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I have not been lazy on purpose. They have increased my medicine beyond the point of my being able to function without increasing the ritalin. Now, I carried on as well as I could. I tried this and that to get beyond it, and that only after realizing, again, my life had become a train wreck. So, realizing after a couple of weeks or more that I was off the tracks and I think the engine had even stopped, and then fighting for the last week or two to right things, I realized there was no way to salvage the situation on my own. So, I place a call to my doc's office, suggested this situation was untenable, and asked that she add more ritalin. Of course, I am already in socialized medicine, as you soon will be. (Cannot say I did not warn you all, on many occasions). So, I get a message back from one of her flunkies. He says she says no. She says if I control my diabetes, I will feel better.
Ok, fuck her. First, I have not been eating or drinking sugar since I went back on medicine. Second, I have not been eating more than 20 ounces of food a day, often less, because I am incapacitated. Fuck her and diabetes. Pardon the French, or do not, not my call. Anyway, diabetes could not be playing a role in this. I thought about flushing the medicine and just walking away, again. Instead, I have decided to cut back the medicine to the point I could take it with the amount of ritalin I am allowed here, and that will have to do. Going back to soda would be foolish, and that little amount was working on the high blood pressure to some extent. I could still function in a minor fashion and it was better than simply consuming soda and waiting for a quick and harsh lesson in life or death.
Now, to hope I can get back on track with things in a day or two. I hope the fog lifts quickly enough that I can get on track with some of the housing business at hand. This is quite frustrating. I hope those who voted for the cock suckers who just gave you the same medical care I receive enjoy it every bit as much as I do. If so, at least your version will be eradicated as fast as the next election.
Good day.
That's a reasonable choice--if they won't give you more of the compensating drug, cut back on the main drug causing the side effects.
ReplyDeleteBefore the dose increase was your BP still in the range it was when you mentioned it here (what 150/? or so)? That's a lot safer than where it was before. Don't ditch the whole program whatever you do. You've got a lot of stuff to look forward to with your house purchase.
Once you're back on your feet, maybe you can look at your diet. You'd think they would realize that if you're flat on your back you cannot do much for yourself, most particularly getting out and about with physical activity. The weight loss you've had must help a lot, and if you can get it down further, that will go a long way to reducing your BP without higher dosages of meds.
I know for certain that if I dropped 50 lbs my BP would be normal. I've been there, seen it. Unfortunately I gained it back over time.
I wish I could hope the Repubs would undo this horror. They are not even talking that way though! At best they'll fiddle around the edges while the press and the Demonrats demonize them into submission.
Hope ya get back on your feet soon Doom. Meds can really f' you up, not to mention pack on the pounds too. I've read (tho can't verify) that the body stores toxins (modern medicine included) in fat cells, so doing a detox might be helpful? But if you do, be careful because of diabetes and it might flush meds that your body is now used to. I went cold turkey from an anti-depressant once and I regretted that decision tremendously. I had an almost month long headache from that.
ReplyDeleteAnd as you know exercise is good for ya, so I propose getting on of these I played with one in a store (same product but $40 more) and they seem like a good way to burn off steam at the same time as getting some exercise in.
Rationing is the first thing, it has to happen in any system where it's all free and no one apparently pays.
ReplyDeleteI hope things are getting better, Doom. Don't give up!
ReplyDeleteD.C.,
ReplyDeleteBP, rested, gets to 140's/90's (assuming I do not have to argue with the secretary about seeing someone after I had been told to come in). So, yes, a lot better bp than on soda, and without the risks of diabetes. When I talked about a 20 ounce diet, I meant mostly water.
Even having cut back on the medicine (both accidentally since I am not with it and on purpose as to my intentions), I am having a heck of a time getting back on my feet. It may be that the stresses involved with buying a house are making recovery more difficult. Or, just being on the medicines makes recovery much more difficult.
Double-Minded Man,
I like the idea. Plus, you could print out the face of your mostest worstest nemesis and put in on the bag! I have not added an ounce to my weight, but then I haven't lost any more weight either. I want to gear up for this summer, so I can actually get out and hike this year, maybe do some camping.
MK,
This isn't so much rationing as it is avoiding giving me something that actually fixes the problem. They WANT to keep me sick, I swear it. They would rather have me die than get better. THAT, my friend, IS socialism at work. It is the same idea of job protection that has murdered the US auto industry... now in medicine.
Oh Jean,
I am holding on and trying to push on through. Some days I can't seem to feel my fingers, but I have fallen or given up. I just don't always know it.
*chug-a-chug-a-chug-a*
Don't you quit or get silly either. :p
Hello, Doom.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a LONG while since I've stopped by. Anywhere. I'm in the hospital so much I've more or less moved here since last March. Between being unconscious, sleeping, nurses fussing about, and having computer issues, it's been difficult to keep up. I figure that of all people you can understand that and not take it personally. It certainly isn't.
I don't know the chain of Medicine Events behind your current problems. But the other commenters seemed to leave very good advice.
It's very hard to be patient when the docs act like such uncaring jerks. I've been very lucky: there are enough docs on my plan that I can usually *fire* a jerk, and try someone else. Is that possible for you?
Anyway: jerks and side effects and sickness notwithstanding, I'm very glad to see you're still with us and still posting. That's quite impressive, Doom.
K!
ReplyDeleteAgain, K! If anyone has any reason to complain about medical situations than I, it is you!
Now, don't get me wrong, but... Those who have terminal illness are actually better off (in these ways). There is a definite (or more so) end date. People understand a bit better, it's terminal you know (to include doctors, who can seem to blame us for not simply getting better I guess). And if they are a bother, it is fairly short term.
Still, I would rather live to die another day. *laughs* I just get a little jealous of those "other" ill people. Enough with the antics.
It is very good to hear from you! We have been wondering and worrying. I know Desert Cat has been prowling the mind and soul works regarding you. You have certainly been on my mind and in my prayers. It is so good to hear from you. I wish we had a better way to contact you once in a while. You are precious.
I am sorry for the lateness of this reply. I am fighting to keep up on the house buying business, and not doing well. Tuckered out and done in, but not quitting. But in the meanwhile, other things slip... You know...
Thanks for stopping by! You brightened the eyes of this ogre for sure!