Quite overcast.

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Not all that cool.  It only got down to 60° overnight, with no rain.  I didn't bother opening everything up.  There needs to be more of a difference between indoors and out to make the effort worth the time.  I did get all areas watered.  Most of the time using one sprinkler at half blast.  Small areas were hit, mostly.

I have been trying to keep blood sugar down.  To a degree, successfully.  Oh, but I keep missing regular medicine.  Sleep cycle oddities aren't helping.  Which is partially weather related.  Though, being high summer, it almost doesn't matter.  The cool is allowing reasonably better sleep, the ac's are helping, but it is survival mode, not thrive mode.  I won't worry, but if I can get some work done I will.

Well, just keeping up on the watering, food, and insulin is a lot, given my condition and even the cooler temperatures.  I'll try to add medicine back in too.  Oh, I just heard about the fires up north.  Yea, warned, but ongoing.  Other troubles are coming.  Warning won't help, their government(s?) aren't on their own people's side.  Not sure most of our government is on our side either.  Even Marines are working against us.  Later.

Something old, something new, something else?

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Bumped into an old vid.  It made sense, on the surface, then.  It still does.  I haven't the health to delve as I should prefer.  As well, I realize this probable aspect of my nature is not fully lived due to health limits.  Oh, but what else caught my eye was... names dropped juxtaposed to recent posts.  Little are joys, but sure.

So very awfully odd

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Given my inability to deal with heat, my nap was strange beyond recall.

Going to bed, albeit chilled to the bone, I reset the air conditioners. One I turned off, the other I set to automatic.  As it turns, the automatic setting, as it was set, completely ignored the temperature set on the device.  I have no idea what it then goes by.  I only know, when I woke, it was 77° up there.

Now, 77°, for me, is usually pure suffering.  It is only in this last year that, even here and when it is dry, that 70° is tolerable, sometimes cool, sometimes too cool.  So imagine my surprise at having slept comfortably at that temperature, but also in my thick sweats-type pj's, and more with my summer quilt doubled AND one of my thicker wool blankets over that?  All snug as a bug in a rug.

I came downstairs to a 75° main, which seems cold.  Yes, regaining control of blood sugar makes body heat management a breeze.  And, yes, that is and has seemed to always be what the mechanism is.  Though I can't quite handle truly high heat, that I can truly comfortably nap in 77° is miraculous.  More, I don't seem to have lost my affinity for the cold.  Age has been rounding that up, but not health.

Quite a nap.  Honestly it was most of a sleep cycle.  My guess is, as the chill sets back in later tonight, I will crash again for a few to many hours.  At least most of a sleep cycle.  It is 82° outside, so it has dropped from the highest I have seen it, though it may have been higher than 84° at some point.  After starting the first eastern quad to water, I am chilled coming back in.  All good.

Ducks are in, the quads and back area will get one hit, the front western side will get double hit, as that is what both needs it from sun pounding and where grass was planted most heavily.  I may end up with a real lawn.  Then to figure out a shade fence to keep it with less water.  At least spring was gentle and wet enough to spot me.

Cold, at 75°?

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Actually, yes.  At 13:00 it is 84° outside.  Hazy?  It just... humidity from the recent deluge?  Yes, acting with the sun and else the haze is acting as an umbrella.  A clear yet effective one... not perfectly clear, if not as cloud cover.  I am hoping for another cool night.

Being oddly cold, I haven't started in on anything.  I did have boiled eggs from the other day, quite nice.  As well as a dose of insulin and a fatted coffee.  Blood sugar, after dealing with the sabotaged sugar replacement and doing else to specs, is 100.  Dealing with the polluted sugar replacement took care of the high readings quickly.

A nap shortly.  I will water the areas planted recently, though probably the rest of the front lawn later.  If the nap is short, the ducks may receive an artificial rain as I hit the side yard.  I want that grass seed to really pop.  Plus I enjoy watching the quackles play in the water.

Too cool, late July?  I'll take it, but it is strange.  Oh, and there are parts south which are or were at flood warning.  So, quite a dash of sprinkles.  I... don't think that is it, though who knows.  I'll take the cool, and water as we got it.  If, too, I will pray for those who get a bit much.

If you can't nap, but would wish it, I'll be your Huckleberry.  Good afternoon.

Flipped on a dime.

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Sleep cycle.  The cool, rain, dark...  I had no choice.  Sleep was fantastic.  I can't be sure when sleep hit, perhaps after 22:00 but before 23:00?  Almost certainly before midnight.  I opened the cave around 19:30?  It was cooling, or felt like it.  It only read 75°, but that seemed wrong.  It felt much cooler at bedtime.  Though perceived and measured can vary significantly.

Sleep was the sleep dreams of the best sort attempt to replicate.  That ease of body, the lack of pain or hunger, and yet moments of mild awareness just to let the mind rest again.  As perfect of a sleep as I have had in some time.  My only regret was not realizing how cool it would get, so shutting machines off and opening windows.

As I woke and came downstairs, I couldn't believe what the main thermostat read... 66° F!  Feels fantastic.  I just couldn't believe, so I checked every thermometer and the thermostat.  Indeed.  But, how cool had it gotten outdoors?  I looked, as I closed most of the cave down...  50°?!?  I don't know if it got cooler, only that it was that at a wee before 7:00, with sunup around 6:00 to 6:30ish, more on the earlier side.  Wow.

A few boiled eggs and a fatted coffee.  Then?  I don't know.  Still groggy from that crazy change in schedule.  If I can do some work, I will.  Just cleaning the living room to where I had it, a shower and shave, setting up dishes, and cleaning the bathroom?  Actually, that is a good bit of work, but possible?

Another spot or two of dishes and those other things, and I'll be back to the bedroom and kitchen... installing the standing closet and basket shelving... wherever.  All of that might be done this week, if I could figure out to keep cool enough otherwise.  I'd love to get back to it.  Later.

Rain.

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While out watering, again I was amazed to notice it raining.  I didn't believe it would rain much or long.  Boy was I wrong.  I really didn't need to water, but there is no way I could have guessed.  Usually, from what I have seen my decade and change here, is most summers there was no rain from May or June until sometimes as late as Christmas.  Or very little, starting in later August or September.  I believe we get around eleven inches a year.  Between the last two rains, nearing August, I would bet we got a quarter of our yearly supply.  Well, and much in spring.  Not too much just way more than usual.

Oh, I love it.  If I wish I hadn't wasted water.  Though even that wasn't too bad.  I had just planted a bag of seed all around.  A small area in back, which was watered first, then a larger area in the side yard which was to be watered when the ducks were let out.  Most of the seed went up front.

I had watered three of the four squares of the eastern front yard when I first encountered rain.  It was so light I ignored it as I did the last square.  I use smaller squares because small trees keep my larger setting from being successful.  The next two areas were as large as I could water with that sprinkler.  Two moves covered the rest of the front, western, lawn.  It had started really hitting, but my mind just... didn't want to believe!

It was gorgeous to be out in it.  Coming down like a water shout, as if close to a massive waterfall, with a heavy sound component.  And so cooling.  I thought it might cool the valley off, but not so much.  It remains between 60º and 62º.  Yeah, but out in it, it really was wonderful.

I had meant to do more watering but I finally surrendered, if with a big smile.

Oh, and I was gifted with an extended lightning storm.  No thunder, which was fine.

Rules.

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An accusation.  She really thinks I make them.

The pain has eased.

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I am sure it was from sleeping on the floor.  That, and sleeping too little, thus sleeping to hard, therefore not rolling probably at all.  All of those things combined to worsen each of the other problems until both sleeping and wake time were agony.  Toss in the heat, and it was bad.

A few more days and I'll go back to the floor.  The cot isn't as comfortable as a bed but is more comfortable than the floor.  It is helping.  If a step back it isn't a full retreat.  And, if needed, I now have a middle ground whence to retreat partially.  I have fully recovered as to my back.  It is still difficult to get out of the cot, so I am stronger that way.  I simply want a few more days of stored good sleep, a pattern going, then I'll hit it.

I have going on four days of medicine regularity.  Blood sugar is not doing well.  I can see that they have found a way back into the house.  A package was brought in, one I didn't realize had arrived.  Must have arrived while sleeping today, as it wasn't here yesterday... checked for it later.  Not sure how they got in, only that they did.  Which means I believe they are, again, adding sugar to my sweetener.  I'll... fix that.

Most things are back on track, save for what is being sabotaged.  That will be fixed, in several ways.  Days and nights are also mixed up, but that will be sorted soon, now that enough food, medicine, and sleep is happening.  It has to be right, right enough.  It is getting there.

It was about 82° a bit ago.  It may have been a cooler day?  It seemed to have the potential to be partly cloudy as I was going to bed.  I did wake a few times, but not well enough to realize anything.  I will do just a bit of watering tonight, every two or three days in the little odd patct and out front.  Easy.  Later.

She still nags.

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I can tell it was her.  I don't get it all, but she rings through these first two.  I think I grok the majority, just not as she completely means it.  Mostly annoying, to me.  If some annoyance is... to be expected.

Such powerful questions.

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Angry questions?  I... sensed that.  From one in particular.  At least.  Though there, too, was a collective sighing lament from a number.  I do hear you, feel your pain, but you know this is not the house that Jack built.  Jack and Jill went up the hill and all hell broke out, all over the place.  Eve started it.  I'll help finish it.  Won't be any prettier stitching things up than it was ripping them open.  Thus... us.

A trouble fixed.

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I keep attempting to adjust the cooling trim of my home.  Sometimes I forget what had been successful, or something gets moved for other reasons or is adjusted differently for different times of the day but isn't put back at the right time.  There was no success in cooling the house, until very late... early actually.

By two, the house was still at 77º.  That was really wrong.  It was into the low 50s, it should have been much cooler.  I rerigged a few things, to no good within an hour.  One more change and the interior finally started to drop within an half hour.  Here just at six I have the main interior down to 70° and the front area down to 72º.  I don't get the front area.  Anyway...  there is one method I need to check... ceiling fan direction.  But not tonight.  It will only matter on nights cool enough to make a difference.  It is 52° out there, might drop as dawn cracks... sometimes a wind from the mountains.

Nearly bedtime.  There are clouds, not sure they will stick around.  If not it will be blazing.  I have everything, save one spot, shut.  I'll get it.  Blood sugar is being problematic.  May know why.  Will fix it tomorrow.  Good night.

Another one crossing my mind.

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So she seemed to me.

Sleep, again, and more.

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Why?  Because I needed it so badly and finally could.  I woke several times.  I had stopped waking to pee, but restarting medicines, that will be back until the flood that backed up is drained.  Actually, with the sun under, I think that alone would have knocked me out.  I am almost completely weather dependent.

The sun has come back up. It is 82° out there, which, oddly, I was sure it was going to hit no matter what.  I would have thought, if the sun came out, it would have hit right to 90 or higher.  Not a complaint, just a note.  I am really hoping for a much cooler night.  Time will tell.

I can't be sure how much sleep I got, or over time.  A few more days of this, and food, medicine, insulin and tracking, I could be back in some sort of trim to begin the closet and shelving upstairs, then over time getting summer clothes up there, and finishing the downstairs bedroom.  I will have to see if I can get used to sleeping on the floor, after a week or so on the cot then the rest of the summer.  If so, getting rid of that bed would make life easier.

My mom did get a car.  All on her ownsome.  Fine.  It's a little older and smaller than mine, but it sounds right.  All good.  I like my car, wasn't a second thought, it is all I could offer is all.  As long as she has something, and it works.  At least she has children who will help, rather easily and as generously as we can.  I hope the reality is more than even the offers.  I think my offer surprised my brother.  He doesn't understand, but I would offer him what I could as well.

The side garden yard is getting more water.  I started that up as soon as I woke.  Rhubarb is seriously back, might have to see how, besides a rhubarb mash, to use it.  I wonder if it would work in a roast?  I just, I am not familiar with it, other than as a dessert item.  Even late in the season, having let it get a bit dry, I have tons of the stuff.

Later.

Ill again?

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On the verge of feverchills.  Can't say why.  Restarting meds, some sort of bug, lack of sleep or else or all catching up?  Maybe even that bit of work.  In this heat it doesn't take much.  It is overcast today, in the mid 70s last I checked.  Not worth risking opening the doors and windows, as it could jump twenty degrees in a sunbaked minute, then take a week of care and outside temperature luck to get that heat out.

Given that it is technically more than half way through high summer, and the rest of the year is much more comfortable, it is difficult to complain too strongly, especially with a place to cool off and sleep in the cool.  Oh, and the overhead fan really is a game changer.  Those this illness is annoying.

I am hoping the day will stay cool, and tonight will be cooler, so as to pull in a lot more cool through the night.  I am only, usually, able to sleep four to six hours at a time.  Through which aortas pulse pain, as does the kidney region, even on the cot and probably on a regular bed.  I am not sleeping enough in order to roll as I should.  Still, better, on the cot.  Actually the neck aortas hurt through the day as well.  I have tried to be careful with the pillow, and neck angle, but that isn't it.

A nap?  Maybe.  I'll let Sam up this time.  Ah, a little treat for some of you.  You know who you are.  Later.

Some added fan help.

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It is only 68° outside at nearly three.  Inside, with everything I can throw at it, main and front is still 77°.  There is no give.  However, I finally thought to use the ceiling fan.  It doesn't change the temperature at all but it does, strangely, make it feel somewhere between cooler and cold.

I have moved the water up front several times.  And am watering up front only.  The man who has been cutting has decided to get water.  Without water, he gets almost nothing off the lots.  As a benefit of allowance, he waters the little patch of back yard.  It helps a lot.  So, no need for that.  I can spend my time and money up front, for as good as it will do.  Hmm, seeding out there... I think I have several more bags.  And all the other areas are really coming back.  Yeah, I may seed tonight... or, you might call it tomorrow night.  There is one odd spot in the back...  Yea.

My lower back is still rough.  Getting out of the cot is still rough.  Sleeping isn't perfect, but improving.  Blood sugar is up to 181 so, yes, the brots were sugared.  I took a solid dose of insulin with those too.  Just not enough.  I am finished with them, can get back on track.  A fatted coffee and a heavy dose of insulin shortly, to begin resetting things.

Oh, a bit of water in the wild sid garden, today and tomorrow, as soon as shaded.  Later or good night... maybe a nap, after watering the side area.  Later indeed.
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Very strange.  It is raining.  I don't expect to get enough in order to change my watering schedule.  But moisture from the sky, now, is very unusual.  It took a lot of experimenting to first believe it was water, and then determine someone hadn't moved my sprinkler.  I almost laughed at the depth of my doubt.

Sleep!

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And plenty of it.  Seven hours down in a single go.  Not all that much, but the best I have done in weeks, probably.  I opened everything up, for what real good it will do.  It has been an hour.  It was 72º outside, and now is still 77° in the main area and 79° up front.  It won't cool much tonight.  Heat on heat tomorrow.  I don't know if it was the high, but I read 94° F today, a.k.a. 34.4 Celsius.  Pretty typical temps here, this time of year.  Actually we got June of, perhaps parts of May which can be ferocious as well.  We have another month, maybe two.  I may have to see about more cooling, something to help down stairs.

I am still in rough shape.  Kidney area gripes when I wake, but dissipates quickly.  Amazing how fast that can go away or return.  I am all but sure it is muscular, not organ issues.  All pains are floor related, and the cot only helps.  But even if I wanted there is no way I could get a bed up there.  And it is far too hot to sleep down here.  I don't want a bed up there, or to sleep down here though either.  I just wish I could adjust to sleeping on the floor faster.  May have to consider a better sleep mat, a real one.  Uhrm, when I can afford one.

I started watering.  At two I'll move it.  Give or take.  Only one sprinkler, so...  Two or three areas up front, then a few areas out back.  Most will only get an hour.  The lawn is looking better.  Especially given the pounding from this heat.  The side yard gets an half hour on rotating spots every other to third day.  I do have a bit of a lawn back.

I am not sure what I have to eat.  Eggs and salsa would be good.  Blood sugar is coming back down.  It was 138 fasting.  Later.

Better.

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Brots, these ones, must have sugar despite their label.  There are only three left.  I will finish them.  I'll make a slaw dressing and have that on the side.  Blood sugar had been 199 before a few brots, the last of the steamed cabbage, and tea.  After four hours, much of it sleeping, and a solid dose of insulin, it is 152.  I'll get to it.  Back on the other meds, off since Saturday evening.  Full dose return.

I set the cot up.  The kidney region throbbing had become unbearable, so I napped on the cot.  The throbbing continued on in to sleep.  I woke to a few remaining aches, but the dissipated quickly.  It isn't perfect.  Still, really, too hot down here to do much.  But I am awake for just a bit.  I will enjoy a bit of time then go on back to bed.

As with medicine, food, and else, I have been neglecting sleep.  Not a choice.  Between the pain of sleep and the heat, there... I got what I could get.  I haven't given up sleeping on the floor, I am simply taking a break.  It may not be possible, or with what I have.  Or, I just need a break as I adjust.  The cot isn't a joy, itself, simply easier.

At first I didn't think the cot was going to work.  I had initially believed it might be cooler, with cold air over and under.  I was sleeping on top of a sleeping bag, which initially did make it too hot.  Well, and I was heated from having helped with the duck hutch.  There is no way to cool down quickly, even cool showers just heat me up.

So, initially, it was a bit hot.  However, over time, I did cool.  And my butt got a wee frosted.  Not really a bad thing, but in a longer game.  I will be sleeping on the cot until sleep is back in trim, so I will need to sort that out.  I just, well, it's strange.  I've never had a frigid ass before, or as the only component near frozen.  Too funny.

I stayed up all night, due to aches, pains, and heat, as well to be awake for work.  Even so I couldn't sleep until late afternoon, and then only for a few hours.  I need more sleep.  This time I'll try the sleeping pad under all, and my makeshift mattress on that, then a blanket  and/or bedspread.  I'll remove the sleeping bag, it doesn't make a good sleeping pad.  If I decided to use it, it will be zipped out as another blanket.

Later, good night, etc.

Dreadful.

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The lower back is still rough.  Some of it is from sleeping on the floor, some of it is from not being able to sleep, then crashing... so not rolling while sleeping on the ground.  The latter is the majority.  So even if I had an ac working in my bedroom it wouldn't matter, unless I could get it to cool the rest of the cave.  I... haven't had luck with that to date.

Duck coop was finally cleaned out today.  My help did half the work, though I'll say maybe a bit more.  In any case, without help there is no way I could have seen it to completion.  My back was starting to kill me, on top of the passive general stuff of late. While the physical component was a great boon, seeing the task to completion was the more important.

Kidney areas flash pulses of pain.  Sometimes the jugulars and big leg veins hurt, pulse, waking me to sirens of pain.  Kidney areas hurt even when awake, the other pains are more when lying down, often when sleeping... especially when not sleeping regularly.  I don't think it is my kidneys, but who knows.

The grass is looking much better.  It is growing well as well.  I have the chairs set up, and a table ready if i make room.  Perhaps a puzzle up there would be good.  Do they even make real puzzles anymore.  It's too bad AA isn't around.  A mean girl, but a resourceful one.  I might have one or several around, but I live in a memory maze.

I may set the cot up, see if that might work for when I can't sleep enough.  I'll put the ducks up, then attempt to read or else upstairs, in order to cool enough to sleep a bit better, or even nap, after the front yard can start taking water.  Trying to stay on top of things... failing.  Medication, sleep, insulin and that, pain...  I'll keep at it.

Later.

A strange day.

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As mentioned, yesterday I ate bad food.  Yes, there is bad food and wrong answers.  As a result, blood sugar was... high.  It was 245 at 14:00, ish.  Or, almost.  I had cabbage, butter, and mushrooms.  As well, a decent dose of insulin.  By 23:00, almost, it was down to... 91?  Yes.  After brots, sauerkraut, and milk, it was up to 140.  A few hours on, a few more brots, a fatted coffee, but it is bedtime.  That was a 154 point drop, in less than half a day.  Odd.

Watered the front yard, using a circle pattern device, slightly overlapping, just the one device, through the night.  Back yard tomorrow, in a similar pattern.  I think it gets more water, some how, and more efficiently.  I am believing this because of how much better the side yard looks.  Trying whatever might work.

Still difficult.

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I've fallen off medication.  Sleep has become difficult again.  I thought I was getting used to sleeping on the floor.  Back to a powerful low back pain, if that isn't diabetes returning.  I went out the other night, shopping.  I ate the wrong stuff.  Yea, the numbers show it.

Some of what was purchased was a newer form of cat litter and cat litter boxes for it.  Paper this time, but wood pellets next time.  While I like the litter I use, it still fails quicker than I would like.  If the pellets of either sort work as advertised (by cat owners, supposedly without manufacturer links), and works how advertised, beside the regular pans, another upstairs would be doable, tolerable.  Odd, but the girls really don't see all that well at night.  I thought it was just Sam, but it is both of them.  I definitely see better than the cats in the dark.  I can easily navigate up there at night.

Cabbage today, perhaps with mushroom.  I am not sure if any meat is thawed.  While not a vegetarian, from time to time that is enough.  Oh, but butter, possibly whole raw cream added too, would keep it from being too far south.  Cabbage and butter is almost magic.  Add mushrooms and it is as special as vegetables get.

It is straight up 96° out there.  Fairly typical, if still rough.  It is no hotter than 88° days, in here.  There is some sort of near limit.  I thought ac upstairs would help, but not so much.  The cooles I can get it is between 73º and 75º, depending on how long I keep it open, whether there is a breeze... rarer in higher summer, and how cool it gets.  But no matter, by 11:00, it is up to 75º, and somewhere between noon and 14:00 it is to 77° or higher.  At best it doesn't drop below that until 2:00~4:00.  Ugh.

At least I do have the upstairs.  I'll be setting up a few chairs and some sort of table up there, since I can't sleep as often as I would like to cool.  My body can't handle the floor while awake.  A few books, one of my rosaries, several choices of hopefully comfortable and varied seating options... A place to be cool more comfortably.  I might see about setting one of the game consoles up there as well.

Cats were fed, ducks too.  The ducks were given a chance to cool in artificial rain, as well.  It refreshes their pool as well.  Time is up.  For their midday dream.  Time to shut that down and begin tinkering with an upstairs, as well, I might as well set the new trial cat litter up.  Two pans of the new stuff, one pan of their old favored... only two new pans, but by design.  I want some crossover in case one or both refuses the new stuff out of initial hand... but not enough to refuse it indefinitely.  The ladies prefer fresh and one pan only has just so much.  Oh, heck, and then a dinner and insulin.  Later.
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First vote is in.  Sam, for traditional.  No surprise there.  She did at least tread the new stuff.  She is the pickiest about fresh.  It'll happen.  Even with me staying on top, keeping their needful place as clean as possible.  I don't like forcing, and I have more than three bags of the old stuff.

Paper pellets?  Mostly recycled?  Ah, newspapers may have come back into their own!  No one even needs to read them.  Whichever billionaire wants to blow a wad hiring useless sjw's, with degrees from Havvad and Columbus journalism, to print whatever they say to print, just for bragging rights?  This will minimize the print costs of their ego.  Can't do much for cable, unless the heat pollution could be used in their or cronies ghetto plantations as a heat source somehow?  Just thinking out loud.