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Brutal. Sleeping very long. Snoring? The back of my throat is dry and sore as if I had been snoring. A rare thing, with an easy to sense symptom. It happens when I am tired beyond reason. I was, am still, extremely tired. I kept waking today. Some aspects of flesh and mind had slept enough. More sleep seemed an agony. And, yet, I could not break the spell.
It, from what I could see when finally able to wake, was a fantastic fall day. It seemed more a fond memory of a summer day than harkening to days to come. It would have been a great day to get out. Though from this weather to colder is my element... down to negative twenty, perhaps to negative forty. As long as I can get through the gloom, the weather is mine.
Part of the problem may be that bit extra carvedilol. It may be the straw that broke the camel's back. Though to, it my be blood sugar. Being mostly broke toward the end of this month, and having eaten else, I was down to mre's (meals ready to eat), old soup, and crackers. I controlled it for a bit, but at some point all attempts failed. It has been high the last few days. Today I am back into keto, and dosing, but it will take a while.
I will give the extra carvedilol another week, in case it is diabetes. I was hoping to get two more small tabs in. It might not be possible. Got to give it time. This stuff does work, if at a cost. I am doing what I can. Perhaps missing perfection, but that isn't available even to angels or saints.
My brother called today. Since I have figured out controls for my phone, which excludes non-contacts from ringing through, and to keep myself available to calls/texts for help, my phone is with me when sleeping in the day. I like being more available. I was a bit worried about him. He might have thought I had blown him off recently, rather than just be tired lately. I'll try to keep more in touch. Oh, now to figure out how to get it to shut off at night and turn on in the morning.
I do my best. I'll keep at it. Later.
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