Ugh.

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Tired.  I think the cold, today, is doubling other troubles.  I am getting used to Sam not being around.  Mostly.  Every once in a while, when I would usually see her, she isn't there.  It gets me.  But, more and more, I am familiarizing myself with the new reality.  Mostly.  Though, even when I understand, it can catch me.  Odd that.

I have gotten used to many pains.  I used to scream, when I would get cramps in my legs.  And clench my teeth.  I learned, first, how to not make a sound.  Just a few nights ago, I had a major cramp in both my upper leg muscle and in my calf, in the left leg, at the same time.  I had probably overdone the waterpills.

The spasms were intense.  I have had worse.  I have had both legs seize, upper and calf, plus my feet twisting, contorting, in pain as well.  Still, this was pretty terrible.  I not only didn't make a sound, I didn't clench my teeth, even for a  second.  I can handle amazing amounts of pain.  I... suppose that is why I thought I could handle Sam's loss easier.  I was wrong.

Sassy is doing well.  I do believe she misses Sam, at least the old Sam, before she got ill.  When she wakes from her naps, she speaks with me.  Or, just because at other times.  I really quite enjoy her newfound voice and interaction.  I chat right back.  Sometimes in conversation, sometimes she just listens.  And, she comes up and sleeps with me a few times each night.  Then goes off and does whatever cats do during the night.  Hunts?  Patrols?  I really am not sure.

Well, if I am going to work, I best get to it.  To the bathroom, for a quick shot, then?  Oh, probably chores first.  Then cleaning the freezer top.  Then dishes.  Hmm, may have to do  waterers before hitting dishes though.  They are in the way.  Then dishes, a break, and then into the bedroom(s), to begin in on boxes.  I can.  I... I can.  I will.  Oh, but to, I think I will dress a bit warmer.  Cold!  Or, not cold, but a few warm days makes normal cool seem frigid.  Weather tease!  Later.