Slowly shifting.

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An extra hour of sleep last night.  As well, I was awake later than I thought I would be.  I didn't actually go to bed until 16:00 or 17:00, maybe a little past that last.  When I am pushing through it is difficult to know.  I set the alarm for 3:00.  If, as usual, hoping to wake before the alarm.  I woke at 1:00 but was able to rest for another hour.  I like the pace days are coming back around.  A bit at a time.  If I can push through, and tolerate the body aches and headaches, that is fine.  If I can, then I prefer a nice slow glide from one schedule to the next.  This glide path is about as perfect as I could create.  The only problem is that it is quite slow.

Today?  Not much.  A few bits of this and that around the cave.  Another shower.  Showers are so very nice when you get get to them.  I've had one, pretty much daily, for the last four or five days.  While I seem to be fading, as to energy levels, I almost feel as if I have bottomed out.  I haven't hit the deepest depth, it's more as if I landed on a plateau.  So, before I go further into the abyss, or maybe to kickstart a climb back up, I am going to marshal my reserves and try to put them to some use.  It's a silly game.  But it's all I have.

I have even been tracking days and dates the last little bit.  They aren't excessively important to someone like me.  Weekday, weekend, business hours, or not... that is the sum of my need to know any of it.  Christmas, Thanksgiving, the 4th of July, and birthdays... all... interchangeable as to their given, and celebrated days.  The only thing that might, on rare occasions, involve me, is whether my bank is closed, or if stores are closed, or such.  This, to a greater extent, hasn't changed from before I was ill, mind you.  In the service, and before, these things just weren't a part of my personal experience.  If not for family members who looked forward to, and tracked these things, or friends in the service, these times could have come and gone without me realizing, mostly.  It's just not in my nature.  Still, I enjoy when included.

I am hoping to do a bit today, then get out tomorrow.  I do need to get fresh gas, groceries, and some other things.  I don't know if it will be a long, extra cold, or otherwise hard winter.  I haven't seen, or felt, signs.  I've been too limited to being inside the sphere of self.  Though those aren't always right anyway.  It doesn't matter, though, in truth.  Long, short, extra cold, slightly warm, winter is simply hard.  I can't always get out when I have the ability, which limits things on top of them already being limited.  So, I best restore low stocks, stock up on a few other things, and take care sooner rather than later.

Hmm... the new pot of coffee should be ready.  A few hours of tinkering, reading, music, and thought should see me to something by 5:00 or 6:00.  I am rinsing quinoa, getting it ready for "lunch".  I have some hamburger thawed, and a corned beef if I need cabbage, carrots, and potatoes for that last.  Hamburger and quinoa, with cheese and a bit of spice, makes for a mild but pleasant and filling meal.  Fresh onions chopped and cooked with it, or just put on top, would be better.  But it will do as is.

Later.