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I couldn't get to bed until just about 4:00. I woke at 10:00, so all is good, for now. I'm not even sure why this happened. I've been eating well, sleeping well for the most part, and I have been (comparatively) active. When I can't think of something to do, my mother finds something. And, really, I have not had any difficulty doing a task she sets for me. No hassles, no troubles, no sass. Hopefully, tonight, I will sleep earlier.

I will be looking for tickets on the first. I want to see what the prices are, probably higher as we will be doing this on shorter notice. She is quite ready to go home I do believe. She likes a break from "back there" and "all that", but just a break. Soon enough out here becomes "all that". :) I keep probing for some gift, though actually I think I found it. She talked about it when she arrived, then quickly tried to get me to forget. A rice cooker. I will have to look through some cooking supply sources I have, check some reviews, and find the one that I think is long last, but more important for her, is easy to use and makes the best rice. Ease of use, to be honest, is paramount. If it takes an engineering degree to use, she won't use it (neither would I, to be honest, if the level of complexity I can bear is a bit more, it is not by all that much). Oh, and clean-up being a snap. If it is tre$-chic$, it will be her Christmas present as well. If not, I'll have to bug her for something else she might want. Bah! It's not even that she won't say, sometimes. But I have to have my hearing, not my "uh-huh", ears on when she does mention something.

I am going to finish a bit of painting today. She also wants to paint my side garage door. My place is in good shape. I may buy foods that are easy to prepare for a while, as my ability to get to things is still hampered. While I have done well with my mother here, she has been very lenient. And, to be honest, I needed that. I have been back and forth on whether the medicine plays a roll in my recent decline. And though I know the heat was a big problem, as things have cooled off I realize that has not been the whole of it. The medicines are definitely beating me up as we are ratcheting them up. I went ahead and went back to full doses of the main one (the one I had cut). But still, that is only half of where they want it! I may simply try to bite the bullet and live on extreme margins. But I will have to let them know that the stuff might end up seeing me more or less zombified. In such a condition, taking medicine, eating, drinking right, and caring for myself will suffer hugely, perhaps to the point where it simply doesn't work at all. Their choice. I want no recrimination should that happen, we will simply have to figure things out once I figure out I have slipped over that line.

That we are on the right track is a good thing. Whether we can go far enough with it is a whole other question. If we can't, I will live on the edge of extinction until I finally simply go extinct. Yeah, it is that thin. I don't like it, but what is to do about it but to... take a few risks, whichever way I can, or must.

A bit more waking to do, then on to painting. Have a great day.