I could not sleep. Day 17

I am not sure what the deal is, but as yesterday seemed to be a sleepthrough, today and last night was a sleepout. Not an hour of sleep did I get, nor could I even approach the process. My body just said no. Well, fine, I have an appointment this morning. I was able to reset my appointment quickly. I think there was time so that I could have done it yesterday, but that just was not going to happen. Now, I have class this afternoon, so I may try to get some sleep. I need to be careful though, as it would be really easy to oversleep and I am very much trying to make classes.

I did some work last night, homework from class. I looked at a lot of things, and figured a few things out (I think). But this would be akin to me taking the average driver into a room, telling them a bit of mild theory regarding an engine, and then asking them how the drive shaft would turn (speed and direction), if I twisted something which I have not taught about, and which really was not even involved with the theory. And, of course, this is practically based, though theoretical in that the practical is impossible (or could be), only being theoretically functional based upon some given instructions and allowances. Did that confuse you? Gee, I am sorry.

I did make some progress, but I certainly do not understand this. As I said, this is not a source of stress. I will either do, or not. I am pretty sure I cannot know, if I get close the object will be moved or obscured. Though I am to learn, it is not in that type of objective manner. I am to learn through learning itself. I am not sure I agree with the approach, but I have no power, so I pay the bill and play the game. My instructor writes back, and is as elusive as what lead me to write him, or nearly so. Each time I pick up something. Sometimes I kick myself for not having seen it originally and myself, other times I realize he is not talking about anything from which I can make heads or tails. Then again, on occasion I get a spark from that, go look things over again and figure something out (I think… not sure what I “figured out” is correct, and there is no way to know).

I called my preferred ski rental shop yesterday. It seems as if the price is $15 a day, $30 for M-F, or $60 for 7 days. I will probably be doing the $30 at least twice a month. That gives me a lot more time to go when I feel like it and maybe a bit more often. It would be great to be able to do that every week, but it is a bit of money, with school costs also bearing down atm. I had intended to rent for a day today, but without getting rest last night, I do not think it wise to both end up with little rest and exertion pulling me down as I head into class, trying to glean an ounce of reason from whatever sources are available.

Oh, I best be off. A shower, a shave, a few brushings, and I will be off to see the academic advisor. After seeing what the school I am attending now offers for physics, I may take a look at what the U. of I. offers. I am tired of playing education bingo, I am looking for solid teaching, not this game thing, at least when I can get it my way. I am off!