Up!?!

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Up, definitely.  Just not sure of the condition I am in.  I woke just a bit after 21:00.  Got up, and dressed, fairly slowly.  Not sure what to expect from today.  On downstairs.  Had to pee, the pee jug was full, if also, I don't use those in the "mornings".  Preferring to get up and go down, to preserve any extra room for another night, unless it is close to half.  Then it might go either way, because it will have to be dumped anyway.  Some nights that isn't enough, and currently to the morning, I only had one jug up there.  I have to clean the others.  Bleh.  Yes, they are on my list.

So, to the bathroom.  But first I opened the back area, so Sassy could get to dry food.  I wasn't up to feeding her quite yet.  Then the duty.  Some other things?  I didn't get new dishes put in.  Nor did I hand dry the cutting boards or cookie sheets.  But, I did empty the rinse, and set them up on edges, to dry.  I didn't check them, though I am sure they are dry.

I will get those, first thing, and set up the last of the dishes and pans.  Else tonight?  Working on sorting, mostly.  And that last load of dishes.  More sorting of the counters, in prep to cleaning them off.  And, then, maybe, actually getting those cleaned... and the stovetop while at it.  Plus, maybe some sorting and cleaning in the bathroom?  Maybe.  Not... a lot.  Not heavy.  I am a bit worn.  I'll keep doing things though.

I still feel frustrated.  I am not getting things done immediately, or as quickly as I would like.  And yet, I am doing something every day.  Sometimes not much, sometimes more.  After taking care of the top layers, though, now I have to deal with the things further in, down.  Sorting... my near achilles' heel with regards to home upkeep... is much of what remains.

On the good side, I have successfully been doing that recently.  Not... as fast as I would like, for as easy of work as it would seem.  And, yet, I did actually complete the upstairs.  Some of it was just shifting things, here to there.  But just as much, or more, was actually sorting, tossing, and storing in new places... or even back to where they first were, but by choice.  As well, I have been having smaller and larger sessions in the living room.  Tossing, attempting to sort, and preparing for storage when I can sort more certainly... with more items available in particular categories.

I have been, to my world, doing little miracles of work.  Little ones, so far.  But... ongoing.  And tonight I will be attempting to dig a lot deeper into that area of upkeep.  Most of this week will be that sort of work.  With intermittent cleaning, when I clear an area.  I have until August 1st.  Ugh...  But I am definitely getting there.

It is still 78 out there, at 38% humidity.  It is 82/83 in here at 42% humidity (probably the swamp cooler, even with the water pump off, increases humidity), 78 in the back areas, 77/75 upstairs.  I won't open up yet, as it feels sticky and hotter out there.  Regardless of the meters.  I'll give it an hour.

When I can get going, I'll first put up the dried dishes, reset the last batch.  Get recycling together and out.  Trash is all out.  And, get those to the curb yet tonight, probably right as I am taking them out.  Check laundry, pull it actually.  Check the pillows out on the line.  Take a break.  And, then, begin in on the living room.  Odd that I haven't played a game in... a very long time.  They were trying to kill gaming, I guess they have done it.  Now it's only for rich woke kids, as foolish as that sounds, it's the way of it.  The original players aren't welcome, and we know it.  Though, in the end, that's... not a bad thing.  *wink*  Really, really.

Oh, a bit sore.  I have been sore, shoulders, sometimes hips... of joints.  Only the arms are still bothering me.  Slightly less but a daily, constant, thing.  As well, my muscles are always tired, now. biceps, triceps, gluts, you name it.  Most of my major muscle groups are pulling up stiff and tight, whining from time to time.  I... think that is a good thing.  It means things are being used often enough to actually slightly tear.  I would do more, if I could.  Doing just as damned much of that as possible.  Maybe, through time, I will be able to do even more?  I'll keep trying.

If it cools enough, tonight, I may take a small hike.  Just around my lot a time or ten.  Using trekking poles, with the right shoes for a hike on.  I had been doing steps, but I tuckered out, dropped out, and then work took over wearing me out.  I am not quite up to doing stairs yet, but I would like to do a bit of walking... start that.  As well, maybe easy pushups, at the knees.  I can do full pushups, but they wear me too much.  And with my shoulders already sore, too, I just don't want to push it.  And, finally, I am going to see about getting some hundred pound weights configured, over a bar, so I can begin doing setups.  the goal is to either do one to four laps... whatever I can... ever other day.  And do the setups and pushups on the odd day off.  Three sets of 10?  Well, that's the goal.  Actually... let us make it two sets of seven to start?  Paring or adding as seems right.  Yea.  Well... that's the story.

Look.  If I try something, and fail?  It doesn't mean I quit.  I may simply have been in over my head.  Four groups of ten sets of stairs, at a sprint, was simply too much.  I lasted a few days, maybe a week.  Then became afraid of the stairs for a while.  Too much, too much, for starting.  I have been thinking of other things, and finally came up with these options.  Perhaps they will be too much.  Maybe my heart simply won't allow pushing, continuously, through time.  That has been my problem.  But am on new medicine, which seems to be helping?  Although, it comes with sets of limitations as well, not too dissimilar to a bad hearth, actually.  Still, I am going to try.

Oh yea.  I may have long stoppages, falling down completely and wholly, from time to time.  And, sometimes, for very long times.  But I have never quit.  Suicide wasn't even quitting, it was facing reality.  They were lying to me, I was suffering beyond my ken, and there were no solutions being offered.  The solutions offered were trash.  We all knew it, in our various ways.

From 1987 until now, I have been struggling with this overwhelmingly devastating health issue, pretty much on my own.  The world, not even family, are kind.  Not to the ill.  They expect you to buck up.  Or simply don't care, as long as they don't have to deal with it, and they won't.  Helping is too much, more so for people also, generally, drowning in the world.

Faith has helped.  Odd how strongly I struggled against that.  Even with a... seeming... personal call.  More so for it?  Well... still here, still suffering, still trying, and more successfully than before, by far... I think.  Later.

Not perfect.

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Not all that much.  Some... things.

I did put away that first load of dishes, finished the last load save a few cookie sheets and cutting boards.  There wasn't enough room to put those out.  Then, as those dried, I put them away.  Finally getting a shower in.  I had emptied the tub, and moved it so I could shower.  Then, just now, refilled that enough to let them have a warming final rinse.  I'll get to them in an hour.

I have closed up down here, and ordered two 20" fans.  As a replacement, plus.  Actually, I closed up the upstairs while I was at it.  It is already to 78, inside, 87 outside last I looked.  Upstairs was 75 and 77, before I closed up... as I was closing up and turning the ac on.

Bits and pieces, here and there, else.  Really, not bad.  Getting in the shower was great, this time washing hair.  It's going to get hot out there today.  87, before noon?  Right at eleven, I think.  It's one of those days, when you step out into it, you feel like you are being burned.  Or about to be.  Oh, right, the swamp cooler has fan mode.  I just turned that on.  It doesn't cool it off, but it sure feels cooler, especially right after a shower.

I keep looking over bikes.  There is a vast array of bikes to choose from.  I have a fairly wide group to choose from, even as a beginner.  As long as the seat is high enough, and the pegs and else more readily accessible for my height... or negotiable somehow, I'm golden.  I am looking at bikes from the $5k range on up to the $18k range.  New.  I won't be buying new.  And, at the edges of those, I'd have to find a good deal... a good deal I trust.  An $18k bike, on sale for $10k, a year old, with only 7k miles?  I'd look, but closely.  Probably pass unless there was a damned good reason, and it was cosmetic, obvious, and not an issue regarding performance, or even warranty.  Might be a lemon, might be a salvage that hasn't been rightly tagged, who knows.  And they will gladly take your money and leave you in the larch.

I'm thinking a bit more roast and the last of the new potatoes.  Then finishing up the dishes to be dried.  Finally adding another load of dishes, or two, if both will be quite small, in to soak.  I want to keep them separated, because one will be greasy... frying pans.  The others just need a cleaning, new items.  Not all that much, either, with either group.  But... Nearing the finality of dirty/new dishes needing wash.  Should finish up today.  Oh, and some of what will be washed is new grill utensils.  For both the charcoal and flattop grill.  By the way, I... better get going on that.  My help, isn't, but... I understand that too.  He's only working three, or four now, jobs, putting in... eighty, ninety, hours a week?  Making good, but...  Yeah, I know.  I'll get out soon, and exchange tanks... see if that works.  If not, I have to sort it with amazon or the manufacturer.  Bleh.

Amazing.  Still a bit tired.  I have been pushing it, especially in this heat.  But... I keep on keeping on, to some large or small degree.  So, I'll keep working as I can.  I absolutely love what I am doing.  I am getting ahead, getting things done, making plans and fulfilling those.  I am actually working.  I wouldn't get paid for this slow, lame effort.  It just... isn't enough, fast enough.  But... it is opening up the house and making things better.  Leave or stay, sell or remain, I'll have this sorted before long.

Well... on to dishes.  Everything else that has been done, in all other loads, has been put up.  So it'll be an easy run.  As will dishes when I wake.  Life is good.  Later.

Hmm?

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Right.  Coffee has been going down, if very slowly.  Think I'll have another.

It is 52 out there.  The sun is just letting me know it's waking up too.  Not cresting, just making a really pretty red corona over the mountains.  It is 71 in here, front to back and probably upstairs?  No, 72 to 74.  Well, an excuse to get off my butt for a bit.  Nicely cool, in spite of the fan having burned out down here.

I did reset dishes.  And, if they are still warm, I may just go out and get them dried.  Uhrm, putting up the already dry dishes first.  And, I did check the towels.  They were well dried, so I folded them and put them away.  It's not that I have stopped.  Merely that I have greatly slowed.  Still, I'll keep at things as possible.  Oh, add getting recycling out to the list.  If I get it out this morning, I can put it out tonight, without the fuss of both at once.

I'll check laundry when I check dishes.  If I need to reset the dishes, again, I will.  Then just start another coffee.  Laundry should be dry, but who knows.  Although humidity is down to 35 here in the house.  Didn't check outdoors.  Hmm, 70% humidity out there?  That's crazy.  Definitely in the monsoon season.

Oh, and... crap.  Well, the laundry is dry.  Not doing anything with that for the moment.  But, the dishes are still quite warm?  Very odd.  But, that means I will get to them, quickly.  *sigh*  Had hoped they would have cooled off too much.  Still, it'll get done.  I'll turn the water to heat while I work on the dishes... first putting up the dry, then drying the rinsing.  No, putting away won't take long enough to let those rinsing go cold.  Even at my slowest, even I can't go that slow.

I best get to it.  Good morning and day.

Not getting to much.

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I did get the pillows out, for what little good that will do.  Though I did get the towels in, and pillowcases.  But they were a bit moist, or cool, so I let them hang in the shower area.  Hoping they feel dryer when I put them up in a bit.  Well, and I had a meal, roast and new potatoes, well and a chicken wing.  Just a bit more, and different, meat.  Actually, I should use less pork, but a larger piece of chicken, for my meals.  A nice mix.  I only eat once a day, these days, so... yea.

I also took care of the litter boxes, and fed Sassy.  Twice already, but time is moving.

Not much else.  Having difficulty.  Tired.  It got down to about 60 at, I think, midnight.  And, by an hour ago, was staying around 60.  With it being that cool, I turned the ac off, upstairs, and opened that up too.  If I can cut electric, I will.  One of my fans burned out tonight.  Not sure if they make motors, for consumers, or if everything is disposable these days?  On the good side, just a bit ago, I realized I needed more fans, so ordered a few.  But it will take them a long time to get here.  I may look around town, for a quicker replacement.  It will cost more.  As to quality?  You can't obtain quality, at any price.  You get random quality, at higher and higher prices.  Actually, the more I have paid, the worse the product, up to the point I can afford.  If, I think, that has been a part of the reset they have been working on, and making worse, for the last decade or so.  Herding people into the walmartization of commerce, really.

Oh, but, just checked.  Down to 54 out there.  Something... broke.  It hit 60 fairly early, held on, held on, then... snap... In the last hour?  Give or take, I think, it just bolted down, and may still be falling.  A pleasant night.  I just wish I could get to work.  And, maybe, I will.  Though I think I'll do a bit less.  The headache has become milder, just a... an echo of what it was.

I am thinking of resetting dishes, checking the towels to see if they are feeling dry enough.  If so, folding them up and putting them away.  Getting to the boxes and bits in the livingroom, and working in there until mind numbness from that sort of work has become too dulling, then finishing the dishes, taking a shower, and maybe hitting counters, or the bathroom.  Though, really, if I get through to the shower, that will probably be as good as it gets.  Never can be sure though.

Hmm, but first, a fatted coffee.  I may not have any cream, but I have the powdered stuff.  And, while it definitely isn't as good as fresh, it is a lot better than any creamer, and has no carbs.  A little less fat, at only 40 grams per dose, compare to 50 for fresh cream, but... otherwise, and in other ways, it... does well.  Just a bit more bitter.  So, yeah, a fatted coffee, to hopefully help get me going.  And I may set up dishes, check laundry in the dryer, check the towels, and then take that little coffee break.  Later.

Headache.

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The cause could be one of a dozen things.  Fell off medicine, for just a short bit, to include insulin.  Slept on different pillows.  I have been putting in some decent efforts, which can throw the body out.  It was 77 when I woke, so was probably warmer and even that makes for some uncomfortable sleep.  One, some number of those, or all of them combined.  A mild headache though.  I'll... fix what I can, manage what I can't.  I'm not going to take painkillers.  Perhaps if that continues for a week or two.  But I won't let it get in the way, either.

Whatever I said I wouldn't do, or would...  I finished the load of laundry, but didn't take it out.  I did pull the pillows and set them over the washer's lid.  I did reset dishes to a nearly final rinse.  I took a shower.  I did a few more things, litter boxes, meat getting put up, chicken parted then put up, a number of little things.  So many things to do!  That last bit, at the end, was very stop and go.

I looked at the clock, when I went to bed, but was so far past shot that no memory remains.  I think it was... wait... 11:39 or so.  Yes, I think so.  Or... was that... no, I think that was upstairs, as I was laying down.  Only did that once.  Meant to go up several times.  It is 21:33, so... about nine hours down.  Given the heat, probably not a bad go.

Now to get the pillows out, and check what else is out there.  It should be done.  It is 70 out there, but was quite warm indoors.  I think 77 upstairs, and 85/83 in the front room?  Something like that.  But having opened everything up, it is down to 82 just now.  And dropping.  I left the swamp cooler on, with moisturizing on.  Not a great idea.  Still, it made the cool outdoor air feel a hundred times better than usual.

Tonight?  Dishes, and one last load I think.  Counters and stovetop, maybe oven.  Perhaps a quick start on cupboards... washing them down.  A beginning in the bathroom.  And pieces and parts in the livingroom.  Perhaps with another shower, sometime, as well.  This time washing hair.  I only do that every other or every third time or day.  Love those showers.

Well, and food.  But, everything is cooked.  So it's just a matter of warming things up.  And, really, it is already feeling cool enough to enjoy a heated bite or three currently.  Just... hoping the headache backs off a bit, and I need to wake a bit more as well.  To be honest, I think it was the strange pillows.  And, unfortunately, from past experience, even after I get my favored ones back into use, it will... take a week or three to break them back in.  I will most likely be having headaches ever day, then ever few days, for two weeks to a month after.  It's... just the way it goes.

Hmm, fatted coffee would be good.  And some water on the side.  Ugh?  But am I going to stay awake?  Yea, I'll try.  And get to work in an hour or two.  Later.  

Fibbed.

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Not on purpose, mind you.  Just that, when I went to go to bed, I thought I'd do one last tiny little thing.  Take the towels and pillowcases out to the line.  Which I did.  Then, since I was there, I put the pillows in.  Fair enough, right.  But, then, a shower really sounded good.  And brushing my teeth, since I was in the loo and at it?  Sure.

Then, I set the dishes up.  Right.  Being right there.  Of course, I also had to put the roast up, and carve the chicken and get that put away.  Really, quite a good little gig.  I would love to get cream, but that is just too far outside of my abilities for me to contemplate.  But... I got everything else.

I am, as well, going to wait for the pillows to finish, then get them out there.  The stuff in the dryer needed another round, so got it.  It is getting rather warm, up to 78 near the machine, and at least 76 through the rest of the house.  Really want to go to bed.  But... just this last thing.  Or... maybe not.

They will at least be washed.  And, I can hang them when I wake.  That will just have to do.  Amazing how fast I crash, at points.  Dishes and laundry will be ready, and ready to cycle, when I wake.  I should be quite ready.  I can't believe how quickly I crash when I sit for a moment.  Goodnight.

I'm thinking not.

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I am hitting a wall.  Tired.  I got plenty done, but I think that is as much as I can do.  No shower, no dishes, no cream, no more laundry.  I'm going to crash, hard.  Am in the process of a hard crash.  Tired beyond my ability to get up and go to sleep, but working toward that.  All reserves are spent, have to rebuild just a bit.

Still?  I'm not unhappy about things.  I did a good job, great job.  Especially as odd as sleep has been, and pushing recently.  I am getting things done.  Doing well.  Enjoying the work.  Just... at some point, I am falling down.  I will enjoy the sleep.  Won't remember it, necessarily.  But that is fine.

I'll take a shower when I get up.  The put dishes in, and laundry out.  I'll see from there.  Goodnight.

Yes?

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The roast and whole chicken are finished.  The roast is being tended, the chicken just allowed to cool.  I just slice off roast as and when wanted, the chicken, though, will be carved and bagged.  I might have a wing?  Maybe.  Or a breast?  Depends on how full I feel after a decent piece of roast.  Sure smells good.

With the dishes drained, I need to get a shower taken.  Then set those up for a final rinse.  Laundry is still going.  Those towels are heavy.  I didn't put the pillows in, will do that after.  It was just too big of a load, with pillows.  But they will be next.  Then, everything out on the line.  I'll bet they will smell sweat tonight.  And, having two clean towels back in the cupboard is good.

It's been a good day.  Just hitting 74 in here, near the computer, 76 outside, or was.  Became distracted.  I decided to close the place up... oh, but best close it up upstairs too.  Bleh.  Upstairs had gotten up to 77.  The rest of the house is 74, this front room is starting to get warmer now... a few degrees at a time.  Well, the ac and fans are on up there, that, hopefully, will work out.

No cream this morning.  But they may have some later.  I'll go in, in a bit?  Meh.  With the grilling done, I'll put the roast up, carve the rest of the chicken... had a breast as it turns out... and get that put away.  Then get a shower, and put the whites out, setting up the pillows to wash.  I'm sure I have some other pillows around, for a temporary use.  Old, but... they... work.  I suppose I could wash the old ones, see if they make it through.  If they don't, just toss them.  If they do, bag them in airtight, vacuum seal, bags and put them up.

Then, put the dishes in for the final rinse, with the hope of air drying, then getting cream, and then finishing dishes and putting the pillows out to dry.  I... might get a goodly lot done today.  I think there is a solid possibility.  Well, and I paid my dairy bill up and in some advance, while at it.  Not a bad evening and morning.  And it isn't even finished.  I really am doing pretty good, if I struggle some days.  Even then I do some work.

A nice little bit more done.

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Upstairs.  There was more left than I thought.  Even so, I got to it and got it done.  Well, all of the floor has been opened enough to vacuum and dust all parts.  Wait... except where some boxes are.  Too many boxes, for now.  Vacuumed, dusted, sorted through.  More to do, but... doing okay.  And, for the night, that part is finished.

It is 55 to 56 out there, with 80% humidity?  Strange, but okay.  Though it will be warming soon enough.  There isn't a bank of clouds to hold it off.  I best watch, to know when to close it all down.  It may well get blazing out there today.

Then on to dishes.  I gave everything a final wash, and it is setting out.  It came clean, easily.  What little was left.  Stacked out, so I can get a shower in a bit.  Then I'll put everything back in for a soak.  I gave the laundry another shot, just... because I didn't think it was dry.  And, I looked out there.  It doesn't look like clouds are going to be a problem, today.  Probably.  Unless they sneak up on me.  So, I went back upstairs, grabbed the pillows, and brought them down, stripped them, and have them and the cases in for a pool dip.  I'll just use the towel still in the bathroom, but bring that out to be washed with the rest of the whites when finished.

Then...  Then?  Then I get to think about if I can do much else.  If I can, I will probably begin in on the boxes in the livingroom.  And objects.  Sorting, storing, tossing, boxing back up or... mostly.  I think I will have to have keeper items set aside, in the main, before I can really begin sorting as well as I would like.  And, after my mind goes numb with that, and if still able, I will get on to finishing the dishes.

Oh, but I have started the grill, and will be roasting a chicken, and pork roast, out there.  Hmm, I'll set up some things for a side, too.  Oh... I may wait until after the grilling to take a shower?  Yea, otherwise I smell all smoky.  I really don't like smelling smoky.  So, yeah.  But, that almost makes sure I will be getting to the other things?  Probably.

The alarm, but only because I forgot to reset it when coming in.  I've got twenty minutes to tinker, rest, break, before getting the meats out and going.  Still, that alarm is annoying!  Best get to it.  Later.

Moving right along.

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Laundry is reset.  The clothes weren't dry, so I gave them another spin.  And, while I haven't started whites, I have put what was in there in, in preparation for doing them.  I have another towel in the bathroom, and will be putting pillows in.  If it isn't going to rain today.

Then on to dishes.  I washed the load.  It's a bigger load, but went fairly smoothly.  Still a bit gunky, so all has been put in for one more soak.  But it is actually cleaning up better than I had anticipated.  I think one more shot, and I can then rinse, dry, and set them out.  I'll try to get the dishes which have been set out to dry put up in there, hopefully well before drying this next set.

Not a break.  It was a good run.  After the break, I'll head upstairs.  See about getting the last of the floor open and cleared, vacuumed, and powdered.  Then, if So, I will vacuum that all back up on Tuesday.  On the good side, it is cool enough tonight, and was cool enough today, so that I can get fresh air up there.  Deep winters and deep summers make it so airing the place out isn't all that possible, usually.  When I get a chance, I take it.  Fresh air is your friend, my friend.

I am pretty sure I can get the upstairs opened, vacuumed, and dusted.  Beyond that?  I don't know.  I honestly hope I have more time to get down, and work on the boxes and items collected in the living room.  Then hit dishes again.  Bringing down pillows and taking the white towels from the bathroom as well, into the laundry room.  I won't start on that until I am more sure about what tomorrow looks like.  I have two more sun-dried big towels, clean and folded.  So I don't need them, or even want them, the white towels, washed and ready unless they can go out on the line.  And those will last two, even three showers each if I have to push.  Heck, one can last a week of showers if I really must.

Oh, but after washing dishes again, while they are set aside, I will probably get a shower in, again.  I sure like those.  Especially with sunshine dried towels.  As well, sometime in there, I may grill the package of chops, and the pork roast.  And have a small pan of mixed veggies, for a side.  Maybe with some cheddar.

I found a video I thought was... interesting.  I watched it but... to a degree?  Was unimpressed.  Why?  I drive a big honking suv.  Maybe not as big as a big truck, but not a tiny delicate thing.  And, yet, I drive just as cautiously as he is suggesting to drive on a bike.  About seventy percent of drivers are basically aware and knowledgeable about driving etiquette, laws, and conditions.  Basically.  The other thirty percent are unable, unwilling, to abide driving rightly, or actively against those things.

Not bad.

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Dishes were dried and set out.  A new batch put in.  This batch is pretty nasty.  But, so be it.  It will take a couple of washes, at least.  I'll hit it in an hour or two.  That's not everything, but it is close.  Just a few skillets, and maybe a few other odds and ends after.  Going fast.  There really wasn't all that much to finish, but I just couldn't get to it, until now.  Wanted too, couldn't.

Plus, I checked the clothes in the dryer.  Good, dry, pulled those and put what was having trouble draining, spinning dry, after a full regular load.  The spin and rinse didn't work, either.  Rinse and spin, actually.  A regular wash cycle did spin it dry, this time.  I won't do whites until later, if it looks like it won't rain?  Or, if I think I can get it to dry before it rains.  I'll check closer to sunup.

It is 60, outside, if humidity was 75%?  Something like that.  In here, near the machine, it is 75 with a 53% humidity.  The rest of the house is 74, upstairs is 73/74.  Not bad.  I have a fan in front, and the swamp cooler fans, minus the humidity inducing portion, going.  A good night to work.  Cool enough without quite being cold.  And, if it drops to the 40s, and really chills things off, I'll put on heavy pj bottoms and a long sleeve t.

Next, actually, is a short break.  In an hour I would like to begin upstairs.  Finish the floor.  I know, I keep saying that.  But tonight it looks like it will be hit.  Work up there until it is done.  Then take an half hour to hour break, and get back to the dishes, check the laundry, another break, and then to the living room... tossing, sorting, storing.

It's not the fastest effort I have ever done, but it is rather steady.  Even on my down days, I get something done.  If I can hit all of those, today, I may use a bag of ready-crete, or such, wet it, and attempt a patch in the driveway tomorrow.  Whether in the morning, or later, depends on how much I get done, how fast, and how much energy I have.  Will have to put the vehicle out in the sun for a few days, so I won't have to drive through the cement while it is wet.

Other than that, it will begin with giving the upstairs three days, for the powder to do it's work, then vacuum that all up.  Then begin sorting boxes, mostly for tossing.  But, in the interim, clearing the final bits and parts from this front room, so I can bring those boxes down and have them ready to toss.  I will be filling this room, again, with things ready to go.  For, eventually, one more dumpster rental session... perhaps month?  But only when I have a near full thing, order it to be delivered two days before dumping day, fill it up, and have it ready for further fills.  Actually, having two loads would be best.  And, have help on the way to begin sorting even that week, so more is being brought to the toss room.

No, it really is getting done.  Slowly.  There have been stoppages.  But, when I go, I go pretty well, for weeks at a time.  Probably no more than twenty, maybe thirty, hours of work a week.  In small groups, of fifteen minutes to two hours at a time, as is possible.  Lots of breaks, required, trust me.  Not even an option thing.  But, very very good.  I wish I could hit four to six hours at a time, or eight to twelve even.  Those are my goals.  I just haven't been able to get even close to those, regularly, yet.  Two hours is about my record.  And... really, it is a record.  Especially several times a week, several weeks in a row.  I am not completely burning out and fading away.

Well, there it is.  Now for my half to two hour break.  Give or take.  Later.

When?

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I can't be sure when I went to bed.  I got the dishes washed, and reset.  The freezertop cleared and washed.  One laundry through to the dryer and another load in.  But couldn't finish the dishes.  Or work on items, boxes, in the living room.  I did close the place up, fed Sassy a last time, cleared her litter, and got water set up and run, which means I probably need to refill the reservoir next time I am out that way.  But when I went to bed?  Ten, a bit, or a lot after?  Hmm.  Actually past noon, nearly to one... I remember being awake then, I think?  I was crashing, but resisting the crash, so who knows.  No, I think I saw it past 13:00, but upstairs, as I was going in.  Though 13:01 or 13:48?  I couldn't say.

Warm, up there, when I woke.  It is 77 up near the bed, 75 in the main, 77 downstairs in the main, and 79 in the front room, it was 81 near the machine.  It is 66 outdoors, so I opened everything up, upstairs and down.  Giving the ac a break, if nothing else.  The fans are on, including the fan on the ac unit.  The door to the downstairs is open.  And there are breaths of wind, not quite gusts, curling through the cave.  Being that it is just 22:50, there is a reasonable change the cave will cool down well before the night is through.

I hit the litter box again.  When I keep up on it, there is only, usually, one number one and two in there, if I do morning and night and check when I'm going by.  She is a much happier girl, when that is managed better.  And the place does smell smarter.  I have two tins out.  If I am awake a longer shot, she will get them all, if just a regular day, a can and an half.  If I am only up eight hours, she gets one tin.  I have been closing off the dry food, at "night" (when I am sleeping) to give her timeouts from eating.  She isn't losing weight, or much.  She, like me, has become slightly trimmer, a bit tighter, but still a bit plump.  Hey, it's all we actually own, at this point.

I brushed my teeth first thing.  If as I was doing that, I will resetting the dishes to a, hopefully, final rinse.  Around midnight thirty, I'll get in to get those drained, then dried, setting them out to air dry, then putting another load in.  The goal, at this point, is to get most dishes, pots, and pans, cleaned and keep them unused.  I need to get the grilltop going.  Between that and the charcoal grill, cooking most foods that way.  There will still be utensils, large and small, and this and that... a few small pots for cooking veggies.  

But, really, now is the time to cook out, mostly.  And not have much to wash.  While going through what I am keeping and what I am tossing.  Some of the pots and pans can be put into recycling.  Though, anything I find with teflon or else non-stick, if I still have that, will be ruined before being tossed.  It is, at this time, toxic.  And, yet, people don't care and would use it.  Even when obviously scratched, people will use that.  I don't want to encourage them to pull from the garbage and use.  And, yes, they... will do so.  But, if it's a stainless, but of lower quality, and worn and dirty, I'll leave it whole.  If someone wanted that, they could have it.  The way things are going, kids won't be going to school, they will, like some children in many foreign countries, be digging through the trash for metals and meals.  Joe did that!

Yeah, dishes.  Oh, and I checked the laundry.  For some reason, the laundry in the washer was still wet?  I tried the rinse and spin cycle.  Not sure that is doing what I thought it would do.  May just have to run the load through on a normal full wash again.  I have to wonder if electricity went out while I was sleeping?  Anyway, I'll check on laundry when I go to do dishes.  Or, actually, I'll just go in and reset it to run a regular load, if it isn't doing right.  I am drying what was in the dryer, again, on low.  See if that gets it any drier.  Wasn't very dry, I'll say that.  Thought it would be, but... nope.  I'll do whites, in the morning, if it isn't raining.  Then that will be that for a bit, regarding laundry.  Just more dishes to do, and sorting of boxes and things, plus work upstairs.

Then... the kitchen, bedroom, and on.  Not as good as things had been going, but not bad.  With it cooling nicely tonight, I sure hope to get a good load of various parts of those efforts in.  I'll definitely keep at it, pushing when possible, resting when required.  Yea, I can see the work paying off.  Just right here, near me... first the empty boxes were broken down, and that opened much of the room.  Then boxes of baubles have been taken to the other room, in groups, and managed.  I have removed half of what was left in here.  The the half that remains, of clutter, is functional items, like the swamp cooler and the paper shredder, a second desk, and another office chair, and old, mostly dead, computer I will want to disassemble to some degree, then toss.  And of the boxes that remain, many or dvd's, blurays, and games.  Not as much to go through left as before, though some.

Hmm... a fatted coffee, as I check on the laundry.  Then, maybe a show, or to look for one.  Often I won't find one.  I haven't played a console game in... a very long while.  They just don't make them like they used to make them.  All woke, broken, and dull on top of it.  Who would have known that wouldn't sell.  Ha!  Besides every gamer out there.  They can't complete, and put out, a functioning game, at this point, because if they did, and people saw to the end, they would tell everyone else that it's just another work propaganda piece.  Most of us realize that is all they put out, at this point, so don't even look at what is coming out next.  The young tools still do, but... that'll... fix itself.  Did with us, just much quicker.

Looks like parents are booting junior to the harsh world.  Or junior is finding the cleverness of the feminine.  It's a sucker bet, but that is life.  You can't win, but you don't have to lose.  Even if you, when... really, you lose... here or there?  Well, if you have chosen the right path, it... just doesn't matter.  Be true to God, the rest will tend itself.  Not that you shouldn't attempt to lend a hand, just... your hand isn't the final one.  And this isn't the final place.  You can hope for justice, but you can't have it as a certainty.  And, as a fact, expect to be spat upon wrongly, and by those who shouldn't.  If, too, turning the other cheek has limits.  It's not for lethal affairs.

Anyway... on to checking the laundry, getting water reservoir filled, and... fatted coffee plus maybe some sardines?  Maybe.

Washed them.

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Reset them, checked laundry.  Made a meal.  But crashing.  No way I can get them worked up, dried, and set to air out.  I'll have to do that when I wake.  Brutally tired.  Crashing so hard it almost hurts.  Goodnight.

Wow.

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At 12:43, it is still 72 out there?  Overcast as well.  No rain.  But, just being overcast is odd.

Dishes were washed, and reset.  Laundry was turned over, a medium-small load of coloreds put in.  Yeah, not bad.  A break, then I am hoping to finish the dishes, and set up another load.

The meat hasn't thawed yet.  I keep checking the faster defrosting stuff.  Want to put it in the fridge as soon as it is ready.  Hmm?  Might make brats for lunch?  With beans?  Maybe... or chili, and cheese.  That's doable.  Maybe.  Starting to get very tired.  If it were as hot as it should be, I would have shut down hours ago.

Then again, I am getting things done.  So, it's not a terrible thing.  And I really want to get these dishes out and up, and another going.  But they need to rinse for a bit.  Then again, I could push them through.  But, I am hungry.  Hmm, let me check to see if they are even fully thawed though...

Yep.  So... I'll go ahead with the brats.  The grill is going.  I had a can of baked beans up here, so I'll use that.  Should work out well enough.  Nothing else is quite thawed, so... oh well.  Then again, I didn't even want to be cooking this.  Still, it'll be tasty.  And I'll have real food before bedtime.  

Well?

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The dishes had become a bit... crusty.  Water softener salt?  Maybe.  Still, I got a shower in, then reset the tub to a soapy soak.  I am so tired, but I want to finish the dishes, rinse them, dry them by towel, then set them out to air dry.  I just do.  Oh, and I'll probably get the laundry over to the dryer, and set another load in.

It has remained overcast.  I have mostly closed the house, save one west window.  With a fan going it is keeping it to 79 so far.  Will it rain?  It sure might.  But today, tomorrow, this week?  Or... of course... maybe not.  So early for the monsoon, and actually a return of it.  An unusual year, to say the least.  A good one, if cool is more your thing.  Then again, I've never met anyone who likes it 90 or hotter?  Not for the most part.  Some older people seem to like it much warmer, but they, too, are often less active, less able to be active, and with poorer circulation.  Then again, I have poor circulation.  Terrible.  But only in my legs.  Hmm...  That might be it.

Anyway, it's time to hit the dishes, reset laundry, then take a break until it's time to mostly finish the dishes.

I did get one bill paid.  Tried to get another paid, but the manager... or the one who is in the know... was out.  So, I'll check back Monday.  At least I tried, and they know, and it will happen.  Money, money, money, I'm telling you.  Oh, I also looked up a few sewing patterns.  I have always wanted to try shirts, and vests.  Didn't realize sewing ties was a thing.  Though I am particular about ties.  Not sure if I could find the materials I like.  But... will try.  The great thing is, even if I can only find normal silks, plains, I could make ties that actually fit.  Even talls ties are often wonky.  Too short, too fat, too thin, some have even been, to my mind, too long?  Weird.  

And, I'd like to make button-downs, but short sleeves for starters.  Campy shirts?  Something like that.  I have never found ones that fit quite right.  If there is room in the chest, the rest is a tent, if it fits the torso, the chest is restricted.  Sometimes the arms holes are too small, sometimes they are huge!  I just want to craft a template, get that perfected, then make a few, from seersucker? plaids?  Things like that, but light, summer, materials.  I'm not sure what they are all called, or if those names are proper materials or just designs.  Bleh.  Live and learn.

Hmm?  Oh, right.  I'll get to dishes, then laundry, a break, finish dishes, then on to bed.  Later, or maybe goodnight.

Overcast.

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Very unusual.  It has become totally overcast.  It must have come down from the north?  I can't be certain.  There is almost no air movement, from breezes to gusts.  Maybe a little air is just... moving?  Slightly.  There is that feel, but not indications of it.  So, if so, it is just a general mass air displacement.  Couldn't call it a wind, or even breeze.

It is 72 out there, 74 in the main of the house, and 76 up here in front.  It is 65% humidity outdoors, 49% indoors.  Very unusual.  Rain, I'm just...  While I can't believe it, I can't believe otherwise?  Soon or late, more soon than late if I had to say.  Even, as suggested, if I can't believe it.  It sure is threatening.  Promising?  Promising.

I should get to dishes before long.  Yes, I put laundry in.  Not sure if I want to put it out to dry though.  So, may just stick it in the dryer, on fluff.  Then give it a finish on low.  Not sure I'll do more laundry.  If I have enough colors, I will.  But the whites I will wait upon, until I am sure I can put it out to dry.  I don't trust today.

A few calls, and bills managed, today?  I best, before going on to bed.  I want to get the dishes rinsed, dried, and put up.  Well, they are in a rinse, so dried, and put out to air dry.  That is what I meant.  Then get a shower.  Then make some calls?  Yes, that sounds about right.  And, if I can do more, I will probably get up and finish the upstairs.  I'll work on the boxes this evening, when I wake, or when I am next able to work.

Dishes, though, and laundry, I'll do ongoing, feel like it or not.  But the boxes, and items, sorting those, I really need  to have my mind in the game.  Not perfect, but... not bad.  Better than I have been doing, and continuing, pieces at a time.  Well, on to dishes, then a shower.  A break, and then back on upstairs.

I have been looking at motorcycles.  Oh, sure, a 115 cc bike could haul me around.  But I would look silly, for one thing.  But the size and balance would always be a bit out of trim.  I'd have to be doing extra work just to ride.  Then again, a 1600 cc would be trouble right now.  Too much bike, too fast.  I am more thinking along the lines of an adventure bike, in the mid range.  Though, maybe, another type if the price and all else was just right.  Even a cruiser, or sportster, or even a touring if those are usually exorbitant.  I'd really have to know why they were selling such a bike for such a low price.

Now, I'm not sure how to transport the bike, until I get a license.  How to get training.  That is a bit of a trick.  But, I am certain, people do it every day, or... pretty much.  Actually, with the population of the world, they probably do it by the thousands, around the world, every day, hundreds of thousands?  Maybe, or something more in that range.  Later.

Dishes started.

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Plus, a few boxes brought out from this front room, into the living room, to be sorted.  And, about six boxes taken from the spare bedroom into the living room, with the same plans.  It is down to 74 near the machine, and 62 outside.  The sun is up, just not out.  But it will be coming out before long, and then heating up.

There are heavy rain type clouds to the east and west, enough to block the sun to this point, and for a bit more.  But the sky between is wide open.  It could end up raining, hereabouts, soon.  Or not.  It just depends on whether the clouds can hold, whether more moisture arrives, if there might be some cold from the north to bump into it, or enough moisture from the south.  Unlikely.  But, then, clouds are unlikely currently.  But... there they are.

Breakfast is being made.  I haven't eaten a chia breakfast in a long time.  Or, mostly, any breakfast.  And, really, rarely have I eaten lunch, dinner, or more than an occasional snack.  Not losing weight, not changing in size, just... staying as I am.  But, no matter, it is time to get back to things, as and if possible.

I am just waiting for breakfast to soak up the water, then I'll heat it and eat it.  Using room temp water, instead of hot water, to soak it.  I finally realized, this spring, that chia "blossoms" much better with room temp or even cool water than it does with hot water.  So strange, but okay.

After breakfast, I'll give it about another half hour to hour, then hit the dishes, take a shower, set up another load of dishes.  And, maybe, in there, start a load of laundry.  Or, really, probably after I finish this post.  Nothing fancy.  It won't be much.  I don't have enough for larger loads.  But... I'll... get to it, what I have to do.

I am loving that I am able to start.  Maybe not much, or fast, but a start.  And, I think I'll get to some or all of those boxes after dishes and a break, and the laundry right away, and... breakfast before too long.  I have managed Sassy's litter again, already.  If I happen to be out there, and notice, I'll fix it.  Otherwise I forget, for too long.  Later.

Finally, a start.

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Down to 75 at 46% humidity, right here near the computer, 73 in the main or less, 63 outside with 65%, 61%, humidity, or such.  A few higher or lower, just can't remember.

Trash got gathered and taken out, after clearing and cleaning the freezertop, and putting rice in for a five day freeze.  I cleared some of the counters, which is part of why trash was taken.  The canister rebagged.  I'll set dishes up after this, and maybe begin just a bit more clearing of the counters.  Not quite ready to really tear into those, but... I'll do what I can, for a starter, as dishes rinse a final time.

I am hoping to get laundry going.  I'd like to get one to three loads done and what will go, out on the lines, through the cooler part of today, and with what will fit, and dry, through the day.  The last load will be whites.  I like to do my bleaching as a final load, so that any residue will be inert by the time I do another load.

Oh, while in the freezer, I pulled meat.  I have four or five packs out for the week.  Two are rather small, two larger, and one is a whole chicken.  I plan to split that, when thawed, and grill it open.  A way to dine well without heating the house.  I haven't been all that hungry, right until I become famished.  Yeah.

I am looking over atv's, and motorcycles again.  I doubt if I would get an atv.  If I were to want a second vehicle, it would be a midweight bike, in the 500 to 900cc range, give or take.  An easy bike, not a dragster, Harley, Goldwing, more of a midsize adventure bike, or dual dirt sport.  Though, to be honest, I'm... not even sure about that.  Just a thought.  Probably used, at that, if so.

It would depend on, of course, sale of the place.  But, too, whether I stay in-country more than a bit.  There is a good chance I will store a few things, toss much, get a passport, and go.  If I can't immediately get to where I want to go, I could probably get to somewhere passible until I can get further.  The trick, to my mind, would be to go where I could get in... but along the path to where I am more thinking of going.  Though, too, there are two countries on my mind.  One is open, the other is conditionally open... dependent on a pcr (?) test result.  In spite of everyone knowing those are notoriously awful at indicating illness, of any kind.  However, one of the countries is very far away, and finding safe travel, for an unvaxxed, might be tricky.  The other country, I could get a few countries away, without vax or test.  And just wait for it to open.  Or, if that just isn't happening, move on, in a checkerboard fashion, toward the other goal.

I really don't think a new or newer truck, and building out a rig, would be wise.  Even if they don't crack down on roamers (which I think they will be), between truck and rig, it would cost $100k for a project that would become, pretty much, worthless in ten years.  And, while boondocking sounds like free living, the reality is far from it.  Finding a place to boondock, food, fuel, repairs, and else?  Plus, not sure how much you could practically boondock (wild camping)?  Maybe a third to half the time?  Even at two thirds of the time, that would leave ten days of paid camping, which would be, what, $50 a night?  So $500?  And, really, I have heard many who try to boondock often, still set aside $900 a month for paid billets.  Well more than my current rent.  Because sometimes the wild just isn't open.  It's... not free, easy, or cheap.  Oh, and you have to schedule rentals weeks or months in advance.  Perhaps a year in some spots?

It just isn't what some think.  And, a lot of those people end up homeless, living out of dead rv's, on the east coast, or major city in any of a number of states.  Can't afford a place anymore, can't afford repairs, can't afford much.  Just living out of a trashed hauler, rv, camper, or such, in some horrible city.  Until someone chases them out and takes it over, or kills them and takes it over.  Lots of people are going to find themselves... in hell.  No way out.  Well, and it could well get worse for one of a thousand reasons.

Oh, but don't let them frighten you.  I am not afraid.  I am simply looking at what is happening, what is going to happen, and deciding where I want to be when whatever happens does happen.  I'm not really welcome here, not a part of things.  The boomers and millennials own it.  They are running things.  Running them into the ground, but with the absolute cocksure confidence of Charles Manson.  I don't really want to be a part of it.  And I'm not welcome, with my bigoted, racist, views.  Wait until they realize the rest of the world is far more worldly than they ever imagined, and is... on my side.  In this one case.  We know.  We know.  We know what they are going to find out when they have completely run out of denial, or any capacity for it, and begin murdering those little lambs they hold so dear.  Or... thought they did.  It was always one way.  As numbers changed, and the masks come off, they will realize why they used to do what they did.  And return to it.  And, yes, I will just as likely be on the list, as much for knowing it in advance, as for being a non-white.  *grins*

Partly cloudy out there.  Mostly to the east and west.  Fairly moist this morning... feels tacky, especially for as cool as it is.  Oh... best get dishes soaking, then maybe start a load of laundry.  Ah, and I found an extra number of hundreds of dollars.  I'll... get some things done today.  A few calls, a few bills.  All good.  Ugh.  

Though, buying a bike, if I am going to be around for a bit longer, might not be bad.  To learn in America, where there is room to turn around, would be far better than trying to learn in a vastly more crowed tiny little foreign country, where driving is a new thing, terribly emotional, and very fast for the crowds and road conditions.  I would like to think they aren't as much drinkers or stoners as Americans, but honestly?  From Russia to Vietnam to Brazil, my guess is there are vastly more drunk and stoned drivers than America ever saw at her worst.  So... if things came through, I might well get a motorcycle right away, and begin hitting it immediately.

Later.

68...

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Last I looked, outside.  Not all that cool.  Indoors, up here in front, it is only down to 78.  Actually, anywhere in the house is 77, save maybe upstairs?  Ugh.  I just checked, 68 outdoors.  It just isn't cooling off.  Though there is a decent wind going, with a breeze and wind, interspersed with minor gusts.  So, that makes it feel cooler.  But, really, it just isn't cool.

There is a reasonable chance it will cool enough for me to get to some work.  I keep trying.  I am just beyond my capacity, from even the mid 70s and of course on up.  I overheat just thinking about working.  I am taking care of Sassy, making sure she has food, clearing her litter, giving her attention.  Even for her, until it gets to the low 70s, being around me makes her too hot.  The fan(s) would help, but the sound is just too much... well, and the blowing.  I get that.  I'm a cat people.  I don't hold that against her.

Oh, I received a call.  One of the potential buyers.  Suggesting they may be able to go there.  The one I dropped the big number on?  Makes me nervous.  Then again, probably not.  But, who knows.  That, now, talking with them, or this or that... gives me a bit of an upset stomach.  I should know more within the month.

Though, regardless if I am staying or going... I want to get the house cleared.  A lot more things to go away.  Boxes of notes, many books, clothes I haven't worn in forever, if ever?  Objects, parts, pieces, for the house, vehicles... one no longer owned, furniture I won't get taking... so many things to go away.  Though, mostly, I need to sort what I do want to take.

I really do think a travel trailer will be bought.  Though, initially, just for putting stuff in.  I would like to develop the inside for hauling including tracking for tiedowns and some fixed tiedowns for very specific zoning of areas, insulate very powerfully, run basic electrical with easy access runs, add in a brown water and fresh water tank, and a few other things.  As well, I hope to be able to get upgraded tires and extra clearance from the start, maybe a more powerful fan at the start, and some better things.  Adding them later is often much more expensive, time-consuming, and possibly of lower function and quality.

I am even thinking of considering a new vehicle... F-250, Ram 2500, that sort... to make sure it can haul the thing, with water, batteries, and such.  Plus, as a toy hauler, maybe a motorcycle, or an atv, for alternative motation, or a way to town if something goes wrong.  Spooky.  That's a lot of work, a lot of money, a lot of time, and else.  Still, maybe.  Though, with some care, the Xterra might be able to run a smaller rig, especially just used as a belongings carrier alone, for a while.  Right now, bigger trucks are costing nosebleed fortunes.  There are used, but those are pretty nasty too.  I'd wait for prices to lower, in either of those markets.  It's... coming.  Layoffs, even at tech.  But everywhere.  And no more stimmy money for those big or pricey items.  I suppose they could try to dump repos in the ocean, to try to keep prices ups, but that eventually won't work... one way or the other.

Just thinking, while I wait for the world to cool.  The freezer top is the priority, leading to dishes.  And several loads of dishes are next on the list.  Then counters in the kitchen.  Later.

Pretty warm.

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Summer is finally hitting it's normal stride.  To be fair...  Wait!?!  Something seems strange.  It is reading 84 to 87 in this front room, 80 in the rest of the house?  It was 77/76 upstairs.  So, yes, it was hot.  But... let me check outdoors.  Something seems... different?  Then again, it may just be a hot wind, and maybe the sun is just... let me check.

Wow.  It is 76, and falling out there!  The wind is a rather cool wind.  And it is overcast?  In July?  I'll take it.  Don't know if it will actually rain, but it sure feels like it could.  Sort of amazing.  I hurried and opened everything up, including the front door.  A degree drop in a minute, though I think it will drop much faster, shortly.  The curtain between the front and back of the house is often going out as much as thirty to forty degrees, as air billows through.  Cool air.

I can hope I can cool enough to get to some work yet this evening, but not promises.  The heat has been kicking my legs out from under me.  Staying awake, for long, sleeping much, having a regular day, all gone.  As mentioned, even upstairs is hot.  Hmm... I may shut the ac off, and open a few windows... see if that might help?  Maybe not.  If it gets much cooler, into the mid 50s or cooler, I will.  As is, even with wind and such, with the roof collecting heat, it just won't get cool up there, at this temp.  It would be up to 80 or 90 in no time.  Even with 'passive' solar, from a cloudy sky.  The sun is becoming stronger, again, finally, sort of.  It is merely that a weather front is moving in, or through.  As mentioned, this usually doesn't happen until mid-August.  So...  But I will gladly take it.  Some rain wouldn't be bad, either.  Unpossible!  But there it is.

It'll be a bit until I can get to anything worklike.  So, for now, I will just sit, enjoy the heavy breeze to wind to occasional gust, cool as is possible, and look over the internet.  Good day.