A few snooze buttons.

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I wish I could say they were just for nostalgia, or even Nostalghia.  That I was in control.  I could not wake easily.  Now, I actually woke at a quarter to three, realized no alarm was set, so set them.  I wasn't sure, by how I was feeling, if I could make the three o'clock set, so also set the fiver.  Up at 3:30, so not bad.

I went to bed at a quarter or less before twenty hundred, but before the hour.  Went to sleep so fast my eyes caught light snapping shut?  It's a story.  My last blood sugar, after nothing nothing for the last four hours was 114, so I hoped this morning would be good.  Nope, it was 167 fasting.  Average is 136, for what that matters.  Pizza has consequences.

Dreams, many.  Just life with women I have known, been with.  The quiet times, working together, talking, playing cards or board games.  No matter what, I am more and more convinced it is always about sex.  Well, and dominance as it pertains to sex.  Always.  I suspect it is even that way with women I won't ever have sex with, at which time it becomes maneuvering for power positions as if, or in theoretical prep.

Women deny it but are the ones who can never set it aside or let it go.  Perhaps it is at least partly, mainly, hindbrain, certainly not all of it.  Always playing, pushing, maneuvering, scheming, plotting, and yet, to their minds, innocent even when, especially when, they are absolutely guilty.  Oddly, only when a woman has become invisible does she begin being more honest.  At that point she has nothing to offer or lose.  Still, I... love the games.  I have certain... advantages.  I definitely cheat.

Hopefully work today.  Friday already?  Oh, I said I would mow.  I'll try to remember to hit that as soon as it seems dry out there.  I actually do enjoy mowing.  With the rider it isn't work, just time.  A shower soon, then bacon and eggs?  Yeah.  Best get medicine down.  It has been a long time since I missed a dose, if I have had to push the spread a few times.  Oh, and it has been a week and more since I needed aspirin?  Wonderful!   I have been so sleepy due to the dark days that I just lost track.

A bit of waking, a shower, giving the laundry a fluff, breakfast, setting up dishes, then the bathroom?  Okies, for a start.  Later.