Rebooting.

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Starting from a better position is good and more. It isn't always, usually, an option.  At this time that is so far from were things stand I can only chuckle.  Still, every here and now has some potential.  Medicine.  Tonight.  Set up for two weeks.  One of the problems is that instead of a three month supply, there was only one month worth of potassium.  I hate starting meds with any part short.  When talking on the phone, or at all, at any point, is beyond my range then having to call the doc, pharmacy, then drive to get it?  Still I have to try something.

Several attempts were made to sleep.  With the old problems piled upon by the new sleep just won't happen.  There was a mild hope themeds would help, if as an afterthought.  Nope, if my body is twitching for sleep.  Nerves are too jangled.  Perhaps dinner might help.  What can be will be done.  Later or good night.

Worse.

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Much worse.  In every way.  Everything that was wrong remains so and new things have been added.  As well, my chest...  The sensation of my heart being squeezed in a bureaucratic fist.  It won't kill me, it is making it nearly impossible to work.  I have been pushing into day but not functionally.  I was going to make a few calls today but I couldn't talk.

I have been aiming to get to town or just place a few calls since Tuesday.  Couldn't.  If the chance appears... a request for help will be made.  I simply can't do it all, alone, in time.  Troubled and in trouble while I can't stand.  They don't care, those with a beef.  Or, maybe they do only the way a hungry predator cares about another wounded animal.

I'll keep... what... trying, hoping, praying, willing?  All the above I suppose.  A bad time in every way.  I can rightly and easily say I have been in worse all around straghts, if it's been quite some time.  Hey, friend, could you lend a prayer?

Some.

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Half of the dishes finished, a few things located, meats cooked, other plans fruiting, if a nap is about to happen.  It's the only way.  Grilling is such a good cooking method, easy cleaning while handy for volume.  Boneless pork ribs and burgers, tonight.  The ribs were a bit grainy.  Not sure if that was my bad or just that cut, for the price no complaint.  Though a means of mollifying will be sought.  As mentioned, at the price not a problem.  Still rather tasty.

Day function is required for several bits of business.  Beside social security, it seems my other account hasn't actually been shuttered.  I don't known how to easily get them money, but can afford it.  Enough to clear all and maintain a small balance until all else is solved.  Ugh.  Why would a check have been returned as from a closed account then? Read here and reopened?  Didn't name names, might have helped.

Nap time.  I can hope I wake in time to wake fully enough to do business... and check on medicine... and something about vet status and house tax relief... and tags...  BOTHER!  Never to worry.  I do exceptionally well, a spill and pileup are bound to happen.  I'll keep at it.  Later.

Cat in a tree.

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Have you ever seen a cat stuck that way?  Yeowling, unhappy, with not enough more 'up' left to them, no food or water.  I had hoped to be well into things, it isn't happening.  I did get to the post yesterday, which required more than just going.  I become hemmed by ongoing projects which must be remedied beforehand.  Then grooming.  At least that breaks things up, offering a new opportunity... if it can be implemented.

As rough as it is lately, that window is... I will be doing what is possible.  Dishes are in a fresh rinse, while cleaning litter it seems that needs a full change, the reefer needs cleared (since switching the door so as to have access for cleaning, it has been being kept up that way... mostly, foods though can be left overlong is all)... small projects needed but also in hopes of priming the work pump.  Well, and a call to social security.  As you may plainly notice, however, my days and nights are inverted.  Ah right.  Not posting enough for that to be apparent.  Just woke.

Perhaps a nap later will allow some day function.  Also need new tags.  Almost lost that.  So behind, so broken.  Good thing challenges are enjoyed.  Can't win, as mentioned here before... and often.  But can't lose either.  I refuse to surrender.  All of these are distractions, duties, chores.  While attention must be paid, they aren't what life is.  I will do my best on these.  I will not get lost in or on that and those.  I will pray, in thanks, even as I curse some trivial, or not so, real issue or even such as a callumny.

Even in great pain or confusion, upset, humiliation of failing (or even success, won't play sudoku again as people... just can't handle such a silly "sucess"), life is rather a grand thing.  An incalculably valuable gift, one not to be squandered or even foresworn even in the mildest of ways...if pouting will happen.  Just so you know.  I am far more grateful, if not exclusively so really.  Don't let the... mood confuse that to you.

Now, be on your good way, be productive, but don't let the door hit you in the ass.  I have... things to do.  *grins*