An hour after breakfast?

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Breakfast?  At night?  Look at the term.  Yes.  I broke my sleeping fast an hour ago.  So... breakfast.  It's... not a time, it's an action.  Which I took, an hour ago.

Oh, right.  I decided to test my blood sugar.  I thought I might be out of test strips.  But, no.  I had another pack.  It's all on my own, at this point.  So... okay.  Worth it, to check.  I expected, after a fatted coffee and half a ribeye, to be up just a bit?  And... maybe I was.

A long sleep.

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No real memory of when I went to bed.  Three?  Five?  Seven?  I just... I think it was still dark?  Though... maybe not.  I slept well, though my leg wound kept hurting.  I rolled, often, heavily... like an alligator with pray.  Not sure why.  It wasn't all night, but when it happened, pillows went flying, blankets got totally messed up, but strangely the mattresses didn't become unaligned?  Walrus rolling!

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I dreamed I met a younger woman.  But she was a bit heavy, for my tastes.  We did talk.  I told her about losing a lot of weight, and that I was only, say, two thirds the way through?  Or so.  She asked how.  I asked if she was just asking, from being polite, or if she really wanted to lose weight.  She said she wanted to lose weight.

A few genuine carnivore foods?

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Why, yes.  Yes indeed.  Followed by a few savory notions of another sort.

I always worry.  Are they going to use something that... I can't, won't, use?  So often they add something I can't eat.  Honey?  Sugar?  Or something I can't taste, like some "keto" sweeteners, such as stevia.  It's more like most recipes are dressed as something else.  Or, they make it a plug for multiculturalism.  I can't keep them all out, I miss things, but I try.

Now I know.

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I went down right after that last post.  Thankful for it, as I now know I went to bed at about 17:00.  I had gotten so overheated, out there, running around.  I'm just not used to warmer temps yet.  Toss in walking all over costco, pretty much unsuccessfully, then to the store, and hospital, and picking up dairy, while driving around in that crazy heat?

Well, the heat wasn't crazy.  But, added to walking around so much, being in the auto, and the length of the excursion, it just added up.  I really should consider walking, getting out either after breakfast but before coffee?  Or after whatever meal I eat?  I doubt if it'll be much of a walk, to start.  Around the block?  I do fear being run over.  I just... do.

Done.

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I did get half on one the steaks cooked.  Mostly raw.  Probably a little rawer than I should like.  But it was pretty good anyway.  As well, coffee.  Very good.

I texted out that I got the goods.  Haven't heard back.  Fine.

Now on to bed.  I am amazed I have stayed up this late, and long.  Exhausted to the point of pain.  Goodnight.

A very heavy hot long day.

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Well, for me.  I got out around noon thirty?  Or so.  An half an hour in to town.  Then a long tour of costco, looking for a few very specific things.  I only found one of the items, and even it wasn't exactly what was wanted.  Just... what was available.

Then... somewhere else?  But I... oh, right.  I was supposed to get a blood work, for an upcoming appointment.  Which ended up being a bit of a hassle, as the doctor office hadn't sent the orders over.  In time that was done.

A few things as I start a new day.

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First, I went surfing, for butcher shops.  I wasn't sure I had the numbers.  Yep.  But, I am changing the way I put things into my phone.  Listing the main theme, say "Food", then the type of place, such as store, butcher shop, or even restaurant, then adding there actual name.  But, having the theme as the 'last name', and setting it up so the 'last name' shows first.

That way, if I want something from the "Food" section, it's all right there.  And personal numbers are listed by last names, except for the peculiar ones... like "Mom".  :p  Not much needs to be added to that one.  The theme is the woman.  More detail than you probably care to know.  But... I've... well?  Since I haven't died, as life goes on, I am trying to adjust things.  Add convenience, ease, and... order... to my life.

Down around one.

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Up around four.  I just couldn't sleep longer.  I waited a few hours before finally having a fatted coffee.  I was hoping I could get back to bed, even for a few hours.  Not a chance.  So, finally, I got coffee water heating, and got going on that.  Then brushed my teeth.

I've been hitting the teeth twice daily, now, for a while.  Sometimes I just can't get to it.  Having a dental appointment coming up in a month or two sort of tickles the impulse.  I hate bad news.  And, yes, my teeth clean up well.  With coffee and/or tea as a one or twice daily, they won't ever be white.  Then again, I think back to the first product I have heard about for whitening teeth.  Urine.  The Romans used (at least just their own, to my knowledge) urine, as a gargle, to whiten their teeth.  Some acid or other in it?  Uric?  Something.

Loose belly.

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It... has been troubling me.  I lost weight too fast, due to nausea.  Probably from consuming toxins in my stored bodyfat.  Is that finished?  Can't say.  Until I start losing weight again, I just don't know.  However, I do have products which tend to deal with the problem of nausea very well... the bitters.  Not my favorite consumable, but dang, a moment of "Yuck!", versus hours, days, weeks, of horrid nausea?  Yea, I can take the moments for the weeks otherwise opened.

Still, that leaves the stomach.  I had heard, from a doctor, about microderming?  It... sounded like a... medical thing.  I was sure the V.A. wouldn't front that.  Pretty much nothing not deemed medically necessary?  So... while I kept that in the back of my mind, I wasn't rushing to check into that.  Thought I might bring that up with one of my doctors, do some brain picking.

Hmm?

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Not much.  Coffee, onto my second one.  Yogurt and fruit.  Bumped blood sugar a bit more than anticipated.  Sometimes it will, today it did.

Hoping to get to some things yet tonight.  We'll see.

Can't get sorted!

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Things to do.  Awake too late, moving too slow.  Will, try to push through.  To bed early?  Or push through into tomorrow.

It did warm, a bit, out there.  When I got out of bed, almost two hours ago (?wow time flies sometimes) it was 82 out there.  Only 70 in the front room.  About that upstairs too.  Cooler in the main, but just never bothered to get a light to see.  Pretty dark, down here, too.  I best turn the fan on.

Oh, sure.

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Women have complications.

They do.  Almost feel sorry for them.

Finally.

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Some of it, anyway.  I am running late on things.  Had to do some returns, amazon orders.  Had hoped to get bloodwork done today, too.  Just running too late.  Some other things?  Well, yes.  Laundry, dishes, I did get a shower taken.  I've been showering every to every other day, but always seem behind even that way.  In part because sleep and wake cycles are just plain off.

Having gotten the returns in, I decided to get a steak.  A local steak house.  It's okay.  The beef seems right.  It is cooked using real butter.  Yes, you can tell.  I had just a steak, no sides.  A tea on the side.  Very expensive.  I won't do that often.  A steak of that quality should be about $20, the last I saw.  I wasn't extremely pleased with the cut, but it was good.  I can tell quality.  It is as good as most restaurants offer.  If, as mentioned, I didn't like the cut so much.  Leave the cap fat on, and just offer a bit more to the consumer.  Don't be stingy, and cut the fat to sell that to others, probably for pennies.  I hate it when jerk peanut counters take over companies.  Still, it was good, just... a bit too expensive.

I finally had to surrender.

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I thought it might warm up today.  The windows were left open, thinking it would warm, perhaps a lot.  No, well, not to the point expected.  It is 62 out there, is all, as it is just about to be 16:00?  What month, and day, is this?  June 18th?  Okay, just... recollecting.

I have three things I am supposed to do today.  That's, none of it, is going to happen.  I won't even take a shower.  Absolutely crushed.  I finally realized I need something more.  I turned the furnace on.  I thought it would automatically change to 70, at this time of the day.  Nope.

Awake.

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A bit after noon, and 60 F outside.  It's between 63/64 indoors in most of the house, though 68 in the front room, for now.  It takes a while for the computer, router, and myself to warm this area.  But... wow.  Very strange.  Fed Sassy and brushed my teeth first thing, this time.  I've not been brushing as regularly as I'd like, but I just can't... function.

Hot, cold, medium?  It just doesn't seem to matter.  I keep aiming higher, and failing to fire.  Never quite sorting out whether I would hit the target as I never pull the trigger on things.  Trying.  We'll see.  A shower in a bit.

So very strange.

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Cold.  At 63 indoors, in the main of the house?  That's... beyond cool.  I had to, finally, check the temperature outside.  Oh, maybe an hour ago now?  But things seem stable, at the indoor temps.  The outdoors read 31.  Wow.  Being Jun 18, and to drop below freezing?  That's... different.  I did sort of suggest it.  I just don't always believe.  When I play a certain song, it's... what I mean.  Even when I don't believe, or otherwise say.  Why?  Because it seems so silly to predict cold, right as it is hitting 90.  *grins*  I guess... you never can tell?

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Some things popped, seemed to... be responses?  You decide.  As with the weather, I can't ever be certain, if I can see and say?  Show?

Women.

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Truth be told, a woman.  Not sure... if that had something to do with the post before, or... if that was something else.  Of this, this time, I am certain.  Her.  My first real go.  Everything reads as is from her, about her.  Timed back to our time, place.

Why or how?  What does she want?  Is it her haunting me, or me not letting go.  I'll never be certain.  I just know, finally, I don't mind.  Not a horror anymore.  More just... saying hello, I love you.  See you soon, perhaps?  We... won't be together, that way.  But we... it is hoped... will be very good friends.  More?  Maybe.  Marriage doesn't last to heaven.  It isn't like that, give or take.  Even if we wanted it that way.  Christ wasn't absolutely clear.  But... He... was sure certain about the ambiguity.

Such things they say.

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It is 72, here in the front room.  With the computer on and me here.  Strange.  As mentioned, it is 66 out in the main of the house, the northern sections.  Well, last I looked.  Very strange.

Strange music, and more, appeared.  Some of it causes laughter, some of it... other things.  Interesting.  Yes, interesting.  Some of it, but the gists.

Hmm?

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Awake, finally.  Well, I've been awake for a while now.  Two hours up?  Moving slow, it is a cool day.  The main of the house is down to 66 F.  Strange, but pleasing.  When I awoke, the upstairs was down to 68/69... differing between the floor level near where I sleep and table level on the west side of the room, 69 downstairs in the main, and 70 in the front room.  With the computer going, and me in the front room, it is up to 72, while the rest of the house has cooled greatly.  So... very strange.

I had thought summer heat was here.  Not so much, or not yet.  Certainly not today.  I don't mind at all.  I seem to be... fine... mostly... with... whatever.

Some foods are a no-go.

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It isn't just the food.  Sometimes it is the method, or means by which the food is cooked or otherwise prepared.  As an example, chaffles.  If you haven't heard of that, the term is a cross between cheese and waffle.  Using eggs, cheese, and possibly almond or coconut flour.

On it's face, it seems sufficient.  My first problem is that most waffle makers are coated with teflon, or some other coating.  Toxic, interferes with hormones, and other such.  Even if in perfect shape, the coating which is supposed to make them safe (dubious claim) times out, and stops working (IF, I say, IF it ever worked).  Plus, any scrape, cut, tear, will just flood the food with toxins.  Though, probably putting out small amounts (how much poison is too much?  do you ever really know).

A good morning.

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If my morning didn't start until 15:00 or so.  Not sure when I went to bed, sometime between three and six?  Or... so.  A cooler day, again.  Strange, but I'll take it.  Just getting to 78 in the front room, the hottest part of the house.  So I am not using ac, and won't be.  I'm cool at this temp, almost cold.  Not... an unhealthy sort of cold.  Just... some... strangely comfortable sort of cool.

A shower shortly.  I took medicine.  And am having a fatted coffee.  No sweeteners.  Blood sugar is still elevated, that without having sweeteners of any sort for a full day now.  Though, now I am becoming suspicious of the bitters.  I am still using the alcohol based bitters.  I do believe that may well be the problem.

Foods, ideas, such.

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This first one I found really interesting.  Now, for anyone carrying forty extra pounds, or more?  Simple keto might be a start, but it isn't fast enough or powerful enough.  It's a... proof of concept.  If you can make it on keto, soon or late you will realize your addiction to carbohydrates is too profound for you to beat.  Which... is why you have forty or more extra pounds.

This woman and her mother went on this journey for different reasons.  I would guess weight loss was just a benefit to the daughter, who understood what carbs have to do with cancer.  Who went on the journey with her mother, to be a part of her life in this different situation.  But... there is something in the diet, even to keto, for all of us.  And for some of us, the more the reason to go carnivore.

Some potent mojo?

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Well?  Yes.  Actually.  This is something I am considering doing.  I just had to... figure some things out.  I am not sure if what was done is available to me, through my medical.  But... I can ask, find out.  If not, see if there is some way I could afford it.   What, you ask?  Toxicity.

I have been watching what these folks present on y.t., from time to time, for years now.  I use some of what they suggest, and plan on more.  Water glassing, I think is how she terms it?  But, recently read they were having problems, with toxins?  Strange, but... okay.  I have been tracking that story, in particular, and for... specific reasons.