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It is 6:00, the weather is cool outside, I have fans going... and I am cooking alive. It isn't just the weather that has been the problem. My body is... doing something wrong. Now, in the winter, when it does this, life is great! I really can survive, live, even thrive right in the coldest of climbs. But in the summer not so good. I seem to have several... episodes or something, each day, where I heat up. I checked blood sugar. While it rose to 120 after a pretty hardy meal, that is normal. Otherwise it has been between 102 and 111. Something is just not set right in my carburetor. The choke might be a bit off, perhaps it's the timing, something.
Some days I can get down to getting even chilly, cold, by this time. Not today. Never mind. I'll try to sleep and see where that gets me.
I need a couple days of cool in order to get some of those things done, so that maybe I can get on to other things. You can see where a fail cascades? Still, I think I am on the right track. I also wonder how much, when I am operating in furnace mode, that I heat up my little home? My guess? Hugely. Almost as much as a literal furnace. Ah well, a little sleep. Perhaps this evening I can finish those curtain rods and perhaps create a template then saw some 2x4s for window support in order to install the ac. That is the plan.
Still feeling pretty rough. Medicine is difficult to remember to take currently, but I keep trying. Headaches and nausea, from the heat and intermittent medication is my guess, plague my steps. I've had worse, but usually it's better. Blah. I'm... working on things. At least I have the items I need to begin doing what might help. It's just a matter of getting those into play.
Good day, good night.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
Diabetes gone in six months or less?
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At my last appointment my A1C was... right at 12.5. Okay, yeah, that's not good. I do believe the culprit was Gatorade. I have, of course, quit that. I just received (though it was sent weeks ago I suspect) a blood sugar tester. I tested my blood sugar, non-fasting, last night, first thing. It was 102. Oh, and I do eat sugar, I have soda occasionally (or more), I even eat white bread and pasta as that is often what is delivered in my meals! Go figure. Then again, I am getting more vegetables, and home grown ones quite often. While, as well, for my part, I continue to cook pure meats for myself. Salami and cheese continue, as does milk. Coffee and Splenda are a regular daily thing now. I purchased both Splenda and Stevia (or Truvia), and will be trying Stevia(?) after I finish off the Splenda. Since D.C. suggested that Splenda is as bad as sugar, for diabetics, I will be putting that to the test, personally. Ah, but don't worry, just because something is true for many, perhaps even supposedly for all, it doesn't mean it will be true for me. Stevia usually has a licorice aftertaste for me. And it doesn't seem all that sweet. Yeah, odd. I have heard others say Stevia has a licorice flavor, but not that it doesn't seem sweet. Then again, sugar doesn't taste all that sweet to me, either, nor Splenda. They just add a touch.
I was supposed to go to the V.A. today. I am going to call, shortly, and reschedule. I simply cannot make it. The heat has just been brutal. On top of that, I have been missing my medicines. Not every day, just a little too often. I can't keep on top of things until I get some cool. I was sick last evening, and was forced even to turn away guests. I simply wasn't up to much of anything. A migraine, slight nausea, the works really. I am hoping after yesterday, then today, of staying in and cooling as much as possible, that I will be able to install the ac tomorrow, or even later this evening. On the good side, at this time in the morning I am not just cool enough, I am actually cool. I really needed that. Same with yesterday.
Well, I best make a call then get to bed. Have a good one.
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At my last appointment my A1C was... right at 12.5. Okay, yeah, that's not good. I do believe the culprit was Gatorade. I have, of course, quit that. I just received (though it was sent weeks ago I suspect) a blood sugar tester. I tested my blood sugar, non-fasting, last night, first thing. It was 102. Oh, and I do eat sugar, I have soda occasionally (or more), I even eat white bread and pasta as that is often what is delivered in my meals! Go figure. Then again, I am getting more vegetables, and home grown ones quite often. While, as well, for my part, I continue to cook pure meats for myself. Salami and cheese continue, as does milk. Coffee and Splenda are a regular daily thing now. I purchased both Splenda and Stevia (or Truvia), and will be trying Stevia(?) after I finish off the Splenda. Since D.C. suggested that Splenda is as bad as sugar, for diabetics, I will be putting that to the test, personally. Ah, but don't worry, just because something is true for many, perhaps even supposedly for all, it doesn't mean it will be true for me. Stevia usually has a licorice aftertaste for me. And it doesn't seem all that sweet. Yeah, odd. I have heard others say Stevia has a licorice flavor, but not that it doesn't seem sweet. Then again, sugar doesn't taste all that sweet to me, either, nor Splenda. They just add a touch.
I was supposed to go to the V.A. today. I am going to call, shortly, and reschedule. I simply cannot make it. The heat has just been brutal. On top of that, I have been missing my medicines. Not every day, just a little too often. I can't keep on top of things until I get some cool. I was sick last evening, and was forced even to turn away guests. I simply wasn't up to much of anything. A migraine, slight nausea, the works really. I am hoping after yesterday, then today, of staying in and cooling as much as possible, that I will be able to install the ac tomorrow, or even later this evening. On the good side, at this time in the morning I am not just cool enough, I am actually cool. I really needed that. Same with yesterday.
Well, I best make a call then get to bed. Have a good one.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Rough one.
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I wasn't able to cool down last night at all, not enough to sleep. Here it is noon, and it is beginning to cook again! The air conditioner showed up and is sitting in my living room... cooling off itself?... now. Today or tomorrow it will go in that window, one way or another. I was able to carry it with one hand, in packing, so I shouldn't have too much trouble putting it in the window. It is supposed to weight around 81 pounds, sans packing. Still, that just isn't too much for me to easily maneuver. If I had to put that weight up somewhere, overhead, on my tip-toes, that would be a different story.
That ac isn't just wanted, it is needed. I have lost my ability to tolerate dry heat! Well, that was bound to happen. While it is much preferred versus high humidity combined with the same heat, it just isn't possible for me to ignore at this point. No, the heat won't kill me. It will just slow me down. I'm already slower than turtles, slugs, and professional procrastinators, if I am so under protest. I didn't even finish the curtain rods or curtains. Then again, two days in the heat in a row, a number of stops in town, plus the heat by itself, and I am simply done for a day or two. Ah well, it was fun while it lasted.
Yeah, have a good day. I'll try to rest and be ready to hit some of this tonight. It might just be one rod and finishing the drying, but I will do more tonight. The ac will go in when the drapes are up and when I feel ready and able to work again. I suspect I will need to cut a couple of 2x4s to act as a platform in the window, then figure out how to brace those. I WILL get it done as fast as I can though. A night of cool sleep, or a week, or the rest of the summer, is needed. Later.
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I wasn't able to cool down last night at all, not enough to sleep. Here it is noon, and it is beginning to cook again! The air conditioner showed up and is sitting in my living room... cooling off itself?... now. Today or tomorrow it will go in that window, one way or another. I was able to carry it with one hand, in packing, so I shouldn't have too much trouble putting it in the window. It is supposed to weight around 81 pounds, sans packing. Still, that just isn't too much for me to easily maneuver. If I had to put that weight up somewhere, overhead, on my tip-toes, that would be a different story.
That ac isn't just wanted, it is needed. I have lost my ability to tolerate dry heat! Well, that was bound to happen. While it is much preferred versus high humidity combined with the same heat, it just isn't possible for me to ignore at this point. No, the heat won't kill me. It will just slow me down. I'm already slower than turtles, slugs, and professional procrastinators, if I am so under protest. I didn't even finish the curtain rods or curtains. Then again, two days in the heat in a row, a number of stops in town, plus the heat by itself, and I am simply done for a day or two. Ah well, it was fun while it lasted.
Yeah, have a good day. I'll try to rest and be ready to hit some of this tonight. It might just be one rod and finishing the drying, but I will do more tonight. The ac will go in when the drapes are up and when I feel ready and able to work again. I suspect I will need to cut a couple of 2x4s to act as a platform in the window, then figure out how to brace those. I WILL get it done as fast as I can though. A night of cool sleep, or a week, or the rest of the summer, is needed. Later.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Oh, ouch!
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Alright, I made it to town, took my friend to the doctor's as he needed, picked up curtain rods and coffee and his sand paper, at three different places, did a final bit of grocery shopping and remembered the cabbage, etc. I use the ac when we are in the vehicle, but on my way home I turn it off so that my home will feel cooler than ambient, which it generally does. I unpacked everything, then thought about putting up the curtain rods. Since I was still cool. Between moving the bed, getting the drill and bits ready, measuring, and such I began to heat up. It became critical about a third the way through that operation. I finished installing that rod, replacing the bed and other furniture, then stopped. Stripping to nearly my skivvies, I am done until I cool down or even until tomorrow. I have serious limits.
Still, not a bad pair of days. I got out twice, in spite of the heat. I am washing the new drapes. I have one new rod up and the gear in place to do the rest of it either later after I cool or tomorrow. And it is such a task that... it is neither too complicated or daunting to attend. It will be done. Further, everything should be in place to get the air conditioner installed when it arrives, or the day after. Life is going to be just a tad better.
Oh but I did miss KoC tonight. Now, I have some issues that need to be discussed with leadership. I don't mind inclusion, I do frown on exclusion. That's all I'll say for now. Of course, someone tried to call me tonight about the meeting but I didn't get the call. My guess is the guy who is doing what I was going to be doing will not be able to do it so they wanted me to do it. Yes, I guess well. But I had promised to get my friend to the doc and the time just wasn't there to do both, in any case. I've been to the last three meetings, I think. So, I just... don't feel bad about scheduling something over it without thinking. And, I don't mind filling in, that is my whole goal with KoC from now on, it's just that I couldn't do it tonight. Too many funnies and ironies in there for me to go into in detail, just... Life is screwy, then you just gotta laugh... and maybe get stitches while you are laughing so hard it hurts, in more ways then one. Pardon the extrapolation.
Now to try to just sit and get cool. Gaming allows me to use almost no muscle mass while still feeling like I am doing something. It isn't much, it is what I have. Hmm, for dinner tonight, homemade pizza, fresh cherries, and homemade spinach artichoke dip? Oh, fuggettaboutit! Life is good. As the Italians say (right before dinner, in English), chow. :p
Another day out.
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Oh, I did get out, yesterday, finally. I had to get that watch and my friend wanted let out! Yammer, hammer, spammer. My ears were bleeding from all the need, plus I needed a few things. I didn't do much, I didn't go far, I didn't get it all. So, today, I am getting out again. The problem with yesterday was that I heated up then could not cool down. That is exactly what I thought would happen. I didn't get to sleep until well after 6:00. Core temps just wouldn't settle low enough quickly enough. My guess is today will be the same. Still, getting my outings over for the week, getting out at all actually, is a good thing. Oh, remind me to take a couple of gas cans?
My curtains arrived. Good thing I am going to town, I need curtain rods. I had totally spaced that part. While I have coverings on my bedroom windows, those coverings are different, and will be staying. I actually like the idea of having both drapes and the wooden slat blinds in the bedroom. It just gives me options. These, like the others, will need to be washed first, which won't happen until I return. A bit more shopping, too. Cabbage, coffee, another gallon of milk, a bit more salami and cheese, little bits of this and that, and gasoline. I need meats of course, but it would be nice to have a few good protein foods that are easily accessible. I am reluctant to go for frozen shrimp, for example, as the taste is so subpar if you have ever cooked your own from fresh. But the price and ease... might make it irresistible. It is, pretty much, unprocessed, and a great protein. Heated slightly, or even fried, with butter on the side or right in there, and... fats and proteins. A food heaven.
Oh, about losing those extra pounds? If you try, really really hard? You have a two in a thousand chance to lose significant weight. Further, even losing and keeping off 15 extra pounds will be more of an obsession than what it could possibly be worth. Extra work out time? It won't help. Watching what you eat like bankers watch their money? It simply doesn't matter. Now, I am not suggesting people just give up, quit trying to at least maintain, I am only suggesting that people get used to the skin they are in. The real world isn't Hollywood, the Amish sort of prove it.
Heck, did you see any heavy people in the movies Hollywood has created dealing with or even directly about the Amish? I haven't. But I lived near Amish communities, knew (as well as English can), some Amish and Mennonite (who happened to be former Amish too). Yeah, not so thin. But I... never thought about it. And, being thin? Is it really worth being obsessive? Really? REALLY? Healthy? Sure, but while the Amish proved not to be thin, they also suffered far fewer heart problems (mine, by the way, isn't related to poor diet, and my diabetes is just as likely related to the heart issue as not, or more) and diabetes. But they do eat right and they do exercise. And more, actually being thin is more unhealthy than even being obese, complicates any recovery from wound disease or surgery by itself, and puts one at constant risk in many situations. Choose your poison carefully for you will never be what you aren't? Something.
Okay, an hour more to... no, I don't really have the time. I best hop into the shower, get going, and get back. I feel like those lizards that skim the desert sands in hope that their feet not land too long on hot spots when I go out on summer days. *zip zip ZAP* Don't stand still fortoo long any time at all, or 'zap'. Perhaps, with drapes up, and the ac in when it arrives, life will be easier that way. Just a place to literally chill when needed. The deepfreeze for doom? I wish. A cool spot will have to do.
Get to it!
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Oh, I did get out, yesterday, finally. I had to get that watch and my friend wanted let out! Yammer, hammer, spammer. My ears were bleeding from all the need, plus I needed a few things. I didn't do much, I didn't go far, I didn't get it all. So, today, I am getting out again. The problem with yesterday was that I heated up then could not cool down. That is exactly what I thought would happen. I didn't get to sleep until well after 6:00. Core temps just wouldn't settle low enough quickly enough. My guess is today will be the same. Still, getting my outings over for the week, getting out at all actually, is a good thing. Oh, remind me to take a couple of gas cans?
My curtains arrived. Good thing I am going to town, I need curtain rods. I had totally spaced that part. While I have coverings on my bedroom windows, those coverings are different, and will be staying. I actually like the idea of having both drapes and the wooden slat blinds in the bedroom. It just gives me options. These, like the others, will need to be washed first, which won't happen until I return. A bit more shopping, too. Cabbage, coffee, another gallon of milk, a bit more salami and cheese, little bits of this and that, and gasoline. I need meats of course, but it would be nice to have a few good protein foods that are easily accessible. I am reluctant to go for frozen shrimp, for example, as the taste is so subpar if you have ever cooked your own from fresh. But the price and ease... might make it irresistible. It is, pretty much, unprocessed, and a great protein. Heated slightly, or even fried, with butter on the side or right in there, and... fats and proteins. A food heaven.
Oh, about losing those extra pounds? If you try, really really hard? You have a two in a thousand chance to lose significant weight. Further, even losing and keeping off 15 extra pounds will be more of an obsession than what it could possibly be worth. Extra work out time? It won't help. Watching what you eat like bankers watch their money? It simply doesn't matter. Now, I am not suggesting people just give up, quit trying to at least maintain, I am only suggesting that people get used to the skin they are in. The real world isn't Hollywood, the Amish sort of prove it.
Heck, did you see any heavy people in the movies Hollywood has created dealing with or even directly about the Amish? I haven't. But I lived near Amish communities, knew (as well as English can), some Amish and Mennonite (who happened to be former Amish too). Yeah, not so thin. But I... never thought about it. And, being thin? Is it really worth being obsessive? Really? REALLY? Healthy? Sure, but while the Amish proved not to be thin, they also suffered far fewer heart problems (mine, by the way, isn't related to poor diet, and my diabetes is just as likely related to the heart issue as not, or more) and diabetes. But they do eat right and they do exercise. And more, actually being thin is more unhealthy than even being obese, complicates any recovery from wound disease or surgery by itself, and puts one at constant risk in many situations. Choose your poison carefully for you will never be what you aren't? Something.
Okay, an hour more to... no, I don't really have the time. I best hop into the shower, get going, and get back. I feel like those lizards that skim the desert sands in hope that their feet not land too long on hot spots when I go out on summer days. *zip zip ZAP* Don't stand still for
Get to it!
Monday, July 9, 2012
Yes, I best get to it.
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It is hot out there. I mean screaming hot. My vehicle is always in the garage, so it is easier to start up the ac and then keep it cool after that. But getting out of the vehicle means leaving the X to the mercy of the sun, entering a world of horrid heat and mean hot ugly people, and working up a sweat while I do whatever else I do. Still, I have been betraying my friend and I didn't buy that watch. I wanted to wait until it cools off but... My friend called just a bit ago, but we were having trouble talking. I will call him back shortly and see if this evening would be okay to get out.
The drapes, I think, are why I am sleeping until later. Hmm? Oh, well, by keeping my home cooler in the morning, I can sleep longer. Heat, at some point, will simply toss me out of bed, ready or not. After several weeks of not going to bed until 4:00 and then waking by 9:00 or 10:00, I need extra sleep anyway, so it is good. Just catching up. Hopefully though, when the other drapes and ac unit arrive, I can get to bed earlier, and wake earlier. All I would have to do is have the ac set to stop at about 4:00, then let the heat of the day wake me. Well, something like that. I am formulating plans now. The trick is efficiency. For example, if I program the ac to turn off early, and leave the drapes open, then the morning heat would wake me. BUT, then the house would be hot. Hmm, I'll... work on that. By next summer I should have an efficient system down?
Yes, yes, a shower, grooming, and dressing. I no longer actually shave, I merely trim my face hears with clippers down to a nub. I suppose if I find a woman type, I will clean shave. At least if I want more than a kiss on the forehead (and I DO!). But for my guy friends? Well, they don't always shave either, and it wouldn't matter anyway. Male friends aren't about each other's looks, or at least there is a lot of give. And, perhaps, not just a permission for a bit of grunge, but an expectation. It's... a guy thing. One of those guy things I like. Oh, sure, I have had spit and polish friends. We just tease and mock each other and get over it. Something about goodie two shoes and ogre being passed around. Hmm, I have gone through both phases though. I'm in grunge currently. Oh, don't worry, I am presentable when I go out, just not... spiffy? Yeah, just not spiffy. Save when I make it to Church or some such.
Later. Stay cool if you can, cook if you can't? Bah! Time for me to think about flying this oven...
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It is hot out there. I mean screaming hot. My vehicle is always in the garage, so it is easier to start up the ac and then keep it cool after that. But getting out of the vehicle means leaving the X to the mercy of the sun, entering a world of horrid heat and mean hot ugly people, and working up a sweat while I do whatever else I do. Still, I have been betraying my friend and I didn't buy that watch. I wanted to wait until it cools off but... My friend called just a bit ago, but we were having trouble talking. I will call him back shortly and see if this evening would be okay to get out.
The drapes, I think, are why I am sleeping until later. Hmm? Oh, well, by keeping my home cooler in the morning, I can sleep longer. Heat, at some point, will simply toss me out of bed, ready or not. After several weeks of not going to bed until 4:00 and then waking by 9:00 or 10:00, I need extra sleep anyway, so it is good. Just catching up. Hopefully though, when the other drapes and ac unit arrive, I can get to bed earlier, and wake earlier. All I would have to do is have the ac set to stop at about 4:00, then let the heat of the day wake me. Well, something like that. I am formulating plans now. The trick is efficiency. For example, if I program the ac to turn off early, and leave the drapes open, then the morning heat would wake me. BUT, then the house would be hot. Hmm, I'll... work on that. By next summer I should have an efficient system down?
Yes, yes, a shower, grooming, and dressing. I no longer actually shave, I merely trim my face hears with clippers down to a nub. I suppose if I find a woman type, I will clean shave. At least if I want more than a kiss on the forehead (and I DO!). But for my guy friends? Well, they don't always shave either, and it wouldn't matter anyway. Male friends aren't about each other's looks, or at least there is a lot of give. And, perhaps, not just a permission for a bit of grunge, but an expectation. It's... a guy thing. One of those guy things I like. Oh, sure, I have had spit and polish friends. We just tease and mock each other and get over it. Something about goodie two shoes and ogre being passed around. Hmm, I have gone through both phases though. I'm in grunge currently. Oh, don't worry, I am presentable when I go out, just not... spiffy? Yeah, just not spiffy. Save when I make it to Church or some such.
Later. Stay cool if you can, cook if you can't? Bah! Time for me to think about flying this oven...
I had hoped...
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To have figured my way to function before this point in gaming. Simply put I have won all the trophies for the games I wanted to win those trophies. Still, as I have noted, heat is still an issue. I am taking care of that, finally. The curtains and air conditioner are on the way, and I did actually already order, receive, and return one air conditioner, so I have been working on it. Oh, and I do have some drapes already ordered, washed, then put up. So it's not like I am not trying to solve the problem. I suppose if I have a problem that way it was that I was trying stubbornly to pretend heat was something I could just get through. Foolishness.
So, what next? I really can't read too long as is. My day has shifted, I am getting up around noon. It could be worse and I have done well for quite some time on my day schedule, if for no real purpose other than to maintain a normal sleep cycle and for my own edification, satisfaction. Then again, I am getting sloppy with my medication. Potassium is often forgotten even when the others are taken, but the others are beginning to be missed. I just don't have a good, sure, system of getting these medicines down. I don't know how to improve that, save to hit it when I see it being missed. As I said, my dad had this same problem. My mom would... "help him". I don't think he liked the medication any more than I do. He never said so, it just... seemed that way. Yeah, I liked my dad for more reasons than I could say, this is just one added to all that, and coming later in life. :)
I do have other games I haven't played, or played and didn't really care for right off the bat. I haven't opened 007 QoSolace, though it is a short game. I haven't delved into the trophies for Killzone 3, if I did play it to completion. It is so short that... And I really... don't like playing with allies, if at least for the most part I am not forced to babysit them in KZ3. The thing I don't like about KZ3 is, often, I have no idea of where to go, where I can go, or what really to do. It's not a bad game, it just isn't epic or well done, impo. I also have a jedi game that I simply didn't like. It seemed, on first playing, more like a button-mashing game. While you are supposed to do certain things in a logic way, that would take a bit of training combined with experience and the game just didn't seem that interesting. Why games? Because in this melt down I seem to be experiencing, and just because I don't function well anyway, this allows me to "do something" beside sleep. It requires almost no actual energy output which I don't have, and if I did in this heat is best not to use anyway.
Whine much? Oh, it's all good. I'll get to things. Give it a week, when I have the ac installed and the shades up. Heck, I might wash the dishes! Bleh. The real hope is, once I take care of the heat, I will actually get to that room, do the laundry, wash the dishes, finish that hole out back, and a bit more, maybe a lot more. With the medicines (mostly) going, I think it is possible. Then again, we all know that... I often put more on my plate than what I can eat. The reality is much different than my plans, often. But... sometimes? Yes, sometimes I can do a ton of work. But everything really does have to be perfect, even then it is rare. Like a tornado on a specific spot on the earth.
Gah! The neighbor boy came by for the watch I promised! Of course, I haven't been out, so I don't have it! I hate when I do that. I HAVE to figure out how to get out. I must say, having foods at home so I don't have to get out does make getting out even more difficult. I did, finally, break down and drink some of that powdered milk-like stuff last night (not official powdered milk, mind you). It didn't taste too bad, if too it only resembles watery milk. If you drink fat free milk, you might not have known the difference, I think? It still had just a touch of that "flavor" Carnation has, but it was a fleeting note unlike the absolute, stick with you, full flavor of Carnation dry milk. And, perhaps, even skim milk has the flavor. I've... never touched skim so I wouldn't know. 'I have to get that watch', sung to the tune of "Sink the Bismarck". She already took the Hood!
Later.
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To have figured my way to function before this point in gaming. Simply put I have won all the trophies for the games I wanted to win those trophies. Still, as I have noted, heat is still an issue. I am taking care of that, finally. The curtains and air conditioner are on the way, and I did actually already order, receive, and return one air conditioner, so I have been working on it. Oh, and I do have some drapes already ordered, washed, then put up. So it's not like I am not trying to solve the problem. I suppose if I have a problem that way it was that I was trying stubbornly to pretend heat was something I could just get through. Foolishness.
So, what next? I really can't read too long as is. My day has shifted, I am getting up around noon. It could be worse and I have done well for quite some time on my day schedule, if for no real purpose other than to maintain a normal sleep cycle and for my own edification, satisfaction. Then again, I am getting sloppy with my medication. Potassium is often forgotten even when the others are taken, but the others are beginning to be missed. I just don't have a good, sure, system of getting these medicines down. I don't know how to improve that, save to hit it when I see it being missed. As I said, my dad had this same problem. My mom would... "help him". I don't think he liked the medication any more than I do. He never said so, it just... seemed that way. Yeah, I liked my dad for more reasons than I could say, this is just one added to all that, and coming later in life. :)
I do have other games I haven't played, or played and didn't really care for right off the bat. I haven't opened 007 QoSolace, though it is a short game. I haven't delved into the trophies for Killzone 3, if I did play it to completion. It is so short that... And I really... don't like playing with allies, if at least for the most part I am not forced to babysit them in KZ3. The thing I don't like about KZ3 is, often, I have no idea of where to go, where I can go, or what really to do. It's not a bad game, it just isn't epic or well done, impo. I also have a jedi game that I simply didn't like. It seemed, on first playing, more like a button-mashing game. While you are supposed to do certain things in a logic way, that would take a bit of training combined with experience and the game just didn't seem that interesting. Why games? Because in this melt down I seem to be experiencing, and just because I don't function well anyway, this allows me to "do something" beside sleep. It requires almost no actual energy output which I don't have, and if I did in this heat is best not to use anyway.
Whine much? Oh, it's all good. I'll get to things. Give it a week, when I have the ac installed and the shades up. Heck, I might wash the dishes! Bleh. The real hope is, once I take care of the heat, I will actually get to that room, do the laundry, wash the dishes, finish that hole out back, and a bit more, maybe a lot more. With the medicines (mostly) going, I think it is possible. Then again, we all know that... I often put more on my plate than what I can eat. The reality is much different than my plans, often. But... sometimes? Yes, sometimes I can do a ton of work. But everything really does have to be perfect, even then it is rare. Like a tornado on a specific spot on the earth.
Gah! The neighbor boy came by for the watch I promised! Of course, I haven't been out, so I don't have it! I hate when I do that. I HAVE to figure out how to get out. I must say, having foods at home so I don't have to get out does make getting out even more difficult. I did, finally, break down and drink some of that powdered milk-like stuff last night (not official powdered milk, mind you). It didn't taste too bad, if too it only resembles watery milk. If you drink fat free milk, you might not have known the difference, I think? It still had just a touch of that "flavor" Carnation has, but it was a fleeting note unlike the absolute, stick with you, full flavor of Carnation dry milk. And, perhaps, even skim milk has the flavor. I've... never touched skim so I wouldn't know. 'I have to get that watch', sung to the tune of "Sink the Bismarck". She already took the Hood!
Later.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Just getting by.
.
.
Not badly, mind you. The curtains keep the house cool until mid-afternoon. The curtains for those windows are on the way, though I can't be certain they will do all that much. The world itself, by that time, is hot. Though I have to believe it will help a bit. The big thing will be having a room that is cool, using the air conditioner to keep it that way. And, if things work out well, I may even be able to use the ac to cool several rooms if it comes to that. For now, the heat keeps me pretty down.
I took a shower today, hoping that when the sun goes down I can sneak into town for a bit of shopping. A bit of cheese, three gallons of milk, maybe even good bread. I will do most of my shopping tonight, but I need coffee. So, tomorrow, I can go in and get that, pick up my friend if he wants to get out, and go do something. Yes, I had hoped to already have done that but the heat really is keeping me at bay. I am almost positive that most people, if they could, would not venture forth for almost any reason when the summer sun is blazing away. It is... unnatural! It really is. Mechanization has lead men to a strange lifestyle. Air condition, heating, motorization, mechanization, and the rest have lead men, mostly, to do what we simply weren't ever really made to do. And, the more we do it, the more we need to do it. There is a point to it, if it is often lost in the hubbub. The point is to make space, a place, food, and a reasonable life for as many people as possible. That part, I do think, is God's will. He made us to do that very thing. I just wonder where the line is, sometimes.
Yep, living like a hippie or scrooge, I have decided, is not my gig. From now on if it is too hot or too cold I need to address is. Yes, I like to be stubborn, yes I like to run cheaply, yes lots of things. But for me to get any function, which is a pleasure, then I must handle these basic wants... needs really. You can't work hard if you can't cool off. And you can't cool off if, doing nothing, you are nearly at peak heat tolerance. Same goes for the winter. I may have to jack my furnace up to 78 in order to function, but after two winters of trying to be frugal and failing miserably in my health care, it is time to take a different path. I am not sure how much more it will cost, but that cost is not worth dying through being unable to attend my medicines and doctor appointments. So be it. *sigh* Oh, but I best be considering a new furnace, and to be honest central air would probably be cheaper in the long run. A package with both of those, a few years ago, ran about $5k. What it would save in costs would not make up for that but it would help defray the expense. But comparing up front costs to over time savings is a very tricky proposition save for all but the best of personal finance control freaks. So, I suppose, my goal is to build up the money for that upfront and simply yield the savings. At about $209 a month, saved over two years, I would be close enough. I'm not sure, with my other savings, and expenses, if I can pull that out and set it aside though. I'll... begin looking over those things.
I keep reading the lessons, going forward. I'm not learning much, just previewing the material until I can create a cool enough environment to actually think well. Bits of the paleo diet book are being consumed, and I may investigate ways to cut some of the fats, adding more lean cuts occasionally. I am not considering redoing my whole diet, only in tweaking it a bit, seeing if that helps. There is the concern with expense. Lean often seems to be rather more expensive. I don't know. All I am saying is that I am reviewing my diet and looking at a few alternatives. Though, mostly I am looking at the protein versus fat versus carbs. I can't honestly say it is a weight loss thing I think my carb intake is reasonable, though timing is what might be improved with it, as with other foods. A man with only one oar trying for white-waters though? Yeah, I know. Just... know I am... working on little bits and pieces of my broken luck.
Have a great day.
.
Not badly, mind you. The curtains keep the house cool until mid-afternoon. The curtains for those windows are on the way, though I can't be certain they will do all that much. The world itself, by that time, is hot. Though I have to believe it will help a bit. The big thing will be having a room that is cool, using the air conditioner to keep it that way. And, if things work out well, I may even be able to use the ac to cool several rooms if it comes to that. For now, the heat keeps me pretty down.
I took a shower today, hoping that when the sun goes down I can sneak into town for a bit of shopping. A bit of cheese, three gallons of milk, maybe even good bread. I will do most of my shopping tonight, but I need coffee. So, tomorrow, I can go in and get that, pick up my friend if he wants to get out, and go do something. Yes, I had hoped to already have done that but the heat really is keeping me at bay. I am almost positive that most people, if they could, would not venture forth for almost any reason when the summer sun is blazing away. It is... unnatural! It really is. Mechanization has lead men to a strange lifestyle. Air condition, heating, motorization, mechanization, and the rest have lead men, mostly, to do what we simply weren't ever really made to do. And, the more we do it, the more we need to do it. There is a point to it, if it is often lost in the hubbub. The point is to make space, a place, food, and a reasonable life for as many people as possible. That part, I do think, is God's will. He made us to do that very thing. I just wonder where the line is, sometimes.
Yep, living like a hippie or scrooge, I have decided, is not my gig. From now on if it is too hot or too cold I need to address is. Yes, I like to be stubborn, yes I like to run cheaply, yes lots of things. But for me to get any function, which is a pleasure, then I must handle these basic wants... needs really. You can't work hard if you can't cool off. And you can't cool off if, doing nothing, you are nearly at peak heat tolerance. Same goes for the winter. I may have to jack my furnace up to 78 in order to function, but after two winters of trying to be frugal and failing miserably in my health care, it is time to take a different path. I am not sure how much more it will cost, but that cost is not worth dying through being unable to attend my medicines and doctor appointments. So be it. *sigh* Oh, but I best be considering a new furnace, and to be honest central air would probably be cheaper in the long run. A package with both of those, a few years ago, ran about $5k. What it would save in costs would not make up for that but it would help defray the expense. But comparing up front costs to over time savings is a very tricky proposition save for all but the best of personal finance control freaks. So, I suppose, my goal is to build up the money for that upfront and simply yield the savings. At about $209 a month, saved over two years, I would be close enough. I'm not sure, with my other savings, and expenses, if I can pull that out and set it aside though. I'll... begin looking over those things.
I keep reading the lessons, going forward. I'm not learning much, just previewing the material until I can create a cool enough environment to actually think well. Bits of the paleo diet book are being consumed, and I may investigate ways to cut some of the fats, adding more lean cuts occasionally. I am not considering redoing my whole diet, only in tweaking it a bit, seeing if that helps. There is the concern with expense. Lean often seems to be rather more expensive. I don't know. All I am saying is that I am reviewing my diet and looking at a few alternatives. Though, mostly I am looking at the protein versus fat versus carbs. I can't honestly say it is a weight loss thing I think my carb intake is reasonable, though timing is what might be improved with it, as with other foods. A man with only one oar trying for white-waters though? Yeah, I know. Just... know I am... working on little bits and pieces of my broken luck.
Have a great day.
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