So very difficult.

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Just waking was nearly impossible, again.  The extra blankets are wonderful.  It just... they don't matter.  Sleep is deeper, better, though.  But that doesn't seem to be the problem.  I'll keep working on it.  I'll quit when I'm dead... in theory.  If in purgatory again, not yet through, in truth.  Aiming just a wee higher, now that I know, though... as well as I am able.  Being mostly dead truly makes getting to church more regularly, and doing other things in a timely matter, more... difficult.  I can't even wake up well, every day.  Certainly not in a timely fashion.  The Lord does know.

Ducks are out, but they really didn't want to go out.  Odd.  It's a bit cloudy, or was that just smoke from California, or a mix?  I wasn't awake enough to really quite sort things out.  The girls were then fed.  I have a few other things to do today.  Hopefully finishing the dishes, cleaning some counters, and... I don't know.  So very tired, sore, weak, ill, odd.  Those things aren't a problem... unless they are.  I try to ignore and work beyond them, when possible.

Oh, parts for a hobby have arrived.  Having hands that are massive, if small for my size, makes finding thimbles nigh on impossible.  So, while investigating other things, I ran across an idea... which pleased... promised... a hope.  Leather thimbles.  Still, I looked those up for purchase.  Between the notion of making my own and buying, I... think I hit something I like better.  Buying such, but with metal plates, so the leather won't wear so quickly.  It will be too small, but!... if I remove the stitches, and add a bit of leather, I could get the best of both worlds.  Expensive?  Yes.  But... it is a once or actually twice thing.  I bought two, so that I can have a spare.  I might even buy a few more, in time.  I... like having spares.

In a month or two, I am hoping to buy materials in order to make a custom shirt.  She is making it for a woman, but it is actually a man's shirt.  I'd like to have several shirts like this.  I think I can.  Further, this is a starter hand-sewing idea, and the notions are rather simple.  I would probably want these lined, and use them more for winter wear.  Oh, yes, I really think I could.  I am guessing I could kick out three or four in a few weeks to a month, and improve the design as I go.  I definitely got better just sewing the pockets on the pj's.

Oh, by the way, one of the pj's pockets needs resewn.  I... bungled.  I may have written about it.  Oh well, live and learn.  I realize the limits of bungling though.  I'll resew them shortly.  Beyond getting leather scraps and a leather sewing kit, I actually purchased what are supposed to be better needles, several brands and sizes.  They aren't terribly expensive, but they... can be a bit more difficult to find.  I will be trying those on the pj pocket, and perhaps looking for other tasks.  Oh, and I should get to darning socks.  Hey, it saves a lot of money.  Those socks cost in the $20's and $30's.  I'd much rather fix than replace.  Will have to see if that feels right, if it's worth the effort, or if replacement is best.  Hmm, might double darn them, if need be.

Anyway...  I do have to wake first.  I am having a difficult time with that.  Later.