Took some time off.

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From everything.  Mostly.  Days and nights are completely messed.  Going to bed at six, waking at 18:30.  Sleeping very long too, which isn't helping.  If trying to push sleep along in order to reset.  Is it the heat?  Medicine?  Or have I bet keeping it too cool?  I just don't know.  All I know is waking, sleeping, doing, all in the drink.

Blood sugar is improving, but in odd give and takes.  Yesterday it was down to 130, fasting.  Today it's up to 163.  I mean, those are better, but not continuously better.  And I ate rightly.  A steak, coffee, and kefir.  Oh, cheese and salami, the last of the most recent batch.  Good, keto, food.  And not too much, not an excess.  So... why the higher read?  Stupid things!

Yesterday, I had burgers and steak.  An excess of steaks, lately, because the store rapped them in large batches.  And I found out I was out of bigger freeze bags.  So... not much to do but thaw and eat them.  Four, this last time.  I ate them within a week.  Difficult, as good as it was.  

More on sale.  So, I ordered more.  And a few sirloin tip roasts.  Not great price, on those.  Very good on steak.  I ordered eleven steaks.  May... order more yet.  Inch and an half, new york strip.  Not my favorite?  But, after learning how to cook them, they can be nearly as good as ribeye.  Plus, having a few extra steaks around?  When someone stops by, or does a good turn?  I can share a little edible joy.  There is nothing like handing out a few adult candies.  It's like they have never had a Christmas before.  :)

Medicine is working.  I can't quite do four pills a day, yet.  Still at three, and even that is tight.  Carvedilol busts my chops, hard.  I have fought groups of peers and come out better than how I feel on these meds.  Have you ever taken tylenol three, with the heavy drug in it?  That... isn't as bad as this.  And, I won't take that because it is too harsh to me.  I can handle pain better than painkillers.  Just... how it goes.  Well, I can handle aspirin, and the others.  Just not the narcos.  Well, vodka, even everclear.  But... not narcos.  I'll keep the pain from my broken ribs, thank you.  Bah!

Yes, it's the pills.  Heart medicine.  On the good side, the stuff set to arrive doesn't have any side effects.  And, I will get used to these.  Just have to push through.  Mostly.  I'll take breaks from it, a month or three at a time, or even a few days, from time to time.  Gives my liver, kidneys, and such a break from time to time.  Ignore doctors, trust me, don't clear medicines forever.  You need a break from time to time.  Just... yes.

And, outside, at 20:00?  It's already down to 62!  Just yesterday?  Or... the day before?  It was just down to 74 at midnight.  If, yesterday, it got down to 49 (when I went to bed).  It could have gotten a bit cooler, or that was the bottom.  Still, that surprised me too.  It is definitely cooling.  It's still August, and it's hitting October, maybe November, thought perhaps just a very short fluke?  Well, but the whole summer is a fluke, by that measure.  We did have some summer, but so very short.  Weeks, not months.  And, as mentioned, they are hitting the roads as if they expect to have to be digging like gold hungry fools.  I think they believe it is coming.

My question is, do they realize what is coming isn't coming for a season, or three, or ten?  What is coming, if what I see is right, will last decades, centuries, and if it spins more?  Centuries.  I can't see that far, only deeply.  And I see cold.  I'd hate to be living in Russia, or Canada, the US, Europe, or even Africa or Middle America.  If the darks hate the whites now, wait until we invade them as they invaded us.  Do they even have the capacity to build a main battle tank that can survive even a few US, European, or Russian tanks?  

Why don't I see China?  Nuclear civil war?  That one child thing may have eliminated them in every way possible.  I hope they remember NATO and the UN for their involvement with that, and nuke them on their way out.  Fair is fair.  But I think they are... done.  Too bad, in some ways.  But their people are so broken, I'm not sure they can be salvaged.

I wonder if the days of darkness will be in there?  Or if those are for even later?  God is tricky, in some ways.  Though, really, and too?  What is requested is what is delivered.  Be of great care with your prayer intentions.  I know, when they are praying in church, with prayer intentions, I very consciously guide any given request.  I won't burn in hell for requesting evil things.  Some of those, as intended, may very well be.  All churches seem too... have darkness in them, to the roots.  Caution.  Tend your soul, the churches are failing in that.

But, but, but... the church will not fail until Christ returns.  No, no it won't.  But the church may be the sum of the last faithful christian, Catholic.  Keep the faith.  Aye.  Look to God.  True.  But... watch yourself around false men, I don't care what they are wearing or otherwise doing.  Look at what they do, and say.  Judge them, not for heaven or hell, but for truth, wisdom.  And other things.  If false, back away.  God won't tend the woefully, willfully, blind.  Take the mark at your great perilous risk.

Anyway... on with... things.  Later.