My bad.

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I forgot to turn the heat up.  If that wasn't all of it.  The diuretics were releasing fluid, but seem to be releasing more.  While I have only lost, probably, nearing thirty pounds, it looks like I lost more.  My torso was backed up.  Today I have consumed one small meal, the last few days I have eaten, to be honest, light.  And, yet, I have gone about six times, plus the standing job about a dozen times in the day, four more through the night, and for the last two days solids, the last four liquids.

It isn't liquid, so not sickness.  Some of it may be getting back to keto.  High fat, high fiber, on top of more fluid and added diuretics.  My eldest cat, Sam, has taken over one of the towel drawers.  Usually sleeps soundly, ignoring me.  The last few days, when I go in and sit, she finds somewhere else to be.  I don't think it's all that bad.  But she has never done that before.  ;p

I think those things, plus not turning the furnace up, have broken my effort so far.  I just raised the temp, am having another fatted tea, and will make the last batch of spaghetti shortly.  Then, hopefully, some work or sleep.  I could probably put up dishes before sleep, if it is headed that way.

Later.

Noon.

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Ducks were fed, Sam allowed out.  Now to actually wake.  I feel, mostly, pretty good.  A bit tired, some aches and pains, but better than most mornings for weeks now?  I think so.  Life is improving.  I am still limited in how much work I can do, and when, but even that is an improvement, and improving.

Dishes from last night will be hit before long.  One of the pots will be used for breakfast.  A roast for supper, and a couple of fatted teas and chia and flax cereal to fill out a sort of lunch/snack... those latter being how I get the fat portions configured.  Until steak is fiscally viable as a near daily driver again, fats have to be consumed this way.

The goal is all washed clothes and dishes put up, the bedroom sorted, and boxes to be broken down at least gathered.  If that gets done, then the bathroom.  Even more?  Then the boxes taken down and some sorting in the living room.  I doubt if I will make it out of the bedroom, but who knows.  Seriously, sometimes I just get second, third, and fourth winds.  I want direction, a plan, just in case.  I have lost that drive to not having goals before, quite frustrating.  I'll save putting up storage systems for tomorrow.  Probably.

Oh, trash.  I doubt if I have more than three smaller bags.  Perhaps a bag or two outside already?  Doubtful.  I think it is recycling day?  I think I do have two bags out there, maybe one to take out.  Yeah, easy enough.  A few garbage cans will need bags added.  No real heavy work this time.  Stay on top, easy to keep up.

Swimming tomorrow.  I will shower at the pool, before and after, so no need shower at home.  That isn't unfairly taking advantage, it is what most pools prefer.  It cuts cleaning expenses much more than it costs.  I am a bit nervous.  It's been a while, new pools, and, well, people... mostly naked people.  *grins*  Later.

To bed it is.

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The only thing I will do is set the dishes up, and put the last of the sauce away.  Well, brushing teeth as well.  Crashing hard.  It's half of each thing hoped, earlier to bed if not the earliest, but with little done.  Good night.

Right at 20:00.

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Similar to last night, I think?  Perhaps a little earlier.  Waking was easier and brighter.  I mean, when I put my feet to the floor this evening I was vastly more awake than at least yesterday evening.  I started mushrooms soaking for supper.  Then brushed my teeth... three times a day at least, plus any time before I sleep and whenever I wake.  I poured tea, and may have a fatted tea.

I have been eating wrong.  Beside beef and beans, I have been having spaghetti and meat sauce.  I may have solved storing homemade sauce, but will finish it off this time. Yes, between the two carby entrees, and constant consumption, my blood sugars are high.  Yeah.  But I have roasts out.  I just put them out for the week after waking.  Another spaghetti meal after this, then roasts or else.

Well, mushrooms are drained, the liquids filtered, and it is nearly time to cook.  Oh, but the sauce needs to be brought to room temp.  Then I will fry the mushrooms in butter, cook the noodles... never mind.  I'll get it done.  The next shower is Monday.  No worries, as I am finally caught up, so washing in the sink.  The tub will always be open.

A fast start.  Not sure how much or fast after.  Dishes and laundry put away, the bed and bath rooms receiving what I can offer.  I would like to go back to bed as soon as possible.  But if it isn't possible then work.  If neither is possible, then I'll tinker, read, and listen to various sources.  Later.

Crashing.

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This time I saw it coming.  All clothing has been folded or separated in prep for hanging.  Breakfast was had, and dirty dishes are soaking.  No more dishes were put up, but I am good with that.  Absolutely exhausted.  But I am good with that too.  At least I know the time.

It is 17:34.  I'll post this then crash.  Yes, medicine was taken.  Meds have nothing to do with the crash.  I am pretty sure the same as with yesterday.  I took the meds well after I realized I was about to crash, just as I am about to lay down.  I did well tonight, in not blacking out and simply failing.  I saw it coming, then guided the fall when I realized there wasn't a choice.

I don't mean I literally fell, but I did black out.  I don't remember some period of time, then going to bed.  While I am aware tonight, I won't remember everything when I wake.  How much is difficult to know.  But yesterday I was losing all memory well before this equivalent timespan I am now in.

I don't know if this is it for the night, or if I'll be back up and at it in a while.  I'll be the first to know!  *grins*  So very tired.  Later or good night.

Struggling to work.

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Pushing through pain and exhaustion makes the work more valuable.  Sleepy, lower back pain, and a headache are the main problems.  It would be easier without, but there is something else giving difficulty.  Like an unidentified anchor causing some sort of additional drag against the drives.  Ah!  The furnace wasn't turned up, and socks hadn't been put on.  That isn't all, but those are things I can fix.

I washed all dishes.  The dishes in the sink have been dried, the others are rinsing.  I pulled what was in the dryer, and have those items folded or separated and ready to hang.  When I transferred the clothes from the wash, I put them on fluff, because I wanted to see if a stain had been removed.  I couldn't tell right out of the washer.  It turned out to be good, so I turned the heat up one notch and started it up again.  Fluff simply doesn't work in the winter.

Food was set out to be heated in a bit.  You have to bring leftovers to room temp before trying to heat or it's a struggle.  After the clothes in the dryer are finished and the dishes are completed, I will start a late breakfast.  That pan and eating utensils will go into a hot soak right after.  I'll see if the heat helps.  Perhaps I can do a bit in the bedroom, than kitchen aside from the dishes and laundry.  It sounds like the dryer finished?  If so, I'll check.  I don't think the clothes will be dry.  I'll run it just a bit longer, finish the dishes, start breakfast, then bring the laundry out to be managed.

I may end up to bed early tonight.  Later.
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Actually, all of it is already done?  Right?  Well, dinner is heating.  After dinner, a long break.  Then putting up the last of the dishes, then clothes, then hitting the bedroom.  If I find a good place to stop in there, I may hit the bathroom.  As is, all dishes are washed, all laundry is done, if that will change when I change bedding.  The cave is starting to slowly shape up.

I am amazed at what is being done.  Dinner bell, maybe...

What?

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Well, yes.  To bed at 2:00, up at 11:30.  I hit things right away this morning.

Laundry was given a final spin, to make sure it is dry.  I put a load in really late.  It will be switched shortly.  Then I drained the dishes, showered, and put them back for a final soapy soak.  As well, I finally have one of the kitchen sinks clean and open, so started dinner cookware and else in there last night.  When I put up the last of the clean dishes, the other kitchen sink will be open.  Then, if I can keep up, I won't need to wash dishes in the bathroom.  To many dishes and there isn't much choice.

Why would I think I could keep up?  Medicine is back on tap, health has improved, spring and summer are approaching, and just a gut feeling.  All of that has started a mild morning headache.  With it is nausea.  A dose of tea might help.  I will bring clothes to fold out shortly.  Put the wash to dry.  Then set the alarm for two hours, hit the dishes, possible give laundry a final spin, fluff or heat depending on need.

I don't know about more.  But there is hope.  Going through swimwear, setting up the swimming duffel, do some sorting in the bedroom and living room, cleaning the bathroom, and maybe setting up a computer.  Some, all, none?  I'll know when I get there.  I'd like to sleep earlier, but cool downs take as long as they take, food does it's thing, and slowing down work when the getting is good is difficult.  I do as I may.

Meds are in.  I am extending the additional water pills.  I have probably dropped twenty pounds in water, have about that much more to go.  Yeah, I had been missing meds.  Breathing is better, activity is still tough but improving, and internal pains are much eased.  Yea.  Later.

Definitely medicine.

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Starting full dose, and then some, is making life tight.  I just couldn't sort the night out.  I cycled laundry.  That was it.

The extra water pill is doing it's thing, to great relief.  The lungs are still waterlogged, if improving.  As well as the torso.  Voiding two thirds the usual volume at two to three times the frequency.  I am definitely feeling better if I have a way to go.  No worries.  I definitely hit it when I can.  And I'll be back at it soon.

I would like a bit more to eat, then back to bed.  I hope to be back at it tomorrow.  Feeling better, just sluggish from jumping to full doses.  Yeah.  Oh yeah.  There is more to it all than meets the eye.  Oh... yeah.  Good night.

I crashed.

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No solid idea when I fell, or for that matter when I woke.  After 14:00, but how many hours after did I fall?  It is 20:30, but I was awake for some time, then made supper.  I have taken all medication, took it before falling asleep.  I suspect, because of that, it was after 16:00.  It's just how I think, if there is time.  I would have, if cognizant, wanted meds in in case I went down for the night.  I don't remember thinking that, this time.  It's just a general rule.  I remember nothing after milk arrived at around 14:00?  Give or take.

I made dinner, finished it at least half an hour ago.  The pans are soaking.  I still plan to finish my work schedule, from laundry to dishes, to my room and the bathroom.  Yeah.  I want the bathroom open for a shower tomorrow.  I'll skip shaving over the weekend.  I'd like to do more, but I am not sure there is enough time for all this.

Dinner was good.  I am hoping to get going in a bit.  It takes a while after a larger meal.  Later.

Accusations?

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The first two arrived last night.  I had to ponder upon them.  The accusations could go a number of ways.  The simplest is what is presumed.  Not all my friends are... simple.  My enemies certainly aren't.  Some of those with whom I progress or digress together with actually can't see the simple.  In various ways Michael, Desert Cat, foamy, and sometimes others.  My enemies avoid the light, if I will call them principals of the Moriarty clan.  Though some are far darker, if a few are far lighter... which is why even those of the host on high will be judged... some will burn.

It could be merely suggesting I am insane.  I have considered the possibility since I was... seven?  Six to eight, when contemplation on the concern was initiated.  A year or three after contemplation on infinity was started.  No matter one's intent, sanity cannot, fully, be gauged by self.  However, modern psychology is actually a worse test. They know neither themselves nor their enemies.  I know those, just not always the ties that bind.  If considered a god, a thing denied, in a non-human way.  Nephilum, as angel, as human, immortal in diverse ways, no more.

Another set of surprises.

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As it turned, I wasn't to bed until 2:00.  Just couldn't.  So, when I woke, I had a few expectations.  The first was that it would be late.  The second is that I would be in significant pain.  Officially it was 10:30.  Rather a good time since the switch.  I was awake probably more like 10:00, giving the girls attention.

While there was mild pain, mostly from the center lower back, it has mostly melted away.  I am tired, groggy.  But with all, not bad.  Morning meds are down, a cold tea is going down, dishes have been reset, and laundry.  The last of two loads is washing... coats and parkas took three loads themselves!

So, yes, today is at least planned as a work day.  A few hours figuring out the world, then back to it.  The dishes are few, but I would like to put all dishes away, hit the stove, and finish the counters.  Both loads of laundry are to be finished and folded, then as they are put up, begin in on the bedroom.  As well, I plan to hit the bathroom.

Other than that, just the dailies, critter feed and water, cat litter, my food later... intermittent fasting means no food until 14:00.  Should make that 16:00.  Tea is fine.  When I get regulated, my blood sugar back down, I will see if bone broth breaks my fast, according to blood sugar dynamics.  I've received mixed signals on that.

That is life, as scheduled, today.  A couple hours to wake, then to it.  Good morning.

So very late.

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I yet had things to do.  Was slowing.  Just couldn't get right up after supper.  When I did, my efforts took longer than I would have thought, in part because I was moving slower, in part because time isn't what it seems.  A shower, shave, teeth brushed, and cats fed, once I could get going.  My feet were incredibly smooth.  I went to polish the heels, which had been the worst part, but the pumice stone would catch on anything!

I also put dinner away.  Yea, I don't always get to it.  I have the dishes, mostly from today, ready to be soaped for the night.  As well, I plan to hit the cat litter for the third time?  At least.  That will be it.  It's just at 1:00.  I'll be to bed by ten, perhaps five after.  Good night, for certain this time.

Not exactly a wedding rite.

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But not far off.  Someone has been digging in my grave.  Careful chiilin.

A shower and shave, after supper.

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Jackets and coats were hung and placed.  Another batch of clean clothes were put up.  More clothes remain.  So, technically, I haven't done any real more sorting in the bedroom.  Some of the dishes were put up.  I just took pot shots at projects as I faded. Medicine is down as well.

Supper is just about ready.  After, as I mentioned, a shower and shave after.  That is it for tonight.  Time slithered by so fast I wasn't able to grasp it.  Or, maybe I did.  That might be as much as I could bargain?  Not a bad day.  Only a few odd corners of inactivity.  Quite a lot done.  Further, I don't hurt, or yet.

Blood sugar after chia dropped to 190.  A few hours later it is at 158.  I can't complain.  Next Friday or so, fully back on meds including the new stuff, I will begin checking bp.  Yea, it takes a while, sometimes, to gear up or down and get going.  It is going.  Quite a thing, more so when I can begin changing my life.  Ooh!  Supper!

Good night.

Gotta take a break.

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All the first loads, and towels and whites, are folded and put up.  The last load of jackets is drying.  That is it for laundry today, if I might hang jackets and coats in their summer location.  Hmm, I should purchase air-tight cases, larger ones to hold several per.  That will be several months off, while saving for meds.

I found the duffel bag that I had been using for swim gear, but haven't searched it yet.  I really have been dialing the numbers, as to work.  When I need a break, that means nothing.  Fine.  After this post, I will get tea but otherwise check gravity... bottom first.  I will check in an half hour to hour.  Lunch is almost ready, chia, flax, a bit of milk to cut else, and a cup or two of cream.

More, yet tonight?  I'll see after this break.  I think so... know so.  At least a shower and shave.  As to sorting in the bedroom?  Probably.  Yeah, I want at least the clean clothes in there up, emptied boxes and packing out, and at least room for one of the organizers, perhaps both, for a quick install yet tonight or tomorrow.  Fresh linens, after a shower and shave would be the addition of the cat's meow to the cherry on top.

I am tired.  And, yet, I want to dig out.  I will dig out.  Premeal blood sugar is 190.  Later.

A bit more.

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The call, about a bigger bin, was made.  The first call, from an online yellow pages type site, almost had me in despair.  No service, try so-and-such.  A few more questions.  She was in Arizona?  Another question, does her company actually even include my area?  No.  I almost called her a dumbshit.  Now that wasn't worth the time.  Pelosi's b.s. merely means they are all in agreement at this point.  No wall, no stoppage on illegals, and most likely amnesty too.

The second call was money.  Yes, they serve.  The only limit for my town is pickups are only on a few days of the week.  I can handle that.  The rent is a little less than $1.50 a day, less than $45 per thirty one day months, with a pick-up charge at $22.50 per.  Nice.  I can do that without too much hassle.  Next month?  If I can get at least, or nearly, one load ready, then yes.  Otherwise May.  But, yes.  I even know where to go to do the paperwork.  I might attempt to do that in advance to avoid hitches, toils, and delays.  One, maybe two, loads is all it should take.  I wonder if a mattress could fit?  The bed base can be cut up with a sawsall, probably the mattress too.  A chainsaw would work great, until it hit metal.  Three loads?  :p

All laundry out has been folded.  I'll put these up, then get the towels folded before putting the rest up.  Yea, a lot of clothes, towels, and such.  After the towels, and the rest, I'll dig more into the bedroom.  After that, I may change bedding, start that to wash, and put dishes up.  If I do enough in the bedroom, I may then put up at least one of the storage systems.  I'll be targeting opening space for those, but... there is a lot to do.  Ugh!

Yes, hell yes.  I am digging in.  Oh, I need to set some time aside to look for the mp3.  There are better, cheaper, ones on the market now.  If needs be, I'll order one.  Four times the storage, a third the cost.  Such is tech.  Yeah, and a shower and shave before bed.  No kitchen or bathroom work, unless I am up to sweeping and mopping before showering?  Who knows.

Spring is almost here.  I really am feeling it.  Oh, blood sugar rose (still fasting, no sweetener) to 221 before the fatted tea, then dropped to 204 an after hour and an half after that.  I'll have a fatted chia and flax, by itself, after I finish through to towels.  If you don't know, fatted means adding a cup or two of raw heavy cream.  Later I'll fry more burger and add the rest of last night's mix in.  More cheese and sour cream, never hurts my feelings!

Later.

Late, but back to it.

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I had forgotten to turn the heat up and take aspirin.  This time I really had to take aspirin.  I still hurt well into the day.  The heat was needed too.  Between those, I was completely shut down.  About 13:00 I patched those files.  Here at 14:30 I am getting to things.

Dishes have been rinsed and set to dry.  Some dishes require hand drying, glass, stainless, and ceramics.  Some, like plastic, can air dry... if there is time.  There is time.  Laundry, the last load, is being fluffed.  The last two loads to be folded, except for towels, is in front of me... with a stupid pleading look on it's face.  I'd rather plead the fifth, after torching it.  Oh, before I hit the folding, I will put another load through.  Two loads left, because the new towels doubled what had been a single whites load and because my coats are so massive.

When folding is done, I'll begin putting things away.  Hopefully I will blend restructuring my bedroom while at it.  As well, I want to call to see about a commercial trash bin delivery, rent, and pick-up arrangements and charges.  I'll do that after charging the washer and before beginning folding.  Yea.  I'm not sure when I'll get that in, depends on meds and... money, money, f'ing money.

I am feeling much better.  A fatted tea at 13:00?  Or an hour after.  Still nursing it, must have been started more like 14:00.  I think I might really get some work done today.  If I can, I will punch that ticket like I need to get there.  Maybe life is improving.  I'll still have to move heaven and hell, and burn, for it.  Nothing is free.  An opportunity is only the release of the chains and the opening of a door... doors.  The rest, which is a hellalot, is up to me.  Advice?  Don't be in my way.

Oh? Ouch.

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Everything hurts today.  Organs, headache, shoulders, legs.  No pains the worst I have known, but, in congregate, definitely hitting the upper reaches of my endurance?  Yum?  Maybe.  I have kept pushing through what I have taken as warning signals.  Ouch, even my inner ears hurt, with ringing at half mast... I have had worse tinnitus, but the ear pain is near max.

I am not even doing all that much.  I am not just sitting though.  That is what my body signals as needed.  I won't sit, not anymore.  Not even on the weekends.  If I am putting swimming off to Monday.  If in part to finish the bedroom and find the waterproof mp3.  And, maybe, feel a little more ready.  It's not all about feelings, but some times and some feelings must be leant an ear, especially an aching one.

Today?  Finishing dishes and laundry, sorting my bedroom back to order... maybe setting up the standing closet or wire mesh open storage... or both.  I think, once room is available, they will go up quickly, which will create a ton of space.  The only reason the first mesh shelving was slightly complicated to install was that it was in a double closet, under hanging shirts, around a middle door.  These will need to be wired in, but that won't be difficult with piano type wire and eye hooks.  I figure four for the closet, about eight for the shelving.

A shower and shave as well, plus the critters' care and my food.  This list for certain, what of the last list is possible.  Some other things to, or instead, as well.  Like finishing surfaces in the kitchen, and some touch ups in the bathroom.  I may do half, or less.  I may do it all, and more.  It does hurt, but I have already drained the dishes and reset to rinse and will check laundry.  I am sure it is dry, but will fluff it.

Medicine went in, I am rethinking taking aspirin, tea is being had... without sweetener, back to one in three sweetened... and blood sugar was taken.  It is a rather better 208 fasting.  Given the givens, that is excellent.  Just tea until about 14:00, then a fatted tea, broth, and cereal or the beef and bean mix, with and added couple of pounds of fried ground meat, adding a lot more various fats.

Yeah, but a couple hours to wake...  And time for a fistful of aspirin to do it's job.  Ugh.

Harsh.

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Some more work done.  Not as much as hoped.  A few dishes remain, but just few.  I'll drain them so a shower can be taken early, and a shave.  I will check the laundry.  The last load should be dry.  The wash can be put over.  Oh, I have a package at the post.  I'll get that before I crash, then feed the girls.

I did have several meals.  Blood sugar was down to 192 before the last meal.  The beans did raise it to 256.  It's what I had.  I may fry up another pound of burger, to mix the rest with, and add more cheese and sour cream.  It is filling.  Oh well, I'll keep at it.  Sometimes you have to take what you can get.

I did get medicine set back up, but too late to get both doses in.  Tomorrow.  So tired.  I keep trying to push through.  I am getting some of it done.  Ugh.  Good night.

New, old, and a lot else.

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I started with new swimming gear.  Goggles were roughly set, kit was put together, sorted.  Then I started looking for the old stuff.  So far mostly just trunks have been found.  I went through where I had last stopped.  There was camping gear, hats including hiking hats, shoes, clothes... much of which will be tossed... or, wait, washed and put in a rag bag?  Yes.

I finally, essentially, hit bottom.  I didn't find the mp3 player.  That is the main thing.  I need a break.  I won't finish, mostly, that area.  It's too much work for now.  After a break, I will hit the few remaining dishes and put a last load of jackets to wash.  The first load was finished and partly dried, then hung out to finish.  The duffel might be in the closet?  Maybe.

Then another break and back to the bedroom?  Well, something like that.  I need calories.  It's early afternoon, intermittent fasting is... it's eating time.  I need something more than a fatted tea.  Chia and flax?  Yes, but that isn't enough either.  I need meat, but more.  I don't like it, but beef, beans, cheese, and salsa?  Yeah.  I like everything but the beans.  Good for a treat, but not when I have been eating wrong and blood sugar is up.  But I need solid food.  Oh, pulling extra burger out, to cut the carb ratio... yeah.  The later fasting went up, to 259.  Bleh.  I forgot, I have to watch liquid splenda.  It works, is useful, if managed.

Still a bit rough, but I like working.  I think it helps, when I can.  I will cut the thermostat.  You know you are working when you break a sweat.  Yeah, best pull the burger or it won't be ready.  Oh, and reset and take meds.  It's a bit late, but if I reset meds this break, I can take everything yet today.  Ugh.  Later.
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The insulin I need would $1204, but for four vials, $301 per vial.  I... could buy one vial, but next month... and after?  Probably.  Maybe.  Maybe not.  It's best I wait until I can get three vials, which buys time to save for the next batch.  It is less expensive than other types, which is one of the reasons it is denied.  That is how your government spends your money.  The other is, used correctly, it will kill diabetes.  What they are offering won't.  It'll keep you on their junk forever.  That is how your government thinks.  Sick people create government jobs with government systems.  The fact that healthy people might work is irrelevant.