Tricks, tracks, and rhythm.

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Way too many things on my plate.  A few slim things done.  Plans and ideas haunt my sleeping and waking hours... even those... moments... seemingly interminal periods of indeterminate time when I can't be certain if I am awake or asleep, or neither in some off odd form of reality... or both?  No rest for the wicked?  If true, even less so for those who attempt life in light.  Though, at least with the light?  The suffering is a grace, rather than simple misery.  Or... so I believe.  As I personally understand things.

Recently, I had an appointment.  With the kidney clinic.  Apparently the V.A. allotment had lapsed.  Which means, without fast arrangements, I may be charged.  Their office moved.  And, in there, something was missed.  Or they sent something to me, that I didn't understand, respond correctly, or such?

I explained what kind of physical shape I am in, and said I have serious limits... as to form, function, and ability to stay on top of these things.  The lady seemed... more motivated to assist.  At first, it didn't sound like they were going to even try to help.  After?  Maybe.  She sounded motivated to at least try.

As well, the insurance?  The one I was told was canceled, but wasn't (or not completely, as I had been told)?  So I got insured elsewhere, while they stealth (re?)-instated the auto portion?  Have been charging me?

I was working with a woman on that.  Couldn't load a link, or print what she sent.  Received a physical form, so filled that out.  Not from her, as it turned out.  So, a new woman called, but wanted information I had already submitted to the other woman!

No!  So, I called the first woman, explained my condition, and else.  Begged not to be requirdd to have to make another trip for the same information, and sort who to have it sent to, and else.  She, too, took pity, dug in, and seems to be handling it.

But, gee, everything seems to be falling, tripping, causing me to have to call, sort, beg mercy, push, and use energy and focus which I simply don't have.  Exhausted beyond measure.  But, the time sensitive issues have been sorted?  The... ones I know, remember.

Now some rest, sleep, a mix of those.  Then... back to home chores, efforts, and such.

It is warming up.  A good thing, if too I need to get ac installed.  Or it becomes an uncontrolled tumble.  Heat, cold, anything in excess, these days, is just too much.  I need bland, plain, simple, steady.  I can have the alternatives, I just suffer more terribly for it.

Later.