Better, again.

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Still with a foot and a half in the grave, mostly just exhaustion from the harrowing numbers and, to me, cold.  It's been in the mid to high 40s, even 50, lately, for highs, outside.  Relatively warm, blistering for February.  But, up here, inside, it seems frigid.  Usually I mostly sleep through this season, but mom won't have it... mostly for the better, unless that kills me.  It might be?

A bloody nose nearly all of yesterday.  The first one in months, and the worst in years.  A sign or fluke though?

Blood sugar finally dropped to 101 fasting.  I have been avoiding anything I am unsure of, or anything even slightly pontentially a problem.  Yes, type II diabetes is absolutely a choice.  A painful choice, either way.

BP is 125/88, was 125/85 this morning.  Without medicine from the time it caused the serious crash.  With medicine being extremely active lately, I am taking just a few days off.  As well, in the short run, when I restart it, my titration tiers are changing.  At less than 120/80, nothing.  At 120/80 to 150/90 one half a carvedilol.  And so on, adding half a tab every 25/10 levels higher.

I didn't miscalibrate, the old way.  It's just that, for a while, that is what was working?  Or did I get confused?  All I am sure about is that my bp is a moving target and medication seems to change in it's efficacy.  Either manufacturing is questionable (made in China, duh), and/or my body has variability for fasting, or dietary issues I don't quite understand.  Ugh.  But... I adjust and keep at it.  Suffering fast slides from time to time.

Diarrhea still?  More just gassy lately.  But, still, I find myself running to the bathroom far too frequently, usually for gas.  Usually.  Even so, I can't risk it.  At least I can make it on time.  I have vastly cut down on gum.  And am adding kefir.  Though initial startips of kefir, especially as it matures, can cause that.  I just don't know, with so many issues at once.

Sleep is way off, needing eighteen to thirty hours?  If typical for winter?  Lack of hunger?  Lack of thirst?  Diarrhea?  High bp, and extreme sensitivity to bp meds?  Higher blood sugar, I am just cracking after a week or two of efforts?  Something is off.  Too much at once to be coincidental.  But... what?

Whatever.  Things are improving.  I just need to rest back up.  Stress?  Maybe.  Now to rest and keep working on improving.