Pain.

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The good kind, but everywhere.  Drowning in it.  Still, something is... improving, getting better.  The pain is a side effect, a symptom, a part of, the improvements.  Getting stronger, but turning to cement in the process.  Losing mobility.  So, when I stretch to do things, I hurt.  Using those freshly minted muscles the requires new nerve connections, which... are painful to set up.  First the pain, then the pain, then the pain, and, finally, in time, perhaps... more function.

In the shape I was in at the start, and where I am at even now, the change has been huge.  I'm nearing geriatric, so it is... difficult.  And it will never make me young.  But it is... an improvement.  At night, while I try to sleep, my body is pushing out every extra ounce of water.  I pee all day, too.  It's just crazy.  But as my body muscles up, tightens, strengthens, it just won't keep water for long.

On the good side, it's not like my bladder has shrunk, or much.  It's just that a still drink a goodly lot, probably in the two gallon range between this and that, and my body doesn't keep any of it anymore.  Still, compression socks, from time to time, helps remind it.  But less often and not as necessary.

I pretty much crashed to bed.  I kept trying to do this, or that, but my mind was not only not here... like a computer on the fritz... working then not.  But something inside was gone.  I couldn't call back the will to consciousness.  I could barely keep my eyes open, and they burned for it.

The work done yesterday was slight.  But that is on top of the repair and recovery that is ongoing.  I am seriously exhausted, just sitting a chair has become a bit of a thing for me.  So, going out and helping load a dumpster to near full?  Yeah, that... added to it.  Then getting to town, even for light business?

Wonderful.  I just hope I can improve quickly.  I... hate being this debilitated.  Even playing my game has become... a... bit of a trick.  It requires will, effort, thought, reaction, reaction speed, things I have having difficulty providing.  Stuck, now, between bosses I can't beat, and bosses I can't even reach!  Ugh.

Breakfast water should be heated.  I'll have corned beef, cabbage, carrots, and new potatoes today.  And, maybe, liver and onion.  Plus salad with each meal.  Oh, my vinaigrettes are delicious, if I do say so myself.  One is plain, but has a touch of spice (needs just a touch more).  The other is a true balsamic.  Top flight, top shelf, and that stuff costs... if you only use a bit on or in anything at a time.  A lot of food, but I... need... things... food... to help build, repair.  Assuming I can get it all made and eaten.  Not something I can promise, just the goal.

Actually, I may put the corned beef to in just a few hours.  It takes a while.  The potatoes go in three quarters of an hour before it is done, the carrots an half hour later, with the cabbage.  Or, that's how I do it.  One of the few times, these days, when I am happy to have have large pots.  May have to make pork meat balls for another veggie soup later this week.  I have so been wanting meaty veggie soup!  I'll get chicken stock out for that.  And, probably another meat.  Maybe a port roast, cut into rounds as well?  Or, chicken, cooked and bone?  I like several meats.  Then the soup will do for several days, perhaps the whole week.  Just keep adding veggies, only adding enough of those for the one meal, two at most.  *drools*

As to work?  A shower, chores, shave... got interrupted yesterday, if I wasn't sure anything was going to actually get done yesterday otherwise?  I can't know, just suspect.  Was moving very very slowly.  Today... I want to push on through.

Oh, setting up some quotes.  For gutters, bats in the belfry, and a sprinkler system.  And arranging for the hydrant to be brought back to function, and getting my water softener checked out.  Not quite... a start on the main works, but a... setup for the beginning of some of the trim.  And the doors have been sealed.  Weather stripping.  Nothing fancy, but a start.

I'd like to keep going with the house, get it ready for an energy audit.  I... may... if the new loan (since it really isn't a loan on the place) goes through, get some cleaning done.  Then see if that can be arranged for ongoing.  Then have people in.  Ugh.  But it... really needs to be done.  I can't keep up.  Though, I really want even more rearranging of the world in here before even that.  But I have to push through this concretification of my body, and get back to work.  Ugh!

Anyway... I am up and thinking, planning, and hoping to eat well today.  Breakfast, first.  Then... gaming.  Then a shower and shave.  And... setting up dishes.  A break, and then to boxes and items and a boxspring.  Bleh.  Have a great day.  Get to it.  Later.