I wonder and sometimes worry. Herein lie those ponderings with perhaps some editing but still in their truer forms. Whisper as well, though in truth, whispers are just that, rustlings in the wind and nothing more. It is kind to not be alone with one's own whispers.
Tuesday, November 30, 2021
A second meal, that is all.
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Started stumbling. Into sleep. Couldn't push much more. Gamed, with timers, attempting to... do something. I was done back then, just didn't know it. Bedtime. Goodnight. Sleep well, and warm. I'll pray for you... us.
Your prayers must be having an effect as I've been sleeping very well recently. Nighttime temperatures in the mid-to-low 50s produces what is, for me, Excellent Sleeping Weather.
Of course, along with this came interesting dreams. A few nights ago I was being stalked by some sort of killer who kept just at the edge of my vision. Not a nightmare, you understand, but disturbing in a fascinating way (if that could be understood).
My son is working on sending me an upgraded computer, and wants to make certain I have greater than adequate gaming ability. Which now raises the question of what games to indulge in. My preference are point-and-click strategy games, but they don't seem to be as prevalent as they once were (or perhaps I'm looking in the wrong places).
There was that one game I suggested to you. Gosh, but I can't remember. It seemed pretty close to your description, but that having been unplayed. It leaves you as a tyrant, willing or not, good or not, having to make brutal real choices.
Some say it was too depressing. I just suggest most people don't understand the real world, which... fundamentally... IS depressing. I suppose many people have just put blinders on, and don't want to see around them at this point. I suspect, you as I, in our thoughts, hearts, and minds... prefer to know, understand... even when we can't change the nature of the choices and realities? I do. I do. :p
I am replaying an old title I quite enjoy. Didn't think I would, lots of parkour in it. But it actually is amazing, when you let go and... just... GO! Dying Light, if you want the title. More? It's an old game. But? There is a second part coming out this coming February? Assuming it isn't delayed, lost to legal battles, etc, etc, etc. You may not know the modern gaming world, but it has become a pit of snakes.
Now, if you end up liking that game, I might have a few more. There are a few games more like what you like. Civilization series, I think, is still out. And a few more. But they are... morphing. Adding elements from other game genres, and such. Changing.
Actually, if you get your system, I would be willing to purchase Dying Light... the first game... for your perusal. It's... what friends do. Although, if you get hooked, your... sleeping may go out the window. Just replaying, in prep for the new game, has crashed my regular sleep. Just woke at 17:00, give or take. But loving it. The first joys I have had in... months.
I wouldn't mind trying a parkour based game, but I prefer games where I'm not in constant motion and have a moment or two in which to contemplate strategy.
I loved Sid Meier's games (e.g. Civilization, Colonization). Alpha Centauri, though, not too much. Not as much freedom and openness as the others. Dying Light looked very . . . kinetic, and I might give it a whirl (horror based games have really improved over the years. For instance, I'm trying to remember the name of one I saw sometime back which involved the protagonist being in a zombie-infested shopping mall).
On the food front: have you ever tried fish and rice? I've been broiling up tilapia and stirring it into rice. Wonderful.
I love the idea of fish. Everything I can find, that way, in my price bracket, is from China. No thank you. I just... won't. Being in Texas, you may be close enough to the sea... gulf if you must. Here? All Chinese, probably "farmed", using heavy metal laden toxic water, to help clean it up... or just kill people. Never can tell what they really are after.
And, rice? Beside it being mostly toxic laden, it's high carb. I didn't believe, until I did. And, when people say, how can they eat it and be okay? I just say... take a good look at the people who eat a lot of rice. The Japanese and Chinese? Look at their populations, the trends. And, take a closer look at their health. No thank you.
Now, if I could find tilapia I could trust? Okay. Tested for heavy metals and toxins? US wild caught, farming even in the US is questionable. Sure. But I don't think I can afford it.
The funny thing is, all that said, it is tempting. I... just don't think so. I have found sources for fish I trust, but as mentioned, I can't afford it. Though shipping is part of the problem.
Your prayers must be having an effect as I've been sleeping very well recently. Nighttime temperatures in the mid-to-low 50s produces what is, for me, Excellent Sleeping Weather.
ReplyDeleteOf course, along with this came interesting dreams. A few nights ago I was being stalked by some sort of killer who kept just at the edge of my vision. Not a nightmare, you understand, but disturbing in a fascinating way (if that could be understood).
My son is working on sending me an upgraded computer, and wants to make certain I have greater than adequate gaming ability. Which now raises the question of what games to indulge in. My preference are point-and-click strategy games, but they don't seem to be as prevalent as they once were (or perhaps I'm looking in the wrong places).
There was that one game I suggested to you. Gosh, but I can't remember. It seemed pretty close to your description, but that having been unplayed. It leaves you as a tyrant, willing or not, good or not, having to make brutal real choices.
ReplyDeleteSome say it was too depressing. I just suggest most people don't understand the real world, which... fundamentally... IS depressing. I suppose many people have just put blinders on, and don't want to see around them at this point. I suspect, you as I, in our thoughts, hearts, and minds... prefer to know, understand... even when we can't change the nature of the choices and realities? I do. I do. :p
I am replaying an old title I quite enjoy. Didn't think I would, lots of parkour in it. But it actually is amazing, when you let go and... just... GO! Dying Light, if you want the title. More? It's an old game. But? There is a second part coming out this coming February? Assuming it isn't delayed, lost to legal battles, etc, etc, etc. You may not know the modern gaming world, but it has become a pit of snakes.
Now, if you end up liking that game, I might have a few more. There are a few games more like what you like. Civilization series, I think, is still out. And a few more. But they are... morphing. Adding elements from other game genres, and such. Changing.
Actually, if you get your system, I would be willing to purchase Dying Light... the first game... for your perusal. It's... what friends do. Although, if you get hooked, your... sleeping may go out the window. Just replaying, in prep for the new game, has crashed my regular sleep. Just woke at 17:00, give or take. But loving it. The first joys I have had in... months.
I wouldn't mind trying a parkour based game, but I prefer games where I'm not in constant motion and have a moment or two in which to contemplate strategy.
ReplyDeleteI loved Sid Meier's games (e.g. Civilization, Colonization). Alpha Centauri, though, not too much. Not as much freedom and openness as the others. Dying Light looked very . . . kinetic, and I might give it a whirl (horror based games have really improved over the years. For instance, I'm trying to remember the name of one I saw sometime back which involved the protagonist being in a zombie-infested shopping mall).
On the food front: have you ever tried fish and rice? I've been broiling up tilapia and stirring it into rice. Wonderful.
I love the idea of fish. Everything I can find, that way, in my price bracket, is from China. No thank you. I just... won't. Being in Texas, you may be close enough to the sea... gulf if you must. Here? All Chinese, probably "farmed", using heavy metal laden toxic water, to help clean it up... or just kill people. Never can tell what they really are after.
ReplyDeleteAnd, rice? Beside it being mostly toxic laden, it's high carb. I didn't believe, until I did. And, when people say, how can they eat it and be okay? I just say... take a good look at the people who eat a lot of rice. The Japanese and Chinese? Look at their populations, the trends. And, take a closer look at their health. No thank you.
Now, if I could find tilapia I could trust? Okay. Tested for heavy metals and toxins? US wild caught, farming even in the US is questionable. Sure. But I don't think I can afford it.
The funny thing is, all that said, it is tempting. I... just don't think so. I have found sources for fish I trust, but as mentioned, I can't afford it. Though shipping is part of the problem.