Frustration.

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Sleep came late.  It was difficult to finally crawl into bed.  Sleep did come swiftly though.  Waking this morning was just as difficult as getting to bed.  Whether it was 10:00 or 11:00 is lost to memory fog.  Very little, if anything, will go forward today.  It seems that the medicine or physical changes the medicine is producing are taking their toll again.  Still, with blood pressure having dropped 50 systolic and 64 diastolic in a week there should be some understanding that capacity would be diminished.  While those number still need to come down, say, 40 systolic and another 20 diastolic, stable function may not happen until the fall in blood pressure stabilizes.  It is frustrating waiting for that to happen. 

Sassy seems a bit off her feed.  She does eat some, and seems to beg for more, but will eat little when it is offered.  She is the big wet cat food eater.  So dry food just isn't that appealing to her if she will eat some of it.  Lately that has been almost all she is eating, but more at her normal dry food levels.  The wet cat food is the same brand of food she has been eating almost since she arrived.  The packs come with three different flavors, and the packs themselves vary in flavor and texture.  It isn't for lack of variety.  She isn't starving, she just isn't eating like she did.  Then again, she isn't a kitten anymore.  As temperatures rise, perhaps she is less inclined to eat as much?  But why the mewling?

The thought of getting to work is a cocnstant.  And while some work will be done, actual harder work, such as digging, sees to complete exhaustion in minutes.  It is difficult to keep goals in mind when nothing serious is able to go forward.  Time is being lost in fog, along with intent and will.  Even visiting my friend sees to utter exhaustion.  The shower, grooming, and dressing pretty much takes all the energy available and that only trickles back enough to get out just a bit.  The notion, for today, if something can be done, is to get to the store sometime this evening.  Just a bit of shopping, some easy foods, milk, a few containers, cat food, and a few other odds and ends.  Tonight, tomorrow... sometime soon, the store.  Frustration.