Making the grade.

I ended up with a B. I am not exactly sure how well I did on the test itself, though I would like to see it. I just called my professor to see if I could set up a time, near or far, to look at the test. As well, though I did not tell him in my message, I will be thanking him. He did a good deal of work arranging what material he wished to cover (within whatever parameters he was given). I believe he did most, certainly the questionable and difficult, problems he assigned as homework to ensure that they were in line with his class goals and reasonable problems to do. That is not to say he chose an easy path, easy problems, or did our work for us, only that he did his part (in my opinion, and exceptionally well). Since I am finished with mathematics as far as required work and my grade in his class is final, I feel I can express this without the appearance of impropriety.

Ok, I must admit to being slightly disappointed. I had hoped that I did well enough on the final for a bump. I know from speaking with most of the class that I did far better than average. Still, there are easily those who did even better I am sure. I can think of two off the top of my head who easily could have outpaced me. In a class of 20-25, that would leave me in B territory. As well, my quizzes were poor and that was my real weak spot with no potential for grade trade to amend that. I do not know, but I would end up a little happier if I actually scored an A on the final, though I cannot expect that or even honestly hope for it. However, the class is completed, even that line of study is completed. I went against the odds, with only a faith I could recapture my old knowledge while winding up to follow the steep learning curve provided by the new material. As well, I went without extra time and a quiet, private, test and quiz facilitation. But dang it, I thought I was special! *laughs, well, chuckles… ok, grumbles*

Now, to get back into some other things. I have taken the week off and allowed my nerves, mind, and body to rest. I have enjoyed this rest, but it is time to get back into the game. I have registered for two classes this spring. The registrations are tentative because they do not have it recorded that I took engineering calculus I, and engineering calculus III does not seem to count. I am trying to contact the school to get the problematic class registration cleared and I am trying to contact VA Vocational Rehabilitation Services to see if they will help. If not, I will have to drop statics, I simply cannot afford two classes. I am also setting out to begin a review of the material I covered in this class, to look at a new physics theory, to study German again (though I would love to find a source of recorded or recordable German language, of simpler varietals (for example, speeches or talks given by or for German elementary students, structured (minus slang, at least initially) youth conversations, or other similar vocal early language samples). It is the spoken language that I personally find is my greatest weakness (though of course, actually reading written forms in papers (they are quite formal I have heard) and books in the German language is the true weakest, but that will take a great deal of time to actually be able to perform. Oh, and I may check into the material regarding my classes. It should be simple to find material regarding statics and electrical sciences. I might have some of that just lying around. Anyway, I have a plate full of academic activities planned until school starts up.

As well, I will be writing the woman from class a brief email. I am interested in where she thinks a self-study of statistics might best begin. If I do not dig into it immediately, I would like to at least design a beginning course and purchase a few books. Why statistics? It is an essential tool for any research. By having a grasp of this field, an ability to use a computer to evaluate data, and a personal interest shown through the first two items in this list, I would be much more interesting as a potential research assistant, initially, and both the knowledge and the experience as a research assistant would build toward my own work. Or so hope goes. Gee, I am actually becoming excited about this.

Oh, should there be any questions regarding a particular set of notions I have expressed, I should like to say something here. I still believe trouble is brewing, I still believe history is going down a very narrow and dangerous path. I am sure the outcome is in doubt. As well, I still have plans to vacate this area, though not on the moved up date of this August. I should also add, I am actually planning on leaving, but not (and it never was) because of my belief in a dubious future. That was only a side note, unrelated to my hoped move. No, it is merely the dreams of the mountains, fresh air, wind, rain and snow, rivers, and out-door adventure which call me. As well, I am gearing up as I may, making plans, and looking at places to live. I just do not wish to waste the time I have in this area, with a college right here. It is a resource, I enjoy it, and I am becoming more sure about my eventual success. I might find myself in a place to continue my education wherever I end up, since I am planning that, the chances really are not all that bad. *laughs* Have no doubts, neither my dreams nor my plans have been all that changed, actually only being rescheduled back to their initial (and only then, potential) track.

In truth, tomorrow is what it is. I may plan to stay put, move, marry, or fly to the moon. Reality might agree, be completely different, I could die, or something really odd could happen. Heaven knows, I kneel, homina domina day (-o). And, I am good with that too. Yeah, I covered my bum well there, but not by being clever. I merely understand my limitations. Be well.