I wonder and sometimes worry. Herein lie those ponderings with perhaps some editing but still in their truer forms. Whisper as well, though in truth, whispers are just that, rustlings in the wind and nothing more. It is kind to not be alone with one's own whispers.
Of course. The first one is not true, and the second one, if it is true on his side, is worse. Terrible is love. Can't win for losing. Hope, faith, and charity, even true and pure... To turn away from it, however, is to sin against the Spirit. Maybe even the Holy Spirit. Though you didn't, so... Still, there is always the price. Even giants are small in certain worlds and walks. Ah, but there is a payoff. Sleep, to be sure, when you can't see it.
About the first one being false? I mean... she not only is lying about going with him, she knows it. Women lie all the way to the alter, just hoping he doesn't change his mind. You know much, but not enough, if you are wise? :p
Oh. Exactly. And you haven't always been happy about it. Even from the start you knew that program was not prefect. Better than other options? Sure, but that isn't always the point, is it now? Not for those who only know instant gratification. Having gone celibate, and remained so faithfully for... ten, twelve, years, give or take change... it's as close as I'll get but it's something.
... was this before I remembered her? Though, I think I began remembering her in stages. I can't remember when I finally accepted her death, the loss. Definitely started by then. But might have forgotten by the time of commenting. Seemed to want denial. ... Still do.
Yup, that's about the time I hit the sack.
ReplyDeleteOf course. The first one is not true, and the second one, if it is true on his side, is worse. Terrible is love. Can't win for losing. Hope, faith, and charity, even true and pure... To turn away from it, however, is to sin against the Spirit. Maybe even the Holy Spirit. Though you didn't, so... Still, there is always the price. Even giants are small in certain worlds and walks. Ah, but there is a payoff. Sleep, to be sure, when you can't see it.
ReplyDeleteAbout the first one being false? I mean... she not only is lying about going with him, she knows it. Women lie all the way to the alter, just hoping he doesn't change his mind. You know much, but not enough, if you are wise? :p
ReplyDeleteI know what it takes to be with the same man for decades.
ReplyDeleteOh. Exactly. And you haven't always been happy about it. Even from the start you knew that program was not prefect. Better than other options? Sure, but that isn't always the point, is it now? Not for those who only know instant gratification. Having gone celibate, and remained so faithfully for... ten, twelve, years, give or take change... it's as close as I'll get but it's something.
ReplyDelete... was this before I remembered her? Though, I think I began remembering her in stages. I can't remember when I finally accepted her death, the loss. Definitely started by then. But might have forgotten by the time of commenting. Seemed to want denial. ... Still do.
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