Awake at 2:00.

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I seem to have copied yesterday and woke at the same time. I could not get back to sleep and yet I was not awake enough to do be productive in any manner, so I tinkered. That is not helping me get back to sleep so I believe I will read a bit. There are many things to do in the days and weeks ahead and I am nervous about several of them. While money will remain a bit tight, I have a lot of spending to do. I am not sure how I will get it done, but I think I can do it. The double rent potential is hanging over my head like an axe, as well. Nothing like money worries to keep one from sleeping soundly. I suppose I can only do what I can do, I will leave this in God's hands.

If I am able to sleep well enough shortly, I should be able to take care of some of those worries tomorrow. Others will just have to tend to themselves, after I have done my part. Once I have done my part though, it seems a great deal of stress is lifted if it is replaced by a longer term lower level stress. I have come to believe that most things in life are like that. The healthy juggle those with seeming impunity, though too after a long week it is easy to see the strain on even a healthy face. Time takes a toll in this way. I almost wonder if aging is more of an accumulation of these stresses than of anything time does, to some extent. Though too, I think God capped us at 120 years, give or take. And, yeah, I do believe He did.

Just checking in. Now I am checking out. My eyes should be able to handle reading now, and perhaps that will help me sleep.

Good night, I hope.