A literal heart sandwich.

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Beef heart.  Not as strong as beef live?  Similar of flavor, just milder.  What it lacks in raw flavor, for good or ill depending on your tastes, it makes up for in texture.  It has a more solid bite to it.  You have to overcook liver to get almost any substantative texture.  It is filling.  Though so is liver, kidneys, and else.  Something about their natures?  Higher fat content?

A fatted coffee, several waters, and maybe something more, in a bit.  I'd really like more to eat, but that, so far, is as much as I can do.

I did check my blood sugar, before starting in on anything.  Happily, supprisingly, it was down to 103.  That's... good, very good.  While I am still extremely insulin resistant, so anything even slightly sweet will drive my blood sugar to the moon, I recover much faster.

I know.  In a bit, if I don't crash, I will heat salami and cheese!  Can't eat that every day, or even often.  But it is very good from time to time.  As well, I'll have tea.  I finally broke down and bought a double walled insulated tumbler.  It is keeping the coffee warm, tea next.  Misso later?

Mother recently made keto pumpkin cream cheese cake.  Me?  Dubious.  Me?  Right, at first.  They initially tasted... dusty, musty, mushy.  Me?  Also wrong.  Altogether.  They melded into a very nice taste, given a day to rest.  Further?  They don't crash my blood sugar, not even a little spike.  I ate four of them one day, right away, all at once.  Not even a little bump.  Finishing the last two.

At least I admit my doubts, but too my gratitude.  Admitting easily, happily, when wrong.  She knows I am a doubter.  But she also knows I'll run with an idea... her's, mine, someone else's.  And just find out.  Just because I knock you, me, her, for fafo?  That's... a pleasure, and pain, of life.  Give it your best shot, do your best, and live with the good and bad!  Amen.

I suspect, between her and myself, we will end up trying many things.  If she uses a mix of allulose and sucralose, I will try her apple creations.  The sweetening mix indicated, rightly portioned, lowers my blood sugar.  Hmm, an example?  You'd need to work your own recipe, but for a quart(ish) of fatted coffee... I mix about two thirds quart of hot coffee, a quarter to full cup of whole cream, two flat teaspoons of allulose, and three to five drops of liquid sucralose.  Variances for daily preferences.  If I was still a drinker, a splash of vodka, whisky, or scotch would do nicely.

That will lower (usually) fasting (or other actually) blood sugar by a few to ten, even twenty, points.  Why?  How?  Don't know, mildly care.  But it's not in my ability to test through to knowing... or to more strongly surmising.

Monday?  So many things on the list.  If... I can get to things.  More sleep, soon?  Or just pushing through?  Ugh.  Later.  Or good night.  God bless, in any case.