She is out there. I don’t know how I know, but I realized tonight, the woman who will become my wife is out there, waiting. Oh, she isn’t sitting at her table, twiddling her thumbs, not that type of waiting. I had strong feelings that she is out there and I need to find her. I am not sure if this is because I am trying to become active and considering some travel or if it is just the time. Perhaps changing ones life has more impact than one could every understand in such a broad way as to be a miracle of probabilities.
I have no clue what she looks like. I don’t know where she is, except that she is not here (whatever that means), or what she does. I doubt if we will know it when we first meet. I am just sure we will somehow cross paths once, then again, and again, until we begin to see and understand. I am not even sure if we will have children, but I certainly hope so. I am not comfortable with the unknown or waiting, but for some reason I am comfortable with this. And yes, I do have doubts. How can someone know even what math indicates, let alone what some feeling indicates? I don’t know that either, but I do believe this.
Don’t ask me, I don’t know where that came from. All I can say is I have been getting that message over and over the last few days until finally I locked on it and accepted it. It’s just a feeling, I could be wrong and by logic I am, I might be a little touched, or I might be heading into trouble:) But I believe she is out there and that I will find her.
Good luck, God be with you, and try to keep some semblance of your head together.
ReplyDeleteWhen I read your words, the frantic actions of squirrels "gettin' ready" came to mind. They run in front of cars and die, they fight, jump, scream, hiss, and just do odd things when compared with their normal cautious nature. As far as that is related to me, think more like... oh... turtle. Yeah, even if I was really angry (or in love) enough to do something, by the time I moved the distance to get to whoever, I'd have forgotten why I was there, assuming no further interaction. So, keeping my head is more of a fact of life, or a trap of "nature", then a hope. Sometimes it's a tight race though, between myself and January molasses.
ReplyDeleteProbably why I am not married yet, ha! Still, I will keep your advice tucked in the tidy part of my mind, just for those times when I roll a little quicker.
Also, it's worth mentioning that might advice comes from a man who is all but perpetually single. As such, it might be best to simply ignore it. =)
ReplyDeleteI ignore a man's advice when he has been proved a fool. You have not done so. You might, at times be a disagreeable sort (for shame and whatnot, Ha!) but you are no fool.
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't worry too much about the single thing at this point in your life. You are on the perfect track to find one single right woman. You are in college and in the Church. And trust me, messing with the fairer sex while you are in college is like juggling watermelons and deciding a live hand-grenade might be a fun add. Bah!
I'll take your advice, with a dash of salt if you kindly don't mind, and keep it somewhere in the pack for easy retrieval.