Beat up and sore.

I have done well. My first week of swimming and weight lifting has gone well, if it has been a push. My weights are more difficult when starting up after a break for any reason, and swimming is a new type of work. Actually, I am not all that sore. No, I really am not sore at all. My arms are a little tight at times, cranky sometimes, but they are not sore. After this week of swimming, my legs will begin getting that way too. Using the board has allowed me to focus on my legs. After a week and a half of swimming, I am only now realizing what to do and beginning to do it. Still, today, for the first time, I was kicking very well using the board. My last lap without the board showed just how much I have improved my kick. In that week and a half, I am actually swimming much better and far faster, if it was only that last lap.

That is all good and well, but my attention to other details has been lagging. There is business undone, emails not sent, and plans not yet put into play. This part is frustrating. I will work with it, trying to push past the physical exhaustion to get to it just as I pushed past the initial physical exhaustion to begin working out. It is steps and layers, minor or major withdrawals, a parry and a jab, then two or three or even four steps forward. I am not the most nuanced man you will ever meet. I tend to be bold, for my place and station, perhaps too bold at times. As well, I seem to be more digital than analogue in my manner of approaching things. People think digital is smother… it is not. Nor am I smooth. I tend to hit, hit again, and hit until I win or need to run (or walk as the case may be). I would make a great shark but a lousy lion… wait, the males generally let the females hunt for them, and when they are pushed out of that, they live horrid bachelor lives and die quickly… that example does not quite work. Ok, I would not make a good badger, for whatever that means.

I was going to make myself a t-bone steak meal tonight, but it became too late and I became too tired. I will just delay the feast a night and enjoy when I am more rested. I have been eating a lot less, though I do need to watch that. I really do need calories. I have been looking online at calorie burn charts, ones which seem to use my weight in the calculations. I think they stick, in their logic, before getting to my weight though. So, I will have to do more research. Some of them are just plain wrong, like one which indicated a 60 minute 5 mph walk burned more calories than an hour of moderate swimming! I will not be including my walks in my calorie burns, as those are just something I like to do. If they become work, or mandatory, I might end up pulling out of that.

So far though, I burn anywhere from 4200 to 4800 calories a week, not including walks of course. And, my caloric intake is supposed to be either 2400 (maintenance, which I think is bunk), to between 3915-5080 maintenance (depending on whether one thinks I am moderately active or vigorously active). The last is more realistic, I do believe. I have noted government and educational websites regarding health are absolutely stupid. At 6’4”, I should never weigh 180-200 unless I am literally dying of cancer. I weighed that my last year of high school and I looked anemic. I was sickly looking, in spite of playing all the sports, minus baseball in the summer. I will not bother with government or educational sites from now on. They are trying to get their population to emulate North Koreans. It is sick.

That is that. I hope you find your way to doing what you need and want to do, but better than what I am doing. Yeah, I am getting some of it, but there is so much just plain real stuff on top of what I am doing that I am missing a lot of business, and probably some fun. Oh, go on… I will catch up as soon as I can.