to bed in a few hours.  I need something, more, in my belly though.

I am having odd flushes.  Not sure what that is about?  Ah... too warm.  I set the furnace to 72, but it's 73, and out here in the front room.  Very odd.  I'll shut it down, while I game.  Setting an alarm for an hour, another for two... in the hopes that I will be ready to do the bits of work remaining.  Though... I will do laundry right now, and perhaps reset the dishes to a fresh soapy soak.

Ugh.  Trash will be easy, only one bag, maybe two.  Dishes should be easy too.  And, if I kick the last of laundry out, that... should be good.  Rabbits were good with food and water, last I checked.  Still, I'll check again.  This is the most work I've done in a while.  Enjoying it, even as it is killing me.  Everything aches.

Oh, another shower, tonight?  I sure hope so.  That eased things yesterday.  But, this time, I'll do it when I am finished working.  I should take anacin now.  It'll be taking affect about the time I hop into the shower.  So, this time, I might get to bed without aches and pains, or at least not as severe of ones.

I like it when a plan almost begins to come together and makes sense, especially when it might just work.  Good day. ... Oh... just... a few vids, for your various pleasures.  They aren't too terrible.  Really, rather light study.  Still...  Enjoy or not.  I have no interest in doing more than presenting.

Someone remembers.

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How to season a cast iron skillet without wasting?  Yes, I had posted this before, if not for that reason.  However, two birds, with one stone, is what someone seems to be suggesting... with my very own proffered stone?  I should think so.  And?  Absolutely.  My problem is, currently, I don't have fresh garlic.  I think, as things are going, I may be able to remedy that shortly.

How to do food?

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My goal is to cut consumption, along with the control of certain aspects of that consumption.  The amount of macros, of which there are three, carbs, protein, and fat.  Consumption is a two edged thing, as it involves quantity and calories, perhaps even satiety... how full I feel.  It's a tricky game, and while heading into keto, it is a sliding scale sort of thing... meaning I can go from having no hunger to all of a sudden being hungry no matter how much I eat.

If feeding the right amount of macros, especially getting in fat initially, the body has to relearn, or just plain learn, how to consume fats for it's energy needs.  It doesn't want to do that.  So?  So, no matter how many fats you eat, your body will balk at being satisfied with it.  Sometimes you simply have to go a little hungry.  Other times, if you are leading up to failure, it is best to add more fats.  Eventually the body figures out that it won't get what it wants, so will make due.  On the good side, when it learns to make do, it actually is much easier to satisfy, the energy returns on less food is better, and a lack of appetite can, does, occur.

Though to, there are two types of hunger.  Perhaps others?  One is purely physical.  It means your body is hitting an energy issue, needs food to continue.  As well, there is a mental hunger.  The body doesn't need anything, but the mind wants it.  Or...  All of it's history leads it to believe that more food is or will shortly be needed... wanted.  It isn't as logical as the physical need category.  But it can be much more severe.  Further, there isn't a mechanical means of ending that sort of hunger.  It isn't satisfied by food... but by some emotional sensation which food might bring, often going well beyond satiation.

I am at some weird stage of keto.  Sometimes I am not hungry, until I drop into starvation mode (if I am not careful), sometimes I am terribly hungry... though as often physically and mentally hungry.  Mirages, in every direction.  The answer?  To a degree, I have to determine what I am facing.  Real, physical, hunger has to be fed.  As lightly as possible, but reasonably.  Mental hunger has to have it's emotional satiation found... often I used tea or other drinks.  Or filling but low calorie and low carb foods.  Or very high fat foods, and just splurge.   As to feeling no hunger?  I must eat, figure it out and eat several times a day... slightly blindly.  Aim for the macros if also try not to graze.  Tricky damned business, but it does pay off.  As well, sometimes I just have to go hungry.  Which to do at any given time?  It's a puzzle which needs figured out each time.

If I am hungry, as I was after dinner, my first objective is to figure out what sort of hunger I am dealing with.  If it is psychological, I attempt to use tea to pacify.  If it is physical, I still attempt to resist, for as long as possible.  If those methods don't work, I attempt to just allow for the hunger, offering it to God much as I do pain.  At some point, however, I act on it.

In this case, I waited between an half hour and hour, letting the hunger be, ignoring it as much as possible.  After a certain time, I realized tea and patience wouldn't cure the problem.  So, I had a kefir berry smoothie.  Nothing fancy, not too much, but slightly, mostly, satiating.  I am, oddly, still hungry.  I will not eat again for an hour or more like two.  Drinking tea in the interim.  Not sure what the problem is.

Even so, that is as good as I can do.  I have recently gone a bit on too little food.  Perhaps this is a price for that, or it is just my body not wanting to go into keto.  I will do my best to keep fat heavy, and if I must splurge, to keep extra fat heavy.  I am finally really beginning to try to nail keto.  I will have to fight for it.  But I think it might work extremely well this time.

Bone stock and kefir are the backbone of keto, currently.  Homecooked, from scratch mostly, though with room for a small potato a week, a small portion of carrots here or there, and a few other not absolute keto foods.  I don't believe in absolutes, just simple to vast majority and minority situations.  It may be a bit rough, sometimes.  But I think this is the way I will work things.  I think I can.

Still slightly hungry, but I can... wait.  Not sure what I will have later, though I think carbquik pancakes, a few fried eggs, and maybe one of the remaining sausages.  I cooked half the sausages, need to use the rest in the next week.  Or... if I get to cooking the chicken, that chicken cream dish, though I might add a sausage in with the carrots at the beginning.

Just offering how I am doing keto, trying to do it.  Each time I have done a run to it, it has gotten smoother.  I have more of the ingredients, more practice, experience, skills, tools...  I will always fall, from time to time, I know that.  But... when you get tight in it, a fall is... almost a boon.  And, sometimes, it doesn't even toss me out of keto or kill my diabetes.  Just not every day, again.  Good luck with your projects, plans, hobbies, and such.  Later.

The wind is up, things are... possibly happening.

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It was at 30 F, when I put the ducks in and brought in waterers, while fetching water.  I decided, however, with the wind, and recently warmer weather, to cover the rabbits.  I don't want them going into shock, getting sick, or even dying.  The one advantage of having at least two to a cage is, when it gets cold, they can huddle... and do.  I may, in the winter, bundle them in colder weather.  Small groups, but, yeah.  With enough room, they may do well enough together?

I did dream of two to three feet.  If it looks like, should that happen, it will be in Colorado.  Time will tell.  While I think we could use precip, I'm not sure two to three feet, at once, only to thaw almost immediately, would be fun.  Then again, maybe they could manage it.  I'm not sure what their limits are out here.  I just know everybody has them.

I am looking for other tools with which to more easily produce keto foods, batters, and drinks.  I found a bullet type blender.  I should have a mini processor somewhere, and a larger if mid-quality food processor.  I have a stick blender, and actually another with more parts to it.  All need cleaned and reset.  Finding a home for each, and a good place to use them, is going to be a trick.  Still, I may get to that yet tonight.

I did do a trim, of whiskers.  I have cleaned all the dishes and then some which were ready.  Most are still air drying.  I would like to get a shower as well.  Plus, I plan on making a cheese cake tonight... double that recipe, giver or take.  She used 140 grams, but the packages arrive in 225 grams, or something... so not quite double.  And I will bake it, if I'm not sure how long?  I would guess eight to fifteen minutes at 350.  I have an idea of what "done" looks and acts like, so... there is a chance.  I'll just start checking at the low end, then every two minutes.  I'll add frozen berries.  If it's too rich, I'll just eat half.

I've also been thinking, a cheese cake doesn't always have to be sweet.  Add, say, tuna, mackerel, or canned salmon... perhaps a few capers and gherkins and or other sich.  Dill would be a great herb, perhaps thyme, rosemary, sage, or a few others.  Not too many, one or two of those.  I'd think chilled would be best, the flavors would be more muted.  At least for a try.  Still, if that went well, in colder weather, that warm would make a wonderful potential light meal or side dish.  Yea, it's... how I think.  *wink*  With my stomach.  Always.  Gratefully, I rarely actually get to fill it.  And, now, on keto, I'm not... even interested, in fact... only of curiosity... or of the mind.

Well, I am warming the eggs a bit.  The cream cheese is in the bullet blender.  I should get to it.  Oh, and while at it, I'll blend some kefir.  Make it smooth rather than chunky.  I thought about adding berries to it, but only one berry dish per day, really... mostly.  Later.  Or good night if I fall and fail.  Sleep well, dream well, wake well, then get to it. 

Slow.

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I did get all of the dishes, finally, finished.  Well, some is put up, some is air drying.  Plus, I sanitized then washed my waffle maker.  I purchased it shortly before I found keto, give or take.  And, while I haven't, exactly, puritanically, been living keto, I have been doing my best.  Plus, I never quite got into making waffles.  Besides cats not being kind to it, it sat for a long time.

That, my friends, is almost how liver is done.

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Soft, gentle, dark, filling.  The onions, and garlic, were also soft but not mushy.  There was strength to them, some bite.  The gravy was quite well done.  Oh, I... could see a small portion of this being served to the most elite... those who would deign to dine on such.  There... are some who... understand.  Many, perhaps most, are gluttons for simple, soft, luxury, easy, safe.  It's a trap of course.

Even this... though... there were problems.  I nailed cooking.  The bacon was just crunchy, not soft, not completely crisped.  The onions and garlic were well done, yet with that bite I prefer.  I was required to chew, if lightly.  The liver itself was... like... it melted in the mouth, almost a firm pudding.  It even brought notes of chocolate, if too that liver taste that only some can handle.  But, that latter, just as an end or even after taste.  Still, there were mistakes.

First, too much salt.  I really didn't account for the bacon.  I tasted, as I went, but... that.. compounded into each dish.  It didn't leave, the saltiness, after removing the bacon, but wasn't clearly discernable through the layers.  As well, a bit rich.  I should have removed some of the bacon fat.  And I shouldn't have added as much butter.  Very rich.  Still, that is a dish, with very slight modifications, which will handily suffice a mid-week meal.  Or, honestly, any day.  As mentioned, twice a week would be reasonable.

I am very pleased with the first run.  I won't make another tomorrow.  That was just in case I really botched tonight.  Still, I wouldn't mind a run Sunday, or Monday.  It actually does take a lot of attention, if not a lot of time.  I think, with... four stages of cooking... or five, it only took minutes per stage.  A lot of fussing between, often during, stages.  Bacon, flipping, and taking off what is rightly done, moving the rest to the middle.  Onions, first sautéed on a higher heat, then reduced, then garlic and butter added.  

Heat, again, reduced.  Then removing those, adding stock and thickener (guar gum worked well enough, dotted in more like salt than flower, into gently rolling stock... which I should have added more.  And, after the sauce was mostly to my liking, I cut the liver into, roughly, two to three inch squares.  Without dredging in anything, I put them in, on a lower medium.  I let them cook for two minutes on each side.  I then added the onions and garlic, and some of the bacon.

I then left the thicker two pieces in for thirty seconds, placing the smaller bites on top of the onions and gravy to just keep warm.  I considered the gravy, onions, and liver to be done at that thirty seconds, so plated.  I... really couldn't have done better.  That liver was almost a butter pate, with a backhint of bacon.  And, if you really, really, really, don't like bacon?  Cutting a small bite, and putting it on and equally small bite of bacon, and you really wouldn't know it unless you tried your damnedest to taste it.  Some do, just because.  Ugh.

Oh, yes, I am satisfied.  I will... improve.  But, if this is as good as I could do?  I'd... be happy.  Did I mention, I purchased a beef kidney?  I... don't know how to do those.  I... may learn, soon.  I am hoping a bovine isn't, somewhere, in a cattle yard, in a pool of ice, just reading a message about stolen body parts!  Well, you never know, if... probably not.

And, the tripe is finished.  It isn't time to open it, won't be for another hour or two?  But it is done.  I'll... know more in... well... and hour or two... or three?  Or tomorrow.  Though I am hoping for a small portion yet tonight.  I have missed this, homemade, for a very long time.  The canned stuff is okay.  But... it's... not fresh, homemade, quite right.  It will merely do.  This, I am hoping, will amaze.

Final chore, in about an hour.  I have all the waterers refreshed, save what is out.  I would like to get those set up as well, tonight.  Leaving them out just gets them frozen.  It'll be a while before leaving them out will do them any good... get them by until I can get out in the morning.  Ducks need to be put up, rabbits just get to snooze.  All good.

Oh, as to dishes?  Laundry?  A shower?  I'll have to push, but maybe.  It's been a slow day, right until it's been very busy.  I'll do my best.  Later.  Perhaps good night.

More.

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Chores.  Easily.  I still need to redo the waterers.  But some are little used and quite frozen.  I doubt if that will happen tonight.  But one group is ready to go in the morning.  Hmm... I must just refresh the girls' water tonight with what was brought in.  They seem to really love it cold and fresh.  I do like tending the critters, even when it hurts.  Serving, I think, is the point... to all of it.

A shower was taken.  No shave, probably won't shave tonight.  Perhaps another trim, then a shave, tomorrow?  Dishes haven't been set up, either.  Yet.  I think that may happen.  Trash?  Recycling?  Neither barrel has much.  Nor is  there much indoors... technically.  So, perhaps not that tonight.  Or... maybe.  At least trash.

I did get the tools arranged for work tomorrow.  I may need to grab a few supplies, another tool, and power.  But... what I had in mind is completed.  I will also be setting chicken feet and some pork hocks out tonight.  I mix them, if the vast majority will be chicken.  I simply believe that any one thing misses some other things.  Pork, beef, chicken, lamb, etc... it all mixes and melds better, in parts or portions, than any single meat... or fish.  I am not sure I will use it all, and I am not sure these are single use items.  Or so I have heard.

Anacin, nuts, and kefir is going down.  The heart really is a bit sore tonight.  Still, not doing too badly, if a bit slow.  I think all I have left is getting trash out, recycling out, and starting dishes.  I really think that may be possible.  Thawing some of the chicken feet and pork hocks is just bonus... and incentive to get the chicken stock done tomorrow.

It is staying around 20 degrees F.  I thought it warmed a bit, but for a very short period.  If it is 20 currently, it may well drop to a harder freeze later.  Or not.  You just never know for certain up here.  I am still expecting some snow, perhaps a lot.  As a final flourish?  Or a sign of things to come?  We didn't have a normal summer last year.  It wasn't a terrible spring, just an early fall then winter.  Imagine if those two seasons rub the last of summer out.  Maybe not this year, but it is probably coming.

Superior soup.

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A bit hot.  I did put in much too much ghost pepper flecks.  At least it wasn't the carolina reaper.  Yea, it's... that much hotter.  Even so, it's been making for good meals.  I have started logging my meals.  I have set the macro nutrient levels for the day.  And, so it begins.  It's saying the soup is higher in carbs than what I believe it is.  I am using more carb-friendly veggies, and fresh.  So, yea, it does make a difference.  

Still, I'll let it stand for the moment.  I just won't worry about those carbs... as much.  I'll have to see how insulin reacts to it before I make a final determination.  There are some carb heavy foods that don't bother my blood sugar or keto.  As well, some carb light things do.  It really, medicine even when practiced correctly, isn't a science.  Not as a body of people and a body of knowledge.  It is nearly universally unique, given the sum total of all health, sickness, and treatments.  It just is.

Ducks are out, rabbits have been fed.  I am warming their water before taking that out to them.  And, it is cold.  At 22 F, it seems so absolutely frigid.  I just don't get it.  A bit of snow, but just enough to coat everything lightly.  Snow the other day as well, which was thicker but is already gone.  The earth itself must have been warmed enough to take it out?  Or did a warm spell pass through quickly?  I don't know.

Tools? Toys?

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Both.  Although toys which can take an arm or leg, or do very bad things.

I can't sleep more.  I can't quite get to work.  So I am looking over tools.  A tool has become available for potential use, two actually.  I suppose three, if I pushed it.  Other tools are being considered.  Not by me, at the moment.  To be honest, I'm not terribly familiar with all these tools.  So... I went looking.  Power tools, with blades of one sort or another.

Late, for reasons, and a really good find.

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I finished chores.  A bit late.  I still need to reset waterers, but food is ready.  I have the chicken out, warming.  I hate cold meaty squishy... at least room temp... so it will be.  I did wash off the freezer, and have set one load, then just recently reset it and set another.  Both are smaller loads, but will do for a start.  As well, I have cycle the kefir through.

Finally, though, I remembered the ribs!  I was a good boy, if a bit late.  So, I got those out.  Just a bit... rough.  I rinsed them, smelled.  Just ever so slightly off.  I baked them for 30 minutes.  Smelling while cooking.  Nothing too foul, or foul at all.  With pork I am very picky.  Then, out to the grill.  It smelled "sweat" all while cooking.

It is done.  And a can of pork and beans... of the better quality.  I am letting them cool in the now cool oven.  Should be quite good.  I don't drink milk often anymore, but tonight is one of those nights.  And it will be a small glass, followed by kefir.  I am planning to get a apple cider vinegar concoction going soon, but need a few better implements for making it.  As well, I am looking for other drinks, including water kefir.  I have what is needed for that, but... that is such a high maintenance thing, I won't be consuming that except as a rare dessert, really.  And there is the bottling process, and keeping up on the bottles.  It is wonderful, but it takes a lot of work to do right.  I may see if there is a less intense means of larger production.  I do love that stuff... soda... without the sugar, with probiotics instead... of any flavor of fruit you would like, and possibly ginger, maybe rootbeer?

Anyway... a meal, then some dishes, possibly with a shower after... some air drying and on to bed.  It will be late, but... so be it.

Well?

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Back to napping, fortunately or not.  I... can't get going.  So, rather than waste my time being awake when I can't function, I will go on back to bed.  It will work out, soon.  I hope, and pray.

I did some looking.  More on rubik's cubes.  Advanced methods.  Mind you, I made improvements to the basic method on my own.  And learned many moves, so that I don't actually have to think to do, I know.  However, improving much beyond where I am will take special fingering, and more advanced methods and algorithms.

Still awake.

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I'll check, outside, shortly.  Ice, snow... something was out earlier.  Probably still out.  Vehicles passing the window sound to be kicking up fluid.  Plenty of vehicles, so they might be melting what is on the road.  More, but not too much more.  Snow, no longer a skift or flow, but with some depth.  Oh well.  Not much I can do, one way or another.

Ah, well, it looks to have partially melted off.  Yes, still, still, awake.  Can't sleep.  Need to sleep.  It is starting to hurt.  Hmm... I'll... think on it.  Work on it.

Blood sugar was ~450ish fasting.  So, I gave it a bit more of a goose, 25 cc's, I think.  Along with breakfast.  I have really been enjoying eggs... an omelet this morning, with fresh onion, cheddar, and rye toast... plus a fatted coffee.  I tested a few hours later.  Couldn't eat, just checking.  It was 223.  I was about to give a decent dose with a fatted coffee, but decided to check again... often it won't change.  It has been four hours after fasting, eating, then checking again?  Something.  Should have been settled.

A very good thing I checked.  It had dropped to 149.  Not perfect, but not bad.  Further, dosing.  Wisely?  I still gave it an 8 cc dose.  Just... because.  And I am having a fatted coffee.  So... it's good.  I may have a green pea and scrambled egg mess as I go to bed as well.  Too many eggs, but they sure taste good after a lengthy hiatus.  Yeah.

Ah, as to rubik's cube solutions.  I... have been slowly improving, if just mechanical speed.  I haven't, yet, altered my methods further.  I may try a bit more... a medium set of solution improvements.  As is, I can... perhaps usually do... solve the cube in under 1:10.  Not bad... but not great.  As to world record?  I wouldn't mess with that.  Last I heard it is under three seconds?  Definitely under four.  I have to wonder what they take to get that... chemically.  Yea... I think so.  It'll cost them.  Though, the testing is so secretive, I have some... doubts... as well.

Bringing out the boy in the man.

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I watch this guy's videos with some frequency.  He covers swords, to battle axes, to movie reconstructions, to sword inlays of historic natures.  Everything a lad, or man, could imagine in the world of battle weapons of an old to very old European bent.  As well, he has... ideas... such as how to improve on a "Legolas" bow.  Look it up or never mind, but quite a curiosity... with potential for more.