Almost awake.

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Cool, but not cold out there.  Cool even in here.  Turned the furnace up, just a bit.  Doesn't seem to matter.  Still chilly.  The rabbits were good.  Food, of course.  But waterers were not completely down.  And, were running, not frozen.  I have sorted out the ones who drink more, and gotten them the larger waterers.  And, yes, it works well.  None go without, save perhaps for a very short time.

The girls have been fed, and I think I got their litter cleared.  I will check when I go out to make a coffee.  Just had breakfast, but feel the want of a bit more.  Perhaps coffee, fatted, might do.  Slow acting insulin was taken, along with fast acting with food.  If it drops too much, this time, I will separate the doses by at least a few hours.  Tricky, what all has to be done.  I suppose I suspect, I just became lazy tonight.

Ugh, nothing thawed.  I really need to keep up on that.  I need meat.  Perhaps not every night, but three packs, thawed, for the week.  Four, if one of them is just a couple of chops, or just a small pack of brats.  I will get something out, and thawing, tonight.  I suppose I can have a tuna salad, an ounce or two of nuts, and... something hot tea for tonight.  Well, and I do intend to try the keto crackers with cream cheese and deli meat.  With tea, again.  Gotta have something warm to hot with each meal, or it all shuts down in there, or at least I shut down.  Warmth, in winter, is as much as the protein, fats, and carbs.  Gotta have some heat.

Maybe some work tonight?  Recycling, and a few boxes?  Litter, a shower, and dishes started?  Who knows.  I do know I need to heat up!  Ugh.  Later.

Awake and roughly at it.

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Not sure when I woke.  Perhaps around... ah, I called my mother right as I woke.  That says 15:42.  An hour has passed.  I was looking around  on the internet, after the call.  Oh, and while I won't spend more, I had ordered things on the first.  Which showed up today?  They weren't scheduled to be delivered until Tuesday and Thursday.  Which is part of why I won't be shopping as much with them from now on.

Blood sugar was high, this "morning".  At 224 fasting, I just don't get it.  It was, I think, like 164 hours after my last meal, and with fast and slow acting insulin in on a timely manner last night.  Then again, I am taking the slow acting at the literal evening, not my 'morning' evening...  I mean I am taking it between 18:00 and 22:00, which is more like my morning, rather than taking it at my "night", which is around 6:00 to 8:00.  Still, that is how I try to do it.  Or I might end up overdosing, because my days and nights can get really slippery, and I can have two or three days in one day.  I need to stick it to a time, and stay with it, as close as possible.  It's a dangerous game I play, lethal or quite near it, with any of these meds, if I am not careful.  Lucky, so far.  But... just, mostly.  I think I have gotten a taste of death by jumbling meds a few times.  Ugh.

Their prices are part of it, adding taxes is part of it.  No, amazon has sort of doomed itself.  There will always be a place for amazon, for items which really can't be found locally.  But, from now on, not only will I look locally, but I will price check.  Sometimes it really is worth the wait, for a good price, on certain items.  Though I am guessing, amazon will begin losing a lot more.  Still, why the three day, given the late nature of the order, delivery?  Remember when it really was two days, not two weeks?  Or even a week?

Well, and buying less, overall, is good.  Actually, now, I need to go through much and... downsize.  Ugh.  Mostly what I bought was food items I think will work with keto.  A box of strange keto crackers, or keto-friendly.  Actually old-school stuff, with carb counts which work, and a price that seemed reasonable.  I had thought they would be tiny, but these are... sort of amazing.  I haven't tried one yet.  Should go good with everything from lox and cream cheese, to deli slices, and who knows what else.  

Can't eat a lot of them, but two to three... two Saltine sized... crackers, a few times a week, would be easily worked into my carb allotment.  Actually, that amount would only be about 11 to 13 carbs (depending on which type).  So I could use more, and more often, but the trick to keto isn't to do 20/30/50 carbs (whichever is your allowed, and works for you and ketosis), but to cut carbs out as completely as possible.  The maximum isn't actually the goal, it is merely the number you really want to stay under.  As well, variety.  Say, crackers on Tuesday and Thursday, cheese and deli on the other days?  Something like that.

Mother sounded good.  She had her guy bring in some furniture, just a stand really... to set up her Christmas decorations.  As well, she obtained wood oil, and shined that stand, her dresser, and the door to her room.  I... told you.  The woman won't go down.  While I might not die well, she just... won't quit trying to improve her lot.  I'd trade her, gladly.  But that isn't how it goes.

Chores, in a bit.  Then feeding the girls.  I may try some of those crackers as water heats for the rest of breakfast?  Nah, I'll have it with a "lunch".  I am excited to try them.  Even if they aren't the greatest, I will try to use them anyway.  I thought these were going to be tiny, AND, even in bulk, a small package.  Nope, These will take some work to even find a place to store them.  I really am pleased, especially given the carb count.

They make a "bread" like these, which I want to try next... after being amazed by these.  I don't need them to be tasty, I just want the utility.  I miss bread and crackers, or some equivalent.  And, while they say you can make them, I haven't had great success or satisfaction with what I have been able to produce.   If, true, I haven't tried everything possible.  Though, too, who wants to cook everything from scratch, keep up on it all, and... it... is overwhelming.  If I had a woman type, who could help, and wanted to cook and help with cleaning, on top of what I do, that would work.  But solo, on solo, on solo, on the house, laundry, cooking, dishes, etc?  I... simply can't do it.

Oh, best get on to setting up breakfast, then chores and the girls' food.  Later.

Nowhere, and... yet...

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Dinner, at least.  Plus the cats.  Chores earlier.  A few small things, plus trash out, and litter switched... the old going out with the trash.  Nothing fancy.  No boxes done, no dishes started, not even a shower taken.  Medicines in, for the second night in a row, rightly and all of them, including insulin... fast acting with food and slow acting... well... just sort of as a night thing, on it's time schedule.

Blood sugar is 168.  Not great.  I did dose.  But I ate a pretty carb heavy meal.  Beans and beef.  Part of it on lettuce, some of it just on a plate, with cheese and sour cream.  The thing is, I'm not sure how long ago I age.  It may have been just at, or under an hour.  Or two?  Gah, memory sucks tonight.  Even so, it's not too bad, given all the givens and possibles.  I am actually more worried about a crash, as it lowers, than having it a tad high.  For now.  That'll change as things settle.  Ugh.

The world isn't moving fast.  But it has... spun just enough to do some things.  Oh, and I remember not to spend a nickel more until bills are paid.  If I am not awake early enough today, I will get them on Monday.  But, again, no more money out until bills are paid.  It... keeps things in order.  Plus, I have to remember to keep money in the account for later bills, such as gas and electric.  

Electric did, finally, come down.  It really looks like they are two or three months behind.  Very strange, but I had stopped using ac's by late August, I think?  And even fans by shortly after that, if I only used those at night, and occasionally.  It wasn't until this last bill that the drop in electricity showed up?  Very strange.  I was worried that electricity had just jumped and wouldn't be going back to anything like what I remembered.

Of course gas will now go up?  Uhrm, maybe, a bit.  But I have it on autopay and averaged out.  It might go up a bit, as they are probably still charging more no matter demand or else.  Biden has unleashed these people to rob us.  As well as charging them more for everything government related and cutting access and else.  Weaponized.

Well... a bit more gaming, then on to bed.  Oh, I will hit litter one more time, to keep it fresh, tonight.  Maybe do waterers, and refresh the girls' water?  I can hope.  Goodnight, prayers, well wishes, and... that's about all folks.

Litter and trash.

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Not... all the trash.  All litter though, for now.  The girls will almost be happy.  Their litter and food good, now to change their water.  I should have enough, after refilling waterers, to get them a fresh pan of water.  Sam drinks so very much, that smaller amounts offered just don't work.

While boxes are a priority, trash was... there.  And looked to be an easy target.  And, if it isn't boxes, it is something, and done.  Now, whether I will get to boxes next, or the remnants of trash and recycling, I can't say.  That did wear me out a bit.  So a break.  Then... something.  Maybe something small, like waterers and the cat water next.

Still, I think I might get to a few bigger jobs tonight.  Success leads to success.  And I have been dreaming, the last few days, about getting the house cleaned up... a bit or more.  I'd like to see that dream come true.  Even if just in bits and parts over the next week.  I had been doing well, then medicine started and I haven't been able to do much since.

I am sure, if medicine can be arranged, and a few things checked, there is a possibility that I can do better for longer, do more.  I... it is almost beginning to possibly be a reality.  Not there, but it really might be closer.  I have never seen bp in this range.  Well, and I have noted that once blood pressure comes under control, diabetes is easier to manage.  It's either a twofer or neither.

Bills, tomorrow.  I won't buy or spend another nickel, until bills are paid.  I wait until the third though, to make sure they don't try to say I paid last month instead of this month, or other treachery.  Big companies hate us.  We are just money to them, like exotic dancers.  If you give them a dollar, then that is all you will ever be to them... a wallet.  And they hate you for having more in than what you offer.  Only, it's gotten worse.  This government helps them fleece us, weaponizes everything from big corp to the dollar to government involvements against us, for them, and corporations.  The big guy can't get his 10% without graft and corruption.

Oh, and inflation?  It isn't what you think.  Inflation is merely the removal of reserve currency status.  You can thank Joe.  They did it the back door way, but that is what has happened.  I'm surprised some of the 'clever bois' haven't noticed, understood.  Not paying attention, with the covid bs running so strong, I guess.  But, that is what has happened.  It can get worse, it won't get better.  Get used to it.  Thank you, Joe, and big biz.  Assholes.

Anyway... on to some gaming.  It, at least, keeps me awake. 

Crashed.

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Didn't get to breakfast, chores... anything.  Wait, I think I fed the girls.  Took medicine?  Nope, but did feed the girls.  Waking at around 18:00, a bit after.  Chores, first thing.  They were dry and hungry, but just.  A few had some water remaining.  I expect food will be gone, and it was.

Still rather warm out there, given the date.  December the third?  I don't think it froze today.  I am sure it didn't.  The few with water in them were still flowing.

A shower, and boxes... and else... in this front room today.  Anything else might be incidental or supplemental to that.  Assuming I can even get to that.  Will see.  The water is being warmed for breakfast.  Just the same old, same old, but it really does work for me.  At this point, I don't need exciting food for every meal.  Some regular, some changes, it works.  I'm actually just glad I am eating something.

How do you know your food is good?  Toilet paper tells you what a doctor should.  Well, and the ease of passing.  If it's difficult, you aren't eating correctly.  Since starting chia as a nearly daily morning ritual, life has been much easier.  It was only a problem from time to time.  Since, though, I simply haven't had a problem, no matter what else I eat.  Kefir was good too.  I need to get back to that.  I could see chia breakfast, kefir lunch, then a "meat and potato" within just about any calorie and macronutrient generally given for the day without regards to breakfast and lunch at all.  

Trust me, those things might as well be zeros the way I set them up and consume them.  Well, and a kefir with supper as well.  Just a digestive dose right before I eat.  Kefir... does something to the digestive system.  I suspect it helps pull nutrients, and push out what doesn't belong or do well in the body.

I just need to get kefir going, and get back to cooking.  If I cook rightly, I can cook just three meats a week, and have them last.  And I have a few new ways to cook veggies which won't take pots or pans.  But... I have to get kefir going again, and get the kitchen cleaned back up, and ready for cooking.  Meats... I can grill, roast, fry, or try the airfryer on eventually.  Well, and the instapot for soups.  It is soup season again.  Ugh... got to get the world back in order!

Especially since medicines might actually have started working.  If I could get it all going, at once, perhaps I could have more of a life again.  I won't ever have my life back.  That went out with the heart.  But I might be able to enjoy more of it.  Hiking, snowshoeing, camping... winter and summer.  Little things.  But... I want some of my life back.

Later.

Awake, if strangely.

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I woke, really, around 11:00~11:30.  I didn't get up until 13:00 or so.  No more awake than I was asleep between those times.  Just not doing well.  Then again, I don't hurt.  It's just that my body doesn't seem to be able to figure out whether it's awake, asleep, has to go to the bathroom or not, or what!  I'm just stuck trying to figure life out in a body which doesn't want to shut anything off or turn anything on.

In spite of oddities, blood sugar is down a bit this morning, at 184.  Up, down, left, and right, even that is really odd.  I did get both pill medication groups in yesterday, and while I wasn't dosing as I should have been, I did get some insulin in yesterday.  And it shows.  I had a few pistachios before remembering to test.  It may have been lower still, not sure how fast blood sugar begins to spike after eating?

Sam did come up and visit last night.  Not sure why.  She actually visited two different times.  I enjoy their company.  I do wonder if they get peeved about some things, and just don't visit for that reason?  Litter, keeping up on litter.  Not doing so, and, yea, they get... annoyed.  Or if food is a bit slow or lacking.  And if I don't shower often enough.  Forget to brush my teeth for a bit...  Women are... women... cat, bat, human, or else, I suspect.

Anyway...  Oh, actually, I think I'll go back in to bed for a while.  Ugh.  Later.

A bit to eat and medicine.

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Not much else.  Good enough though.  Insulin and pills.  And, about to go back on to bed.  I keep hoping to get more done.  I keep failing.  Odd.  Probably more the weather than else.  Even as warm as it is, the 30s to nearly 50 in the day.  So... quite warm, for winter.  But... cooler.

I really need to get to some work.  I keep failing.  Thursday, going on Friday.  I have been trying to remember the day... trying to remember without having to look.  Doing well, really, lately.  Yes, technically actually Friday, but that's not how it seems when you are awake, to start, on the day before.

Oh well.  On to sleep.  I will leave the door open, for the girls.  If they don't seem interested lately.  Not sure why.  Goodnight.

Good afternoon-morning.

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Up and... just up.  Cats have been fed, teeth brushed.  Pills, vitamins, and electrolytes in.  I can probably slow down on electrolytes now... say every other day?  Those have allowed me to cut my drinking to, probably, less than a gallon.  If I still drink more, for good or ill, just not much more.  Enough that one water pill will do.

I won't be cutting that anytime soon.  I had thought about it.  And, in time, may.  But only after I am on a more finalized regimen.  Then I will contemplate going to half a pill, perhaps, if that works out, even dropping that.  It is one of the medicines which causes kidney issues, for certain.  The problem is, in the summer, I may end up drinking enough to need to be on them, one... or more.

Chores, soon.  Then, maybe, more work.  One can hope.

Sleep was good.  Warm.  I did have to redo blankets, but knew that and pulled them yesterday morning.  One of the blankets had three twists, only the full length of it?  I... don't even know how that happens.  It is a thick blanket, double thick, heavy.  It is in with the other blankets.  I didn't notice it with all of them, but this one.  Very strange.  Like a gator did a barrel roll with it.  And, that was one of four, two are very heavy blankets, the others are even relatively heavy.  I wonder if I will spin half so well in my grave?  Don't doubt it.

Well... on to waking.  Good day.  God's speed.

Crap. Drats?

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Coffee.  I thought to have more.  I ate the last of the baby carrots out of the bag of veggies as well.  But... something seemed off, so I tested again.  Blood sugar is 72!  Ugh.  I have to figure something else out.  Very... peculiar.  No dosing since it started to slide.  I don't even think I dosed with the meal prior to the fatted coffee and carrots.

What to eat which won't drive the blood sugar terribly high, or leave it to fall?  I don't really have...  Well, maybe.  But that might drive it too high.  Beans and beef?  On salad?  Or, maybe I will try frozen chimichangas.  That... might do.  Or it will drive it high.  I could add cheese and sour cream.

Thinking has become difficult.  Trying to avoid candies.  Then again, that may be about what this is.  Still, I'll have a few of those, plus the adds, then go on to bed.

Goodnight.  And good morning.

Hmm, well?

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Not doing much.  Keeping the girls in food, and myself.  Feeling slightly wonky, so I did a blood sugar draw... 77 a few hours after my last meal.  Okay.  Low, but... seems stable.  Still, I really need to eat something.  Something... ketoish.  A fatted coffee might be a fast and good way?  I will try it.

I'd like to get trash, recycling, a shower, and start some dishes.  Don't know.  Let me get the coffee down, first.  It gets spooky when blood sugar is that low.  I did take "morning" pill medicines.  Actually, I have been taking the first set of medicines well, it's the "night" medicines I have been missing, for days.  I'll... fix that.

I can try.  Best get to that coffee.  I need something, something, or I will crash.  Right on the edge.  And low.  So, yeah.  I can hope to get a few things going tonight.  It's still possible.  Later.

Up and at it, a bit early?

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Yesterday it was 17:00.  This morning, it is 15:00, so, yeah.  Though I think It will be chaotic for a while.  Still, got to chores, and feeding and watering the girls first thing.  Gee, that takes longer than I thought.  Forty to fifty minutes to just do those things, and with a swing in my step.  I go as fast as I can, and yea, I can move.  Especially on a warm day.

It has been in the 50s lately, in the day.  Since I wasn't up, or out, I didn't notice.  Today, on top of being warmer, the sun is out.  It is actually hot out there.  While 48, in December, is pretty hot, at least here, when it is cloudy, 48 just feels... blahish warm.  With the sun out, it feels like beach weather!  Wow.

Getting water for tea, thinking about a shower, brushed my teeth while at things.  More may be possible today.  I slept warm last night.  Broke the bedding down this morning, so that it has to be remade tonight.  I like sleeping warm, and think there is a chance at keeping that up.  Too warm?  I can deal with that.  Feet out, for a bit.  A whole leg if that is too much.  Perhaps the cap off.  Yes, a sleeping cap really does help, if you can keep it on.  Though, I suspect, it gets tumbled off if I start warming, then rolling.  It's almost an automated regulated heater... or insulator, really.  The only heater, up there, while I sleep, is me.  Even when the girls come up, they just eat my heat.  Thankfully I am, usually, more like a pot bellied stove than not.

Hmm, reminds me...  I left the door open last night, but the girls didn't visit, meowl in the night, or anything.  Odd.  Very odd.  But, I slept great, and they had the opportunity.  No skin off my nose, at all.  

Yea, a shower, again today.  Then, hopefully, some dishes in.  Just enough to finish yet today, or early tomorrow, so as to shower again.  And trash and recycling out.  Yea.  I... think so.  If I get through the couple of dish pans, I may start another load.  And?  Boxes.  If I can get to those, that would be wonderful.  Even just a start.  And move some of the purchases out of the way of the door?  Ugh.  Bleh.  Yes.  We will see.

Oh, and the waterers.  I did get two buckets of fresh water in.  Refilling the girls' waterer, washing it out first.  Not many left to do, I have been keeping up.  I now have enough waterers for a two and a half days, of two changes, for each type.  Oddly, the rabbits have slowed their drinking.  I do have to the change the waterers in the building every day, but just once a day.  Those are the smallest waterers.  The other rabbits only need changed every other day, though I check at least once, often twice.  As to food?  They will eat all I give them.  So I have backed off feed.  Once a day, about four to six ounces (at least).  But... just once a day.

Well, on the looking around the web, gaming for a spot... on a timer.  To make sure I go get a shower, then set up dishes.  Then back to gaming, on a timer?  Something like that.  With browsing tossed in, from time to time.  It's as good as I can do, atm.  I'll keep at it.  Good morning, afternoon, and day.  I'll say a quick prayer for the world, and the fools upon or near it.  Good day indeed.

Feeling great.

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Just not doing much, or even staying on meds.  I guess... well... I'll... keep trying.

I was surprised, when I got out.  The rabbits hadn't consumed much of their water.  It was still flowing, too.  Their food, they needed and wanted that.  But not so much water?  Very strange.  I won't be checking them, again, until I wake.  The girls have been hungry as bears.  I won't feed them all the time.  I will... add in extra, when they really seem hungry.  Especially if it is both of them.

I baked the rest of the vegetables, tonight.  Having that as my actual supper.  A bit of sea salt, butter, pepper, garlic, and onion powder(s).  I should have skipped the powders.  Didn't really add anything.  But the veggies were good.  Delicious.  It's been a long time since I roasted veggies.  And, just on their own?  Broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots, along with the rest.  Rather a good meal.  A bit higher in carbs, but the type of carbs I allow.  Carrots being the one standout, unusual, add.

Oh, and I finally tried pink grapefruit perrier.  Wasn't sure that would work.  I try to taste all of the flavors, but if prices are too high, I skip.  Finally found this flavor at a price I could tolerate, so took a shot.  Wish, now, I had bought several.  Then again, these don't last long.  And, plastic is always questionable at best.  They say you can store water stored in plastic for a year, but... I have my doubts.  I wonder how long the ones, stored in foil, last?  Anyway...  It really is... good, different, solid.  Missing something, but I think in a good way.

I did get a shower, if I hadn't mentioned it.  Needed, and enjoyed.  I had trouble staying warm last night.  I had the blankets right.  Finally, though, I reset everything.  And that seemed to work, for some reason.  Well, too, I added a cap.  I hate nights when I can't get warm.  Never can sleep well.

I think I'll go on to bed shortly.  Sweet dreams, pleasant sleep, or really good nightmares, if you... enjoy them, as I do?  Oh, I do.  But I like good dreams too.  If you are just waking, good morning.  I'll put in a prayer for you all.  You know you need it.  Goodnight.

Da fuck.

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I started playing an old game I had.  Why?  There is, in a month or two, set to be released a second part.  I wasn't sure I liked the original.  Got my juices flowing, looking over the new title.  So, I... stuck my head in.  At first, just a few hours at a time.  It's all I could play, maybe twice a day.

However, as my acumen, stamina, and else, increased, I... am... lost in the game.  At least it isn't a bottle I crawled into.  Or... encased me?  Whichever.  In the bottle... game... I am, with barely a cork to pop for release.  Loving it.  And, I am not sleeping excessively.  Mostly.  Every few days, I suspect, I will crash for longer times, in order to make up for the excessively (at least for me, thought that seems to be changing) days.  Then again, I think my days are expanding.  Instead of twelve to sixteen hour days, I am hitting more like eighteen to twenty four hour days.  And, that may extend further.

Of course, medicine, food, and else, are also going back into the shitter.  I'll... try to keep up on that.  I may put something into my phone, and keep the meds out there, since I am no longer sitting this machine.  Bleh.  So weak, and yet so powerful at some times.  If I could target this, I would go back to engineering school.  If I could sustain it, I would be back in school, then doing engineering somewhere.  But, even for gaming, it will only last a while, then I will crash out and not be able to do anything for a while again.  Or die.  I just... don't die well.

So be it.  I did have that last supper.  But, even after it, and candies, as I was going to bed, without having dosed, I was crashing again?  I had to take more candies, but just two.  I... just don't get that.  Something is really off in things.  I'll... keep trying.  

On to chores, feeding the girls, litter, and gaming.  Oh, and breakfast.  Later.

A second meal, that is all.

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Started stumbling.  Into sleep.  Couldn't push much more.  Gamed, with timers, attempting to... do something.  I was done back then, just didn't know it.  Bedtime.  Goodnight.  Sleep well, and warm.  I'll pray for you... us.  

Just about crashed.

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As chicken was finishing, blood sugar took a dive.  Hard.  I couldn't wait for super.  I took some of the hard candy.  Okay, I ate six to eight pieces.  Better than what is often the case.  I tried just three.  A while later it was still bad, so I took a few more.  And, finally, I took three more just because it was all still wonky.  I wanted even more, but I am trying to control the urge to just gobble dozens, or scores.

Not sure what happened.  All I know is, it shouldn't have.

The chicken was only so-so tonight.  It took forever for it to cook, and even then wasn't quite done?  I did put the broccoli and cauliflower in with it.  I have never done that before.  That must have been it.  I wasn't happy with it at all.  I have decided to have a potato after all.  There are two pieces of chicken left.  About half way through, I am putting the chicken back in the oven, and I'll try for a better meal shortly.

I am dressed warmly, had the furnace up (to warm the waterers, but forgot it up), had a warm to hot supper, and still am chilled.  A cup of tea, it is hoped, will knock the edge off.  And supper, in a bit.  Still, it is very strange.  I do my best, but sometimes it all sort of just falls down, like a house of cards, in a sudden breeze.  I'll keep at it.

Just about to go check on the rabbits.  Just waterers, tonight.  Food in the morning.  I am hoping to get cat litter sorted, this evening.  Perhaps a shower in.  And, just maybe, trash out.  And recycling.  Then I'll go on to bed.  Hmm, if I get the rabbits done, and the litter finished, before supper... then get trash and recycling... and then a shower...  I might be able to get to bed in a few hours.  Breaks between.  I can try.  Oh, that tea is a treat.  I... think I can get to the rabbits right now.  Later.  Or goodnight.

Hmm, well?

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Finally having breakfast?  Only four hours after waking.  Ha.  Still, it works.  First, chores, then feeding the girls, blogging, and then starting it up.  A bit of gaming after that.  And, while having a problem I can't find a way around in the game, I decided to go look, and remembered breakfast.

I realized I had forgotten medicine over the weekend.  Disappointing.  As far as I could remember, I was almost certain I had been taking medicine.  Almost none of it, it seems, was taken?   I can't be sure, but pills definitely weren't taken.  I honestly am sure I remember taking it.  Odd.

However, there is something I noted.  The blurry vision?  Is gone.  It must have been one of the medicines.  Crap.  I may stop the amlodipine.  Well, how about this.  I will restart medicine.  If the blurry vision returns, I will stop the amlodipine.  If that doesn't do clear it, I will go back onto it, but back off the carvedilol.  Though, who knows, maybe it's a problem with lower blood pressure.  Perhaps my body simply isn't used to it?

Chicken, tonight, again.  Just oven roasted.  I will have a potato again.  Yea, but... few choices.  I really can eat only just so much lettuce.  And, right now, I am not quite up to... wait... I have veggies.  I could roast those right in with the chicken!  That would do.  I don't mind a potato a week or so.  Hmm... might split that, bake it and split it.  I ought to check how much a larger potato has, for carbs... 60~64 carbs?  Okay, so half, twice a week, as all my carbs for the day?  

Yes, I could do that.  Could spend my carbs better, or better go without.  But... shut up.  Further, due to size (and it being actual size, not just fat size) I do get a few more carbs than most, more like 45 to 50.  If, still, I try to do cleaner, better, carbs, and cut rather than go for the limit.  Then again, who to believe, on anything, differs.  I still am trying to stick closer to 20 to 30 maximum carbs, and trying to cut even that.  It just doesn't always work.

Yea, cauliflower, broccoli, and chicken, baked in juices...  Veggies removed at the end, while the chicken gets crisped under the broiler?  Sounds good to me.  Just water, to wash it.  All good.  Perhaps a bit of butter, on the veggies?  Yes.  Plus salt, pepper, and a touch of ground coriander?  Aye.  If I wanted to add that reddish brown, I could add paprika... or smoked paprika for the color and some smoke?  No, not this time.  I love considering what will be done.  Even if I end up not doing it, it's almost like I got to eat... two or three times if I follow the considerations to their ends, in thought.  Food is so good.  Smoked paprika next time?  Maybe.  When you can't grill, or don't want to, there are other ways which really do, or can, work.  With a little practice.

I'll check the rabbits later.  Just their waterers.  Food, from now on, will be offered out when I wake, or earlier in the day.  Water twice a day, as I am able.  I best get cat litter caught up.  I... drop the ball on that often.  Ugh.  I do my best, and it will have to do.  Later.

Uhrm, right?

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Can't be sure when I went down.  I did reset the waterers, out there, and fed them too.  They got their double feed Thanksgiving.  I woke right after 13:00, small change after.  Got right to a few things.  Chores, first.  Of the ten cages, only three were out of food.  No waterers needed changed, either.  I will check again tonight, they should be out by then.

It is 48, or so.  Didn't look exactly, just roughly.  A nice day, really.  I am working on breakfast, it is brewing as I write.  When I go out to check it, I will feed the girls.  I will refresh their water tonight, and try to catch up on waterers when I reset them tonight.

I am not sure gaming is helping, or is just a sign of slight improvements.  I really didn't do well on the other medicine, it was just too strong.  Oh, but I did reset the pillbox yesterday, so it is up to 10 mg per day of the older new pill.  I didn't pull the old medicines though, that will just happen as it happens, or, maybe, when the new new pills arrive.  We will see how that goes.  

To be honest, even the medicine I can tolerate has me right on the edge.  If I am having trouble with the next medicine, I may try a few other things.  I actually do have two other things I can cut, one of them definitely is difficult for me to take.  I have two doses of carvedilol twice a day, one is big, the other small.  But, even that small one is a difficult task, and probably only takes 5 points off bp.  That is the one I would remove, to try to tolerate the other medicine, if necessary.  Then again, it might be good to drop that right off?  I don't know.  That leaves me one more lever to pull, halving the amlodipine.  Ugh.  At least I didn't crash so badly that I lost it all and had to start over, again, again.

Well, boys and girls, it's back to life.  I have breakfast to sort, some gaming to do, then maybe on to some work.  Yeah.  Later.

No dice.

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I had hoped to do something today.  Nope.  I will get the rabbits an extra feed, plus their second water check.  And the girls are eating pretty good.  Plus, I did cook the burger, and had taco salad.  But that's it.  Mostly.  My list just won't be done.

Gaming may eventually help.  Currently, I am not able to play for long.  I am playing well enough, remembering where to go, what to do, how to create or manipulate things in game.  But I can't play for long.  I... just get lost.  Still, it is the path to something more.  Maybe.

I had meant to get to the V.A. last week.  The problem is, money is too low.  I need gas money.  I have a bit of cash, but not enough.  The tank is low.  As gas is, I can't fill the tank, and probably reload when I get back.  I wouldn't make it.  There might be enough in the account, but it would be pushing it.  I'll... do what I can, when I can.

Tired.  Exhausted.  Best get to chores before I just lose complete track and go to bed.  Getting foggy in the noggin.  Good night.

Not moving quickly.

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I did get completely caught up on waterers.  All filled and portioned.  Though I may be switching a few things soon.  During the day, the warmer parts of it, I will put out larger waterers.  But at night, I would prefer to have smaller ones out.  Smaller ones will freeze quicker, but will thaw quicker too.

I have enough for two water changes, for two days.  Which means I have to hope they thaw in time to be put back out.  Currently, it is, or was, 48 F out there.  Which means the ones I put out in the morning should be good most of the day, or all day.  Whatever I put out later in the afternoon will probably freeze quickly.  Then again... Weather is begin odd.  Very cold here, warmer there, and I'm not really able to be sure what will happen next.  I'll just do my best for them.

I am thinking frying burger, and spicing it well, added to salad, will be supper.  Though, maybe, I'll have chicken again too.  Hungry.  For good food.  And it is easy enough.  Baking chicken is okay, but a recent trick really does improve that dish.  Using the broiler, it crisps it up.  I've been experimenting how long and the temperature.  It looks like right at 400, for three minutes, on each side (for chicken drumsticks) seems to be about right.

I must have forgotten to take insulin after my meal, blood sugar is up to 261.  Or I just ate a bit ago.  I just... can't remember.  So sleepy?  Tired, more like it.  Brain fog.  All I ate was chia, with cream and spices.  It shouldn't have jumped.  Until it comes back under control, sensitivity can be peculiar.  As well, when I mess with blood pressure medicine, that has a strange affect too.  It's just the way it is.

I am getting hungry.  I'll have a fatted coffee, a dose, and start thinking about supper.  I'll try to push a few things through.  That may work or not.  So tired.  Exhausted too.  Not really sleepy, if I could sleep if I would allow it.  Later.

Awake, finally.

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No idea when I went to bed.  It is just 14:08, after waking, dressing more properly... at least to go out, and then doing chores.  I am hoping to feed the rabbits twice today, as their Thanksgiving feast.  All of their waterers were freeflowing still, only one needed changing because it was empty.  Yes, we all have one of those rabbits.  Still, I don't mind.  I may have to put a bigger jug for him.  Actually, there are two rabbits like that.  One is a boy, the other a girl.  The buck is of the big breed, the doe is of the small breed.  One is favored, the other is not.  And, yet, I will tend them as I can.

Trash, recycling, a shower, and then?  I am hoping to get to more.  I am feeling better, other than blood sugar doing weird things.  Blood sugar is 210 this morning, fasting.  Which really annoys me.  Hmm, I had milk with supper, okay.  Still.  With it dropping to 66, and just having one meal after that, and mostly keto...  Then again, raw straight milk is pretty harsh.  Right or wrong, I am still annoyed.  Why can't it just do right, regardless of me!?!  Still, I'll keep at it.  On the good side, at least I didn't need candies or such.  I handled it, if the landing was a bit rough, with just food.  Glucose tabs and candy would have driven it a bit to a lot higher.  There is that.  Then again, again, milk was... is... a form of candy.  It is.  

I am not bothering with bp because it will be high.  Oh, but I realized I was supposed to increase amlodipine to the full 10mg per day, but had forgotten to do that.  I started last night, but need to go through my pillbox and reset that.  Which I can do whilst tinkering this morning.  Bleh, always something forgotten, set aside, or figured out, causing more things to be done, in a world I can't keep up with all that well.  I'll... keep trying, until I die, I guess.

Well, a bit of water, with electrolytes.  And pill medicine as water warms for breakfast...  Then on to some other things, perhaps gaming to wake a bit, then to work... or just those should-be daily chores...  Gaming is limited.  I can't get glued to it, as I have in the past.  Just a few hours at a time, but it... activates parts of my brain which have been idle for a long time.  I can't game for very long... an hour or two at a time, then I'm... I need a break.  Excellent though.  That is perfect for segmenting my day between mental, physical, and various options among those.  Then again, and too, I can't stay busy all of the time.  Which... is what the computer often offers... like switching channels, to see what I can see, but trying not to think too much, or do more than consider what is proffered.  Most of which is... not real these days.  But oh well.

On to looking over the web, meds, and hydration, then breakfast.  Later.