Out, finally.

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Later than planned.  But to it, yesterday.  I started my shower at a quarter to noon.  Planned to get to the hospital by 13:00?  For some reason, or several, I didn't make it there until 15:00, or nearly.

It wasn't that long of a drive.  An hour?  Or so.  I really didn't exactly know where I was going, but had a general idea?  I pretty much got it.  Passing the turnoff, but suspecting I had within... five blocks, getting my phone out, and using the map app.

Now I know.  Not far from one of the Catholic churches and the va clinic in that city.  Though, after that run, I suspect I know a slightly faster way.  Taking the interstate through to as far east in town before taking an offramp into slower traffic much closer to the hospital.

She is in rough shape.  Foggy, of mind, pretty badly.  The whole left side of her face is pretty bruised.  But her left eye, which had swollen shut, is open again.  As well, she didn't have as much road rash as feared, just a few cuts.  She also caught pneumonia in one or the other hospital.  *sigh*

She mostly just said "yes" to almost anything I asked her.  Wasn't sure the lights were on upstairs.  They have reduced her painpill potency.  Added a course of antibiotics.  And are doing physical therapy.  Will see.

Hoping she can snap out of it, improve.  Or she may have to go to a nursing facility.  At least for a while.  I can't possibly care for her in her current state.  If I do have some hope she will pull up, and out.  Or, in time.

She has proved her worth and else.  So, whatever happens, if she regains function, she will be welcomed back.  I would like to see her live and eventually die, on her own two feet, in a home.  Cooking, eating, and living like a free woman.  Will have to see.

I had hoped to get back today, but I can't.  It took days for me to gain the strength and health to go.  Two days to clean my body and clear my mind.  To gather strength, focus, then go.  It wore me more than anticipated.  But, I feel I am on a rebound.

Plus, with many of the unknoewns sorted?  Knowing where the hospital is.  Seeing what shape she is in.  And some other things.  Going back will be easier.  Just not today.  I'll look for her book, take that, and read to her next time.

Oh, but as I was leaving, she did say she loved me.  That... eased my mind.  It was the first thing she said, other than "yes".  Not much, but take little things, and starts, as one can.  Later.