Something is off, again.

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Other than Sunday dinner, I have been rather dysfunctional. Neither eating or drinking as well as I should be and staying up and sleeping in odd periods. It might be the heat and cool. During the days, when most are gone, the place gets a bit cool. At night, when people return, they all turn their heat up high... or maybe being in the second story, I get the residual heat they are not getting enough of therefore they turn their heat higher. Though I am beginning to think it is a sugar thing. I should not be able to drop blood sugar levels 150 or more in a few days, but it can and does. I was a little over 300 a few days ago. I have eaten at up to 4 meals since then. And, after sleep fasting for 6 hours after my last meal, I woke up and ate a drumstick ice cream treat. Then remembered to check my blood sugar. Even with the ice cream a half hour to hour before testing, it was only 180. Something is just goofy. I do think that whatever is wrong is physical, has something to do with blood sugar, and seems impossible to track down.

I have also noted that if I try to eat three squares a day, or even two, my blood sugar will not go below 240-280, period. It does not matter how well I attend the recommended diet. As a fact, if I try to go without sugar and carbohydrates completely, my blood sugars inexplicably go up. Moderation, of course, is key. A bag of Oreos or large bag of peanut M&Ms and my sugar jumps. I would guess about a standard sized bag of M&Ms (of any type), or the equivalent of sugars, every other day and I am good. And I need to watch carbohydrates, though two meals a week is not a problem. I have to wonder if my Lakota and Navajo genetics are simply at odds with my French and Spanish blood? Buggers, some wars never end.

As I have said though, I do what I can, when I can. So, when I can, I will. My kitchen needs tending heavily. It would make food prep a bit easier and quicker. Yeah, I can work in a mess, but it would be much better not having to do so. Laundry is still in the Xterra. At least it has been cool.

I have been tinkering on the machine, trying to extend my awake hours, working on next weeks Mute Monday, trying to access my email on this computer, and I received a call from a buyer broker today. We spoke a good bit regarding what I had indicated... size, acreage preferred, house style, location, price (up to $1k, all told (payments, taxes, insurance)). Then he offered some advice, a few recommendations, and let me know he would be happy to take me looking even well in advance and nearly recommended doing so. When the conversation was over, I remembered to put his name in my contact list. I did that three-quarters asleep but I think I did well enough. He will be sending me properties to look at. Well, if I can get email on this machine to work! Argh!!!!!!!!!! I... cannot... think... when I am... this tired! Figuring out email is ending up a nightmare. I have tried three different email programs (the one on here is broken, somehow and the CD to fix it is... somewhere in a pile of boxes).

Oh well, a bit at a time, when I can. Tomorrow I will attempt to get out. I would like to get a haircut and move more boxes and weights to the storage area. Maybe that will get me motivated to do laundry. Who knows. I ought to check on my ex-neighbor too. If I can sleep, or even get up. Afternoons would be good at this point. Anything but this rolling sleep wake sleep wake cycle that gives me 3 days within a day. Ha, I thought it must be Tuesday or Wednesday... maybe Thursday, by now. I get lost in the rinse cycle.

Hey, but I am still good. Just a bit mixed up. I have had worse. And, I am pretty sure, here, somehow, I am figuring things out. And, even if I do not figure things out to become functional, I will be in a better place to do things those few times I am able to do them. If need be, I think I really can be good with that!

Have a great day, or night, or morning, or what ever it is for you... Or me, for that matter. Blessings.