After writing this, I will get back to study. I have done little and it is difficult to get in the swing of it at this time. But with the test Monday, I had better get cracking!
I read the news, daily at least. Most articles spark little interest. Much of it is politically motivated, Fox News being little better than the rest. Of course, there is the blogosphere, but that too is what it is. At least with blogs, my comments can be shared in a manner that is heard (for good or ill). I am not really a debater. It is not that I am static in my beliefs, it is more that I have come to a point where it takes profound new information to resettle something. In an age of jets, computers, and a seeming lack of historical, cultural, and educational standards and origins, finding serious depth of thought coupled with evidence is a rather rare thing that so that change is very slow.
What I do find, on blogs mostly, is a vitality and drive. I know many fall, and get back up, write and then withdraw, and then cycle through it all again and again. What this is, for me, is an indication and a vindication of life. When I disagree… good, I need it and perhaps they need to hear that. When I agree, great, I might clown around with a little tongue in cheek, state it whole and plain, or whatever. It is a small joy to participate, and the internet gives me an opportunity I cannot otherwise know.
Life, it is good. I can and do complain, but make no mistake, there is no question about how much I value my, your, and even little creatures’ lives. Yeah, ok, should I see a cockroach I might appreciate it’s life after I have stepped on it, but the trend otherwise is dominant. Even with my failures and frustrations, I am learning, gaining, seeing, and loving in my odd little foible filled way. I have to think you, too, have this. Even if it cannot be seen, I feel it. The proverbial light at the end of the tunnel is always, at this time in my life and finally, out there for me with absolute surety (especially since death no longer holds sway nor has the power to beckon me like a perfect lover). I know the good times are there, and I have learned patience. As well, I have learned that good times are not necessarily “happy times”, but more times of being in step with my stated moral ethics and having a community in which to share that. I hope others have that, can find it, can use it, and can come to love the nature of the facts surrounding it.
I have decided to quit being such a glumpuss. For a while anyway. I am going to review topics which are enlightening, interesting (to me), or hopeful. When school ends, I will begin a review of a new physics theory. As I figure things out, or not, I will try to write a bit about that. As well, I might write about my examination of math, if it seems I understand it well enough or if something is particularly difficult as I try to figure it out. Other topics will include little stories of the good things people do, both in the face of tragedy (like when the Amish near here set up a fund for the family of the man who killed some of their daughters then himself), to just selfless acts which shine on the better nature of men. Oh, perhaps a few ideas on food will be written about. I will be trying some interesting recipes shortly, the most interesting of which is a true onion soup, starting with six onions, homemade, somewhat involved if simply, and… we will see. If someone wants bad news, just buy a paper, turn on the tv, or browse the internet. Even good news is bad news there, innit?
Well, I best get busy or I will have no choice but to print bad news, my final grade that is! Be well, warm, loved, and kind. It is a hard world, but we have been gifted with the ability to see and choose how we deal and then interact regarding that. Choose wisely, as you may, and I will most certainly try to do likewise.
I love this post and your new (or more visible) outlook!
ReplyDeleteVery much looking forward to the coming posts, including your recipes. I think your skills in the kitchen must be impressive and you do seem to enjoy being creative there.
I am also trying to project less gloom in my writing. We cannot and should not avoid all negatives, but letting ourselves appreciate what positives we know of can only be a good thing for everyone.
(Now, watch... some incessant dark mood will hover over me and make me sound like a liar! heh)
Hehehehe I had thought what you wrote last shortly after I wrote what you wrote a comment concerning. More succinctly, me too. Better defined, I worried about gloom attacks too, after writing my post. But never too worry. I am actually in a glum puss mode, which means I can walk away from such notions if I can't escape their invasions. Or, that's the plan. :)
ReplyDeleteAbout the kitchen, I love it. I can do anything, really. There are probably a few very delicate balances I cannot quite find, being that I have a standard stove, limited funds for produce and meats, and a complete lack of formal training, that isn't a surprise. However, much of what goes for talent (though not all) is simply good food, an experienced nose, practice, a twinge of guesswork, and timing. Rather than bother with worrying about perfection, I often just "do it" and learn or succeed.
As for avoiding bad things, I am not trying to avoid the negative. I can't! It's everywhere and often. I am just not including it here, for a while. Not really because it's bad or because I'm a great big baby sometimes and am trying to act grown up, I'm just changing the flavor of the month. I'll be back on the pity pot before you know it! Bah, ok, so I would like to change my mind on my outlook, a bit (but I still like being a big baby sometimes, it's, it's... it's my... my precious. *laughs* It's all good. It's cool that we are trying to put our best foot forward at the same time. Race? :p