Wonders, boys and girls.

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I feel dead.  Bombed to oblivion.  Can barely stand.

I got the waterers set up, and will probably get what I bring in, as well, today.  I will be doing chores, shortly, if it kills me.  My eyes felt like they were peeling in the shower.  Too dry, gaming, and exhaustion from overexertion combined to dry my eyes out something terrible.  And, I was just able to stand in there.  So very tired.

After I finished, I reset the dishes to a final soak.  Then started a load of whites.  *swish!*  I didn't check the dryer.  Will before long.  

Earlier, I grilled pork blade chops thawed yesterday, or started.  With a can of beats, it was pretty good.  Sardines, fatted coffee, that, and chia breakfast...  Water, if anything, here on out.

I was about to shut the ps4 off.  But I will be staying awake to get the dishes.  I have set three timers, for between an hour and an half and a quarter.  Though, I need to get chores done right here quickly, or they won't get done.  I already filled the feed bucket.  And I'll need to give Sassy treats (she has eaten her food for the day, tries to beg me out of more... good at it, if I'm not able to pay attention).  If she really begs, I'll offer her a few treats, if even those I try to keep a bit shorter.  She has a bigger belly, by portion, than I DO!  No fair!

I wish I had gotten a shower before my visitor showed up.  I must have seemed terrible.  For I am terrible.  I had contacted him this morning, before he arrived.  I just lost track of time.  When my hours have been odd, or I am, or have been, pushing it, things drag, like an old eight track, or cassette.

Anyway... I've gotten some things done, this morning and through the night.  Little and bigger.  I just need to get a few more things completed, then I'll be happy.  May only get to chores, we'll see.  Goodnight.

Up!

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Down around 07:00?  I think so.  Up around 18:00?  Yea.  Eleven hours sleep.  Needed.  Wanted.  Wanted more.  At least it was warm.  I went to bed before I became an icicle.  And retained my warmth, if I had to wear my socks and never took them off.  

I pushed, have been pushing.  Even when I get nothing done, I push.  It's just that nothing moves for all my efforts.  But that doesn't change the fact that, like an ant, shoving a humans shoe... with the human in it... I am pushing.  And I get exhausted from all that nothingburger pushing.

And, I will keep on pushing.  Until I fall, or things get done, maybe both.

I already put the dishes up, from last night.  Just the skillets I had used, and then put in to wash, and a few utensils.  So, bacon and eggs for breakfast, again, or more lunch?  Yes.  I have chia breakfast brewing already.  Sassy has been fed.  And her litter has been cleared.  A nice very little start.

After breakfast, since everything is ready, a shower.  Though I may trim the whiskers, with the electric, in hopes of a shave with the "safety" razor.  Man, that thing is NOT safe, or safety!  Compared to a straight?  Not... really.  I don't think a straight razor is any more dangerous.  It's, just, big business couldn't make but the first nickel off those.  I still want to learn to use those, and keep them sharp.  Save a pretty penny and a lot of hassle.  One good one would last a lifetime.  A half a dozen would ensure shaving for life.  Unless you get the jitters.  Then, again, perhaps, if you have family, you could get one of your kin to do it... if life goes back to... the real normal.  A time before this time.  A hard time, but a real time.  They keep trying to entice man to get beyond the sweat of the brow.  Thing is, God said "no".  And He meant it.

Anyway...  I'll have breakfast, at the bell.  Game just a bit, after perusing the web.  Then get to things.  I may even take the rabbits extra water tonight.  I am sure their waterers are freezing very quickly.  Do what I can for them, within the limits of my finances and body.  Then... to work.  I am excited.  I... feel like I might be coming back to... some health, or ability.  Even if it's just for a few days.

We will see, but I think today will be a busy, successful, catch up AND get-ahead day!  Excited to see.  Impatient to start.  But, I... have steps to go through, to restart the engine, fuel it, and get it warmed and ready.  Good evening, day, and night.

Chores...

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And the pans, from breakfast and supper.  Slowing though.  A shower.  Waterers, if I can.  Clawing to stay awake.  Do things.  May not make it.  No.  Will not make it.  But, everything is set up for this evening.

I'll take a shower first thing.  Do waterers through the evening.  Set up dishes, and set whites to wash after the shower.  Then hit dishes.  That may be it.  But... I'll get those early.  Got a few things today.  A start, again.

I'll finish feeding Sassy.  I think she has half a can of food left.  Then I'll go on to bed.  I want to stay up.  I want to do some gaming and work.  I just hit the end of the road for the day/night.  I will send a text.  Set some things up, in case.  But, other than that, just go on to bed.

Goodnight.

Breakfast.

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Bacon and eggs.  Hoping that will warm me a bit.  Had chia earlier.  That should warm me, but just isn't doing it.  So eggs, else, and a hot coffee.

I was going to wait for a pan to get through the process, but it it taking a bit.  I have more than one skillet, so I'll just use another.  I have been trying to, pretty much, use only one pan.  Cleaning it for the next use, rather than grabbing another.  It gets a priority wash over anything else.

Actually, both pans are now in washing.  Trying to keep up, as well as possible, even in lower key ways.  Well, and I have gotten two batches of waterers reset, with all the smalls I could find about to be done.  That leaves three more bigger waterer batches to do, but... getting there.

Little bits, and pieces, of parts.  Moving ahead as I can.  After I do the pans, in say an half hour to hour... or two... I'll get a shower.  Then start the white laundry and put the dishes to their last soak.  Setting the timer for an hour and an half... and hitting them.

Oh, I also got a fresh bag of rabbit feed in.  It's only fifty pounds, but in my condition, that is a lot of weight.  I even set up the feed bucket, so I will be ready to go first thing tomorrow, at sunlight or what would be dawn.  Stupid weather lately, often overcast earlier in the day.  The sun is still slightly lighting the area at 19:00.  So there is that.  And, yes, it... is nice.  A little extra light, even if slightly dulled, is good.  Until it becomes murder bright.  But I'll deal with that when it gets here.

Awake, and at it right away.

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I emptied the water from the dishes, made breakfast, fed Sassy, and am making plans for more.  A shower is just about to go forward, then I will set the dishes for a final rinse.  As well, I will do waterers, right after.

I wondered if I had added too little chocolate powder, for me to taste it.  So, this time, I doubled it.  Nope.  I just... really can't taste it.  I will have to explore ways to enhance the chocolate flavor.  I also tried extra keto sweetener, but that really didn't help either.  There must be a way.  Though, who knows, maybe my tastebuds are getting old too?

Gaming, as I wake.  Slowly following various guides, for strengthening my 'toon, and advancing the storyline, both in bits and pieces.  The storyline can become a bit of a grind, though getting my character stronger is also a type of grind.  I had thought, at this level and ability, my 'toon would have an easier time of it.  But, no.  I am wondering if there isn't some serious scaling in the game.

I may have that last piece of pork.  It was very good last night.  After frying the slices, I had a few, just plain... well... with salt and pepper, just not with the tomato sauce and 'pasta'.  It was delicious.  Tonight, just the last three or four ounces, warmed in the oven, then had as an early lunch.  Not sure what else I have to eat.  Sardines?  Maybe.  Sure, sardines, keto crackers, and a fatted coffee... or just fizzy water.

Who knows.  But I might be back in the game, to some level.

The goal is what was listed, vacuuming the living room, working on boxes in the living room and spare bedroom, and putting the boxsprings, in the master bedroom, into a sealing bag, and getting it and it's base into the spare bedroom.  That gives me more room to work in the master bedroom.  As it is the room I'd like to clear to the floor, vacuum, wet steam vac, then reset... perhaps paint.  One major room at a time, then clear the other rooms, one at a time, and do them.

Yes, plans, hopes.  Possibilities.  I think so.  It would help if it would warm.  It was, like, 12 F out there when I woke?  If memory serves.  If it wasn't 12, it was colder.  It's March!  It really shouldn't still be this cold!  It was sunny today, to.  It's... not a good sign.

A bit more gaming, some fizzy water with electrolyte powder.  My legs were cramping, or threatening to, all night.  It was a rough one.  Still, I... am going to try to push through, get some things done, and game in between work and food and else.  Later.

A bit of a start.

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Very late.  But, at this point, I'll take what I can get, do.

A goodly bit earlier, I made dinner.  The pork is still excellent.  Saved a bit for a chunk later.  The rest I sliced somewhat thickly, then make an italian-like tomato sauce, on the spicy side.  Frying the pork first, then adding the tomato and spices, and finally adding palm heart linguine.

Which had been soaking overnight.  I was curious.  And, yes, it did take the crunch out of the noodles.  They just became 'background' texture, and added bulk.  Tasty, and really rather pleased with the meal.  Yes, tomatoes are questionable, for keto, but it's what I had, that was easy enough to do.  Done.  And, as mentioned, tasty.

Litter was taken care of, Sassy has been fed.  She's a happy girl.  I really, with just one, and not too needy, am able to be johnny on the spot for her.  She doesn't beg, too much, or push.  Reminds me, sometimes.  But I go check, before just feeding, usually.

And, finally, I did the dishes.  They are rinsing.  But I may be going on to bed.  Should be able to finish them up tonight.  Doing what I can do.

Oh, something interesting?  While I can't taste the chocolate, what with all else is there, I did notice something interesting.  The chocolate helps keep the protein powder in suspension, at least better than without it.  I may continue to add it, in spite of not really catching the notes I would have hoped to tasted.  All good.  I know it is in there, and that it has some good properties.  Once, or twice a day, I'll add it.

I have waterers set up, but I am shot.  Going down, going down hard.  Goodnight.

Can't be sure.

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When did I go to bed?  Any time from 05:00 to 08:00?  I looked at the clock, in order to remember, but it is gone.  The act remains, the details don't.  Though I am thinking it was around 06:30, plus or minus up to a quarter.  Probably.  I woke around 17:00, perhaps up to a quarter after?  Something.

I think I calculated that yesterday's wake cycle was only ten hours.  And, since I woke around 20:00 last night (if memory serves), that would mean I went to bed around 06:00.  Both up to half and hour later... as a margin of error.  If so, I slept eleven hours.  As well, if so, I am sleeping more than I am awake.  *sigh*  So be it.  It's not a choice.

I didn't actually step out yet, but tried to see the temp.  It looks to be just a bit above 20 F, say 22 to 24?  Hard to see from that distance, so more guessing than certain.  I'll check later.  Just, don't have socks on.

I am not fully dressing because I want to hit dishes, first thing, then get a shower taken, and then put the dishes back in.  So, I didn't want to get fully dressed.  As such, I don't want to go out there.  Some days I can do it.  Some days not so much.  Today is a not so much day.

Sassy was fed.  Happy little eater.  I lost track of her litter boxes, and my medicine, for a few days.  On the good side, cleaning her litter box back to square was a very minor thing.  No major mess.  I doubt if she even noticed, compared to how it has been... and honestly for a longer time than I thought.  Though, Sam was up to 120 years old, in human terms.  She... had problems.  Lots of them.  That she was still going, active, and hungry, meant she put everything she had into what little she had left... and then some.  Still, Sassy has a much easier life, too.  

When someone is dying, in a family, for a while it is as if everyone is dying.  And, yes, that... means me too.  I... get that.  I just don't have another way.  I tried to... relieve my family.  Many times.  And society.  God said "No".  And... God wins.  His game.  His world.  His rules.  Like it or not.  And, really?  I... think He is right, at this time.  He'll get you when it's His time.  We do live and die at His leisure, if not for His pleasure.  There are reasons, if we can't understand them, that is our limits.  Much as me not putting Sam down until... late.  She was still very alive, as am I... in ways.

Well...  Breakfast first.  Trying something new... chocolate (unsweetened) powder, in with it.  If a little extra of my keto sweetener, with the chia seeds and usual cinnamon.  Just curious.  And, chocolate has some... good benefits, aside from flavor.  A bit too bitter, for me, to use in the raw, but that would honestly be the best way.  I'll let you know how it went.  Sometimes I used coffee, too, just for taste.  Might mix and match, see what flavor profiles I can create.  Perhaps even a savory mix, with garlic, butter, hot spice(s), and salt.  It would be weird, but perhaps a good replacement for, say, grits?  Something along that line?  Later.

Not all of it.

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With trash out, and cans rebagged and restored to where they belong, I was almost happy.  Then I ate a bit.  Chicken, it was... good enough.  More was wanted, and since it is morning, I went with a chia breakfast.  Which I am just getting to now.  Then I cleared the freezer top.  Much less work than anticipated, but... dishes underneath need put away.  Only, currently, I don't have a place for these.

Many of these were in rotation, with kefir.  Which isn't in production quite yet.  So, they... are just there.  I'll... sort that.  But, there is enough room for probably everything currently in the wash process.  I had hoped to go on and do dishes, but realized I really need to do chores.  So, as I am crashing, I had a choice.  Chores, without a doubt.  I'll hit dishes when I wake, or after I wake after I wake.  Yea... it works that way these days.

It is down to 20 to 22 F out there.  Even colder.  Feeling it, too.  I don't hurt, save from the cold, my bones that is.  Joints are fine, ligaments, bones themselves... except when they get cold, anymore.  I'll do chores, then go on to bed.  And leave the furnace on, door open, and tuck in well.  So cold!  It isn't that bad, but having been in the 40s and even 50 for a few days, it... just... is getting to me.  

A bit of something, anyway.  And, now, with the storage area for dishes to dry, that is open for next wake cycle.  I'll keep trying.  Goodnight.

Well, something.

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So far.  The trash and recycling out.  More than I thought there would be.  Not by much, just...  And it would have taken just as many bags.  But, out.  To go with the dumpster.  I didn't stop there.  Yes, I had to push, but I got the smaller trash cans rebagged and put back in their places.  Good, good, all good.  Wait, did I get the bathroom bin back?  If not I will get it next time I am out.

Hoping to hit both dishes, at least washing them.  Though, too, the freezer top.  I want that cleared.  Cleaned if need be, but I think it is just dry items which have been set on it.  Still, yea, whatever.  Will probably get washed, anyway.  If I can kick these dishes out of the way, I can hit the counters, stovetop, and oven.  And begin finding places for the various food items on the kitchen table.

So close.  I don't want to stop here.  When things have a place, clutter becomes reduced.  It's finding a place!  I really need to go through cupboards, and get rid of things too.  More sorting, but having 'live' space, easy to access, for my specialty foods, would be very good.  I don't need two groups of cups, or some other things cluttering the place.  And I don't drink anymore, so... some other items should go.

Not that, tonight.  I'll be doing good to get to dishes and the freezer top.  But it's on my mind.  Clear and clean, as soon as I can dig back in, I will.  Here, there, everywhere.  Small things, until I can hit a whole room.  The main bedroom is still the main target for a room hit.  I just need to do some small things, first.  Get some clearing in there.  The mattress, cased, and then moved out to the spare bedroom most likely.  And boxes sorted, things tossed.  Never finished in there.

I don't know.  I keep hoping.  Will try.  I just need to get my feet back under me.  The weather isn't helping.  More snow recently?  Can't bee sure, but seems like it.  Or it hadn't finished snowing when I looked last?  No, it seems like more has fallen.  Could use the moisture, not a bad thing.

To the freezer top, right now.  If I can do that, and have energy, on to dishes.  Though, most likely, a break, then dishes... if I can.  Falling, too.  Sleepy, tired, but... I want to do these things!  Will see.  Later, or goodnight.

Just gaming.

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The dumpster was moved.  I would have helped, wasn't asked.  Which is fine, just saying.  Oh, and I may try to get trash out, from the house, tonight while at anything else I might be able to do.  I would like to hit dishes, then either shower or just set them back up for a rinse.  Well, and hit the freezer top, no matter what else... if I do go that way.

Now that I have taken care of being sleepy, I am struggling with feeling weak.  Tired, too.  I'll... keep at it, as I am able.  Oh, and hungry.  But to make food means to do things.  I'd absolutely love a nice meal.  I just... don't have it in me.  Hmm... I may push through to something shortly though.  Food might really help me get going.

Chicken, if it's still good.  I'll give it the ol' sniff test.  If not, I'll try to pork.  If neither, the hamburger crumble is still good.  I could make another pasghetti dinner.  It's not great, but it works.  This time use palm heart "pasta" instead of miracle noodle type noodles.  It works.  Not really too badly, just not pasta.  If, when, you get over that, you do fine with some of these things.  Sure miss the carb hit though.  It's... a lot like sugar and alcohol.  Which... I also miss.  :)  *quitter!*

I'll check the foods.  If the chicken is good, I'll just put it in the oven, on 425, for about twenty minutes.  That does just about enough to warm it, crisp the skin back to a nice crunch, without overcooking it.  Or... did the last few times.  Every time can be different.  Still, that's the technique I have found to work best, in the winter.

Later.

Brutal.

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I was so cold!  The house, I had it very warm.  Thermometers all read high or higher.  But I couldn't get warm.  Feet, hands, core, everything... frigid.  So, to bed.  Couldn't do anything anyway.  And, for the most part, even with the door to the downstairs open, and the heat still high, I slept cold.

Finally, an hour or two ago, I warmed.  First, I had to take off socks.  Feet were too warm.  Then, I had to get out of bed, I was just way too warm to be under the blankets.  I can't be... wait, I actually can be... sure when I went down.  A call, right as I was falling asleep.  I looked, and it was my chum.  I had missed it so I called him back.  Plans, ideas, for the dumpster.  Will be keeping it, at least until next Monday, in hopes of doing a bit more work.  That was at 15:58.  So, 16:00.  Just waking at 20:00... so four hours?  Seems short.  Not sure how such a short sleep could have helped.  But it really did.  I must really have needed some sleep though.

As a fact, from now on, if I feel cold, tired, sleepy, I'll just crash.  I'll wake when I can.  Do work when I can.  But sleep when I am like that.  I tried to shove on through, ended up feeling like I was at death's door.  Hoping to get back to bed before long.  Try to recapture days.  But with it having cooled again, that may just not be possible.  It took the wind out of my sails, the cold.  Like winter starting all over again.

It snowed again.  Is snowing.  While the driveway, some of it, and sidewalk, are remaining clear... so far... it is sticking to trees and grass.  Not sure about the temps, but feels cold... twenties, thirties, maybe colder.  Can't be absolutely sure.  Gotta move the dumpster, for pickup.  Will try in a bit.  He will check, I presume in the morning, in case I can't budge it.

Anyway... up, and feeling a bit too warm.  I'll have coffee, and see what is available for food.  I have some meats, cooked, and packaged, in the fridge... if they are still good.  But what to eat with them?  I really need veggie packs, and salad.  Soon.  Meat is great, it, now, just isn't enough.  Some meats are too rich to eat as a single dish.  Ugh.  Hmm, may have beats, perhaps peas, but am out of most other canned veggies.  Should fix that too.  Prefer fresh, but canned is good when I haven't been able to get out in a while.  Should keep a large selection of certain canned veggies.  May... fix that.  Talk to the store people, see what they can offer for bulk buys of certain brands.

I like whole green beans, cans, beats, peas, corn, some carrots, and possibly mixed.  I could see keeping three cases of each of those, save carrots and mixed... just a single case of each of those though.  It'd take two years to go through those, but... I think I have it in me.  :)  Beaches.  :p  Especially since I would be trying to eat fresh more often, as possible.  But, as recently, sometimes I overdo, then get stuck at home, with little or nothing but bad food and a cat to eat.  And she just isn't into that.  Ha!  Later.

Awake, again.

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Still hollowed, down to bone and nerve and muscle and little will.  At least it is above freezing this morning.  If... it was actually nearly afternoon before I could wake.  Such a dark, stark, lonely, weak, tired, cold day.  Still, it's what I have.  I'll try to turn it into something.  If I fail, there is tomorrow.

Still hoping to get to dishes.  But I have to clear the freezer top first.  Most of my orders for the month have arrived.  Several pair of slacks to try for size, style, color.  I still haven't tried the shoes ordered.  Soon, after a shower, or two.  Picking through things, getting rid of packaging and interior padding quickly.

Just gaming, while breakfast brews, and this.  The game is a bit too big.  It gives no clues as to where to go, when given information.  Imagine if you were new to even just Utah, but more the SouthWest, and I just told you to go to... a place in New Mexico, Arizona, or some obscure place even here in Utah.  But didn't tell you where it was, or how to get there, but before the internet.  Game makers have gotten sloppy and lazy, and can get away with it a bit, through the internet.  If not for that, no one would play their games.

Actually, much of their game and getting through it requires a lot of internet usage, because nothing is simple enough to figure out on ones own, even to how to defeat some, many, bosses and 'mobs' (various monsters and other enemies).  Some, most, all(?), have a trick to beating them.  Though high enough level, for some, is enough.  Some.

Oh, had a cuticle, on a particular toe, which had hardened, like a toenail itself, and was causing great pain.  On the good side, it is the only one that does that, anymore, now that I am wearing the correctly sized shoes!  As well, it is easy to fix... clip it just like a toenail.  The trick is not to get into the soft part of it, cause it to bleed, hurt.  My vision isn't that good, and at that intermediate distance, so it's a bit of a turkey shoot.  But, got it, just... right.  What a relief.  I hold my breath, when it starts hurting, not wanting to tend it, for days, weeks.  Then, finally, have had enough and pull the trigger, so to speak.  Always a bit fearful.  But, have been doing pretty good the last three or six times more like.  Such a relief, when it is done.  Even if I botch it, it is still better than it was.  And, yet, I continue to procrastinate.  I'm... trying to just hit it.  Have to be in the right mood, and more motivated than just a bit of pain.  Even gets caught in the blanket, causes a jerk motion to uncatch it, which can cause cramping, charlie horses.  Ugh.  Odd how things work.

Well... on to breakfast, and gaming.  Then some coffee, and maybe waking.  Then chores, dishes, laundry, and else.  Oh... dumpster did not, again, get emptied.  *sigh*  I'll... see what happened.  I couldn't move it last night, but hoped it would be moved today, unless he, again, forgot to call to have it emptied?  Or... forgot to check, move it, as I thought he had said he would.  Costing money... will check on that.  No major fuss, he is doing near charity work, so...  Anyway...  Later.

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My bad.  The dumpster isn't picked up until tomorrow.  I asked if it is set to be emptied, haven't heard back.  Will check once more.  Don't want another week to go by.  All good, so far.  As long as it goes tomorrow.  Couldn't move it last night.  Weak.  May try again later today.

So tired.  So very sleepy.  Dark, cold.  Turned the furnace to blazing and... still cold, tired.  Might go on back to sleep for as long as needed.  Good afternoon, day, and maybe goodnight, again.

Not the best.

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Well, I feel okay.  A little achy, a little shaky.  But, generally, pretty good.  I wasn't able to get to bed until some time after 11:00 today.  Then woke after 17:00, by some amount, say half an hour or less after both of those times?  Slept well.  A bit cold.  I can't warm up!  Even with the furnace jacked.  While there might be leaks, drafts, the house does warm.  It is me, not the furnace or house's heat retention.  My body just... won't, can't, warm.

I have been drinking and eating as much warm stuff as possible.  And, one thing I have found, is adding protein powder thickens the coffee, especially the pea powder, if it also leaves sludge at the bottom I have to sort out... usually adding water and swirling it, then downing that.  Not my favorite, but I won't waste it.

On to coffee, then a hot breakfast.  So cold though.  It's down to 30.  I suspect it was slightly warmer earlier, but who knows.  I think it was about 32 when I went to bed?  If it warmed, it wasn't by much.  It looks like winter is just going to hold on for a while, since it returned.  Not a return with a vengeance, just... a return.

Well?  I guess I'll try to hit the dishes, get a shower, and begin slowly cleaning the cat litter boxes one at a time, and deal with loose stuff, partial boxes, and oddly mixed boxes.  Or... over the next week.  I'll keep pushing.  Will get back on my feet and at it, if, when, as, possible.  I am hoping to begin hitting it harder today, and will push for it.

I have been taking it easier, and because I needed to, for a while.  But, it's time to begin pushing, shoving, back into it.  I don't want to lose my gains, and I think I can get back into the game.  I think I can.  If it might take some real hard pushing.  Plus, I need to go shopping.  I really want to try my vinaigrettes.  And need cheese, out.  The old stuff was... too old.  Plus, I need to stock up for the month.

Still up.

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Hoping to get to dishes.  And waterers.  Did put the laundry to a last, for sure, spin.  And, if I get a shower in, will start the whites.  Just... tired, sore, difficulty focusing.

Oh... that pasghetti?  The noodles?  Rather... rich.  May take some getting accustomed.  Blew through me like Metamucil.  I don't have much to clean out, but what I had is... all out and gone.  Look like a bear decided not to go in the woods.  :p  And, dense, it stayed on the bottom, but looked fluffy, too, somehow.  Very strange.

Do you know how you know you are eating right?  Dense poop (doesn't float) and isn't sticky (wipes clean).  Check.  Just... so you know.  Actually, I don't mind that sort of cleaning.  Though, it was rather... fast.  If I had been out in town, I might have... been sweating finding a bathroom in time... or in an embarrassed drive home.  I'll have to remember that.  Though, too?  If I ever think I need prunes, I'll remember this.

Dang it, and I had just started collecting for a big brew later this week!  I'll have to start over.  *laughing*  Later or, maybe if unlikely, goodnight.

Pasghetti!

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That's what I'm calling it.  Miracle noodles.  All, and only, carbohydrates, in the form of fiber.  Three grams per serving, two servings per package, twenty calories per package.  Nothing else.  Nothing at all.  I soak them in vinegar for a bit, but I don't think that will add anything.  Actually, it is two tablespoons of vinegar and a quart or two of water that I soak them in.

Then, I just drain and heat them in with the pasghetti sauce.  Stirring it while it bubbles some of the water out of the tomato juices.  No, it isn't anything like real spaghetti noodles.  But, it adds some texture.  It adds some bulk.  And it... looks something like invisi-noodles.  There is no real taste, but a bit of texture.  Once I got over some things, I... now sort of enjoy these.  I still eat too much, but, two portions instead of seven or eight, as when I make pasta spaghetti.  Something about that stuff, regular pasta, just reels me in.

I am hoping to hit dishes yet tonight.  Laundry is done.  Until I take a shower and put the whites through.  As well, I am hoping to set waters back up, before I fall too far behind.  I will be lucky to get those things done.  Tired.  And, while sunny, the later part of the day anyway, it was still cold.  At, or just above, freezing.  But just.  Probably freezing again.  But the rabbits got water for much of the afternoon.  Maybe still.  For a while.  But, after dark, they just can't find the waterers, so don't drink much.

I am sort of at a standstill with gaming.  Unless I find another leveling area, one step up.  While I still can't easily beat the test mobs, I had hoped to use as my test for moving on, I am wondering if they level with me.  I'm not sure all mobs do, but some... probably do.  An... odd program, if they have some keep even, and others drop, with my level.  However, I am remaining a bit disinterested, because of the sluggish controls.  If you ever played the old horror games, you'll remember how terrible they made the controls.  On purpose, of course.  Like dreams, running from something, in sand, or mud, or knee deep water.  

Oh, I get it, I just don't like it.  I don't like that part of it anyway.  Now, think about that on a game that probably can't be beat by a real player in four hundred hours?  I'd guess.  Not a casual, they will probably never complete the game.  This is too much of a combination.  They need to fix one or the other, or they will kill their fanbase.  I suppose, the absolute fanboys, who live in their parents basement and literally do nothing else with their lives?  But, even they can't go down that far for that long, and have it be a slog too.

Yea.  Anyway.  Pasghetti was very good.  I didn't make it too hot, but added a bit of a bite.  Added extra spices?  No, actually, since I use just canned tomatoes and such, the spice I add is all there is.  I have italian type seasonings, but I need more of them, and actual italian, or an... several?, blends.  I do love that stuff, even changing mexican dishes just a wee, and vice versa.  I love playing in the kitchen.  Sometimes it works, sometimes not.  Sometimes the very same recipe works this time, but not next.  I do enjoy my experiments.

I need a woman to cook for.  Spoil rotten.  Well, not just for food.  But...  And, with that food app, to maintain her slim nature.  Gotta be slim.  The only exception is if she gets pregnant.  But, even then, she should keep it on a leash.  Ugh.  Yes, that is how it goes.  I know I am not slim, but I have health issues.  And am a guy.  Yes, it's a pass.  We have our own requirements, money is one of them.  I don't have a lot, but enough.  And, size, strength, and a bullheadedness to get things done.  Can't do it all, or even much, but can plot a course, and whip the slaves at the oars!  ;)

Anyway... I'll probably look for a new place to level, then do dishes, play a bit, and do some work.  Still hoping, trying, to get to bed earlier.

Yea, late, but already planning.

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I've been trying to kick out since 11:00.  It was about 13:30 before I got a real shot, and it was a bit closer to 14:00 before I rolled out?  Or have I just been moving slowly since I got out of bed at that time?  I can't be absolutely certain.  But, here I am, at 14:00.

Chores first.  Then roll the laundry through the dryer one last time, and at least check it.  On to dishes, then a shower.  I may need breaks between two groups of those things, or one.  It definitely won't be a straight shot.  After those things?  I don't know.  Still recovering.  But I want to do more.

Little things.  Begin sorting through things on the kitchen table.  Get it clear, so I can actually eat out there, on it, regularly.  Perhaps have my biggest meal on it daily?  Leave the computer, games, and movies behind while I eat quietly.  Yes, maybe.  Four or five days of the week, anyway.  Once or twice a day, for the better meals.

There is the kitchen table, the loose materials in open boxes, here and there.  The loose stuff in the living room.  And I would like to get the boxsprings in a cover, see if that works.  If it is easy enough, maybe... no... I can't get them all in, quite yet.  I have to clear the other bed, again, of boxes and items.  Ugh.

Oh, as things come in?  I pull the items, food, whatever, get them where I want them.  Then handle whatever packing came with it.  Finally, I break down the boxes and take them right out to... currently the dumpster, but in the future to the recycling barrel, unless it is full, then trash.  I won't get buried in boxes again.

As well, I am looking into storage systems, by which to sort and store things I really do want to keep.  I have a few medium to larger tubs, but a few of those cheap plastic stacking bins, on wheels, might come in handy.  Ugly, but... with a bit of care, very utilitarian and usually quite inexpensive.  At least to have a real opportunity to sort things rightly, then, in time, decide whether to keep or toss.  But I need to see what I have, and boxes don't provide a real opportunity.

Plans, ideas, some ongoing work.  Still pretty fried.  Pushed for longer than I thought I could.  Got a lot done.  Have a lot to do.  Later.

Couldn't sleep.

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So, I finished laundry.  Did the dishes.  Refreshed Sassy's water.  And cleaned her litter.  Mostly gamed, did those things between.  Nothing fancy, but... a start.

Didn't complete the dishes, just washed them, then set them back up.  I am pretty sure, finally, that I can clean and clear them out tomorrow, and get another shower.  Their soils and else pretty much came off with this wash.  Some of those had been sitting for... six months?  So... yes.  I let the hot water and soap do as much of the work for me as it would.

There aren't that many, but they were pretty rough.  Tomorrow, done.  And, then, a shower.  And, then, the whites, for a final load this week.

Nearing 04:00.  My days and nights are just off.  I'm not sure, but a bit of sun and warmth would definitely help.  That just can't be a certainty this time of year.  I'm surprised we have had such good weather, before this.  Though a bit surprised it dropped so quickly, and snowed, and the snow is sticking.  Fussy, busy, like a woman.  All good, it has it's purposes.  We haven't gotten much moisture this winter, could use all we can get now.

Goodnight.

No, not even close.

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I simply can't do what I had planned.  I did get chores sorted.  And laundry is being seen through to completion.  But I couldn't do dishes, or else.  I didn't even nap, never quite could get to even that.  Fine.  I did a few smaller projects.  Found something, important to me, which has been missing for a few days... since the last push before the inspection.

Oh, and a few other things.  Part of the problem is that I am so cold!  I didn't turn the furnace up, earlier.  Then I did about midday, a bit.  Finally, I quite messing around the jacked it.  I'm still cold.  Not sure... what that is about.  Plenty of warm drink and food.

One last meal, tonight.  I think beans and beef.  I give up.  Sometimes, when all else fails, carbs can heat the body.  And I need heat.  I am guess, with blood pressure (probably, haven't checked lately, but staying on meds) controlled, I simply don't have the heat high blood pressure and outrageous pulse offered.  Well, and diabetes... if not controlled, at least... maintained.  Between those two things, I would guess I have been running extremely hot.  Now not so much.  Though, too, there was the tease.  It was in the 40s, then hit 50 for two days, then dropped to 32.  And got wet.  Snowed, now is raining.  A cold rain to be sure.

So, carbs... or... are beans a carb or a starch?  Starch, I thought.  But it all sort of turns out pretty much the same.  Yes, beans and beef, and some hot spices.  If the mozz is any good, I'll add some of that, for a fat additive.  If I had salad fixings, I would go that way.  But I just don't, and can't get out today.  Too tired, sore, sleepy, and else.  Later.  Or, maybe, very possibly, goodnight.

About to get at it.

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A bit of looking around, and I found a place to grind a few levels, quickly.  But, it actually requires some work, skill, and leveling is both worthwhile and reasonable, with a few... moderate challenges still remaining.  There are a few things, still, in the area, probably half way through my leveling in this area, I can't kill easily...  The outcomes, of some of them, is yet in question.  And, not... worth the time, effort, or risk... quite yet.  When I can take those with some higher majority likelihood, then it's time to move on.  And, it isn't just one group, or thing.  Beside the main mobs, are pickups, smaller mobs, and groups.  Plus, I haven't got the area, or path, developed, memorized.  It's very strange, multitiered, complicated, and... well... just how I like it.

However, I don't want to play games all day.  Or even, pretty much, anymore for now.  Chores, first, I hope.  Then dishes.  Actually, laundry first.  I won't put the whites in, as I am waiting on a towel, after dishes and a shower.  After those things, I'll run one small load of whites.  And that will be laundry for this week.  And dishes.  I will, pretty much, finally be caught up on dishes.

Then I'll play some more.  Though possibly the other game.  A few hours of this, a few hours of that, chores, Sassy's needs and wants, internet.  Tired.  I am.  Still exhausted.  The pain comes and goes.  Breathtaking, sometimes.  But, I can still work past it, or play past it.  And, I think... I am getting better.  The pain is... of a returning to life, not it's passing, loss.  I don't know if I can work past it, probably never fully, same with anybody.  But... I can work to where pain is... more reasonable, and associated with work, and efforts?  And lessor?

I don't know.  But I do know I did really well, for deep winter.  And I'm still going.  Plus, if I can tolerate heat nearly as well as last summer, though surely if tolerances are improved... which I am beginning to suspect may be the case, this summer could be really good.  Light hiking.  Maybe some fishing.  Perhaps a travel day, somewhere.  A visit, to another part of Utah.  Just... to look around.  Maybe the state and federal parks... the ones that don't cost a fortune to visit or be near.

Then again, I have a free pass.  Could get to the federals, find a less expensive place to stay, or bite the bullet and just stay at one of the lodges.  A day drive, an overnight, a day there, another night, then back?  Or camping?  I just don't know.  I don't want to sit around.  Things, life, is improving.  Hmm, might even start looking for a girl Friday.  I've... seen one, who might be possible.  I see her rarely.  I have already decided to, next time I see her, give her my phone number.  A one time deal.  No guarantee she will call.  No surety that if she calls, and we meet, that it would work out.  But... it's... already slated.  I've been looking in her eyes for half a decade.  And, I have been welcomed there.  It's... time to... see if what I am seeing is what I thought I was seeing.  Yes, it's possible.  But, just that.

Well, not quite ready to work.  It's cold!  I turned the furnace up.  But that isn't quite doing it.  Drinking coffee.  Had a warm breakfast.  Cold.  Chores, though.  Then maybe a nap?  I don't know.  Having trouble staying awake.  Later.

Up!

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Yes.  If you are going to ask.  I am pleased with myself.  Not only did I get up rather early, after a very late night.  But I am already forming plans for the day, weekend, and next week.  Probably too ambitious, but who can ever know.  I went to put the laundry in the dryer, but I had clothes there.  Giving those a tumble, then I will dry the clothes I washed last night.

Dishes, too, but later.  If I finish them, I may take another shower.  Those things, today, and sorting boxes here in the front room, as well, items and partial boxes in the livingroom and bedrooms.  Plus, seeing if the moving covers actually fit the mattress and boxsprings.  Well, just one boxspring, in the main bedroom, today.  If so, I'll put it on, and set that aside, somewhere.  Maybe in the spare bedroom.  Plus, take down the bed base and store that near the boxspring.

That will be about it for the day.  Tomorrow?  I'd like to continue with the boxes, as I may not be done, even then.  But, shift a bit to the kitchen, the counters, stovetop, and oven... get working on those.  Light duty?  Aye, that, save the dishes, is light duty.  And the dishes are only a bit of a struggle because of where I am, again, having to wash them.  

I really need to get a silt treatment system in, here, and then redo the kitchen faucet.  I just get a lot of silt, and some faucets are finicky.  Though, I would guess it gets in everything.  A three tier system.  Which... I'll have to check often.  Though, not as often as a family would need it.  Still, will be curious to see how often it has to be checked and changed.  How much it really takes out.

Oh yes, a bit weary still.  Tired.  Worn.  If I can keep at it, that is probably what the rest of my life is going to be... a body already finished, being used to the last drop, and then some.  I'll never finish, until I am done.  It was my plan, anyway, I just wasn't able to hit it without the right medications and dosages.

Oh!  I saw Sam!  She is doing fine.  She was a bit... put off by me.  At first it hurt a bit.  I thought she was angry about... some things.  But, no.  It's just... she knew I was still of the living.  Didn't understand how I could be there.  It still stung, just a bit.  But, then, I remembered when my cousin visited me.  How much that hurt, and the trauma.  We aren't ready for what is, or was, depending on where we are.  She just... wasn't ready.  But she looked so good, and healthy, again.

I'm not sure why it makes me cry so much, and again.  I am almost sure that was real, and she is in such wonderful shape, and health, and youth.  And I am happy.  I just... she isn't here?  I don't know.  Some of the tears are from joy too?  Such a thing.  Even if you can, I wouldn't suggest slipping the veil, until it is your time.  It's... a hard thing.  Amen.

Well... on to breakfast.  It should be ready.  Some browsing, and gaming, to get started.  Then on to work when I can get to it.  And chores, probably chores first.  Oh, it snowed!  Just a thin blanket.  I was a bit surprised it remains.  I also feared it had gotten bitterly cold in the process.  Cooler, but still above freezing, at 32.  I may have gotten even colder, or not though too.

Have a great day.  Get some work done.  Pray a prayer or three.  Or just relax.  Here, at least, would be a good day to relax.  I am going to do a bit of all that.  Though, you know?  Gaming isn't relaxing.  I may begin taking an half hour, a couple times a day, to pray, meditate.  Shutting everything else down and just... focusing both mind and soul.  A good time to begin adding the rosary back in.  Let me, first, make some room, then as I expand, expand into that.  It takes me an half hour per shot, on that, but sure sets up the day for a right start.  Later.