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I am going to check and see if I can find a place that will test the efficacy of medications, suggesting that I may have a bad batch. These medicines are not working, at all. With the change in doctors and his hostility toward my regimen added to what is ended up a dump in capacity, I have a right, or obligation, to suspicion. If I find this to be the case, I will withdraw from all medications, school, and begin making other plans. I will, of course, let you know. I am that suspicious, and pretty sure, but it will take some testing. Usually, when I take the medication, I do not feel this wiped out. Currently, whether I take the medication or not, I am extremely tired. Of course, there is the potential that the medicine stopped working right about the time I got the new doctor.
I have not regained any bounce since getting over being sick. I can barely get myself motivated, I have little energy when I do, I can sleep on these medicines (which I have not been able to do to now). Forget working out. Forget extra time at school. Though I can stay awake longer periods of time (think, regular day), it is ‘just barely’ to ‘sometimes not quite’. If my suspicions are wrong, I am in trouble. If they are right, I am likewise in trouble. At least if I am correct, I know what is going on. And yes, if they are tinkering with me, I will do what I had told them before, I will dump all the medicines, quit school, and head out.
