Up and at it.

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Not at speed or with gusto, that isn't always required.  Why so rough lately?  Some of it was stress, some of it, now, is returning to medicine.  I have been doing well with medicine, but it does knock me down a peg when starting.  I started with the easy stuff, first, now am on everything and have been for four to five days.  After this trial run I will push for two more weeks on everything but heart medicine (carvadilol) on full dose.  I'm at half dose on that last medicine.  It is a brutal thing to start up.  It's like doubling the choke pull on your pull-starting engines.  It just... bogs down or floods the thing too often.  Engines, hearts or otherwise, really weren't made to be bogged down like that, even if it seems to help.  Until I get used to it, it's... tricky to be functional.  Still, being on the way, after all the fuss and trouble, here and there, is a good thing.

I can tell potassium is in better order.  Other than the greater resistance to function, if that is normal, wanted, and needed at the moment, my health is otherwise shaping back up and well.  I don't quite have the ability to feed easily and well, or I would begin working toward fasting again.  I will hold off fasting until medicines are back on track.  I think that is why I was able to fast initially... everything was in much better order and medicines were regular.  When I fell, for potassium, I lost all forms of order and regularity.  Well, and I had been working hard on top of it.  Just getting back to the start, if not quite there yet.  All good.

I am still keeping a list of things to do.  I'd love to work, and will sooner or later.  With money coming back in I should be able to get back on some other tracks as well.  Still, this month will still be shy, as I catch up on some things that went wrong.  All good, all good.  And, when I have things settled, I will call my brother again.  I need to keep up on that relationship.  Not for money reasons.  I won't ask again.  Not... a judgement.  Just... too complicated and messy.  Still, I don't want to lose a brother for money.  I understand his... situation.  No judgement, just... that is the married life and some other things.  Oh, but he had wanted to buy some steaks, and I don't want to cheat him of that.  :p  Hells yeah.  :)

Well... on to... the day.  Ugh.  Trash and recycling to go out, change the cat litter with that, and a shower.  Anything else I might be able to do is just candy... if I can do those things that is.  Blah!  Good morning and day, at least from these parts.