The first hard morning in a while.

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Ever gone for an extended swim, run, or such when you are out of shape?  Or stretched your routine just enough to dig in?  That whinge in your side that goes deep, when you do it right?  Not the little one which passes almost as soon as you stop, or fully catch your breath, but the one that is going to stay with you a week... you just know from experience?  Right.  Well, that is everything from the ribs down.

Oh, I have definitely had worse.  This almost feels like that gassy bloat, on the medium to high level, but in every organ.  I almost suspect the coconut flour.  Maybe.  My only drawbacks to that suspicion are that the bloat seems to be everywhere (which can be countered by one area actually expanding enough to push into other areas), and that it took so long after the meal to manifest (possibly countered by my not doing anything to place demands on digestion, so it wasn't activated very quickly).

I don't know yet.  After Drano, even so long ago, my body... doesn't react completely normally.  No complaints, just an understanding.  I think, if it isn't sure about something, it quarantines it.  Really really.  I think that is what it is doing.  I sort of know, from experience.  Due to my and other abuses, my body is not my own, and will act in, on, it's own behalf.  I have learned, if I wish to participate, to... acquiesce.  Yes, my body used to be able to shut me out.  What it did on it's own?  I will probably never know, if I think, like any dying animal, it just sought a dark, warm, safe place to hide and curl up.  We have been dying fast most of the last thirty years, after all.

Blood sugar right out of the gate is 178, down five from yesterday morning, which was down seventeen from the previous day, which itself was down five from the day before.  A very solid, steady, decline, with only one reversal since restarting the process, if of only three points.  I'll gladly take it.  I will still have to take 10 cc's unless it drops a lot before breakfast.

Oh, I read or saw somewhere that chia seeds were like soy, anti-androgenic... or worse.  I can't recall the source because I shut it down in fear and loathing.  Believe what you may.  And while I may play a good, or bad, game on the edges, truth is, there is no actual there, there.  So... I was far more disturbed by the notion than you are by my toying.

Eventually I got over my horror and went looking.  I didn't want to quit a good, easy, food... not from one source.  So I went digging.  I checked specific peeps I generally follow, others I suspect are on to something... nothing.  Not involving chia.  So I reverse engineered my searches for phytoestrogens... plant based estrogen... and anti-androgenic foods to avoid (often just as bad for women as men, unless they are post-menopausal, if even that is still debatable).  Nothing, nowhere.  Chia and flax will continue.