Grumpy.

I am not sure why, but I am grumpy today. I did go to bed very late and still get up early, that might be it. I was fine while doing my small part in straightening up the place, then I had a bit to eat. I had some things planned for this afternoon, but much of it was put on hold. I had almost forgotten about an appointment today. I just barely made the appointment, barely counts. This was a specialist in a clinic I have visited a time or two, but the doctor was new. I hope I do not need their services in the future. This doctor could not have been more disinterested, he looks to be about 18, and he has little capacity beyond any knowledge he may or may not have regarding bedside manners. Personally, I doubt if he is brilliant, so he needs to take a step back and find some humility. Doctors like that get in trouble, quickly, at the V.A.

Anyway, that pretty much ended most of what I was going to do. I did return the package I had prepared last night and I managed my finances as well. I also checked about my last order as was given the good news saying it should be here by Saturday or Monday. I was not able to call the guidance councilor back or do any of the remaining list. Laundry goes on, sorting and figuring is occurring, but that is it. Oh, I had best do my exercises. They are fun to do, really.

I received several messages while I was at the hospital. Since I am unable to take a call during an appointment, in class, at church, or anywhere important or with certain people, my phone was not with me. The bible study has been canceled for two weeks. I will not be here then, so I need to call back about that. And, as I suspected, my lady friend will not be canoeing this 14th. They are, however, falling back to an alternative date. God willing, she may yet get to enjoy a canoe trip, if she can rearrange her vacation time at work that is. I think she can though, she can be assertive and feisty if she needs to be.

I actually am writing this post because, while reading someone else’s post, I got an idea. Mr. Kim du Toit discussed going to the NRA National Convention next year. And, though it seems he may not be able to go, I have considered the proposal! As my life is changing, I am wondering if I am now able to begin planning for things, a year, two, and even several years out. I would need to begin arranging my wardrobe so that I have reasonable attire, but first I would have to decide what my clothing selection should be. Engineering is rather conservative, so multi-tasking might be the way to go. Therefore suits, sport coats, slacks, and such might be it. Those clothes are expensive, I really do not like them, but it is probably a requirement. And, one of the main things I am learning in rehabilitation is… it’s not all about me. Or more, very little of the world is about me or my wants. If I want to succeed, I will need to give up and do what I am told, wear what I should, quit asking and debating when given tasks except to gain definition, for relevant inquirery, and getting things done rather than failing and providing excuses why things are not done. So, clothing is back as an issue. As is having a potential future.

Is the NRA National Convention next year in my schedule? I do not know, but I do mean to look into it. Money, of course, is a concern. Scheduling, considering my summer courses (if available) and white-water excursion, and who knows what else. I would like to get more involved, but where, with which groups, and how deeply is yet to be determined. The Knights of Columbus is also weighing on my mind. One thing at a time. I am going to see what is planned next year for the NRA while I am doing other tasks this evening. It is time to begin the rest of my new life.