Nicely played, considering.

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Today has been a roundly satisfying success. To be sure, I could have done more. Also to be sure, I could have failed on many accounts. I have finished most of my list from the start of the week and completed several other things, if all minor. I was able to travel, track ongoing works, be on time, and take care of all the little details I had hoped at least within what I was doing. I cannot say I am back on track but that I was able to successfully negotiate the day has been good for my sorely put upon confidence.

My Mom called and it seems she will be going to the upcoming family reunion for our family of friends. So, I will need to see about lodging. Since half of the reason for going was to see her, this will be great. The food will be fantastic, you must trust me. But to see people from my childhood, some of them who still linger in direct memory and some who may return to memory when met, should be a fine exploration of my youth and, more importantly, the rest of their stories. There is one in particular, a kindly woman who I remember as the quiet person while sometimes the world stormed around my little life. It will be very good to see her. She stands out as a saint in my mind, and I think she is one. Especially if she does not know it, more so probably.

I have some reason to believe that someone in the V.A. reads my blog. No, I am not paranoid about it. I think it is good for them to see what some of us think, truly. And, to see how I blame them, sometimes, out of frustration with medicine that just wallops me, to see me go through that and end up (hopefully) simply understanding that perhaps it is simply the medicines, not the messenger, which is at fault. Perhaps too, they may see that I try as well as I may. The reason I think this is that, as soon as I wrote about the medicines I received and that I would not take anything new (at least until I spoke with someone about it), I received a call the very next day about that very matter, and weeks after my appointment (they could have called at any time, the timing seems interesting). There are other items, but that is enough for now.

I can see it, too, as many people do read blogs. If their profession or work place is included in a blog, they might well search for it. All it would take is one snooper to find it and then share it. Then it might easily become a distraction during lulls, or even an after work curiosity. I am sure, if that is so, my bold angry suggestions and conservative notions bend more than a few noses out of joint. But it might cause pause for thought and a different perspective if that initial hatred can be overcome. Still, it is funny. I am pretty sure the last college I attended also looked in. Oddly, I found that I received mostly good reactions, and understanding. But, they were good people as I came to know. I do think most are, most people, or they desperately try and want to be. Though, as I have written, being good is not a concept of self and it is not as easy as 'being nice', it requires much work, planning, and follow through. And still we fail, if there is a way for that to be mitigated as well. If not a of much worth at anything great within or without of the Church, I do attempt to at least profess.

I am really chewing through the bible. And, as I said, I am attempting not to study. This initial re-reading is simply to lay the groundwork for study. When read, and I find something I do not understand while studying, then it is a simpler thing to go to the reference books and have a feeling for the reference. As well, much of what I am reading is going into the big brain intake machine and, hopefully along with the Holy Spirit, is guiding that very powerful subconscious matter to wisdom and learning converter. I am halfway through 1 Corinthians.

I am not trying to speed read though I am not dallying. I do not set a number of page quota. I do not even track it. I simply read when I have little else to do, feel a compulsion, or even as a bedtime activity to calm me before prayer. When I finish, I will need to begin finding or buying study books for the various books. There are some other books out there which help a good deal as well. Through time, I should be able to allocate reasonable resources to this life long project and have at my disposal some of the more important tomes and other writings. As well, I am quite sure there are many great writers who will add to my understanding. Chesterton to Aquinas to any number of nuns, priests, and the rest who have helped define what is my Church. Or, I should say, the Church to which I am a member.

I hope to find a decent dry cleaner this week, and get some things tended so as to feel more comfortable at church. I have two or three sets of clothes out which I could wear to Church, but some of the items are quite wrinkled. I also have several sets of good shoes. But what makes me nervous is not knowing exactly what is appropriate and socially acceptable to wear initially. Some churches are quite strict and conservative, some are quite liberal (not my preferred), and many will tell you it does not matter what you were, but to my mind it really does. Those not dressed properly for the wedding feast are thrown out. And, though I will relax my wear a bit to be more social, I will not dishonor the feast of my Host.

Lots left to do, some things done, time is ticking, but this day is done. I have enjoyed it immensely. I will need to do many things in the next few days, most of it can be done very quickly or even here at home. I am trying to hydrate, but it is difficult to drink enough water here, I think, over long periods of time. I try to keep a jug of water at the ready, and a glass in which to pour it, and a pint or two an hour seems simple enough, but life happens and time flies so that it is not so simple. And, water gets boring. Perhaps the soda water will help, and I do love it. Oh, naps are nice on busy days, no? Yes, if you are not sure I thought I would help. Yes they are.

That is that for that. Have a great day!