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The animal that is. He is an ex-con. He will be a problem as long as certain situations continue. The good thing is that once I saw him, I knew the deal and will deal with it. He, on the other hand, knew what I am, almost instinctively? He wants nothing to do with me and my a.o. He really does not. I happened to overhear some of what he said. I think he will avoid me as much as he can. And, that is best. I have only ever known one ex-con I ended up trusting, and liking, for the most part and within certain constraints. He will never be like that one, he does what he does, his prison time was just a cost of his lifestyle, nothing more. I am also pleased with another realization, I am far more animal than this one and we both know that score. He does not know how to kill, not immediately, not unarmed, probably not even very efficiently with arms. I realize, now, some things are never forgotten. I immediately knew three ways to kill when he presented himself, to my initial surprise.
Sometimes I hate that. It is confining to be something, especially something dark. There are memories that elude, but poison my dreams and thoughts. But, at times like this, it is good to be me. I am pleased to not be under a gun. It is nice to be recognized and to have an understanding. I will sleep better. The dream was worse than the reality. Perhaps I can begin carrying on. Oh, yes, I do sleep lightly, no worries there. Goodnight.
Good grief, is this a neighbor?
ReplyDeleteInvolved with the neighbor. He is the father of some or all of the kids. Yeah, I know. Next year I will be moving, if he and his friends are here with any frequency, I will demand a release from my rental obligation.
ReplyDeleteI am paying far too much rent to put up with overt criminals visiting my personal space. I am also suspicious that my landlord thinks I "need to grow". It could not be that hard to find decent renters.