The pan and life.

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I actually crashed while the pan was cooling.  I ran it as hot as my oven would go for two hours.  Then I was supposed to let it cool in the oven.  After I turned off the oven I had to go to bed.  I really wanted to look, but I didn't want to risk a chance.  When I woke, my head wasn't quite on straight.  I knew there was something or other.  I think the girls woke me.  When a delivery man arrives, they can get into a panic, begin chasing around and knocking into things.  Today they knocked over an empty kitchen sized trash can.  Nothing in it, as mentioned, still it made a bit of noise.  I think that is what woke me.  After I saw what had happened I checked the door.  The pants from Duluth Trader are in.  I haven't tried them for size yet.  I sure hope these fit, as there isn't a tweener size, and these would be too small if anything, the others were really too big.  Perhaps they were made on a pattern for jeans, but the material doesn't shrink when washed?  Dunno.  Love the pants, if they fit.

Ah, right.  Like I mentioned, my head was not on my shoulders right, first thing.  Between being half awakened by cat malfeasance, then with that drawing me to something else, and that all leading my mind in a whole other direction on a number of topics, I forgot about the pan.  But not for long.  Oh, the bladder was reminding me of something.  Go, go, go.  It would not shut up until I took it for a walk.  A pleasure, of course, but a nag is a nag.  Finally, head and bladder cleared, thought processes back to nil, a moment of quiet, and... I about jumped to go check on the pan.

It looks good.  The bottom inside of the pan might be a little tacky.  Though I wondered.  Even though I heated the pan and the tallow on it on the stovetop first, then wiped it as clear and clean as I could, I suspected there would be some puddling in the basin.  Hmm... when I do the other pan, I will probably put foil on the rack below and turn the pan upside down.  That'll fix that.  Still, all in all, it has a good look to it.  Before long I will be testing it on some egg concoction.  Actually, probably far on into the night, for lunch or dinner.  If all is well, I may begin with the other pan.  Yep, this is how it is done.  I hope.  Actually, I am thinking egg fried rice.  I'll need to make more rice if I am out, but that is no problem.

Today?  I don't know.  Mostly just killing time as I shift my days and nights.  I have plans for tomorrow, but that didn't make sense for today, since bread isn't available.  I do look over things financial, from time to time.  I recently used my credit card.  Then started paying it down.  However, I wanted it paid off quicker, so triple timed it.  Which means I have two months on that and then I will probably add to my house payment even more.  Oh, and I seem to have home depot on my pay list but have no debt to them.  I need to figure out which bank has them on auto and turn that off.  I should probably check bills, I think or or two always goes off the rails from time to time.  Best check things again... next time each bill comes in.  Putting the collection somewhere I will remember.  Bleh.

Not bad for a mostly dead guy, really.  Especially one off all medicines.  Though it is much easier to muddle through knowing that there is a path to a bit more function, or at least form.  I might not be able to reach it now, or ever, but I do know what the problem is and how to solve some of it.  Thus I can endure without... losing my grip completely.  Healer, heal thyself.  Later.