A slow week.

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I have not done a great deal. I have not figured out how to wake up early yet. And there are some things I had hoped to start that I have not. I have set school up, I finished “negotiating” with the college people, I have created a schedule (which fits everyone’s criteria), and I have arranged the final appointment with the last man on the list. I have started wearing the weight vest. I started with 50 pounds and I am up to 75 pounds now. It really settles me down. Though I have not be walking with it yet, I do wear it for hours at a time here at the house. When I get back to swimming, I will wear it in my walk to the rec. center and back.

I have noticed that my skin is changing. It is becoming thicker and stronger. I do not cut as easily as I used to, even though that never was a problem. Some of that may be due to the extra sunshine it receives, but some of it is due to tightening from muscle growth. You would notice a large difference, Waterboy, from when I visited. Though I am not thin, or greatly more muscled, I have traded off enough fat for muscle that even I am surprised (and can see) and since my visit.

I do not know how to figure out how to get up earlier. I know it includes going to bed earlier. Neither seems to be an easy task, or completely successful even when I am able to get to bed earlier. Still, swimming will have to make it back into the queue. Weight lifting can be done at almost any time, so I am not too worried about that. I need to begin getting up early for classes anyway, so it would be great to get up at 5:30, shower and go swimming, come home and shower, then head right on over to school for pre-class studies (and to bushwhack the TA’s and profs).

I have not heard a word from the V.A. dietician. I have an appointment Monday with my new doctor so I will ask then. I may also try to arrange therapy sessions. It seems they allow these when school starts. It adds to the load, but I have found that it can help. The major thing is as I become more able, it is new territory. I have to go through new and old fears, again and again, until I am a bit more familiar with a particular fear (as with weight lifting and the fears of failing or not being able to lift the new weights and etc.). She helps with this and allows me to investigate some things. I should just call it a resource and leave it at that.

That is about it for this week. Note to self… Relaxing and just kicking back is not worth the lack of effort. *sigh* I am going to be tired no matter what I do, so I might as well earn my exhaustion. *grins*