Sleep, for what It was worth.

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I'll avoid complaining excessively.  Stating that rest was not obtained in sleep.  Not full deep rest.  I am grateful that I did sleep, and wake.  I have had far worse.

The toilet became clogged yesterday.  My mind was not in a good situation for problem solving.  Note to self and others... with a clogged toilet, turn off the tank fill valve, then tinker.  It takes a messy long task (IF there is a slow drain)down to about a thirty second nothing of a job.  *shakes head*  Just was not well awake and could not force the issue.  Still got it in time.  Rare with this toilet, once a year or so.

I have been trying to drink less.  Good and bad coming from it.  Not sure drouhgting is sustainable.

Hoping to do more work today.  If I can wake!  Later.

Can't sleep enough.

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It is more a failure to find or create a rested state.  When an attempt to sleep enough is made that ends in failure.  I simply can't sleep long enough or in tight enough cycles to make a dent.  Actually it ends being worse.  While pulling, mostly, standard duty is between dry and brutal, when I can, it is far better than the options.  At least, so far, it hasn't been making me too grumpy.

I did a few things today and yesterday.  Mostly starting or catching afew minor things up.  I can't keep at it.  I tire so very quickly, as when the body figures out winter has returned.  Going to crash again shortly.  Hoping to be ready to push a bit harder tomorrow.  Later or good night.

I thought they got this machine as well.

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I woke, started my routines, including beginning the long boot cycle for this system.  I guess filling the ad queu is vital.  As I go about other things, I pause to turn the television on, letting THAT boot, later choosing my id.  Then, finally, if it all worked, and when I have finished with first things morning active dailies, I can sit and begin my e-dailies.

Not so this morning.  Blank black screen.  The machine was on, obviously running, but without visuals... exactly what happened with my computer.  I thought either Vox is using his crew do rid certain people, or has lost control?  Both?  Or maybe not.  I don't think he is at all who he presents, if he generally admits that.  Does even he know his salt, or is he lost in possiblities?  Not exactly active accusations... thoughts, concerns.

After some tinkering, a lot actually, it fired up.  Running it too long?  Are attempts being made to shut me down, by whom or what?  Is video streaming to much for this device?  I do know I need a better solution soon... or to just walk away.  That won't get me off any lists.  They never forget, even to desecration after life.

Back, for now.  Later.

A shift to the right.

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To the good, of course, for those of you with any familiarity with the books of wisdom, newer and older and of course biblical.  For those who choose not to know, continue in your blithely blissful heathen ignorance.  It suits some, many, perhaps most.  At least look at some of the 'pretty' ancient stained glass windows or epic murals, those were made to give the dull, unwashed, and ignorant from any cause a chance too.  Scroll up, as a fact. You... never even noticed before ?  How blissful your world must be.

Oh, I mean I think health might be improving.  I showered and all, then went shopping.  Cat needs, food, a few extras.  I don't fear running out of food.  So far water has always been on tap.  What does frighten is..? running out of toilet paper.  Have you ever wondered what you would use if  production stops.  Leaves?  Do you live in even a small town?  Just how long before such became illegal on pain of immediate death or even a village became denuded of plants?

When I returned, I could only find three rolls.  Being so sick I couldn't get out!  I really worried.  Being a man, however, even as luxuriously as I use the stuff, and three full rolls is a lot of paper.  I was sort of used to being at my mother's.  I swear women must not only use it as per normal, but also eat it and bath with it.  Perhaps, like cats they also paw it to shreds as play and/or a passive-aggressive swipe at the man?  Anyway...  I did find a 3x8 of super extra big rolls.  While that eased my mind, truth be told I Iike to have two of those.  Two full could be close to a year supply, for a man.  Less and much less for a women.  They are natural heavy users.  If they find a cache they zing up consumption.  It's how they do, an aspect of them.  Sometimes cured by putting them in charge of finances... if... that bears it's own tallies.  Innit.  *grins*

(whispered from a small distance)  He's de debil.  -  No, but the "debil" is in the details, some of which is quite familiar.  Plus...  *grins*  never le mind.

Anyway, I'll see about trash and other small work starts.  It's Sunday, I am still in the weakening grip of something, and tired, so I won't attempt to bulldoze big tasks... just... start a few things, prepare for a few others, and bring a few things back up to where they were.  Oh I bought a few new brooms.  I am going to see if there is a good way to clean and maintain brooms while I am at things, soon.  Not that expensive but why be wasteful if too, who wants to use a filthy broom?  Later.

Persistent.

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Some say that about me, usually in a dark way as in weed.  I write about the fever.  It is mild asthey go.  A few degrees of elevation only. Being that I run cold, literally, it might not register.  I know it, feel it... exactly behind the skin and bones of my face.  A week now?  Or longer.  I've hacked a few times as well.  No other symptoms, save possibly exhaustion.

One more bill to pay, then finances need to be figured and sorted.  Work as I may, too.  All with caution.  Do not wish to exacerbate this mostly sleeping monster.

There is something else I mean to do for my mother.  Can't until next month, but that works.  Then back to birthday, Christmas, and random occasional or need.  She has mostly learned how to live on air.  Well, and she makes herself useful.  That... never hurts.  People can love you all you or they want, but most won't, many can't, split out even a nickel unless not doing so would cost even more.  Fair, not?  Reality, cope.  She is and has been useful well and long enough to have serious resources, which she very rarely, and not without great cause, employs.  Better to gift her from time to time or deep in debt to her one remains.  Some can live with and like that. I can't.

Later.

Fried?

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Yeah.  A bummer thing.  I don't think it was overworking, the heat, or even standard health issues.  If correct, it is the illness my uncle had.  I do wonder about... bad medicine.  Anyway, I thought I had gotten over it.  Not so.  I guess I'll need to take it easy, tend myself a bit better, and just try to find or wait for healing.  I'll keep at it, more slowly.

My mother did find habanera, and is making salsa already!  My cousins were there.  She is who they have left, especially at this moment.  All good, especially the eldest... who had started going his way, alone.  His father dying may have opened something for the good.  Yeah, I am getting it too.  Anyway, one of them teased that they would eat all the salsa.  I goofed for a bit, then hit on check and mate.  None of them can even handle her hotter jalapeno salsa.  Little dogs can't eat the big dog food!  Ha!

I did find the number and bump the bug spraying.  Now to get the cave sorted out.  As well, I need to figure out medicine, pay a major bill, and learn of my finances sum total.  Well, and a few other big problems to sort or solve.  Including a new machine, computer.  Just not sure a tablet would do.  Later.

He has died.

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With how things have been I don't know when, exactly.  It was during the day, and not really foreseen.  He seemed to be doing well.  He sent another of my uncles to do a few errands.  When that uncle returned, he found his brother dead.  My mother suggested, from his expression, that he didn't suffer... maybe he dozed and never woke.  I am grateful to have had this last visit.

I didn't mention this, but I am pretty sure he wasn't seeing me as I generally appear.  He has known me all my life, but...  Something in his eyes, the way he looked at me.  I've seen that expression before, in the elderly, the dying, sometimes children.  I've not asked or been told what that is.  Usually it seems pleasant, or at least not unexpected.  Beyond that I don't know.

During my scheduling experiment, I failed disastrously.  I am now just between sleep and waking, but in the most horrible of ways.  Brutal.  I'll get back to it when I can.  Later or good night.

New schedule.

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Sleep happened.  When it became too hot to work or even think, before I zombified into that deadzone, I crashed.  Sleep was good.  Am in the waking stage.  In another hour a shower shave and general start.

Back to the spare bedroom.  I did much but there was so much to do!  No plans, other than the bigger final goal, not overheating or overworking, eating, and keeping up on the usuals such as cat care... including attention.  But, yeah, the sleep trick worked, at least this time.  I am guessing when I burn out no trick will work save restorative rest over time.

A better interface is being researched, for easier better blogging.  Until then this is as good as it gets.

Later.

No way in hell!

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Every step in every direction is a compound problem, not even including how to incrementally shift items through intermediate places toward a final point if just for this objective.  Don't get me wrong, it is doable, perhaps even by me, only not in a week.  I will keep at it but I am rescheduling.

I have been at it off and on most of the day.  It is about time to nap, hopefully, then hit it later when the world and myself have cooled a bit.  I am doing decent work at a decent pace, there is simply far more to do than I could see, vastly more.  One day, task, item at a time.  Including naps.

Oh,  recycling was taken.  Later than  usual, double return duty.  Trash was still there when I checked.  If so, that bin can be brought back.  Trying to keep up while catching up.  Later.

Almost.

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A slightly different tack might make it happen.  I was able to sleep earlier, but not by enough to really matter.  So thought went into how to... work with things as they are.  Naps.  For which a frigid bedroom is required, that is simply how I was constructed.  As mentioned, if a walk-in deep-freeze were available or affordable to create and run?  Yeah, it would be my bedroom.  Seriously.  At least in winter, with no vent in there, it is as simple as opening the windows.

It is not winter, so cranking the ac will have to do.  The plan is to hit it as hard and long as possible, then stop cool a bit then crash as needed, cycling those as possible.  While the full task seems impossible, that doesn't mean I am surrendering.  Geronimo?  As always.

There are other tricks and methods being explored.  I may lose,  but it wouldn't be from a lack of effort.

Today?  The spare bedroom, half of the living room, finishing the bathroom, and doing light follow-up in the computer/front room.  Gotta happen.  Later.

I am thinking not.

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The heat is back at full velocity.  It's wrecking me.  Things are getting done, just nowhere near well or fast enough.  I'll give it until Wednesday, I just don't believe so.  The dishes, bathroom floor and sink, laundry if it needs finished, and a few other tasks are done.  The heat is really killing it for a large push though.  I might try to sleep through the heat, if I can't always sort that out as I would prefer.

The trash and recycling haven't been taken.  Is it a holiday?  Other neighbors had theirs out before me.  Maybe habit... or need.  I'll leave it another day, then call if it remains.

A bit of gaming as the ac works the bedroom, then I'll give sleep a chance.  Later or good night.

A new sensation.

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No, nothing funny in any form of that term.  Overwhelmed?  I think that would be it.

I couldn't do as much, or more what  I had hoped last night.  Other things were in the way.  I did get the bathroom sink, floor swept, toilet cleaned, and redid the dishes... which I set to a final fresh soak this morning.  Dishes were in the way, laundry had been forgotten and it was critical to finish those, and then, being Sunday, trash and recycling had to be wrangled.  I only ended up doing recycling last night, right to the curb.  I hoped I could do trash in time this morning... check.  More of it than  I had supposed.

The bed is *cough* made.  Shut it, mother.  I am presentable(tm), ditto mom.  Breakfast, eggs and chops, was enjoyed.  Dishes were reset.  Trash fully collected and out.  After this and a break and resetting laundry drying or a fluff, laundry, a shower and shave, mopping the bathroom, then another break then into the spare bedroom.  A little attention will go to the room  I hit yesterday and the kitchen.

Damn straight.  Even mostly dead, given a reason and back almost to my feet there is a chance I can still do a bit.  I can't go in lightly and have a chance.  Wish me luck, help, or bes get out of the way.  Later.

Certainly. Right?

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What?  Come again?  It sounded good.  Spraying for bugs, then quarterly thenceforth.  Costs were right.  Safe once dry.  It also gets mice, which the girls aren't doing anymore... probably due to them finding one too many poisoned ones?  I think so.  So... what could be bad about that?  They will be spraying outside, and in!  I may need to delay.  But, for now I am acting as if the preps can be made in time.  That will mean a lot of work.  Every room needs pretty serious effort.

Good, if I can do it and not injure myself or worse.  I hit the computer room a bit this afternoon.  It isn't finished, but as is they should be able to do their work.  I will hit the bathroom after a break and meal.  That was already on my short list.  The aim is to hit the bulk jobs in a rush, then when I can't rush go back and sort pre-hit areas more thoroughly, slowly, and deliberately.

With my recent resolution, which is going better than anticipated so far and this early on, my plan to order a dumpster to get rid of much, to have purpose, and to clean myself?  All good.  Thing is the deadline is next Saturday.  *shrug*  If Wednesday rolls around and I am not 45-50%, or more like 65?  Then I reschedule.  Done.  I want it DONE, so I will be gunning for it.

If I finish those two rooms tonight, I then have six and the difficult rooms remaining.  Plus I'll need to go back over everything.  An eye will be given to organizing and sorting what to be rid.  The challenge as it stands.  I accept, with trepidation.  Good night.

Thank God it is...

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Well, I know the phrase suggests Friday, for my money Saturday works.  The weather has something to do with it, the bulk of the exaustion is due to pushing so hard after such a harsh and long fall.  Still, trying to slow without stopping.  Laundry is moving along.  Less than I had thought, which adds to impetus.  A shower and shave, cleaning the bathroom, after a bowl of chili and a few dishes?  At least a jab toward those ends.

The hope was there to get to confession, then mass.  Just can't do that today.  Back on track for that though.  Soon,  very soon.  I need and want it.  Clothes and shoes need to be arranged.  While the feet and ankles are good, if going to church regularly is to start, the need for shoes for "fat" days will be required.  Thankfully clothes aren't usually a problem that way.

Called my mom.  Asked if she could make habanera salsa.  Asked for no sugar.  No problem there, she doesn't ever add it.  I suggested I'd take a lot if she was up for it, and that while I couldn't help, I would gladly pay to cover costs and plenty more.  The woman likes requests and offers.  If she doesn't need, or cash, or now, she has a string or three for in time and need.  She lives on shoestrings but makes out better than seemingly possible.  Though I think she was happy with my gifts, work, and sharing this visit and ongoing.  She had suggested she needed a few things.  On the way and plus.  Still gladly pay for a small horde of red hot gold, and be grateful for the work.  And she'll love being useful .  It's how mothers do.

I best have that bowla, then get going.  Later.

Cold, for so early.

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I woke around 2:00.  Knew then it had really cooled overnight.  Inside, it read 71-72.  Not cold, but a large drop given the rock nature of my home's construction, the season, and all else.  I didn't check the outdoor reading until 8:30 or so, 46-48 F.  Sun had been up for a couple hours.  Wild.  Yes, that means, on top of pushing the last few days I am moving a bit slower.  All good, this is a rest day.  A very few last dishes, a shower and maybe shave, small loads of laundry... only as fast as I can easily fully complete, and maybe hitting the bathroom hard.  More?  Less?  It's just a rough plan.  Absolutely no guarantees.  On any of it.

A resolution.  In hope, faith.  First, to be dressed and clean enough(tm) for company as a first thing when I wake.  A minor addition here as I write, and something I was starting before my trip, to make my bed daily, changing sheets weekly.  And then working on getting then keeping these front two rooms company compliant(tm).  Some of it will take time.  Some of it has been happening for a while, mostly.  All of it will need practice, sometimes great effort, and a bit of trickery from time to time.  Appearances may be hollow, if hollow can be better than nothing... especially to a shadow, even a shadow of light.  So... don't just sit there, pray!

Already had a few eggs and toast.  Well enough back that a snack is in order.  After that, I may track a few tools such as my carpenter's square a compass (not that kind, though that can be employed in the correct plain) and some others so as to figure the angle(s) needed for mocking up triangular blocks for curtain rod hardware.  Should be easy.  With a circular saw, 2x4's, assuming the angles are good and are recreated rightly.  Did I just read "snack" somewhere?  Later.

Well?

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Between over planning, previously overdoing, and a weather system which moved in, I won't get to it all.  Well, and the dishes... I thought they were ready for a rinse then drying.  Nope, had to be washed then rinsed and finally dried. A lot of dishes.

I did finish those, got the laundry back for later, put up one rod gizmo, did some general cleaning here and there, ate, and a few other things.  More, more will yet be done... just not all of it.  I may be regretting my push to days, too hot.  Ugh.

I'll get to things, soon or late.  Keeping at it.  Later.

Mostly a day of rest.

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The last few dishes, a shower, and cleaning the bathroom sum total are the bigger tasks; a few curtain rods, a meal or two while food lasts, and some cleaning in the kitchen as minor efforts.  As well, prepping for painting the bathroom... which also means work on the wall... drywall replacement... and maybe cupboard door work; getting clean but unfolded clothes from before the trip ready to wash-freshen then tend rightly, plus laying a general plan to get things back to order around here.

Who ever knows?  It is not about knowing though.  Doing, as one may... in faith?  Well, that is my way, gig, story.  I'll stick with it.  If you want, you could add these efforts to your prayers.  I'd be eternally grateful, if I might have a (good) alterior motive to that request.

Get to it people!  And good morning.

More, as expected.

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Mail, after the shower and shave.  As well, I watered the plants also using the shower humidity to give them a bonus.  Then set dishes to a fresh soak.  After mail, to town shopping.  Everything and then some.  Watermelon, which... after a fresh few slices... has been diced and stored, surprising even myself.

Everything went up and away quickly.  I am fried, though.  All good.  A bit of gaming as the bedroom cools, then I'll crash.  Good night.

Very good.

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Much has been done.  The work load has slowly been ramping up.  Yesterday and Monday were about equal.  Today is looking to equal those combined, perhaps more.  So far, I finished the remainder of the initial dishes, washed the last group but am waiting to take a shower before soaking those, a huge load of laundry was completely cycled and is all folded or hung and put away, plus the chicken was roasted... so far.

A shower and shave, checking the mail, then?  I suspect at least three more decent sized tasks.  As well, I mostly have days back, if the heat and nature of high summer are getting to me.

I need to shop, grocery and hardware... window latches, rails/rods, and wall mounts for the rods.  I'll have to do some mock-up, as some walls are angled.  Uhrm, I guess that means I am nearly back to it.

Oh.  Something I found out while home?  I AM read there, and by far more than I would have imagined.  Not just family.  These are folk who knew me, and some of the stories here.  Worse?  They... have conspied and compared notes, even people who I thought didn't talk, I thought they were enemies.  Bah!  So much for enemies these days.  That... throws me a bit.  Rainman?  Really?  What throws them is how much I don't lie.  They still won't go for the Z-axis stuff, yet.  Not my circus.

Later.

Better?

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A bit.  A lot, actually.  Still not back to it fully.  Better is the correct term.

Dishes are nearly finished, from before and after the trip.  I am watering the front lawn, finally, again.  This will only be the second time since returning.  At least it isn't a total failure.  Though I may have lost the jerusalem artichoke.  Just couldn't get to things.  It helped that it was exceptionally cool those first weeks after returning.

Food has been scant.  A good thing as things stand.  Feasting on starvation seems wise for some things.  I am at 260, last I checked.  In spite of weighing more than my previous low I have lost much more in volume.  At 240 I still wore xl underwear and had two notches remaining on my belt.  Now I fit large and have no notches left.  Very strange.

Doing real cooking again.  Black beans, from dry.  I worked with them carefully.  I watched, tended, sparing no effort.  I wanted them right for once.  I got it!  I think one of two things (or both) have been the problem.  Mainly, I believe, I was boiling them.  That simply toughens them.  This time, after bringing it to a boil, I backed it to a right mild simmer.  The other thing was skimming.  Now, I always skim my beans, once or twice.  This time I skimmed them every half hour.  I always check beans on the half hour anyway, so that was just a minor add.  It still takes longer than others suggest, but these were good and more!  I have enough for beef and bean burritos and a decent batch of chilli.  I even stored the beef and beans, plus put the pot to soak and cleaned the frying pan.  I'll finish those today an roast a chicken tomorrow.  When that all is gone, back to feasting´ (´ = not... never mind ).

Bills!  *shrug*  The Lord knows I try.  Later.