I am not sure why I found my way to this place. It is an odd place. It is mostly a safe place. I doubt if there are answers here but there might be questions. Of those I know a little. One might say I am a collector of questions.
I have lived a bit more or less than half of my expected life. I have found faith, interesting people, places of interest, and a nice little warm safe place I can call home in spite of not owning it. I have not found a wife, though not from lack of effort. And I have had some love from the ladies I have known though sadly, no children as of yet. I do not work or currently attend school. My time and energy is spent on what I would rather do or not. In truth, I am a limited man. Some aspect of me does not function. No man's will is his own in a full complete measure, but most men can and do compel themselves to action if only to in order that they may eat. I do not have that capacity at this time.
Though I am by no means a poor man, neither am I wealthy. I can and do enjoy some of the pleasures in life. Reading of particular topics, religious work, and fiction; cooking to my tastes and interests and for friends and family should they be hungry; collecting odd and useful technological trinkets and learning to use them; tinkering on and with the computer and internet; and thinking fill the void. I may be able to add swimming soon, as I just made purchase of an extended swim pass for some healthy near drowning. Though I must admit, having too much time is a danger to almost any income level that is practicable. There are too many things to see and do (and buy) so that much of my time I am laying low until I can, either by dollar or past my unnatural limits, get to some new item, learning, or action that seems of interest. Though, some days I cannot function so this last is no difficulty.
I hope to share ideas here. Some will be controversial, I assure you. Not even I agree with all I think. Though that last seems contradicting, it is not in that as humans we are constructs of conscious logical will coupled with animal needs and wisdom to form a complete whole which by it's nature is a contradiction, therefore negating a double negative, that being contradiction. I will not apologize in my place and will not discuss concerns unless they are offered presentably. Whispers are pure clean and humble, chaos forms shouts and moans and babbling which are outside of thought, and to me, mind.
