At least there was that.

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The chicken was... okay.  It was edible.  Not tasty, not really juicy, but the way I did it left it moist enough... even the breast meat.  My main problem?  Everything tastes like cardboard.  Meat... chicken, steak, pickled pork, meat sticks.  Tastes like cardboard?  Okay, no?  No... it does.  But there is more to it than that.  It also feels, in my stomach, as if I ate cardboard.  Bread and canned corned beef, I'll bet even sardines... tasting very bland, and feeling like I have what of my stomach I can fill, filled with cardboard.

Why?  I can't say.  No nausea.  There is that.  But there is a sense of hunger.  I WANT to eat, feel full, get nutrients in there.  But it's as if I really don't need it.  Want versus need.  But the want is almost rising the the level of need, just... not an actual nutritional need?  The need to be fed, to eat, not to get vitamins and minerals, fat, protein, and some carbs in.  Though, maybe there is some need for that?

I am taking vitamins and minerals.  While merely supplements, I am not certain food these days has much more.  Meats?  Depending on what they are fed?  Some meats just don't seem to have much to them.  So, maybe I really don't need nutrients.  But I would like to feel full, and more.  To feel sated.  But nothing seems to do that.

I tried pizza not long ago.  Nope.  Burgers.  Nope.  I even tried french fries.  Nope... ate maybe three, or four, and it was less than usual, more like cardboard than anything else.  Same with pizza.  The omelet was good, the other day.  But it is so light.  Not filling.  I just don't quite know what to do.

The old foods I used to love are just too difficult to eat.  They don't satisfy.  But the foods I have come to depend on are only slightly better.  Food just isn't what it used to be.  Which, I think, is a good thing.  The problem is I am, sort of, choking on a non-hunger hunger.  I do think that is a good thing, but it is also a very frustrating thing.

Am I weak for it?  A bit?  Maybe.  Maybe not, though.  That may just be health and age problems.  As I mentioned, I am taking supplements.  Probably taking better nutrition than almost any time I have consumed my nutrients.  In part because my health doesn't support pulling nutrients out of food well.  And, because, a lot of modern food isn't very nutritious.  The soil is used up, the less nutritious ag products are fed to animals, so they have less.  It just sort of goes around in a downward spiral.

Remember all of those civilizations which disappeared.  Seemed to be thriving, built major cities, temples, and more.  Lived well for hundreds, some suggest thousands, of years.  Then, one day, they... just failed.  I do wonder if we are closing on such an event.  No, it wouldn't be the final one.  But it could be another massive one.  Only, this time, it would be the whole of the world, as we know it.

At least the coffee, and tea, taste good.  I enjoy those a bit.  But wouldn't want to have more than one, or two if pushing it, a day.  Though I may just have to get my calories through the fatted coffee.  For now?  I just don't know what to eat.  I'll have a few more meat sticks, as bland as they are.  Low carbs, reasonable fat and protein.  I can only eat three at a time, usually.

If you can think of anything that might be edible, and keto or carnivore, I'm all ears.  Such a hankering for something... good... filling... tasty.  

Oh, I got the second to the last boss in Elden Ring and the dlc.  One final boss.  I got it solo, this time.  I've been trying, solo, for some time.  No one seems to offer help on that one.  Now, I can find help on the final boss, but none successful at helping.  They only last half to two thirds, then that boss absolutely destroys me... if he doesn't take me out fast first anyway.

On the good side, I think I have pretty much done everything else in the game I want to do, otherwise.  If I can sort this final boss out, I can restart and new game plus.  More to obtain a few things, tinker around in the harder game, but having done everything already.  So... yeah.

Later.  Or good night.